"In this case, my dear lady, the question does not appear to me to enter. With care I see no reason why both should not survive."
It was something of a shock, for it materialised many doubts, many difficulties.
CHAPTER XII
The spring had pa.s.sed to early summer when Marrion, with her little son in her arms, sat in a sheltered nook among the cliffs on the Aberdeenshire coast, looking northwards over the curved sea-line towards the promontory some fifteen miles away, on which she knew the old castle of Drummuir stood as it had stood for centuries. But she could not see it with her physical eyes, and even in her mental ones it bulked but little.
For the great protective possession of motherhood had overwhelmed her, and her very regret and remembrance of Marmaduke only made her hug her child closer--as his, and hers.
At first when she realised that life spread before both her and the little Marmaduke she had agonised over the thought that by her own act she had deprived him of his birthright; but by degrees she became more content as she persuaded herself that that fateful envelope could scarcely have remained in Marmaduke"s despatch-box without his knowledge. Yet he had never mentioned it. If he had repented of the action which at the time he had said made him feel like a scoundrel he could have amended it. And he had not done so. Never, never had he breathed one word to show that he held her, whom he had so tardily learnt to love, as his wife.
And here in her chain of reasoning she always stopped; for she knew--how could she help knowing?--that if he had lived--if--if---- Always that if, and if life had to be lived, it must be set aside. And life had to be lived.
This brought her back to the child in her arms, and she dreamt happily enough of the future.
It was not as if the boy had no home. As long as Princess Pauloffski ruled over the pine woods, the quaint homely farmhouses, and the devoted peasants, little Marmaduke would have more than welcome; for every week brought ecstatic letters from that entrancing personality which had already made such a mark on Marrion"s character. In a way she felt that she had never understood her own womanhood until she had met with the all-embracing femininity of the brave, wise, old mind which seemed to hold a grip of the whole world in its very isolation and solitude.
Yes, the child could have no better home; and even when the commanding, lovable figure pa.s.sed, it might be that he would remain as heir.
So Marrion was in a fever to have the child there, yet at the back of her mind was a vague regret; and she had chosen the little Aberdeenshire fishing village as the place for her convalescence because from it she could see the view of her childhood and girlhood--see right away to Rattray Head and beyond it----? The North Pole!
She was not afraid of being recognised. Fifteen miles in the country effaces all familiarity, and she kept much to herself, taking the child down with her day after day, to some sheltered sandy nook, where in the hot June weather she could sit and dream--rather idly, it must be confessed, for the sheer delight of living to have a living child had absorbed her mind. So the days pa.s.sed, until for the last time she carried it down to her favourite beach.
The dry warm sand was a perfect cradle for the child. She sc.r.a.ped a little hollow in it at her feet, laid her treasure down, and sat on a boulder beside it, in absolute worship. The waves, always restless on the North Sea, tinkled a lullaby on the rocks hard by.
She was roused by the sound of a footstep. So few folk ever pa.s.sed that she looked up surprised. Then she gave a glad cry and stood up holding out both hands; for it was Andrew Fraser. He also held out a hand, for one empty sleeve of his coat was pinned to his breast. He came rapidly towards her, seemingly un.o.bservant of the child, till within a few feet of her. Then he stopped dead and stared at what lay at her feet.
"I didna know," he said, brokenly at last. "They didna say---- G.o.d, but I"m glad, Marrion! Oh, Marrion, I"m glad!"
Then without waiting to greet her he knelt down for a closer look.
"He"s a real Drummuir," he went on ecstatically, "and he is Drummuir!
Ah," he added, a trifle irrationally, "that the colonel could ha"
lived to see little Lord Drummuir!"
Something gripped at Marrion"s heart.
"Don"t let us speak of that now, Andrew," she said hastily. "I want to know--everything--your poor arm----"
But Andrew for the time being was entranced.
"It"s me," he said, "is wanting to know! And how old will he be? And why did the doctor fellow no tell me when he tauld me aboot you?"
It was not easy to beguile him from the subject, but bit by bit Marrion got from him a spa.r.s.e account of how, he had been a Russian prisoner, how he had lost his arm, had been exchanged as disabled, and in Balaklava had come across Doctor Forsyth, who had given him an address in Edinburgh where he would be sure to hear of Marrion. How it was a doctor fellow who had been too busy to do more than supply him with the name of the village, whither he had come to find----
Here Marrion, recognising that all roads must lead to the one point, took heart of grace and said gently--
"Me and my child. It has made me very happy, Andrew. And I am so glad you found me to-day, for I am going away to-morrow."
Andrew stood up.
"Goin" whaur?" he asked sharply. "Tae Drummuir? An" why are ye not there the now?"
"Because I have no right there, Andrew," she replied, feeling herself tremble, despite the boldness of her words.
"Ye may have nane, woman," he broke in sternly, "but your child has the right to all! Are ye gain" tae steal it frae him? An" it"s foolishness tae talk your way; ye ken fine that before G.o.d and man ye"re the colonel"s wife!"
"That may be," she retorted, "but as I told you long ago there is no legal proof of it--and I do not choose--I have settled what I think right, and I can have no interference."
"An" is it what _you_ wish that is tae take the birthright from an innocent wean that canna speak for himself?" burst in Andrew pa.s.sionately. "I tell ye, Marrion, that neither you nor the colonel--G.o.d rest him for a brave gentleman--have any right tae order yon poor sc.r.a.p o" G.o.d"s makin". I tell ye he was born to be Drummuir o" Drummuir, an" Drummuir o" Drummuir he"ll be till the last trump!"
He paused, breathless with anger and resentment while Marrion stood speechless, the babe between them lying placidly asleep.
"But Andrew----" she began helplessly.
"But I"ll no thole it," he continued, his whole ugly face aflame with an emotion which made it almost beautiful. "See here, Marrion Muir--for that you are--I"ve lived my life thinkin" ye were abune me, but ye"ll be beneath me if ye steal the very name from that poor bairn. But ye sall not do it. I"ll awa to Peter Muir and tell him----"
The threat roused her and she turned on him.
"You can do as you like, Andrew; but it will be no use. You can"t do anything without me. I wish you would be reasonable and listen! We promised--the colonel and I promised--we both promised--and we promised each other----"
"Ye had na the right tae promise!" he interrupted fiercely. "An" I"ll hear nae mair o" your woman"s clatter. Yon babe"s my master"s son an"
Lord Drummuir, sae I doff ma cap to him."
Which he did in the stateliest fashion, and then stalked away without another word, leaving Marrion confronted with a host of new difficulties.
She lifted the child up and carried him back to her lodgings, feeling she could do nothing to save the situation. There was little hope of getting Andrew to listen to--no, not to reason, that had long ceased to have any part in the strange catalogue of mistakes--but to listen to what she had to say.
And what had she to say? Her mind began laboriously on the past, counting her own mistakes. Why had she done this? Why had she done that? It was fear that had made her do everything--fear of the old man who sat like a spider in his web, the old man whom his own son had wished her to anger, because he had been throughout the villain of the piece! But would he have been so if she had given him the chance?
"I am sorry the little chap died; he would have been game."
The memory of those parting words stung her to the quick. What a fool she had been I Why had she not gone at once to Lord Drummuir and told him the truth? She had meant to do so, but she had been too late--too late! Well, there was no use crying over spilt milk.
So she sat going over and over the whole thing again, and yet again, until late in the evening the little la.s.sie of the lodgings brought her a message that a man who was lying at Mistress McMurdo"s was feelin" ill and would like to see her just for a little. The child being asleep she slipped over to the cottage to find Andrew Fraser once more a prey to his old enemy, tropical fever--a quaint, insistent enemy which, after lying low for years, will seize advantage of any disturbance of mind or body to rea.s.sert itself.
So there he was, as she had seen him before, trembling and shaking, with a glitter in his eyes and a flush on his face, lying huddled up under his military cloak on the sofa. Once again he slipped his feet apologetically to the ground as he saw her and essayed to stand straight--a pathetic sight, his body weak, his mind strong--so strong!
"I"m sorry, ma"am," he said, with studied ceremony, "if I, was over-heated the day, for you"re my master"s wife. But it"s no oorsels, ye see. It"s just Providence, an" we daurna play Providence. It"s dangerous work. Sae I couldna help it, ma"am. The wean"s Drummuir o"
Drummuir----"
And there he was going over the old ground again and again.
She could but try to soothe him and leave him, knowing in her heart of hearts that nothing she could say would ever move him one hair"s-breadth from what he thought right.