"My dear, he was doing it just for the time it took me to s.n.a.t.c.h the hammer away! I was so sorry!"
"Oh, that"s all right." He would yawn. "Lord, I feel rotten!"
"Isn"t it perhaps--drinking and smoking so much, Wallace?" Martie might venture timidly.
"That has nothing to do with it!"
"But, Wallie, how do you know it hasn"t?"
"Because I do know it!"
He would return to his paper, and Martie to her own thoughts. She would yawn stupidly, when he yawned, in the warm, close air. Sometimes she went into the tumbled bedrooms and put them in order, gathering up towels and scattered garments. But usually Wallace did not bathe until after his breakfast, and nothing could be done until that was over.
Equally, Martie"s affairs kitchenward were delayed; sometimes Wallace"s rolls were still warming in the oven when she put in Teddy"s luncheon potato to bake. The groceries ordered by telephone would arrive, and be piled over the unwashed dishes on the table, the frying pan burned dry over and over again.
After Teddy and his mother had lunched, if Wallace was free, they all went out together. He was devoted to the boy, and broke ruthlessly into his little schedule of hours and meals for his own amus.e.m.e.nt. Or he and Martie went alone to a matinee. But when he was playing in vaudeville, even if he lived at home, he must be at the theatre at four and at nine. Often on Sunday afternoons he went out to meet his friends, to drift about the theatrical clubs and hotels, and dine away from home.
Then Martie would take Teddy out, happy times for both. They went to the library, to the museums, to the aquarium and the Zoo. Martie came to love the second-hand book-stores, where she could get George Eliot"s novels for ten cents each, a complete Shakespeare for twenty-five. She drank in the pa.s.sing panorama of the streets: the dripping "L"
stations, the light of the chestnut dealer, a blowing flame in the cold and dark, the dirty powder of snow blowing along icy sidewalks, and the newspapers weighted down at corner stands with pennies lying here and there in informal exchange. Cold, rosy faces poured into the subway hoods, warm, pale faces poured out, wet feet slipped on the frozen rubbish of the sidewalks, little salesgirls gossiped cheerfully as they dangled on straps in the packed cars.
Often Martie and Teddy had their supper at Childs", in the clean warm brightness of marble and nickel-plate. Teddy knew their waitress and chattered eagerly over his rice and milk. Martie had a sandwich and coffee, watching the shabby fingers that fumbled for five-cent tips, the anxious eyes studying the bill-of-fare, the pale little working-women who favoured a supper of b.u.t.ter cakes and lemon meringue pie after the hard day.
She would go home to find the breakfast dishes waiting, the beds unmade, the bathroom still steamed from Wallace"s ablutions. Teddy tucked away for the night, she would dream over a half-sensed book. Why make the bed she was so soon to get into? Why wash the dishes now rather than wait until she was in her comfortable wrapper? She went back to her old habit of nibbling candy as she read.
The jolly little Bohemian suppers she had foreseen never became a reality. Wallace hated cheap food; he was done with little restaurants, he said. More than that, among his friends there did not seem to be any of those simple, busy, gifted artists to whose acquaintance Martie had looked forward. The more distinguished members of his company he hardly knew; the others were semi-successful men like himself, women too poor and too busy to waste time or money, or other women of a more or less recognized looseness of morals. Martie detested them, their cologne, their boasting, their insinuations as to the personal lives of every actor or actress who might be mentioned. They had no reserves, no respect for love or marriage or parenthood; they told stories entirely beyond her understanding, and went about eating, drinking, dressing, and dancing as if these things were all the business of life.
Wallace"s favourite hospitality was extended to six silent, overdressed, genial male friends, known as "the crowd." These he frequently asked to dinner on Sunday nights, a hard game of poker always following. Martie did not play, but she liked to watch her husband"s hands, and during this winter he attributed his phenomenal good luck to her. He never lost, and he always parted generously with such sums as he won. He loved his luck; the envious comments of the other players delighted him; the good dinner, and the presence of his beautiful wife always put him in his best mood. They called him "Three deuces Wallie," and Martie"s remark that his weight was also "Two--two--two" pa.s.sed for wit.
She took his winnings without shame. It was to take them, indeed, that she endured the long, silent evening, with its incessant muttering and shuffling and slapping of cards. The gas whined and rasped above their heads, the air grew close and heavy with smoke. Ash-trays were loaded with the stumps and ashes of cigars; sticky beer gla.s.ses ringed the bare table. But Martie stuck to her post. At one o"clock it would all be over, and Wallace, carrying a gla.s.s of whisky-and-soda to his room, would be undressing between violent yawns and amused recollections.
"Some of that comes to me, Wallie. I have the rent coming this week!"
"Sure. Take all you want, old girl. You"re tired, aren"t you?"
"Tired and cold." Martie"s circulation was not good now, and she knew why. Her meals had lost their interest, and sometimes even Teddy"s claims were neglected. She was sleepy, tired, heavy all the time. "When I see a spoon lying on the dining-room floor, and realize that it will lie there until I pick it up I could scream!" she told Wallace.
"It"s a shame, poor old girl!"
"Oh, no--it"s all right." She would blink back the tears. "I"m not sorry!"
But she was sorry and afraid. She resented Wallace"s easy sympathy, resented the doctor"s advice to rest, not to worry, his mild observation that a good deal of discomfort was inevitable.
Early in the new year she began to agitate the question of a dinner to the Drydens. Wallace, who had taken a fancy to Adele, agreed lazily to endure John"s company, which he did not enjoy, for one evening. But he obstinately overruled Martie on the subject of a dinner at home.
"Nix," said Wallace flatly. "I won"t have my wife cooking for anybody!"
"But Wallace--just grape-fruit and broilers and a salad! And they"ll come out and help cook it. You don"t know how informally we did things at Grandma"s!"
"Well, you"re not doing things informally now. It would be different if you had a couple of servants!"
"But it may be years before we have a couple of servants. Aren"t we ever going to entertain, until then?"
"I don"t know anything about that. But I tell you I won"t have them thinking that we"re hard up. I"ll take them to a restaurant somewhere, and show that little b.o.o.b a square meal!"
He finally selected an oppressively magnificent restaurant where a dollar-and-a-half table-d"hote dinner was served.
"But I"d like to blow them to a real dinner!" he regretted.
"Oh, Wallace, I"m not trying to impress them! We"ll have more than enough to eat, and music, and a talk. Then we can break up at about ten, and we"ll have done the decent thing!"
The four were to meet at half-past six, but both Adele and Wallace were late, and John and Martie had half an hour"s talk while they waited.
Martie fairly bubbled in her joy at the chance to speak of books and poems, ideals and reforms again. She told him frankly and happily that she had missed him; she had wanted to see him so many times! And he looked tired; he had had grippe?
"Always motherly!" he said, a smile on the strange mouth, but no corresponding smile in the faunlike eyes.
Wallace arrived in a bad mood, as Martie instantly perceived. But Adele, radiant in a new hat, was prettily concerned for his cold and fatigue, and they were quickly escorted to a table near the fountain, and supplied with c.o.c.ktails. Cheered, Wallace demanded the bill-of-fare, "the table-d"hote, Handsome!" said he to the appreciative waiter.
The man lowered his head and murmured obsequiously. The table-d"hote dinner was served only on the balcony, sir.
This caused a halt in the rising gaiety. The group looked a little blank. They were established here, the ladies had surrendered their wraps, envious late-comers were eying their table. Still Martie did not hesitate. She straightened back in her chair, and pushed her hands at full length upon the table, preliminary to rising.
"Then we"ll go up!" she said sensibly. But Wallace demurred. What was the difference! They would stay here.
The difference proved to be about twenty dollars.
"I hope it was worth it to you!" Wallace said bitterly to his wife at breakfast the next day. "Twenty-six dollars the check was. It was worth about twenty-six cents to me!"
"But, Wallie, you didn"t have to order wine!"
"I didn"t expect to order it, and if that b.o.o.b had had the sense to know it, it was up to him to pay for it!"
"Why, he"s a perfect babe-in-the-woods about such things, Wallie! And none of us wanted it!" Martie tried to speak quietly, but at the memory of the night before her anger began to smoulder. Wallace had deliberately urged the ordering of wine, John quite as innocently disclaimed it. Adele had laughed that she could always manage a gla.s.s of champagne; Martie had merely murmured, "But we don"t need it, Wallie; we"ve had so much now!"
"We couldn"t sit there holding that table down all evening," Wallace said now. Martie with a great effort kept silence. Opening his paper, her husband finished the subject sharply. "I want to tell you right now, Mart, that with me ordering the dinner, it was up to him to pay for the wine! Any man would know that! Ask any one of the crowd. He"s a b.o.o.b, that"s all, and I"m done with him!"
Martie rose, and went quietly into the kitchen. There was nothing to say. She did not speak of the Drydens again for a long while. Her own condition engrossed her; and she was not eager to take the initiative in hospitality or anything else.
In April Wallace went on the road again for eleven weeks, and Martie and Ted enjoyed a delicious spring together. They spent hours on the omnibuses, hours in the parks. Spring in the West was cold, erratic; spring here came with what a heavenly wash of fragrance and heat! It was like a re-birth to abandon all the heavy clothing of the winter, to send Teddy dancing into the sunshine in socks and galatea and straw hat again!
Martie"s son was almost painfully dear to her. Every hour of his life, from the helpless days in the big hospital, through creeping and stammering and stumbling, she had clung to his little phases with hungry adoration, and that there was a deep sympathy between their two natures she came to feel more strongly every day. They talked confidentially together, his little body jolting against hers on the jolting omnibus, or leaning against her knees as she sat in the Park.
She lingered in the lonely evening over the ceremony of his bath, his undressing, his prayers, and the romping that was always the last thing. For his sake, her love went out to meet the newcomer; another soft little Teddy to watch and bathe and rock to sleep; the reign of double-gowns and safety-pins and bottles again! Writing Wallace one of the gossipy, detailed letters that acknowledged his irregular checks, she said that they must move in the fall. They really, truly needed a better neighbourhood, a better nursery for "the children."
One hot, heavy July morning she fell into serious musing over the news of Grandma Curley"s death. Her son, a spoiled idler of forty, inherited the business. He wanted to know if Mrs. Bannister could come back. The house had never prospered so well as under her management. She could make her own terms.
The sun was pouring into East Twenty-sixth Street, flashing an ugly glaring reflection against the awnings. At nine, the day was burning hot. Teddy, promised a trip to the Zoo, was loitering on the shady steps of the houses opposite, conscious of clean clothes, and of a holiday mood. The street was empty; a hurdy-gurdy unseen poured forth a bra.s.sy flood of sound. Trains, on the elevated road at the corner, crashed by. Martie had been packing a lunch; she went slowly back to the cut loaf and the rapidly softening b.u.t.ter.
"Happy, Teddy?" she asked, when they had found seats in the train, and were rushing over the baking stillness of the city.
"Are you, Moth"?" he asked quickly.