At first I was angry,--just plain angry; and I was frightened, too, for I couldn"t help worrying about Mother--for fear she would mind, you know, when she found out that it was Theresa that he cared for, after all. I remembered what a lot Mother had been with him, and the pretty dresses and hats she"d put on for him, and all that. And I thought how she"d broken engagements with Mr. Easterbrook to go with him, and it made me angry all over again. And I thought how _mean_ it was of him to use poor Mother as a kind of shield to hide his courting of Theresa! I was angry, too, to have my love story all spoiled, when I was getting along so beautifully with Mother and the violinist.
But I"m feeling better now. I"ve been thinking it over. I don"t believe Mother"s going to care so very much. I don"t believe she"d _want_ a man that would pretend to come courting her, when all the while he was really courting the hired girl--I mean maid. Besides, there"s Mr. Easterbrook left (and one or two others that I haven"t said much about, as I didn"t think they had much chance). And so far as the love story for the book is concerned, _that_ isn"t spoiled, after all, for it will be ever so much more exciting to have the violinist fall in love with Theresa than with Mother, for, of course, Theresa isn"t in the same station of life at all, and that makes it a--a mess-alliance. (I don"t remember exactly what that word is; but I know it means an alliance that makes a mess of things because the lovers are not equal to each other.) Of course, for the folks who have to live it, it may not be so nice; but for my story here this makes it all the more romantic and thrilling. So _that"s_ all right.
Of course, so far, I"m the only one that knows, for I haven"t told it, and I"m the only one that"s seen anything. Of course, I shall warn Mother, if I think it"s necessary, so she"ll understand it isn"t her, but Theresa, that the violinist is really in love with and courting.
_She_ won"t mind, I"m sure, after she thinks of it a minute. And won"t it be a good joke on Aunt Hattie and Grandfather when they find out they"ve been fooled all the time, supposing it"s Mother, and worrying about it?
Oh, I don"t know! This is some love story, after all!
_Two days later._
Well, I should say it was! What do you suppose has happened now? Why, that wretched violinist is nothing but a deep-dyed villain! Listen what he did. He proposed to Mother--actually proposed to her--and after all he"d said to that Theresa girl, about his being perfectly happy if he could marry _her_. And Mother--Mother all the time not knowing! Oh, I"m so glad I was there to rescue her! I don"t mean at the proposal--I didn"t hear that. But afterward.
It was like this.
They had been out automobiling--Mother and the violinist. He came for her at three o"clock. He said it was a beautiful warm day, and maybe the last one they"d have this year; and she must go. And she went.
I was in my favorite window-seat, reading, when they came home and walked into the library. They never looked my way at all, but just walked toward the fireplace. And there he took hold of both her hands and said:
"Why must you wait, darling? Why can"t you give me my answer now, and make me the happiest man in all the world?"
"Yes, yes, I know," answered Mother; and I knew by her voice that she was all shaky and trembly. "But if I could only be sure--sure of myself."
"But, dearest, you"re sure of me!" cried the violinist. "You _know_ how I love you. You know you"re the only woman I have ever loved, or ever could love!"
Yes, just like that he said it--that awful lie--and to my mother. My stars! Do you suppose I waited to hear any more? I guess not!
[Ill.u.s.tration: "WHY MUST YOU WAIT, DARLING?"]
I fairly tumbled off my seat, and my book dropped with a bang, as I ran forward. Dear, dear, but how they did jump--both of them! And I guess they _were_ surprised. I never thought how "twas going to affect them--my breaking in like that. But I didn"t wait--not a minute. And I didn"t apologize, or say "Excuse me," or any of those things that I suppose I ought to have done. I just started right in and began to talk. And I talked hard and fast, and lots of it.
I don"t know now what I said, but I know I asked him what he meant by saying such an awful lie to my mother, when he"d just said the same thing, exactly "most, to Theresa, and he"d hugged her and kissed her, and everything. I"d _seen_ him. And--
But I didn"t get a chance to say half I wanted to. I was going on to tell him what I thought of him; but Mother gasped out, "Marie! _Marie!
Stop_!"
And then I stopped. I had to, of course. Then she said that would do, and I might go to my room. And I went. And that"s all I know about it, except that she came up, after a little, and said for me not to talk any more about it, to her, or to any one else; and to please try to forget it.
I tried to tell her what I"d seen, and what I"d heard that wicked, deep-dyed villain say; but she wouldn"t let me. She shook her head, and said, "Hush, hush, dear"; and that no good could come of talking of it, and she wanted me to forget it. She was very sweet and very gentle, and she smiled; but there were stern corners to her mouth, even when the smile was there. And I guess she told him what was what.
Anyhow, I know they had quite a talk before she came up to me, for I was watching at the window for him to go; and when he did go he looked very red and cross, and he stalked away with a never-will-I-darken-this-door-again kind of a step, just as far as I could see him.
I don"t know, of course, what will happen next, nor whether he"ll ever come back for Theresa; but I shouldn"t think even _she_ would want him, after this, if she found out.
And now where"s _my_ love story coming in, I should like to know?
_Two days after Christmas_.
Another wonderful thing has happened. I"ve had a letter from Father--from _Father_--a _letter_--ME!
It came this morning. Mother brought it in to me. She looked queer--a little. There were two red spots in her cheeks, and her eyes were very bright.
"I think you have a letter here from--your father," she said, handing it out.
She hesitated before the "your father" just as she always does. And "tisn"t hardly ever that she mentions his name, anyway. But when she does, she always stops a funny little minute before it, just as she did to-day.
And perhaps I"d better say right here, before I forget it, that Mother has been different, some way, ever since that time when the violinist proposed. I don"t think she _cares_ really--about the violinist, I mean--but she"s just sort of upset over it. I heard her talking to Aunt Hattie one day about it, and she said:
"To think such a thing could happen--to _me_! And when for a minute I was really hesitating and thinking that maybe I _would_ take him. Oh, Hattie!"
And Aunt Hattie put her lips together with her most I-told-you-so air, and said:
"It was, indeed, a narrow escape, Madge; and it ought to show you the worth of a real man. There"s Mr. Easterbrook, now--"
But Mother wouldn"t even listen then. She pooh-poohed and tossed her head, and said, "Mr. Easterbrook, indeed!" and put her hands to her ears, laughing, but in earnest just the same, and ran out of the room.
And she doesn"t go so much with Mr. Easterbrook as she did. Oh, she goes with him some, but not enough to make it a bit interesting--for this novel, I mean--nor with any of the others, either. In fact, I"m afraid there isn"t much chance now of Mother"s having a love story to make this book right. Only the other day I heard her tell Grandfather and Aunt Hattie that _all_ men were a delusion and a snare. Oh, she laughed as she said it. But she was in earnest, just the same. I could see that. And she doesn"t seem to care much for any of the different men that come to see her. She seems to ever so much rather stay with me. In fact, she stays with me a lot these days--almost all the time I"m out of school, indeed. And she talks with me--oh, she talks with me about lots of things. (I love to have her talk with me. You know there"s a lot of difference between talking _with_ folks and _to_ folks. Now, Father always talks _to_ folks.)
One day it was about getting married that Mother talked with me, and I said I was so glad that when you didn"t like being married, or got tired of your husband, you could get _un_married, just as she did, and go back home and be just the same as you were before.
But Mother didn"t like that, at all. She said no, no, and that I mustn"t talk like that, and that you _couldn"t_ go back and be the same. And that she"d found it out. That she used to think you could.
But you couldn"t. She said it was like what she read once, that you couldn"t really be the same any more than you could put the dress you were wearing back on the shelf in the store, and expect it to turn back into a fine long web of cloth all folded up nice and tidy, as it was in the first place. And, of course, you couldn"t do that--after the cloth was all cut up into a dress!
She said more things, too; and after Father"s letter came she said still more. Oh, and I haven"t told yet about the letter, have I? Well, I will now.
As I said at first, Mother brought it in and handed it over to me, saying she guessed it was from Father. And I could see she was wondering what could be in it. But I guess she wasn"t wondering any more than _I_ was, only I was gladder to get it than she was, I suppose. Anyhow, when she saw _how_ glad I was, and how I jumped for the letter, she drew back, and looked somehow as if she"d been hurt, and said:
"I did not know, Marie, that a letter from--your father would mean so much to you."
I don"t know what I did say to that. I guess I didn"t say anything.
I"d already begun to read the letter, and I was in such a hurry to find out what he"d said.
I"ll copy it here. It wasn"t long. It was like this:
MY DEAR MARY:
Some way Christmas has made me think of you. I wish I had sent you some gift. Yet I have not the slightest idea what would please you. To tell the truth, I tried to find something--but had to give it up.
I am wondering if you had a good time, and what you did. After all, I"m pretty sure you did have a good time, for you are Marie now. You see I have not forgotten how tired you got of being--Mary. Well, well, I do not know as I can blame you.
And now that I have asked what you did for Christmas, I suspect it is no more than a fair turnabout to tell you what I did. I suppose I had a very good time. Your Aunt Jane says I did. I heard her telling one of the neighbors that last night. She said she left no stone unturned to give me a good time. So, of course, I must have had a good time.
She had a very fine dinner, and she invited Mrs. Darling and Miss Snow and Miss Sanborn to eat it with us. She said she didn"t want me to feel lonesome. But you can feel real lonesome in a crowd sometimes. Did you know that, Mary?
But I left them to their chatter after dinner and went out to the observatory. I think I must have fallen asleep on the couch there, for it was quite dark when I awoke. But I didn"t mind that, for there were some observations I wanted to take. It was a beautifully clear night, so I stayed there till nearly morning.
How about it? I suppose Marie plays the piano every day now, doesn"t she? The piano here hasn"t been touched since you went away. Oh, yes, it was touched once. Your aunt played hymns on it for a missionary meeting.