Mary Barton

Chapter 56

"Eh, lad!" she said, when she found voice to speak. "See what it is to have behaved thysel! I could put in a good word for thee, and the jury could na go and hang thee in the face of th" character I gave thee. Was na it a good thing they did na keep me from Liverpool? But I would come; I knew I could do thee good, bless thee, my lad. But thou"rt very white, and all of a tremble."

He kissed her again and again, but looking round as if searching for some one he could not find, the first words he uttered were still--

"Where is she?"

x.x.xIII. REQUIESCAT IN PACE.

"Fear no more the heat o" th" sun, Nor the furious winter"s rages; Thou thy wordly task hast done, Home art gone and ta"en thy wages.



--Cymbeline.

"While day and night can bring delight, Or nature aught of pleasure give; While joys above my mind can move, For thee, and thee alone I live:

"When that grim foe of joy below Comes in between to make us part, The iron hand that breaks our band, It breaks my bliss--it breaks my heart."

--BURNS.

She was where no words of peace, no soothing hopeful tidings could reach her; in the ghastly spectral world of delirium. Hour after hour, day after day, she started up with pa.s.sionate cries on her father to save Jem; or rose wildly, imploring the winds and waves, the pitiless winds and waves, to have mercy; and over and over again she exhausted her feverish fitful strength in these agonised entreaties, and fell back powerless, uttering only the wailing moans of despair. They told her Jem was safe, they brought him before her eyes; but sight and hearing were no longer channels of information to that poor distracted brain, nor could human voice penetrate to her understanding.

Jem alone gathered the full meaning of some of her strange sentences, and perceived that, by some means or other, she, like himself, had divined the truth of her father being the murderer.

Long ago (reckoning time by events and thoughts, and not by clock or dial-plate), Jem had felt certain that Mary"s father was Harry Carson"s murderer; and although the motive was in some measure a mystery, yet a whole train of circ.u.mstances (the princ.i.p.al of which was that John Barton had borrowed the fatal gun only two days before) had left no doubt in Jem"s mind. Sometimes he thought that John had discovered, and thus bloodily resented, the attentions which Mr. Carson had paid to his daughter; at others, he believed the motive to exist in the bitter feuds between the masters and their work-people, in which Barton was known to take so keen an interest. But if he had felt himself pledged to preserve this secret, even when his own life was the probable penalty, and he believed he should fall execrated by Mary as the guilty destroyer of her lover, how much more was he bound now to labour to prevent any word of hers from inculpating her father, now that she was his own; now that she had braved so much to rescue him; and now that her poor brain had lost all guiding and controlling power over her words.

All that night long Jem wandered up and down the narrow precincts of Ben Sturgis"s house. In the little bedroom where Mrs. Sturgis alternately tended Mary, and wept over the violence of her illness, he listened to her ravings; each sentence of which had its own peculiar meaning and reference, intelligible to his mind, till her words rose to the wild pitch of agony, that no one could alleviate, and he could bear it no longer, and stole, sick and miserable, downstairs, where Ben Sturgis thought it his duty to snore away in an arm-chair instead of his bed, under the idea that he should thus be more ready for active service, such as fetching the doctor to revisit his patient.

Before it was fairly light, Jem (wide awake, and listening with an earnest attention he could not deaden, however painful its results proved) heard a gentle subdued knock at the house door; it was no business of his, to be sure, to open it, but as Ben slept on, he thought he would see who the early visitor might be, and ascertain if there was any occasion for disturbing either host or hostess. It was Job Legh who stood there, distinct against the outer light of the street.

"How is she? Eh! poor soul! is that her? No need to ask! How strange her voice sounds! Screech! screech! and she so low, sweet-spoken, when she"s well! Thou must keep up heart, old boy, and not look so dismal, thysel."

"I can"t help it, Job; it"s past a man"s bearing to hear such a one as she is, going on as she is doing; even if I did not care for her, it would cut me sore to see one so young, and--I can"t speak of it, Job, as a man should do," said Jem, his sobs choking him.

"Let me in, will you?" said Job, pushing past him, for all this time Jem had stood holding the door, unwilling to admit Job where he might hear so much that would be suggestive to one acquainted with the parties that Mary named.

"I"d more than one reason for coming betimes. I wanted to hear how yon poor wench was--that stood first. Late last night I got a letter from Margaret, very anxious-like. The doctor says the old lady yonder can"t last many days longer, and it seems so lonesome for her to die with no one but Margaret and Mrs. Davenport about her. So I thought I"d just come and stay with Mary Barton, and see as she"s well done to, and you and your mother and Will go and take leave of old Alice."

Jem"s countenance, sad at best just now, fell lower and lower. But Job went on with his speech.

"She still wanders, Margaret says, and thinks she"s with her mother at home; but for all that, she should have some kith and kin near her to close her eyes, to my thinking."

"Could not you and Will take mother home? I"d follow when"--Jem faltered out thus far, when Job interrupted--

"Lad! if thou knew what thy mother has suffered for thee, thou"d not speak of leaving her just when she"s got thee from the grave as it were. Why, this very night she roused me up, and "Job," says she, "I ask your pardon for wakening you, but tell me, am I awake or dreaming? Is Jem proved innocent? O Job Legh! G.o.d send I"ve not been only dreaming it!" For thou see"st she can"t rightly understand why thou"rt with Mary, and not with her. Ay, ay! I know why; but a mother only gives up her son"s heart inch by inch to his wife, and then she gives it up with a grudge. No, Jem! thou must go with thy mother just now, if ever thou hopest for G.o.d"s blessing.

She"s a widow, and has none but thee. Never fear for Mary! She"s young, and will struggle through. They are decent people, these folk she is with, and I"ll watch o"er her as though she was my own poor girl, that lies cold enough in London town. I grant ye, it"s hard enough for her to be left among strangers. To my mind, John Barton would be more in the way of his duty, looking after his daughter, than delegating it up and down the country, looking after every one"s business but his own."

A new idea and a new fear came into Jem"s mind. What if Mary should implicate her father?

"She raves terribly," said he. "All night long she"s been speaking of her father, and mixing up thoughts of him with the trial she saw yesterday. I should not wonder if she"ll speak of him as being in court next thing."

"I should na wonder, either," answered Job. "Folk in her way say many and many a strange thing; and th" best way is never to mind them. Now you take your mother home, Jem, and stay by her till old Alice is gone, and trust me for seeing after Mary."

Jem felt how right Job was, and could not resist what he knew to be his duty, but I cannot tell you how heavy and sick at heart he was as he stood at the door to take a last fond, lingering look at Mary.

He saw her sitting up in bed, her golden hair, dimmed with her one day"s illness, floating behind her, her head bound round with wetted cloths, her features all agitated, even to distortion, with the pangs of her anxiety.

Her lover"s eyes filled with tears. He could not hope. The elasticity of his heart had been crushed out of him by early sorrows; and now, especially, the dark side of everything seemed to be presented to him. What if she died, just when he knew the treasure, the untold treasure he possessed in her love! What if (worse than death) she remained a poor gibbering maniac all her life long (and mad people do live to be old sometimes, even under all the pressure of their burden), terror-distracted as she was now, and no one able to comfort her!

"Jem," said Job, partly guessing the other"s feelings by his own.

"Jem!" repeated he, arresting his attention before he spoke. Jem turned round, the little motion causing the tears to overflow and trickle down his cheeks. "Thou must trust in G.o.d, and leave her in His hands." He spoke hushed, and low; but the words sank all the more into Jem"s heart, and gave him strength to tear himself away.

He found his mother (notwithstanding that she had but just regained her child through Mary"s instrumentality) half inclined to resent his having pa.s.sed the night in anxious devotion to the poor invalid.

She dwelt on the duties of children to their parents (above all others), till Jem could hardly believe the relative positions they had held only yesterday, when she was struggling with and controlling every instinct of her nature, only because HE wished it.

However, the recollection of that yesterday, with its hair"s-breadth between him and a felon"s death, and the love that had lightened the dark shadow, made him bear with the meekness and patience of a true-hearted man all the worrying little acerbities of to-day; and he had no small merit in doing so; for in him, as in his mother, the reaction after intense excitement had produced its usual effect in increased irritability of the nervous system.

They found Alice alive, and without pain. And that was all. A child of a few weeks old would have had more bodily strength; a child of a very few months old, more consciousness of what was pa.s.sing before her. But even in this state she diffused an atmosphere of peace around her. True, Will, at first, wept pa.s.sionate tears at the sight of her, who had been as a mother to him, so standing on the confines of life. But even now, as always, loud pa.s.sionate feeling could not long endure in the calm of her presence. The firm faith which her mind had no longer power to grasp, had left its trail of glory; for by no other word can I call the bright happy look which illumined the old earth-worn face. Her talk, it is true, bore no more that constant earnest reference to G.o.d and His holy Word which it had done in health, and there were no deathbed words of exhortation from the lips of one so habitually pious. For still she imagined herself once again in the happy, happy realms of childhood; and again dwelling in the lovely northern haunts where she had so often longed to be. Though earthly sight was gone away, she beheld again the scenes she had loved from long years ago! she saw them without a change to dim the old radiant hues. The long dead were with her, fresh and blooming as in those bygone days. And death came to her as a welcome blessing, like as evening comes to the weary child. Her work here was finished, and faithfully done.

What better sentence can an emperor wish to have said over his bier?

In second childhood (that blessing clouded by a name), she said her "Nunc Dimittis"--the sweetest canticle to the holy.

"Mother, good-night! Dear mother! bless me once more! I"m very tired, and would fain go to sleep." She never spoke again on this side heaven.

She died the day after their return from Liverpool. From that time, Jem became aware that his mother was jealously watching for some word or sign which should betoken his wish to return to Mary. And yet go to Liverpool he must and would, as soon as the funeral was over, if but for a simple glimpse of his darling. For Job had never written; indeed, any necessity for his so doing had never entered his head. If Mary died, he would announce it personally; if she recovered, he meant to bring her home with him. Writing was to him little more than an auxiliary to natural history; a way of ticketing specimens, not of expressing thoughts.

The consequence of this want of intelligence as to Mary"s state was, that Jem was constantly antic.i.p.ating that every person and every sc.r.a.p of paper was to convey to him the news of her death. He could not endure this state long; but he resolved not to disturb the house by announcing to his mother his purposed intention of returning to Liverpool, until the dead had been buried forth.

On Sunday afternoon they laid her low with many tears. Will wept as one who would not be comforted.

The old childish feeling came over him, the feeling of loneliness at being left among strangers.

By-and-by, Margaret timidly stole near him, as if waiting to console; and soon his pa.s.sion sank down to grief, and grief gave way to melancholy, and though he felt as if he never could be joyful again, he was all the while unconsciously approaching nearer to the full happiness of calling Margaret his own, and a golden thread was interwoven even now with the darkness of his sorrow. Yet it was on his arm that Jane Wilson leant on her return homewards. Jem took charge of Margaret.

"Margaret, I"m bound for Liverpool by the first train to-morrow; I must set your grandfather at liberty."

"I"m sure he likes nothing better than watching over poor Mary; he loves her nearly as well as me. But let me go! I have been so full of poor Alice, I"ve never thought of it before; I can"t do so much as many a one, but Mary will like to have a woman about her that she knows. I"m sorry I waited to be reminded, Jem," replied Margaret, with some little self-reproach.

But Margaret"s proposition did not at all agree with her companion"s wishes. He found he had better speak out, and put his intention at once to the right motive; the subterfuge about setting Job Legh at liberty had done him harm instead of good.

"To tell truth, Margaret, it"s I that must go, and that for my own sake, not your grandfather"s. I can rest neither by night nor day for thinking on Mary. Whether she lives or dies, I look on her as my wife before G.o.d, as surely and solemnly as if we were married.

So being, I have the greatest right to look after her, and I cannot yield it even to"--

"Her father," said Margaret, finishing his interrupted sentence.

"It seems strange that a girl like her should be thrown on the bare world to struggle through so bad an illness. No one seems to know where John Barton is, else I thought of getting Morris to write him a letter telling him about Mary. I wish he was home, that I do!"

Jem could not echo this wish.

"Mary"s not bad off for friends where she is," said he. "I call them friends, though a week ago we none of us knew there were such folks in the world. But being anxious and sorrowful about the same thing makes people friends quicker than anything, I think. She"s like a mother to Mary in her ways; and he bears a good character, as far as I could learn just in that hurry. We"re drawing near home, and I"ve not said my say, Margaret. I want you to look after mother a bit. She"ll not like my going, and I"ve got to break it to her yet. If she takes it very badly, I"ll come back to-morrow night; but if she"s not against it very much, I mean to stay till it"s settled about Mary, one way or the other. Will, you know, will be there, Margaret, to help a bit in doing for mother."

Will"s being there made the only objection Margaret saw to this plan. She disliked the idea of seeming to throw herself in his way, and yet she did not like to say anything of this feeling to Jem, who had all along seemed perfectly unconscious of any love-affair, besides his own, in progress.

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