Alden took a small red book out of his pocket. With a pang, Rosemary recognised it. Was nothing to be left sacred to her? She longed to break from her hiding-place, face them both with stern accusing eyes, s.n.a.t.c.h the book which meant so much to her--ask for this much, at least, to keep. Yet she kept still, and listened helplessly, with the blood beating in her ears.
In his deep, musical voice, Alden read once more: _Her Gifts_. "That,"
he said, softly, "was the night I knew."
"Yes," Edith answered. "The night I found the book and brought it home."
Rosemary well remembered when Edith had found the book. Her strange sense of a dual self persisted, yet, none the less, her heart beat hard with pain.
He went on, choosing a line here and there as he turned the marked pages, but avoiding entirely some of the most beautiful sonnets because of their hopelessness. At last, holding her closer, he began:
[Sidenote: Suiting the Action to the Word]
"On this sweet bank your head thrice sweet and dear I lay, and spread your hair on either side, And see the new-born woodflowers bashful-eyed Look through the golden tresses here and there.
On these debatable borders of the year Spring"s foot half falters; scarce she yet may know The leafless blackthorn-blossom from the snow; And through her bowers the wind"s way still is clear."
"Oh!" breathed Rosemary, with her hands tightly clenched. "Dear G.o.d, have pity!"
Heedlessly, Alden went on:
"But April"s sun strikes down the glades to-day; So shut your eyes upturned, and feel my kiss Creep, as the Spring now thrills through every spray, Up your warm throat to your warm lips; for this----"
He dropped the book, lifted Edith"s chin and kissed her throat, then her mouth. She laid her hand upon his face. "Dear and lonely and hungry-hearted," she said; "how long you wanted me!"
"Yes," he murmured, "but I"ve found you now!"
How long they sat there, Rosemary never knew, for her senses were dulled. She did not hear their preparations for departure, but saw the boat swinging out into the current, with the sunset making golden glory of the river and of Edith"s hair. When the sound of the oars ceased, she rose, numb and cold, and came out into the open s.p.a.ce. She steadied herself for a moment upon the rock against which they had leaned.
[Sidenote: Another Thought]
"Service," she said to herself, "and sacrifice. Giving, and not receiving. Asking--not answer." Yet she saw that, even now, this could be neither sacrifice nor denial, because it was something she had never had.
She laughed, a trifle bitterly, and went on home, another thought keeping time with her footsteps. "The appointed thing comes at the appointed time in the appointed way. There is no terror save my own fear."
XVII
The Last Tryst
[Sidenote: A Double Self]
The shrill voices in the sitting-room rose higher and higher. Since the day Grandmother had read the article upon "Woman"s Birthright" to Matilda, the subject of Mrs. Lee"s hair had, as it were, been drowned in cuc.u.mber milk. When Rosemary came in from the kitchen, they appealed to her by common consent.
"Rosemary, have you ever heard of anybody taking a stool and a pail and goin" out to milk the cuc.u.mbers before breakfast?" This from Aunt Matilda.
"Rosemary, ain"t you seen the juice of wild cuc.u.mbers when they spit their seeds out and ain"t it just like milk, only some thicker?" This from Grandmother.
"I don"t know," Rosemary answered, mechanically. The queer sense of a double self persisted. One of her was calm and content, the other was rebellious--and hurt.
"Humph!" snorted Grandmother.
"Humph!" echoed Aunt Matilda
[Sidenote: Going for the Paper]
"It"s Thursday," Grandmother reminded her, "and I heard the mail train come in some time ago. You"d better leave the sweepin" an" go and get my paper."
"Yes, do," Aunt Matilda chimed in, with a sneer. "I can"t hardly wait for this week"s paper, more"n the other sufferin" five million can.
Maybe there"ll be a pattern for a cuc.u.mber milkin" stool in this week"s paper; somethin" made out of a soap-box, with cuc.u.mber leaves and blossoms painted on it with some green and yellow house paint that happens to be left over. And," she continued, "they"d ought to be a pail too, but I reckon a tin can"ll do, for the cuc.u.mbers I"ve seen so far don"t look as if they"d be likely to give much milk. We can paint the can green and paste a picture of a cuc.u.mber on the outside from the seed catalogue. Of course I ain"t got any freckles, but there"s nothin" like havin" plenty of cuc.u.mber milk in the house, with hot weather comin"
on."
Grandmother surveyed Matilda with a penetrating, icy stare. "You"ve got freckles on your mind," she said. "Rosemary, will you go to the post-office and not keep me waiting?"
The girl glanced at her brown gingham dress, and hesitated.
"You"re clean enough," Grandmother observed, tartly. "Anybody"d think you had a beau waitin" for you somewheres."
[Sidenote: Young People"s Calls]
She flushed to her temples, but did not speak. Her face was still red when she went out, wearing a brown straw hat three Summers old.
"The paper says," Grandmother continued, "that a blush is becomin" to some women, but Rosemary ain"t one that looks well with a red face. Do you suppose she has got a beau?"
"Can"t prove it by me," Matilda sighed, looking pensively out of the window. "That Marsh boy come to see her once, though."
"He didn"t come again, I notice, no more"n the minister did."
"No," Matilda rejoined, pointedly, with a searching glance at Grandmother, "and I reckon it was for the same reason. When young folks comes to see young folks, they don"t want old folks settin" in the room with "em all the time, talkin" about things they ain"t interested in."
"Young folks!" snorted Grandmother. "You was thirty!"
"That ought to be old enough to set alone with a man for a spell, especially if he"s a minister."
"I suppose you think," the old lady returned, swiftly gathering her ammunition for a final shot, "that the minister was minded to marry you.
I"ve told you more "n once that you"re better off the way you are.
Marriage ain"t much. I"ve been through it and I know."
[Sidenote: Face to Face]
With that, she sailed triumphantly out of the room, closing the door with a bang which had in it the sound of finality. Poor Miss Matilda gazed dreamily out of the window, treasuring the faint, fragrant memory of her lost romance. "If Rosemary has got a beau," she said to herself, "I hope she won"t let Ma scare him away from her."
At the post-office, Rosemary met Alden, face to face. She blushed and stammered when he spoke to her, answered his kindly questions in monosyllables, and, s.n.a.t.c.hing _The Household Guardian_ from the outstretched hand of the postmaster, hurried away.
Presently he overtook her. "Please, Rosemary," he said, "give me just a minute. I want to talk to you. I haven"t seen you for a long time."
"Yes?" She stopped, but could not raise her eyes to his face.