Dearest Wil, goodbye.
Brierson woke with a start, gasping for breath. He swung his feet out of bed and sat for a moment. His tiny room was bright with day, but he couldn"t see outside; the window was completely fogged over. It was very quiet; normally he could hear plenty of activity through the plastic walls. He got up and stepped out into the hall; not a soul in sight. There was noise from downstairs, though. That"s right: There was a big meeting scheduled first thing this morning. The fact that Yelen was willing to meet the low-techs at the dorm was more evidence that she had changed; she had not even demanded his presence. His sleeping late was a half-conscious test of his freedom. For a while he wanted to be a bystander. Managing the last meeting had been a bit... traumatic.
Wil padded down the hallway to the second-floor washroom. For once, he had the place all to himself.
What a weird weird dream. Wil looked at his image in the washstand mirror. There was wetness around his eyes, but he was dream. Wil looked at his image in the washstand mirror. There was wetness around his eyes, but he was smiling. smiling. The dream in blue had always been a choking burden, something he must forcibly ignore. But this time it rea.s.sured him, even made him happy. He hummed as he washed up, his mind playing with the dream. Virginia had seemed so real. He could still feel her touch on his cheek. He knew now how much hidden anger he had felt at Virginia; he knew, because suddenly the anger was gone. It had cut deep that Virginia had not come after him. He"d told himself that she always intended to, that she was still gathering her resources when the Singularity overtook her. He hadn"t believed the excuse; he"d seen what could happen to a personality over a century. But now-for no reason but a dream-he felt differently. Well, what if Della"s explanation of the Singularity was correct? What if technology had transcended the intelligible? What if minds had found immortality by growing forever past the human horizon? Why, then, something that had been Virginia might still exist, might want to comfort him. The dream in blue had always been a choking burden, something he must forcibly ignore. But this time it rea.s.sured him, even made him happy. He hummed as he washed up, his mind playing with the dream. Virginia had seemed so real. He could still feel her touch on his cheek. He knew now how much hidden anger he had felt at Virginia; he knew, because suddenly the anger was gone. It had cut deep that Virginia had not come after him. He"d told himself that she always intended to, that she was still gathering her resources when the Singularity overtook her. He hadn"t believed the excuse; he"d seen what could happen to a personality over a century. But now-for no reason but a dream-he felt differently. Well, what if Della"s explanation of the Singularity was correct? What if technology had transcended the intelligible? What if minds had found immortality by growing forever past the human horizon? Why, then, something that had been Virginia might still exist, might want to comfort him.
Wil suddenly realized he was washing his face for the second time. For a moment, he and his mirror image grinned sheepishly at each other, conspirators realizing the insanity of their scheme. If he wasn"t careful, he"d be another Jason Mudge, complete with guardian angels and voices from beyond the grave. Still, Della said there was something like religion hiding at the end of her materialism.
A few minutes later he was walking down the side stairs, past the cafeteria. The voices from within were loud but didn"t sound angry. He hesitated, then turned away from the door. It might be fantasy, but he wanted to keep the mood of that dream as long as possible. It had been a long time since he"d started the day feeling so good. For the moment he really believed there was "someone who still lives, who might like you very much."
He walked out of the dorm, into daylight.
The building was surrounded by a perfect disk of white the snow that had been brought through time with their bobble. The sunburned at the snowdrifts, raising a sublimation fog all around him. Wil walked across the slush, through the brilliant mist. He stopped at the edge of the snow and started at the almost-jacarandas and less identifiable trees that grew all around. It was already a warm day. He stepped back a pace and enjoyed the cool coming off the snow. Except for the shape of some of the hills, the world was the same as before the battle. The glaciers were tamed again, lurked near faraway peaks. Across a ravine and a few hundred meters up a hillside, there was a separate plume of sublimation fog; the golden towers of Castle Korolev gleamed faint within it.
A shadow pa.s.sed over him. "Wil!" He looked up as Tammy Robinson dropped out of the sky. She brought her platform to a low hover, just as she had when she came to invite the soot pushers to her father"s party. She was even dressed in the same perfect white. She stood there a moment, looking down. "I wanted to see you again... before I go." She brought the platform all the way to earth, just beyond his toes. Now she was oolong[?] up at him. "Thank you, Wil. Gerrault and Chanson would"ve got us all if it hadn"t been for you. Now I think we can all win." Her smile broadened. "Yelen has given me enough equipment to leave this era."
She was almost too perfect to look at. "You"ve given up on recruiting?"
"Nope. Yelen says I can come back in a hundred years, and any time after. With Gerrault"s equipment and the zygotes, you can really succeed. Another century or two, and there"ll be more people here than I could ever imagine. They won"t feel beaten[?] the way they do now, and a good many will be bored with civilization. There will be dozens, maybe hundreds, who"ll... come with me. And they"ll be people we won"t have to support. That"s more than Daddy ever hoped for." She paused a second and then said quietly, "I hope you"ll come with me, Wil."
"S-some of us have to stay in realtime, or there"ll be no civilization for you to raid, Tammy." He tried to smile.
"I know, I know. But a hundred years from now, when I come back... what about then?"
What about then? The Robinsons thought all mysteries could be known to those who watched long enough, waited long enough. But a flatworm could watch forever and still not understand the opera. Aloud: "Who knows how I"ll feel in a hundred years, Tammy?" He stopped and just stared at her for a second. "But if I don"t come with you... and if you make it to the end of time... I hope you"ll remember me to the Creator."
Tammy flinched, then realized he wasn"t mocking her. "Okay. If you stay behind, I will." She put her hands on his shoulders and stood on tiptoe to kiss his lips. "See you later, Wil Brierson."
A few seconds later, Tammy was disappearing over the trees.
The one who still lives, the one who has not said goodbye? He thought not, but he had a hundred years to decide for sure.
Wil walked along the perimeter of the mist, intrigued by the way heat and cool battled at the edge of the snow. He circled the dorm and found himself staring at the entrance. They were still at it in there. He grinned to himself and started back. What the h.e.l.l.
He was only partway to the entrance when the doors opened. Only one person stepped out. It was Yelen. She surveyed him without surprise. "Hah. I wondered how long you"d stay out here." As she came toward him, he looked for signs of anger in her pale Slavic face. She caught his eye and smiled lopsidedly. "Don"t worry. They didn"t kick me out. And I"m not leaving in a huff. It"s just that all the d.i.c.kering is a little dull; they"ve practically got a commodity exchange going in there, splitting up all the stuff that survived our fighting... Do you have a minute, Wil?"
He nodded and followed her out of the chill, back the way he had come. "Have you thought: No matter how well things go, we"ll still need police services? People really respect you. That"s ninety percent of what made companies like Michigan State Police and Al"s Protection Rackets successful."
Brierson shook his head. "It sounds like the game we were playing before. A lot of the ungovs might want to hire me, but without threats from you, I can"t imagine the governments tolerating the compet.i.tion."
"Hey, I"m not looking for a cat"s-paw. The fact is, Fraley and Dasgupta are in there right now, colluding on a common offer for your services."
Wil felt his jaw sag. Fraley? Fraley? After all the years of hatred... "Steve would rather die than disgovern." After all the years of hatred... "Steve would rather die than disgovern."
"A lot of his people did die," she said quietly. "A lot of the rest aren"t taking orders anymore. Even Fraley has changed a little. Maybe it"s fear, maybe it"s guilt. It really shook him to see how easily one high-tech swindled him and perverted the Republic-even worse, to learn that Chanson did it just to have a thirty-second diversion available when he grabbed for our systems."
Yelen laughed. "My advice is to take the job while they still think it"s tough. After a couple of years, there"ll be compet.i.tion; I bet you won"t be able to make a living off your fees."
"Hmm. You think things are going to be that tame?"
"I really do, Wil. The high-tech monsters are dead. The governments may linger on, but in name only. We lost a lot in the war-parts of our technology may fall to a nineteenth-century level-but with Gerrault"s zygotes and med equipment, we"re better off than before. The problem with the women has disappeared. They can have the kids they want, but they won"t have to be nonstop baby factories. You should have seen the meeting. There are lots of serious couples now. Gail and Dilip asked me to marry them! "For old times" sake." They said I had been like the captain of a ship to them. What crazy, crazy people." She shook her head, but her smile was very proud. These might be the first low-techs to show grat.i.tude for what she and Marta had done. "I"ll tell you how confident I am: I"m not forcing anyone to stay in this era. If they have a bobbler, they can take off. I don"t think anyone will. It"s a bit too obvious that if we can"t make it now, we never will."
"Monica might."
"That"s different. But don"t be too sure even with her; she"s been lying to herself for a long time. I"m going to ask her to stay." Yelen"s smile was gentle; two weeks ago she would have been scornful. With Gerrault and Chanson gone, a great weight had been lifted from her soul, and Wil could see what-beyond competence and loyalty-Marta had loved in her.
Yelen looked at her feet. "There"s another reason I ducked out of the meeting early. I wanted to apologize. After I read[?] Marta"s diary, I felt like killing you. But I knew I needed you-Marta didn"t have to tell me that. And the more I depended on you, the more you saw things I had not... the more I hated you.
"Now I know the truth. I"m ashamed. After working with you, I should have seen through Marta"s trick myself." Abruptly she stuck out her hand. Brierson grasped it, and they shook. "Thanks, Wil."
The one who still lives, the one who has not said goodbye? No. But a friend for the years to come.
Behind her, a flier descended. "Time for me to get back to the house." She jerked a thumb at Castle Korolev.
"One last thing," she said. "If things are as slow as I think, you might want to diversify ... Give Della a hand."
"Della"s back? H-how long? I mean-"
"She"s been in solar s.p.a.ce about a thousand years; we were waiting to find the best time to stop. The chase took one hundred thousand years. I don"t know how much lifetime she spent." She didn"t seem much concerned about the last issue. "You want to talk to her? I think you could do each other good."
"Where-"
"She was with me, at the meeting. But you don"t have to go inside. You"ve been set up, Wil. Each of us-Tammy, me, Della-wanted to talk to you alone. Say the word, and she"ll be out here."
"Okay. Yes!"
Yelen laughed. He was scarcely aware of her walking to the flier. He started back to the dorm. Della had made it. However many years she had lived in the dark, she had not died there. And even if she was the creature from before, even if she was like Juan Chanson at his ending, Wil could still try to help. He couldn"t take his eyes off the doorway.
The doors opened. She was wearing a jumpsuit, midnight black, the same color as her short-cut hair. Her face was expressionless as she came down the steps and walked toward him. Then she smiled. "Hi, Wil. I"m back... to stay."
The one who still lives, the one who has not said goodbye.
AFTERWORD.
The author"s afterword: that"s where he explains what he was trying to say with the previous hundred thousand words, right? Well, I"ll try to avoid that. Basically, I have an apology and a prediction.
The apology is for the unrealistically slow rate of technological growth predicted. Part of that is reasonable, I suppose. A general war, like the one I put in 1997, can be used to postpone progress anywhere from ten years to forever. But what about after the recovery? I show artificial intelligence and intelligence amplification proceeding at what I suspect is a snail"s pace. Sorry. I needed civilization to last long enough to hang a plot on it.
And of course it seems very unlikely that the Singularity would be a clean vanishing of the human race. (On the other hand, such a vanishing is the timelike a.n.a.log of the silence we find all across the sky.) From now to 2000 (and then 2001), the Jason Mudges will be coming out of the woodwork, their predictions steadily more clamorous. It"s an ironic accident of the calendar that all this religious interest in transcendental events should be mixed with the objective evidence that we"re falling into a technological singularity. So, the prediction: If we don"t have that general war, then it"s you you, not Della and Wil, who will understand the Singularity in the only possible way-by living through it.
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