One kind of indescribable feeling came around his whole body, his breath was slightly hurried, his body started to be hot, he hung down his eyes to look at Guan Xin Mu"s face. Her white delicate skin looked flawless, eyelashes were very long, let people couldn"t help extended his finger to touch it for a while. He just quietly gazed at her, his finger slid inch by inch of her face, and lastly stopped on her chin. Inside his heart, it was full of calm and satisfaction feeling, that was rarely he felt in his life or maybe most of the time he often felt ignored these kind of feelings. But this moment, his heart was touched by that kind of feelings. When he thought that she is his, completely and wholly his. There was no one who had ever possessed her except him, he felt so satisfied. He was not a conservative man, he didn"t really care about a virgin woman or not, but as long as he thought about he was the first and last man of Guan Xin Mu, his cold eyes couldn"t help but to be warm.
Guan Xin Mu already asleep, he lowered his hand once again to kiss her tip of nose, then he laid down beside her, he pulled her hand and placed it on his chest. He turned off the light, and slept.
Guan Xin Mu"s company received a big case, so she and Pei Xin was very busy until they both wished herself could have two mouths, during the whole day, she called clients and discussed about the contract until her throat was somewhat hoa.r.s.e. She got off the work late, she had dinner from a small take out restaurant, then hurriedly went back to the office to continue writing the sales planning report. It happened for several days and nights.
She was mentally and physically tired. When she went home, she caught the sight of Fei Jun sat down on the sofa, his hand was holding an unknown book. She felt that book seemed familiar, she moved closer to look at it. Isn"t that blue book with scattered flower design was her diary when she was a girl? How could it fall on to Fei Jun"s hand?
Fei Jun raised his head and glanced at Guan Xin Mu, immediately lowered his head to look at that diary and read it out loud: "Today I went to have an ice cream with brother Xia, we also watched a movie, we played happily today. However I always don"t have guts to face him, because on my forehead and nose appeared two annoying pimple."
"Today is Christmas day, the scarf that took me three months finally completed, don"t know whether brother Xia will like it or not?"
"Brother Xia said if only this time my exam mark is higher fifteen points that before, he will take me to the concert. So I tried my best, and slept late to memorize the books.
Guan Xin Mu waited for a while and listened to Fei Jun"s cold voice reading her youth feelings. Then after a long time of being startled, she tried to s.n.a.t.c.h her diary, raising her voice: "Fei Jun, why you take a look secretly of my diary! This was my private business, even my mom never peeked at it, why do you see it!"
Fei Jun laughed coldly and shook his head: "No wonder when you are high school, your achievements were that low, the exams didn"t even meet a minimum standard. So it turned out your mind was focus on your secret crush. It was a pity your effort didn"t give any result, that person"s heart didn"t have you, stupid."
Guan Xin Mu"s face slightly paled, indeed she was already tired, a consecutive days of overtime had drained her physical strength, so it was naturally her mood it was not really good. Now looking at Fei Jun"s action and att.i.tude toward her youth"s experience, it really dropped her mood, her anger level suddenly raised, she was fumed with rage between gritted teeth said: "Why! Should! You! Care!"
"Because I am your husband." Fei Jun raised his body, his tall body immediately moved toward her and created a pressure for Guan Xin Mu"s body. He lazily lowered his head and looked at her, his tone calm, "Of course I have obligation to care about you."
"Even if you are my husband, but you didn"t have any right to secretly look at my diary! This was my secret, it was the memory that solely belong to me! You don"t have qualification to point out the bad about my past!" Guan Xin Mu almost wanted to scream.
Fei Jun was silent as if he completely didn"t take seriously about her protest. His line of perseverance of the face was not change in the slightest, his eyes were cold as the cold water in the ocean, he looked Guan Xi, without saying any word.
"Truthfully, I never regret to have ever like him. He was my target and power, if not for pursuing him, I even could get into the university. Being together with him was my most happy moment during my study period. So I didn"t care about the end, I proud that I ever like him, you the one that is stupid." Guan Xin Mu protested, she admitted that herself was provoked by Fei Jun"s "stupid" sentence.
Fei Jun"s eyes immediately frozen, his lip pursed tightly. Guan Xin Mu stood in front of him, raised her head and looked at him, her gaze didn"t show any defeat or guilt. Both of them were in deep confrontation.
His phone suddenly rang, Fei Jun turned his body and took his phone, with his lower voice: "h.e.l.lo?"
The caller was a man, he spoke urgently, it looked like something important happened. After Fei Jun listened, he used his head to ma.s.sage his head, then said: "Don"t worry, there will be a way out, I will come over immediately." He hung up the phone, and took the his suit placed on the sofa. He pa.s.sed by Guan Xin Mu, and went out of the house. He closed the door softly which was outside of Guan Xin Mu"s expectation.
After Fei Jun went away, Guan Xin Mu sat down on sofa and looked calmly at her youth diary. She consciously went through of each pages, and noticed a lot of her diary entries were related to her and Xia Yu"s experience together. Each of it was very detailed description of her loving secretly moment: happy, aroused, disappointment, dejected, etc. She also somewhat puzzled, could it be her entire study moment was surrounded around Xia Yu? Why is it look like she was a witch that kept on tangling a man and didn"t let it go?"
Thinking it carefully, it was no wonder when Fei Jun looked at it, he felt unhappy, these writings in his eyes were indeed offending. Guan Xin Mu sighed, and immediately thought again, who asked him to look for the things that will not make him happy, wanted to peek at her diary. It was violated her privacy. He was a student of great ability, how could he don"t know about this, moreover, how can he acted highly and provoked her, and laughingly said she was stupid. Before his eyes were really full of disdainful mood, she was offended it by it.
Guan Xin Mu sat down on the sofa and pondered for a long time, her mood was coming and going fast. These several days she was continually working overtime, her brain was tired, then finally she slept.
She was sobered up by cold, the temperature on the living room was turned on too sufficient. It caused her head to be dizzy and somewhat aching back. When she opened her eyes, her whole body was very cold. She rubbed her eyes, and looked at the clock that hung up on the wall. She hurriedly leaned her head, and looked at the front door, there was no Fei Jun"s leather shoes. He was not home, if he was home, he will not let her to sleep on the sofa.
She thought and thought again and took out her phone to call him. In the end, the line was busy, she tried again but same as before it was a busy sound. Thus, she weakly placed her phone on the table.
This night, every minutes every second apparently moved liked snail tried to climb. Guan Xin Mu was watching movies, and one side she repeatedly looked at the clock. It almost one o"clock in the very early morning. Fei Jun hadn"t be home, the movie was an easy light humor, it was full of energetic music, yet it didn"t trigger her mood. She yawned, then decided to turn off the TV and laid down on the bed tried to sleep. She couldn"t sleep.
It was two o"clock in the morning, she suddenly got up from the bed, and yelled: "Fei Jun, you have courage to not go home!"
Her wrath then turned to worry, will he have any accident? Every unlucky fragments started to appear in Guan Xin Mu"s mind, something like accident, drunk driving, kidnapped. ….
She suddenly scared, hurriedly got off the bed, and continued dialing Fei Jun"s phone. However, the phone was turned off, her heart started to be uneasy, in her mind various of incident appeared, her hand was shivered.
She didn"t know what to do, she couldn"t find Fei Jun, where is Fei Jun? She really scared that something happened to him, her eyes were red all of sudden.
Suddenly, there was a noise and a slight movement, it was someone footstep sound. Guan Xin Mu immediately turned her head, it was Fei Jun who opened the bedroom"s door, he calmly appeared on the doorway. His cold face showed some tiredness, he took off his suit, and only wore his grey shirt. His whole body brought covered in dust scent, and his familiar cent mild pine rosin scent.
"You haven"t sleep?" Fei Jun was somewhat surprised to see Guan XIn Mu, and lowered his head to look at his watch, "It"s almost sunrise."
"Fei Jun!" Guan Xin Mu yelled, "Where were you! Why did you turn off your phone! I couldn"t find you!"
Fei Jun undo his shirt, and spoke softly: "There was some matters that need to be handle, everyone was in the meeting room, and they turned off all the phone." Then he raised his head, "What happened to you?"
"How could you just go without say anything, also you turned off your phone? Do you know that I thought something bad happen to you!" Guan Xin Mu spoke really loud, and her eyes couldn"t help but become red again.
"What the problem will I have?" Fei Jun said without any mood, "car accident? Drunk driving? Or kidnapped? You are watching too much movies."
Unexpectedly he could guess what she was thinking.
Fei Jun changed his clothes into his pajamas, indifferently said: "You afraid that I stayed out all night?"
"I afraid that you were being ravished by a group of roguish female!" Guan Xin Mu countered back
"O? It was my expectation for a long time." Fei Jun unhurriedly said.
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Guan Xin Mu took the pillow on the bed and threw it to Fei Jun, and it smashed his back head. He turned his head, and caught sight of her red eyes, it looked like she had received some kind of bad treatment. Her face was also pale so he couldn"t help but soften his voice and said: "What happened? You don"t feel well?" He paced hurriedly toward her, and stood in front of her. He used his hand to touch her forehead: "It"s okay, not hot."
Guan Xin Mu"s and Fei Jun"s eyes crossed with each other, each of their breathing was lingered together, it was really him who stood in front of her. His scent and temperature let her to be calm. She couldn"t restrain herself to stretch out her both hands and hugged him. She placed her head on is chest, this time and this moment, she really needed him.
"You want to act like a spoiled child to sue for peace?" Fei Jun asked.
"I didn"t do something wrong, why should I sue for peace."Her voice was hoa.r.s.e, yet she didn"t willing to admit it, after a moment with her very soft voice, she asked: "Are you angry?"
Fei Jun raised his brow, and used his palm to stroke her head: "I don"t get angry with little brat."
"Then you were jealous!" Guan Xin Mu said.
Fei Jun"s finger slowly curled up, restrained his mood in his deepest heart, and lightly said: "Don"t think highly of yourself, do I need to be jealous for a little brat?"
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