"John?"
"Mr. Dryden, that is."
"He must be crushed and heartbroken," Lydia said emphatically.
"Well, no, he isn"t," Martie said innocently. "He isn"t like other people. If she wants a divorce--John won"t mind awfully. He"s really--really unusual."
"He must be," Lydia said witheringly, and trembling a little with excitement, "to let his own wife leave him while he writes letters asking the advice of a--a--another woman who is recently--recently widowed!"
Martie glanced at her, smiled a little, shrugged her shoulders, and calmly re-read her letter.
Lydia resumed her work, a flush on her cheeks.
"He can"t have much respect for you, Martie," she said quietly, after a busy silence.
Martie looked up, startled.
"John can"t? Oh, but Lyddy, you don"t know him! He"s such an innocent goose; he absolutely depends upon me! Why, fancy, he"s the man who wanted me to open the boarding-house so that he and his wife could live there--he"s as simple as that!"
"As simple as what?" Lydia asked with her deadly directness.
"Well--I mean--that if there were anything--wrong in his feeling for me--" Martie floundered.
"Oh, Martie, Martie, Martie, I tremble for you!" Lydia said sadly. "A married man, and you a married woman! My dear, can"t you see how far you"ve drifted from your own better self to be able to laugh about it?"
"You goose!" Martie kissed the cool, lifeless cheek before she ran upstairs with her letter. John"s straight-forward sentences kept recurring to her mind through many days. His letter seemed to bring a bracing breath of the big city. A day or two later she and Teddy chanced to be held in mid-street while the big Eastern pa.s.senger train thundered by, and she shut her fingers on John"s letter in her pocket, and said eagerly, confidently, "Oh, New York! I wish I was going back!"
But Lydia wore a grave face for several days, and annoyed and amused her younger sister with the att.i.tude that something was wrong.
Lydia had changed more than any one of them, Martie thought, although her life was what it had always been. She had been born in the old house, and had moved about it for these more than thirty years almost without an interruption. But in the last six years she had left girlhood forever behind; she was a prim, quiet, contentedly complaining woman now, a little too critical perhaps, a little self-righteous, but kind and good. Lydia"s will was always for the happiness of others: Pa"s comfort, Pauline"s rights, and the wisest course for Martie and Sally to take occupied her mind and time far more than any personal interest of her own. But she had a limited vision of duty and convention, and even Sally fretted under her sway. Her father openly transferred his allegiance to Martie, and Lydia grieved over the palpable injustice without the slightest appreciation of its cause.
She was infinitely helpful in times of emergency, and would take charge of Sally"s babies, if Sally were ill, or slave in Sally"s nursery if all or any of the children were indisposed. But she was not so obliging if mere pleasure took Sally away from her maternal duties. Sally told Martie that there was no asking Lyd to help, either she did it voluntarily, or wild horses couldn"t make her do it at all.
If her younger sisters entrusted their children to Aunt Lydia, she was an adoring and indulgent aunt. She loved to open her cookie jar for their raids, and to have them beg her favours or stories. But if Lydia had expressed the opinion that it was too cold for the children to go barefoot, and Martie or Sally revoked the decision, then Lydia wore a dark, resentful look for hours, and was apt to vent her disapproval on the children themselves.
"No, get out of my lap, Jimmy. I don"t want a boy that runs to his Mama and doesn"t trust his Auntie," Lydia would say patiently, firmly, and kindly. Martie and Sally, wives for years, were able to refrain from any comment. To be silent when children are disciplined is one of the great lessons of marriage.
"But I don"t believe that a woman who ever had had a baby COULD rebuff a child like that," Martie told Sally. "I don"t know, though, some aunts are wonderful! Only that pleasant justice does seem wasted on a child; it merely stings without being comprehensible in the least!"
So the younger girls dismissed it philosophically. But it was one of the results of a life like Lydia"s that human intercourse had no lighter phases for her. She must a.n.a.lyze and suspect and brood.
Wherever a possible slight was hidden Lydia found it. She sometimes disappeared for a few hours upstairs, and came back with reddened eyes.
Her father"s devotion to Martie she bore with martyred sweetness. When they laughed together at dinner she listened with downcast eyes, a faint, pained smile on her lips.
"Would you like Martie to sit in Ma"s place, Pa?" she asked one morning, when she was folding her napkin neatly into the orange-wood napkin-ring marked "Souvenir of Santa Cruz." Her father"s surprised negative hardly interrupted the account he was giving his youngest daughter of the law-suit he had won years ago against old man Thomas.
But after breakfast Martie found Lydia crying into one of the ap.r.o.ns that Were hanging in the side-entry. "It"s nothing!" she gulped as Martie"s warm arms went about her. "Only--only I can"t bear to have Ma forgotten already! You heard how Pa spoke-so short and so cold!"
"Oh, Lyddy, DARLING!" Martie protested, half-amused, half-sympathetic.
Lydia straightened herself resentfully.
"I suppose I"m foolish," she said. "I suppose the best thing for us all to do is to forget and laugh, and go on as if life and death were only a JOKE!"
But these storms were rare. Lydia"s was a placid life. She was deeply delighted when her cooking was praised, although she pretended to be annoyed by it. She was wearing dresses now that had been hers six years ago; sometimes a blue gingham or a gray madras was worn a whole season by Lydia without one trip to the tub. She carried a red and gray parasol that Cliff Frost had given her ten years ago; her boots were thin, unadorned kid, creased by her narrow foot; they seemed never to wear out.
As the years went by she quoted her mother more and more. The rather silent Mrs. Monroe had evidently left a fund of advice behind her.
Nothing was too trivial to be affected by the memory of Ma"s opinion.
"Nice thick cream Williams is giving us," Lydia might say at the breakfast table. "Dear Ma used to say that good cream was half the secret of good coffee!" "I remember Ma used to say that marigolds were rather bold, coa.r.s.e flowers," she confided to Martie, "and isn"t it true?"
Her appet.i.te for the news of the village was still insatiable; it was rarely uncharitable, but it never ended. Martie came to recognize certain tones in Lydia"s voice, when she and Alice Clark or Angela Baxter or young Mrs. King were on the shady side porch. There was the delicately tentative tone in which she trod upon uncertain ground: "How do you mean she"s never been the same since last fall, Lou? I don"t remember anything special happening to Minnie Scott last fall." There was a frankly and flatly amazed tone, in which Lydia might say: "Well, Clara told me yesterday about Potter Street, and if you"ll tell me what POSSESSED that boy, I"ll be obliged to you!" And then there was the tone of incredible announcement: "Alice, I don"t know that I should tell this, because I only heard it last night, but I haven"t been able to think of one other thing ever since, and I believe I"ll tell you; it won"t go any further. Mrs. Hughie Wilson came in here last night, and we got to talking about old Mrs. Mulkey"s death--"
And so on, for perhaps a full hour. Martie, smiling over her darning, would hear Alice"s gratifying, "Well, for pity!" and "Did you EVER!" at intervals. Sometimes she herself contributed something, a similar case in New York, perhaps, but the others were not interested. They knew, without ever having expressed it, that there is no intimacy like that of a small village, no novelty or horror that comes so closely home to the people of the Eastern metropolis as did these Monroe events to their own lives.
Martie loved her sister, and they came to understand each other"s ways perfectly. Teddy was happy with Aunt Lyd when his mother was at the Library, and Lydia liked her authority over the child and his companionship. There was no peace in the old house, for all her silent meekness, unless Lydia"s curious sense of justice was satisfied, and Martie took pains to satisfy it.
One memorable day, just before Christmas, Martie opened a small package, to find John Dryden"s book. She was in the Library when Miss f.a.n.n.y came in with the mail, and her hand trembled as she cut the strings. The flimsy tissue paper jacket blew softly over her hand; a dark blue book, slim, dignified: "Mary Beatrice."
He had not autographed it, but then John would never think of doing so.
Martie smiled her motherly smile at the memory of his childish dependence upon her suggestions as to the smaller points of living. Her letter of congratulation began to run through her mind as she turned the t.i.tle page.
Suddenly her heart stopped beating. She wet her lips and glanced about.
Miss f.a.n.n.y had gone into the coat-room; n.o.body was near.
Oh, madman, madman! He had dedicated it to her! A detected felony could not have given Martie a more sinking sensation than she experienced at the sight.
Her initials: M. S. B.--she need puzzle only a second over the selection, for her letters to him were always signed, "Martha Salisbury, Bannister." And under the initials, this:
Even as to Caesar, Ca.s.sar"s toll, To G.o.d what in us is divine; So to your soul above my soul Whatever life finds good in mine. Martie read the four lines as many times, then she lifted the page to her cheek, and held it there, shutting her eyes, and drawing a deep, ecstatic breath.
"Oh, John, JOHN, how wonderful of you!" she whispered, her heart rising on a swift, triumphant flight. Ah, this was something to have brought from the long years; this counted in that inner tribunal of hers.
After awhile she began to turn the pages, wishing that she were a better judge of all these phrases. The play was short: three brief acts.
"I think it"s wonderful!" Martie decided. "I KNOW it is!"
For the little volume, even at this first quick glimpse, was stamped with something fiery and strange. Martie"s eyes drifted here and there; presently fell upon the lines that brought the frightened little Italian princess, fresh from her convent, to the strange coast of England, and to the welcome of the strange King, her prospective husband"s brother. The words were simplicity"s self, like all inspired words, yet they brought the colour to Martie"s face, and a yearning pain to her heart. Youth and love in all their first gold glory were captured here, and something of youth and glory seemed to flood the Library throughout the quiet winter afternoon.
The hours droned on, Martie, moving noiselessly about, and touching the switch that suddenly lighted the dim big room, paused at the window to look down upon Monroe. An early twilight was creeping into the village street, and the drug-store windows glowed with globes of purple and green. The shops were already disguised under bushy evergreens; wreaths of red and green paper made circles of steam against the show windows.
Silva, of the fruit market opposite, was selling a Christmas tree from the score that lay at the curb, to a stout country woman, whose shabby, well-wrapped children watched the transaction breathlessly from a mud-spattered surrey. The Baxter girls went by, Martie saw them turn into the church yard, and disappear into the swinging black doors, "for a little visit."
Nothing dramatic or beautiful in the scene: a little Western village street, on the eve of Christmas Eve, but to-night it was lighted for Martie with poetry and romance. The thought of a slim, dark-blue book with its four magic lines thrilled in her heart like a song.
"Christmas day after to-morrow!" she said to f.a.n.n.y, "don"t you love Christmas?"
But she knew that her real Christmas joy had come to-day.
The December kitchen was gas-lighted long before she got there, and Pauline was deep in calm preparation for dinner. Pauline was a Canadian girl, and if her work ever confused or fatigued her, at least she never betrayed the fact. There never were pots and pans awaiting cleaning in Pauline"s sink, there never was a teaspoonful of flour spilled upon her biscuit board. Her gingham cuffs were always starched and stiff, her colourless hair smooth. She was a silent, dun-coloured creature, whose most violent expression was an occasional deep, unctuous laugh at Mrs.
Bannister"s nonsense.