"Each one in this world, young or old, has his sorrows to bear; his temptations to resist; his victories to gain; and to each one it seems sometimes as if everything was darkness and desolation; the blackness of night surrounds them on every side; darkness! darkness everywhere! no light, no hope, no guide. Look up, my friends! look up! not to the darkness; but above it, beyond it, to where Christ stands, ready, ay, more than ready. He comes to meet you, his eyes beaming with compa.s.sionate love, his hands outstretched. Grasp those hands, hold fast and firm; they, and they alone, can lead you through storm and darkness, through sorrow and fear; until kneeling at last in perfect peace and happiness you shall behold the face of your Father in heaven."
Then followed the Lord"s Prayer; but Marion could not take her eyes from that holy face. It seemed to her as if every word had been uttered for her alone; as if the speaker had looked down into the secrets of her heart and had tried to give her comfort and consolation.
And this was partly true. As Mr. B. leaned forward and cast his eyes over the congregation they fell upon the face of that young girl, looking up at him with a longing, wistful, tearful glance that startled him. For many years he had been settled over a fashionable society in New York, where he often felt that the words he uttered were but as "seed sown by the wayside" or "on stony ground;" but there was no mistaking the earnestness of that face, over which was spread an expression which it pained him to see in one so young; for he knew that her trials, whatever they were, were but just begun, and thinking of the years of struggling that would probably come to her, his heart yearned over her in deepest sympathy. With the thought of her uppermost in his mind he gave out the closing hymn; two verses only. Marion had heard them often before, but their depth and meaning never came to her so fully as now:--
"Give to the winds thy fears; Hope and be undismayed; G.o.d hears thy sighs, and counts thy tears; He shall lift up thy head.
"Through waves, through clouds and storms, He gently clears thy way; Wait thou his time, so shall the night Soon end in glorious day."
As the last notes of the choir died away, and Marion bowed her head to receive the benediction, she felt strengthened and encouraged; and a peace such as she had not known for months fell upon her heart.
As she pa.s.sed out of church she avoided meeting any one whom she knew, and hurried out of hearing of the remarks of various members of the congregation, who were commenting on the sermon in very much the same manner as if it had been a theatrical performance.
Such expressions as, "Very fine sermon, wasn"t it?--hit some of us pretty hard;" or "What a charming voice and manner! why, he really quite touched me!" made by different persons in a flippant, off-hand tone, jarred upon her ears, and she was thankful to leave them all behind.
As she was about to cross the street, preparatory to turning off into the road which led to school, she stopped to allow a carriage to pa.s.s; as it reached her a gentleman leaned towards her, and looking up she met the eyes of the minister bent down upon her with an expression of the deepest interest.
She never saw that face again; but the remembrance of it went with her through her whole life.
CHAPTER IX.
THE LETTER-BAG.
Monday morning Marion sent a long letter to her mother, in which she gave a full account of her interview with Aunt Bettie; sent the address, and gave as accurate a description as she was able of Miss Jemima Dobbs herself.
She waited anxiously for some days for an answer to her letter, and could hardly keep the thought of Aunt Bettie out of her head. Friday afternoon, when the postman came, she was the first to get to the door and take the bag from him. As she went with it into the library, the girls all crowded round her in eager expectation, while she stifled her own impatience and slowly unstrapped the bag, looking provokingly unconcerned, and quite regardless of the smiling, eager faces that were bent over her.
"O Marion!" exclaimed Sarah Brown, "don"t you see I"m dying to know if there"s a letter for me? Do hurry up."
"She doesn"t expect a letter herself, so she doesn"t care how long she keeps us waiting," sullenly remarked Mattie Denton; "she likes to torment us."
"You"re mistaken there, Mattie," replied Marion, with a teasing twinkle in her eyes, "for I do expect a letter; but I like "linked sweetness, long drawn out," you know. Hands off, girls!" as she slowly opened the mouth of the bag, and two or three arms were stretched out for the letters that filled it to the top; "hands off, I"m postman to-day, and I won"t have my rights interfered with. Let me see,--number one; that"s for Julia Thayer. Julia! where are you? Here, Fan, run upstairs and take it to her. Number two, Grace Minton. Here, Grace, virtue recognized and patience rewarded; you held your tongue, and see how well I"ve served you;" and Marion rattled on a string of nonsense as she took out the letters and handed them to their various owners.
"Two letters and a pamphlet for Miss Stiefbach; one for Miss Christine; and whose is this great, fat one, I wonder, with a foreign stamp? Rachel Drayton, I do declare!" and she was about to add, "I"m glad she"s got it;" but her habit of always treating Rachel with supreme indifference was too strong upon her, and she only remarked, "Here, who will take this letter up to Miss Drayton"s room?"
Georgie Graham came forward and offered her services. "I am going upstairs," she said; "I"ll take it up to her."
Marion handed it to her without speaking, but elevated her eyebrows in a very expressive way; but at that moment Rachel herself came into the room, and Georgie stepped forward and gave her the letter, saying in her sweetest tones:--
"Ah, Rachel! are you here? Here is a letter for you, and I could not resist giving myself the pleasure of delivering it."
Rachel took the letter with a delighted smile, and, thanking Georgie, ran upstairs that she might read it undisturbed; in the surprise and pleasure of receiving it she did not notice Georgie"s unusually affable manner, or the astonished glances and expressive looks which pa.s.sed between the other girls.
Marion mentally remarked, "The two millions are taking effect; Georgie has begun to toady already."
"Well, Marion, haven"t you got a letter for me?" asked little Rose May, who had stood patiently by Marion"s side, saying nothing, but looking longingly into the bag, the bottom of which was fast becoming visible.
"You poor little thing, how good you have been!" and Marion bent down and kissed the expectant, little face. "I"ll look over these in a jiffy, and we"ll see if there isn"t one for you. Susie Brastow, May Fowler, _Marion Berkley_, and--yes, here is yours, Rose,--Miss Rose May in great black letters."
"Oh, it"s from father! I"m so glad!" and Rose seated herself on the floor in the bow-window, and was soon oblivious to everything but the contents of her letter.
"Here, Grace!" exclaimed Marion, as Grace Minton pa.s.sed on her way into the drawing-room, "just take this and hang it on the nail; that"s a good girl;" and she held the letter-bag towards her.
"No, I thank you," laughingly replied Grace; "you"re very anxious to be postmaster when it comes to taking out the letters, but the rest of the duties you want to shirk on to some one else; but I won"t submit, I"m going to do my practising."
"Oh, you unnatural, ungrateful girl!" replied Marion; "you have read your letter, and are not even thankful to me for giving it to you, almost the first one; and here I am perfectly wild to read mine.
However," she exclaimed with martyr-like air, "it"s only another proof of the total depravity of the human race."
"No ingrat.i.tude, Marion; but you _know_ you always get some one to hang the bag up for you after _you_ have had the fun of taking out the letters, and I don"t think it is fair."
"Perfectly," replied Marion, as she hung the bag up in the vestibule, ready for the girls to make their various deposits, "perfectly; equal distribution of labor you know."
"Equal humbug!" replied Grace, who could not help laughing.
"O Grace!" called out Marion over the banisters, as Grace was about to turn into the drawing-room, "couldn"t you find out what Georgie Graham is going to practise, for when she is in the school-room, playing Chopin"s Polonaise, and you are in the drawing-room running the scales,--at least, to one who is not especially fond of "close harmony,"--the effect is not so charming as it might be."
Grace, whose musical powers were not very extensive, made up a face, and slammed the drawing-room door, and Marion rushed precipitately into her own room.
"Don"t sit down on that bed!" cried Florence; "don"t you see I"ve got on the ruffled tidies?"
"O you old maid!" retorted Marion; "you know there"s no place I enjoy sitting to read my letters so much as on the bed. What possessed you to put on those tidies to-day?"
"Why, Marion, we have been back more than seven weeks, and have not had them on yet. Now just see how nice they look."
"They do look lovely, that"s a fact;" replied Marion. "There"s one thing your respected aunt knows how to do to perfection, and that is to quill ruffles. On the whole I"m glad you put them on; it will cure me of my horrible habit of bouncing down on the bed; consequently save me an innumerable amount of lectures, besides making our room look very distingue; three excellent reasons for keeping them on, so I"ll content myself with our old seat."
"Well, Mab, do tell me what your mother writes."
"Why, I actually haven"t had time to read it yet; there were crowds of letters, and I, like a little goose, took the bag. I do hope she has some good news of Jemima;" and Marion opened the letter and read it aloud:--
"BOSTON, Nov. 16th.
"MY DEAR MARION:--I was delighted to receive your letter, but particularly so when I read it and found how much my dear daughter was interesting herself for the good of others.
"I have just been obliged to change our parlor girl, Mary having gone home to be with her invalid mother, and was preparing myself for going the usual round of the intelligence offices, when your letter came. The address which you sent (I presume it was not a specimen of Miss Stiefbach"s instruction) I took with me, for I had never heard of Mrs. Benson"s office, and doubted very much if I should be able to find it.
"As events proved, I was right, for after having crossed the city in every direction,--in cars, coaches and on foot,--I found that the place must be in Crawford Street, East Boston, instead of East Crawford Street, Boston; so I went to the East Boston ferry, and as good luck would have it, there was a directory in the office, which I looked over, and discovered that there was such a street, but could find no Mrs. Benson; however, as the directory was an old one, I did not trust to it, but crossed the ferry. I found the street without any difficulty; but when I came to No. 22, behold, it was occupied by a barber! I must say, I was discouraged; but upon going in and making inquiries, I found that Mrs. Benson had formerly occupied the store, but, as the colored gentleman informed me, "she had removed to Boston, thinking that the crowded metropolis would afford her a better opportunity of carrying on her business, so as to render it more lucrative." He was so extremely affable and polite, that I almost felt it my duty to sit down and have all my hair cut off; but I contented myself with buying a new kind of crimping-pin, which he a.s.sured me was the same as those used by Her Royal Highness the Empress Eugenie. Of course I believed him, and the crimping-pins will be ready for you when you come home at Christmas. But to return to my story; Mr. Ambrose St.
Leger (don"t be frightened, Marion, that is only the barber) gave me minute directions how to find Mrs. Benson"s office, and I came back to the city, thankful to have some clue, however indirect it might be. I found the office without any difficulty, and Mrs.
Benson, being of course very anxious to work herself into the good graces of a Boston lady, was extremely loquacious and obliging, notwithstanding I was unable to suit myself there with a servant.
To make a long story short, she told me that she had received several letters for a Jemima Dobbs, but as she had never had any such girl in her office, after keeping them some time, she had burned them up.
"I must say I felt extremely disheartened, for I thought that if I found the right woman she would certainly be able to tell me something about Jemima Dobbs. She produced her books, and upon looking over them I found the name of Arabella Dobbs. It seemed ridiculous to think that could be the same person I wanted, but I had an inward conviction that it was, and I have still; though don"t get elated yet. Mrs. Benson, who relies more upon her memory than her book-keeping, says she is sure she got Arabella Dobbs a place in East Boston several weeks ago, and she is going to write to the lady, to find out if she is still there, and if she ever had the name Jemima. I thanked her for the interest she had taken in the case, and gave her my address, as she promised to send me word the instant she received an answer to her letter.
"And now, my dear, that is all I have to tell you. Very unsatisfactory I know it is; but I feel quite sure that Arabella Dobbs and Jemima Dobbs are one and the same person, for it is very seldom that one comes across a Yankee girl in these offices, and Dobbs is a name one would not be likely to find there twice.