"Yes--I believe you. But this is very singular."
Sidney bit his nails, and reflected on this new discovery. After a few moments he said, "Mr. Gray, I have been forgiving you all the past torture for the sake of your kindness in allowing Mattie to const.i.tute herself my guardian."
"Rubbish!"
"My guardian angel, I might say; for she has saved me from despair, and turned my thoughts away from many deep and bitter things. I was turning against myself, my life, my G.o.d, in the very despair of being of use in the world, and she saved me. Do you blame her coming now?"
Mr. Gray took time to consider that question. He bit his nails in his turn, and looked steadily at the young man, who had altered very much for the better.
"I don"t find fault with the result--there!" and Mr. Gray looked as though he had made a great concession.
"You would not be a true minister if you did," said Sidney; "and you are not a true father if you don"t value the sterling gold in Mattie"s character. Pure gold, with no dross in the crucible--not an atom"s worth, as I"m a living sinner!"
"We"re all living sinners, young man," said he, getting up and beginning to pace the room, as he had paced it, preaching meanwhile, a month ago, and nearly driven Sidney Hinchford out of his mind.
"Do you object to sitting down?" asked Sidney, after bearing with these heavy perambulations for a time.
"Presently; I am going to speak to you in a minute."
"Not in the old fashion, please," said Sidney, quite plaintively; "although I can put up with more now; for Mattie"s sake I"ll even listen to a sermon, if you"ll give me fair warning when you"re going to begin, and how long it is likely to last."
"For your soul"s sake, as well as Mattie"s, you mean, I hope?"
"Anything--anything you like!"
"As careless of heavenly matters as ever, I believe. The task of reformation still unperformed--perhaps left for me, unworthy instrument that I am."
"Exactly."
"Eh?"
"We are all unworthy instruments as well as living sinners, you know,"
said Sidney, drily.
"And flippant, too--and on such a subject! But we shall change you in good time."
"And this morning, now, you will let me off with a small sermon?"
"I haven"t come to sermonize to-day," replied Mr. Gray, severely, "therefore do not give way to any groundless fears of torturing on my part."
"Thank you--thank you!"
"I have come to test your sense of justice--fairness of what is due to me from you, and Mattie."
"Test it, friend."
"Give me back my daughter!"
"Why, that"s what Brabantio says in the play; but I"ll give you a more gracious answer than he got. If you wish her to return with you--why, she must. I would not stop her," he added, with a sigh, "if it were in my power."
"You will persuade her to return with me."
"Was she happy with you?"
"Until your father died--yes."
"I will tell her," said Sidney; "that there is right on your side--Mattie will see that. There was right on hers, too, for she had made a solemn promise to a dying man, and she knew well enough that I was desolate. I will persuade her even, if you wish it, but----"
"Go on."
"But what harm is she doing here?"
"What harm!" echoed Mr. Gray, with an elevated voice; "why, harm to that good name which she has kept for years. What do you fancy people think of her being in this house?--her a stranger to you by blood, and you so young! Sir, she has risked her character by staying here--and I very much doubt if the world is likely to believe her own version of this extraordinary freak."
"Do you believe it?" asked Sidney.
"Well--I do."
"And I also--that makes two out of a very few for whose good opinion Mattie Gray cares."
"Whilst we are in the world we should care for the world"s opinion, Mr.
Hinchford."
"I think not, when it"s a false one. You, a minister, telling me to study the world!"
"I never said that--how aggravating you are, to be sure!"
"Pardon me," said Sidney, quickly; "a misinterpretation, Mr. Gray. And we must study the world after all--you"re right enough. Poor Mattie, what would she think of this hiss of slander in her ears?"
"I warned her of it--and she braved me."
"Ah! a brave girl, whose reward will come in a brighter world than this.
Well," he added, sadly, "go she must. I agree with you."
"I am very much obliged to you--I am going to shake hands with you."
Mr. Gray and Sidney Hinchford shook hands. Sidney held the minister"s tightly in his grip whilst he uttered the next words.
"You will bring her with you now and then, to hinder me from wholly sinking back," he said; "remember that she is but the one old friend of the past whom I care to know is by my side, and in whom I can trust.
Remember what she found me, what she leaves me, and if you are not wholly selfish, you will not always keep her away."
Mr. Gray was touched by this appeal--his old jealousy vanished completely--he was proud in his heart of this young man"s interest in Mattie.
"I promise that--until we go away, that is, of course."
"Go away!--whither?"
"Oh! nothing is settled--there was a little talk of appointing me a missionary abroad some time ago--a preacher at a foreign station, where the benighted require stirring words, and the preacher is expected to be continually stirring--preaching, I mean. But it is only talk, perhaps--they may have found a better man," he added, a little tetchily.