I became engaged to Hugo that night at 10.41. I remember the time exactly, because Mrs. Pettifer had a rule that all her maids were to be in the house by ten sharp, and I was rather keeping an eye on my watch in consequence.
To tell the truth, we quarrelled very frequently. Different though we were in many respects, we both had irritable, overstrung, tri-chord natures, with hair-spring nerves connected direct to the high-explosive language-mine.
On one occasion I went with him to a paper fancy-dress dance at the rooms attached to the Hopley Arms. I went as "The Sunday Times," my dress being composed of two copies of that excellent, though inexpensive journal, tastefully arranged on a concrete foundation.
When Millie Wyandotte saw me, she called out: "h.e.l.lo, Marge! Got into the newspapers at last?" I shall be even with that girl one of these days.
I declined to dance with Hugo at all. I said frankly that I preferred to dance with somebody who could touch the top of my head without stooping.
I went off with Georgie Leghorn, and Hugo sat and sulked.
Later in the evening he came up to me and asked if he should get my cloak.
I said irritably: "Of course not. Why should you?"
"Well," he said, "I don"t know whether you"re aware of it, but you"ve got three split infinitives in your City article."
"Ah!" I replied. "The next time Millie Wyandotte telephones up to your head, give her my love and tell her not to over-strain herself."
Things went from bad to worse, and after he had alluded to my backbone as my Personal Column, any possibility of reconciliation seemed at an end. I did not know then what a terribly determined person Hugo was.
Georgie Leghorn saw me home. I parted with him at the house, let myself in by the area-gate, locking it after me, and so down the steps and into the kitchen.
There I had just taken off my hair when I heard a shrill whistle in the street outside. Hurriedly replacing my only beauty, I drew up the blind and looked out. There, up above me on the pavement, was Hugo, stretching away into the distance.
"Called for the reconciliation," he said. "Just open this area gate, will you?"
"At this time of night?" I called, in a tense whisper. "Certainly not."
He stepped back, and in one leap jumped over the area-railings and down on to the window-sill of the kitchen. The next moment he had flung the window up, entered, and stood beside me.
"What do you think of that?" he said calmly.
"Hugo," I said, "I"ve known some bounders in my time, but not one who could have done that."
We sat down and began discussing the Disestablishment of the Welsh Church, when suddenly the area-gate was rattled and a stern voice outside said "Police."
Instantly, Hugo concealed as much of himself as he could under the kitchen table. There was no help for it. I had to let the policeman in, or he would have roused the household.
"I"m just going to have a look in your kitchen," he said.
"No use," I replied. "The rabbit-pie was finished yesterday."
"Saucy puss, ain"t you?" he said, as he entered.
"Well, you might be a sport and tell a girl what you"re after."
"Cabman, driving past here a few minutes ago, saw a man jump the area-railings and make a burglarious entry by the kitchen window."
"Is that all?" I said. "A man did enter that way a few minutes ago, but it was not a burglar. It was Master Edward, Mrs. Pettifer"s eldest son.
He"d lost his latch-key--he"s always doing it--and that"s how it happened. He went straight upstairs to bed, or he"d confirm what I say."
"Went straight up to bed, did he? Did he take his legs off first? I notice there"s a pair of them sticking out from under the kitchen table."
"Yes," I admitted, "I"ve told better lies in my time. Oh, Mr. Policeman, don"t be hard. I never wanted my young man to come larking about like this. But--he"s not a burglar. He"s the exhibit from the Auto-extensor Co."s in Regent Street. You can pull out the rest of him and see if he isn"t."
"That"s what I told the cabman," said the policeman. "I said to him: "You juggins," I said, "do you think a burglar who wants to get into a house waits till a cab"s going past and then gives a acrobatic exhibition to attract the driver"s attention? That"s some young fool after one of the maids." No, I don"t want to see the rest of the young man--not if he"s like the sample. Get him unwound as soon as you can, and send him about his business. If he"s not out in two minutes, I shall ring the front door, and you"ll be in the cart. And don"t act so silly another time."
Hugo was out in 1 min. 35 sec. He stopped to chat with the policeman, jumped the seven-foot railings into the square garden, and jumped back again, just to show what he could do, and went off.
I gave a long, deep sigh. I always do that when an incident in my life fails to reach the best autobiographical level. I neither knew nor cared what the policeman thought. You see, I would never deserve a bad reputation, but there"s nothing else I wouldn"t do to get one.
For eighty-four years--my memory for numbers is not absolutely accurate, but we will say eighty-four--for eighty-four years I wrote him a letter every morning and evening of every day, with the exception of Sundays, bank holidays, and the days when I did not feel like it.
But it was not to be. He was not without success in the circus which he subsequently joined, but he was improvident. His income increased in arithmetical progression, and his expenditure in geometrical. This, as Dr. Micawber and Professor Malthus have shown us, must end in disaster.
Looking at it from the n.o.blest point of view--the autobiographical--I saw that a marriage with Hugo would inevitably cramp my style.
And so the great sacrifice was made. Our feelings were so intense as we said farewell that my native reserve and reticence forbid me to describe them. But we parted one night in June, with a tear in the throat and a catch in the eye. As he strode from the park, I looked upward and saw in the brown crags above me some graceful animal silhouetted against an opal sky. I always have said that those Mappin Terraces were an improvement.
SIXTH EXTRACT
TESTIMONIALS--ROYAL APPRECIATION
Being what I am, it may readily be supposed that I have received many tributes to the qualities that I possess. I have already exposed many of these to the public gaze, still have some left, and it seems to me a pity that my readers should miss any of the evidence. The first testimonial is from my sister Casey, and a melancholy interest is attached to it. It was the last one she wrote for me before I took the momentous step which will be described in my last chapter:
"Marge Askinforit has been in my service for eight years. I should not be parting with her but for the fact that I am compelled by reasons of health to leave England. Askinforit is clean, sober, honest, an early riser, an excellent plate-cleaner and valet, has perfect manners and high intelligence, takes a great pride in her work, and is most willing, obliging and industrious. She was with me as parlour-maid (first of two), and now seeks temporary employment in that capacity; but there is no branch of domestic service with which she is not thoroughly well acquainted, and when the occasion has arisen she has always been willing to undertake any duties, and has done so with unfailing success. She is tall, of good appearance, Church of England (or anything else that is required), and anybody who secures such a treasure will be exceptionally fortunate. I shall be pleased at any time to give any further information that may be desired.
"(Mrs.) C. MORGENSTEIN."
I do not say that dear Casey"s estimate had the arid accuracy of the pedant, but she had a rich and helpful imagination. In rare moments of depression and unhappiness I have found that by reading one of her testimonials I can always recover my tone. And they were effective for their purpose. By this time I was accepting no situations except with t.i.tled people; and some of the language that I heard used suggested to me that the reclamation of baronets during their dinner-hour might after all be my life"s work.
The next exhibit will be a letter from a famous author, a complete stranger to me, whose work I had long known and admired:
"Dear Madam, For a long time past it has been my privilege to express in the daily newspapers my keen and heartfelt appreciation of a certain departmental store. I thought that I knew my work. I believe even that it gave satisfaction. I could begin an article with fragments of moral philosophy, easily intelligible and certain of general acceptance, modulate with consummate skill into the key of _crepe de chine_, and with a further natural and easy transition reach the grand theme of the glorious opportunities offered by a philanthropical Oxford Street to a gasping and excited public. Or I would adopt with grace and facility the att.i.tude of a prejudiced and hostile critic, show how cold facts and indisputable figures reversed my judgment, and end with a life-like picture of myself heading frantically in a No. 16 "bus for the bargain bas.e.m.e.nt, haunted by the terror that I might be too late. With what dignity--even majesty--did I not invest an ordinary transaction in _lingerie_, when I spoke of "the policy of this great House"! Yes, I believed I knew what there was to know of the supreme art of writing an advertis.e.m.e.nt.
"But now the mists roll away and I see as it were remote peaks of delicate and implicating advertising the existence of which I had never suspected. It is to you I owe it. You have a theme that you probably find inexhaustible. Fired by your example I shall turn to my own subject (Government linen at the moment) with a happy consciousness that I shall do a far, far better thing than I have ever done before.
"Your obedient servant, "CALLISTHENIDES."
Of this letter I will only say that few have the courage and candour to acknowledge an inferiority and an indebtedness, and fewer still could have done it in the vicious and even succulent style of the above. It is a letter that I read often and value highly. The only trouble about it is that I sometimes wonder if it was not really intended for another lady whose name has one or two points of similarity with my own.
I cannot refrain from quoting also one of the many letters that I received from my dear old friend, Mr. J. A. Bunting:
"And now I must turn to your request for a statement of my opinion of you, to be published in case an autobiography should set in. It was I who introduced you to a certain circle. That circle, though to me an open sessimy, was no doubt particular, and I confess that I felt some hesitation. Through no fault of your own, you were at that time in a position which was hardly up to our level. But I admired your spirit and thought your manners, of which I can claim to be a good judge, had the correct cashy, though with rather too much tendency to back-chat. At any rate, I took the step, and I have never regretted it. You soon made your way to the front, and it is my firm belief that if you had been dropped into a den of raging lions you would have done the same thing. You are much missed. You have my full permission to make what use you please of this testimonial, which is quite unsolicited, and actuated solely by an appreciation of the goods supplied.
"Society in London is very so-so at present, and we leave for Scotland at the end of the week. His lordship"s had one fit of his tantrums, but I had a look in my eye that ipsum factum soon put an end to it. I wish it was as easy to put a stop to his leaning to third-cla.s.s company. Three ordinary M.P."s at dinner last night and one R.A. I always did hate riff-raff, and should say it was in my blood."