Originally, Guan Xin Mu decided to not respond to the shameless Fei Jun. Thereupon from their return to home from the snack stand, she didn"t say any word to Fei Jun. It was until the time Guan Xin Mu took a bath, the lamp inside the bathroom was suddenly turned off, she got caught up in the dark, so she instinctively blurted out without thinking Fei Jun"s name: "What happened?" Then, she just noticed she had broken her promised. After two minutes, the bathroom"s light turned on again, Guan Xin Mu was so depressed.
After took a bath, she wore a bathroom and got out the bathroom, suddenly she smelled something aromatic. She went to the kitchen, and looked on the top of kitchen counter was a bowl of crunchy pork chop with noodle. The noodle was snow white, the red and oily pork chop, emerald green chopped onion, and several chili. It was so appetizing, she breathed the delicious aroma, used her to touch the bowl, it was still hot. It was clearly was a dish recently cooked by someone. Although she was peeved with him, but she couldn"t peeved with this bowl of noodle. She considered for a few seconds, Guan Xin Mu readily moved the chair to the front of the kitchen counter. She used the chopstick and enjoyed the noodle.
All this details told her a reality, that she was inevitably linked to Fei Jun.
She was felt somehow defeated by this kind of reality.
The Guang Ying limited company who was under the Fei clan"s company, has started their movie production so they held a press conference, during it, there was a lot of reporters attended it. Twenty minutes after the press conference was finished, at XX hotel was holding a dinner party for the reporters too, Fei Jun also attended it.
It was the first time for Gu Xi Ran to meet Fei Jun in public after their break up, although she was trying her best to control her mood, pretended to be calm and composed, yet her eyes was kept shifted toward Fei Jun"s direction. Fei Jun was still that perfect, he wore fit tailored excellent quality of suit, his long finger was holding a champagne gla.s.s, he was seriously and cordially talking to the one of the senior in business industry. This elder had a habit to flaunt his seniority, yet Fei Jun always be respectful, modest and patient to listen to his word.
Under the dazzling, a world brimmed with gorgeous lights, Fei Jun"s eyes liked a beautiful shining gem, he always liked that, he didn"t clamored. He calmly be in corner and right away he could suck in a majority of people"s attention, his every movement was very natural, completed full of charisma. He was a natural who free from arrogance and rashness, he never conceited or boastful. Gu Xi Ran felt that even though how she hard she controlled herself, her sight always hardly shifted from Fei Jun"s side, so she simply looked at him.
She knew that he was married, had a family, and belonged to another woman. This reality let her was throughly heart until the inner part of her heart, in the past when they were still in relationship, she always reminded herself to never invest a hundred percent of her heart to the relationship because Fei Jun was a businessman, as most businessman valued benefit more than feeling. Therefore, toward him, she was somewhat keeping her distance with him, but he seemed to be okay with it, moreover he was very adapted toward her conditions. He didn"t choose to tightly dominate her life, but also didn"t retreat, he just followed her. After the break up, she admittedly felt sad but didn"t really aware Fei Jun"s importance in her life, until she knew about the reality of Jun"s wedding. She just suddenly realized that from a long time that Fei Jun was already occupy the important part of her heart. He could easily dominate her mood.
The most sarcastic part, their distance in the past also like this way, it"s not really far but not close too.
Fei Jun held up his champagne gla.s.s and had a toast to several guest, until he went out of the ballroom, he turned and walked along the corridor which full of paintings. Then, he looked from a mirror, there was a woman behind her. He stopped his steps and turned his body to face Gu Xi Ran. He stayed calmed, and his mouth showed a slight smile.
Gu Xi Ran move forward, told herself to appear calm and natural. She slightly smiled: "I haven"t congratulate you for your marriage."
"Thank you."
"Later on, we can still be friend right." Gu Xi Ran said, Gu Xi Ran"s broken expression was clearly shown from her face, her smile was somewhat bitter.
"Of course."
Friend… He and she could only be a friends now, who asked her that day to let go and not beg him to stay. If that time she turned herself, pulled his hand, now it would not be like this. She really missed out, there was no way to turn back. Her smile was more and more tart, tears started to gather in her eyes. She hold up to take a sip of her champagne, that she seriously looked at him and asked: "There"s one thing that I always want to ask you, did you love me?" Her stress on the word shivered, she tried to endure her intense mood.
Before Fei Jun answered, she blurted out without thinking: "No, please don"t tell me, I take back my question."
Her subconscious mind already knew his answer for this question, a year and four months time of their relationship, he never once said that he loved her, he only be good to her, throughly protective, maybe he liked her, admired her, but love? She felt herself was very ridiculous, they already broke up, he already married, in spite of everything, she still asked that question to him.
"Brother Fei." She looked straight at his eyes, her mood gradually became smooth, and said: "I apologized toward you for my stubborn action, thank you for your care for that a year and half, you had bring a lot of happiness, I really thankful for you." She wanted to add "I love you", but she still wanted to leave some dignity for herself.
"Because of the working relation, we may be running into each other in a several occasions, I hope you don"t feel uncomfortable about it."
Fei Jun shook his head, with his calm and bit cold voice: "I will not, it only work."
His phone suddenly rang, Fei Jun answered his phone, his voice sounded natural and ordinary. He said several "em, okay, can". Gu Xi Ran distinctly heard the caller was a woman, she waited until Fei Jun hung up the phone, and asked: "It was your wife right?"
"No, it"s my secretary." Fei Jun"s voice was somewhat cool, didn"t show any feeling, "I still have some matters to attend, I will go first. I wish your work to be smooth, and you will fulfill your dream."
After he was done with his sentence, he turned his body, his shoulder brushed past her shoulder. He walked toward the exit and didn"t even glanced back at her even once. He left her alone in the corridor, her whole body was ice-cold, her brain was kept on rewind on his sentence about fulfilling her dream. Her dream was the reason of their break up, that time he did his utmost to oppose her dream, but now he calmly wished her the best, what this is mean. She blinked her eyes, the tears started to flow down.
The night wind was really cold, because Fei Jun drank a quite lot of beer so he couldn"t drive, a driver sent him home. He sat on the back, he looked toward the night scene from the window. The night view of S city was like a enchantress, at all the times it was waving at you, brought you to enter a fascinating night. But he actually he didn"t enjoyed the bustling and magnificent view, he liked to view green hills and crystal clear water. He hold up natural and concise life, and toward people, he also hold the same view.
The first time he met Gu Xi Ran, she still a college students, wore a cheap jeans and a checkered shirt. Her pigtail was put high, didn"t wear any makeup, and her forehead was slightly sweaty. She was an intern at one of broadcasting company. That day he happened to be there because of an invitation to be a guest on the special interview. Gu Xi Ran was personally served the tea for him to drink, he thanked her for that and she said, "You"re welcome."
Their second meeting was at a simple business dinner party, she was there with one of her teacher. He didn"t really any special attention toward her, even he didn"t remember her name. It was a very simple and common banquet, after it was done, he sat down in the car and lowered the window. He saw her gave a beggar a ten yuan money, then that old beggar thanked her. She shook her head and smiled, turned her body and went outside. They chatted for a while, then she gave him another 10 Yuan.
This event made him had a favorable impression toward her. Her eyes was full of compa.s.sion and kindhearted when she looked at that old beggar. That kind of expression was rarely seen for him. He slightly smiled for a while, his eyes full of praise to her.
Their third meeting was still at the broadcasting company, that day she was being criticized by a leader. The leader was mad at her ruthlessly, and didn"t felt any sensitivity to other"s feeling. She had became a scapegoat, she was wronged, but still she stayed firmly to not admit that was her fault, and didn"t compromise. She spoke very frankly, her sentence indicated that someone wanted to put the blame to me, she didn"t want to be punished. She told the leader that he needed to be fair in treating the employees, he couldn"t not distinguish between right and wrong. Fei Jun suddenly laughed when he heard it, he felt Gu Xi Ran was a real innocent and honest woman, completely a beginner who hadn"t be contaminated by the workplace situation.
The leader went away while he was panting with rage, she stood on the corner, with a lifeless spirit and pale face. Then, he didn"t aware of why did he unexpectedly came toward her side, and with a low voice said, "You want to cry?" She turned her head, which already full of tears.
Being in relationship with her for a year and four month, he could easily notice her reservations, also could make out her deliberately create distance between them. He didn"t point it out bluntly, because he thought that way was very beneficial for both of them, it was very effortless and comfortable. He was admiring her more than liking her, he admired her seriousness, courage, independence, firmness, she was soft outside but hard inside. She was clear about her goal, will not be ignorant toward the people around her. She understood clearly what she need in her life and future. She didn"t look like some girls within her age group, which because of their beauty and youth that they become arrogance. He liked all of her merits, but it was ridiculous that the reason they broke up was because of her ability to clearly know her goal and her stubbornness. This was the point which they are really similar, they were both stubborn, consequently he also didn"t concede.
After break up, he felt regret, and felt emptiness, yet he never felt hurt and sad, maybe his heart already old, he laughed at hisself.
Thinking back to their relationship, he never said that he loved her, and never had an urge to say it, didn"t give any promise for her, never discussed the future plan with her, yet she never demanded it. Now, he thought he was certainly an irresponsible man, he didn"t love her, but did possess her for quite long time.
Why did he want to be in relationship with her that time? Maybe because that time he felt it was time, he needed a girlfriend and also his parent urgently urged him to get marriage. His family had arranged a lot of woman to meet up with him. He didn"t like that kind of arrogant and aloof woman. He thought that if he wanted to be in relationship, he wanted to look for the one who is really he like and admire.
And also it maybe… because that little brat"s sentence.
He remembered that time the little brat said to him: "Uncle Fei, why haven"t you get married? Nowadays most older men who are unmarried had a mental problem, you need to be hurry."
"Why do you care about my problem? Have you finished your homework?" He remembered his att.i.tude that time was very disdainfully.
"I don"t have any homework! I already a 21 years old woman, why you still regarded me as a little brat?" That little brat glared at him, "I tell you, I already have someone that I like."
"O?" His eyes suddenly turned dark, he felt somewhat of indescribable feeling. He felt that time even the little brat already someone that she liked, didn"t he also need to look for a girlfriend.
Then, he happened by chance ran across this Gu Xi Ran.
Fei Jun arrived at home, he caught a sight of Guan Xin Mu who was lied on one"s side on the sofa and slept. He came over, bent down and slightly shook her. She was in a middle of a daze and said: "You are reek of alcohol." She used her hand to push and push him, then she put her head down again, and continued her sleep.
He slightly smiled, and effortlessly carried her upstair to the bedroom, and placed her on the bed. When he was about to lay her down, he noticed her necklace was stuck on his first b.u.t.ton of suit tightly. No matter how he tried to undo it, it didn"t let off. He was afraid it will bind her, so he only be able to patiently try to undo it. She suddenly laughed, it looked as if she was dreaming something good and enjoyable. Looking at his smile, his heart was paused and full of intense emotion. He didn"t care anymore about the necklace and his b.u.t.ton, directly lowered his head and kissed her.