"That"s good! Miss Dorcas, look up there. See that moon! See that wisp of an old blanket dragging over her face! Do you mind coming out and walking up and down the road while we talk? I may think of one or two directions to give about your father."
Dorcas stepped forward with the light obedience given to happy tasking.
She paused as quickly.
"Oh!" she exclaimed. "I can"t. Father might wake up. I never leave him alone."
"Never mind, then! let"s sit right down here on the steps. After all, perhaps it"s pleasanter. What a garden! It"s like my mother"s. I could pick out every leaf in the dark, by the smell. But you"re alone, aren"t you? I"m not keeping you from any one?"
"Oh, no! I"m all alone, except father."
"Yes. The fact is, I went into your school to-day, and the teacher said she was coming here to-night. She offered to bring you a message, but I said I should come myself. I"m abominably late. I couldn"t get here any earlier."
"Oh, yes! Phoebe! She was here over an hour ago. Phoebe"s a real comfort to me." She was seated on the step above him, and it seemed very pleasant to her to hear his voice, without encountering also the challenge of his eyes.
"No, is she though?" The doctor suddenly faced round upon her. "Tell me about it!"
Then, quite to her surprise, Dorcas found herself talking under the spell of an interest so eager that it bore her on, entirely without her own guidance.
"Well, you see there"s a good many things I keep from father. He never"s been himself since mother died. She was the mainstay here. But he thinks the church prospers just the same, and I never"ve told him the attendance dropped off when they put up that "Piscopal building over to Sudleigh. You "ain"t lived here long enough to hear much about that, but it"s been a real trial to him. The summer boarders built it, and some rich body keeps it up; and our folks think it"s complete to go over there and worship, and get up and down, and say their prayers out loud."
The doctor laughed out.
"I"ve heard about it," said he. "You know what Brad Freeman told Uncle Eli Pike, when they went in to see how the service was managed?
Somebody found the places in the prayer-book for them, and Brad was quick-witted, and got on very well; but Eli kept dropping behind. Brad nudged him. "Read!" he said out loud. "Read like the devil!" I"ve heard that story on an average of twice a day since I came to Tiverton. I"m not tired of it yet!"
Miss Dorcas, too, had heard it, and shrunk from its undisguised profanity. Now she laughed responsively.
"I guess they do have queer ways," she owned. "Well, I never let father know any of our folks go over there. He"d be terrible tried. And I"ve made it my part in our meeting to keep up the young folks" interest as much as I can. I"ve been careful never to miss my Sunday-school cla.s.s.
They"re all girls, nice as new pins, every one of "em! Phoebe was in it till a little while ago, but now she comes here and sits in the kitchen while I"m gone. I don"t want father to know that, for I hope it never"ll come into his head he"s so helpless; but I should be worried to death to have him left alone. So Phoebe sits there with her book, ready to spring if she should hear anything out o" the way."
The doctor had lapsed into his absent mood, but now he roused himself, with sudden interest.
"That"s very good of her, isn"t it?" he said "You trust her, don"t you?"
"Trust Phoebe! Well, I guess I do! I"ve known her ever since she went to Number Five, and now she"s keeping the school herself. She"s a real n.o.ble girl!"
"Tell me more!" said the doctor, warmly. "I want to hear it all.
You"re so new to me here in Tiverton! I want to get acquainted."
Miss Dorcas suddenly felt as if she had been talking a great deal, and an overwhelming shyness fell upon her.
"There isn"t much to tell," she hesitated. "I don"t know"s anything"d happened to me for years, till father had his ill-turn in the spring, and we called you in. He don"t seem to realize his sickness was anything much. I"ve told the neighbors not to dwell on it when they"re with him. Phoebe won"t; she"s got some sense."
"Has she?" said the doctor, still eagerly. "I"m glad of that, for your sake!" He rose to go, but stood a moment near the steps, dallying with a reaching branch of jessamine; it seemed persuading him to stay. He had always a cheery manner, but to-night it was brightened by a dash of something warm and reckless. He had the air of one awaiting good news, in confidence of its coming. Dorcas was alive to the rapt contagion, and her own blood thrilled. She felt young.
"Well!" said he, "well, Miss Dorcas!" He took a step, and then turned back. "Well, Miss Dorcas," he said again, with an embarra.s.sed laugh, "perhaps you"d like to gather in one more church-goer. If I have time tomorrow, I"ll drop in to your service, and then I"ll come round here, and tell your father I went."
Dorcas rose impulsively. She could have stretched out her hands to him, in the warmth of her grat.i.tude.
"Oh, if you would! Oh, how pleased he"d be!"
"All right!" Now he turned away with decision. "Thank you, Miss Dorcas, for staying out. It"s a beautiful evening. I never knew such a June.
Good-night!" He strode down the walk, and gave a quick word to his horse, who responded in whinnying welcome. An instant"s delay, another word, and they were gone.
Dorcas stood listening to the scatter of hoofs down the dusty road and over the hollow ledge. She sank back on the sill, and, step by step, tried to retrace the lovely arabesque the hour had made. At last, she had some groping sense of the full beauty of living, when friendship says to its mate, "Tell me about yourself!" and the frozen fountain wells out, every drop cheered and warmed, as it falls, in the sunshine of sympathy. She saw in him that perfection of life lying in strength, which he undoubtedly had, and beauty, of which he had little or much according as one chose to think well of him. To her aching sense, he was a very perfect creature, gifted with, infinite capacities for help and comfort.
But the footfalls ceased, and the garden darkened by delicate yet swift degrees; a cloud had gone over the moon, fleecy, silver-edged, but still a cloud. The waning of the light seemed to her significant; she feared lest some bitter change might befall the moment; and went in, bolting the door behind her. Once within her own little bedroom, she loosened her hair, and moved about aimlessly, for a time, careless of sleep, because it seemed so far. Then a sudden resolve nerved her, and she stole back again to the front door, and opened it. The night was blossoming there, glowing now, abundant. It was so rich, so full! The moonlight here, and star upon star above, hidden not by clouds but by the light! Need she waste this one night out of all her unregarded life? She stepped forth among the flower-beds, stooping, in a pa.s.sionate fervor, to the blossoms she could reach; but, coming back to the southernwood, she took it in her arms. She laid her face upon it, and crushed the soft leaves against her cheeks. It made all the world smell of its own balm and dew. The fragrance and beauty of the time pa.s.sed into her soul, and awakened corners there all unused to such sweet incense. She was drunken with the wine that is not of grapes. She could not have found words for the pa.s.sion that possessed her, though she hugged it to her heart like another self; but it was elemental, springing from founts deeper than those of life and death. G.o.d made it, and, like all His making, it was divine. She sat there, the southernwood still gathered into her arms, and at last emotion stilled itself, and pa.s.sed into thought; a wild temptation rose, and with its first whisper drove a hot flush into her cheeks, and branded it there.
Love! she had never named the name in its first natal significance. She had scarcely read it; for romance, even in books, had pa.s.sed her by.
But love! she knew it as the insect knows how to spread his new sun-dried wings in the air for which he was create. Sitting there, in a happy drowse, she thought it all out. She was old, plain, unsought; the man she exalted was the flower of his kind. He would never look on her as if she might touch the hem of wifehood"s mantle; so there would be no shame in choosing him. Just to herself, she might name the Great Name. He would not know. Only her own soul would know, and G.o.d who gave it, and sent it forth fitted with delicate, reaching tentacles to touch the rock set there to wound them. She began to feel blindly that G.o.d was not alone the keeper of eternal Sabbaths, but the germinant heat at the heart of the world. If she were a young girl, like Phoebe, there would be shame. Even a thought of him would be a stretching forth her hand to touch him, saying, "Look at me! I am here!" but for her it was quite different. It would be like a dream, some grandmother dreamed in the sun, of rosy youth and the things that never came to pa.s.s. No one would be harmed, and the sleeper would have garnered one hour"s joy before she took up her march again on the lonesomest road of all,--so lonesome, although it leads us, home! Thus she thought, half sleeping, until the night-dews clung in drops upon her hair; then she went in to bed, still wrapped about with the drapery of her dreams.
Next morning, when Dorcas carried in her father"s breakfast, she walked with a springing step, and spoke in a voice so full and fresh it made her newly glad.
"It"s a nice day, father! There"ll be lots of folks out to meeting."
"That"s a good girl!" This was his commendation, from hour to hour; it made up the litany of his grat.i.tude for what she had been to him. "But I dunno"s I feel quite up to preachin" to-day, Dorcas!"
"That"ll be all right, father. We"ll get somebody."
"You bring me out my sermon-box after breakfast, an" I"ll pick out one," said he, happily. "Deacon Tolman can read it."
But, alas! Deacon Tolman had been dead this many a year!
A little later, the parson sat up in bed, shuffling his ma.n.u.script about with nervous hands, and Dorcas, in the kitchen, stood washing her breakfast dishes. That eager interest in living still possessed her.
She began humming, in a timid monotone. Her voice had the clearness of truth, with little sweetness; and she was too conscious of its inadequacy to use it in public, save under the compelling force of conscience. Hitherto, she had only sung in Sunday-school, moved, as in everything, by the pathetic desire of "doing her part;" but this morning seemed to her one for lifting the voice, though not in Sunday phrasing. After a little thought, she began thinly and sweetly,--
"Early one morning, just as the sun was rising, I heard a maid sing in the valley below: "O don"t deceive me! O never leave me How could you use a poor maiden so?""
A gruff voice from the doorway broke harshly in upon a measure.
"Yes! yes! Well! well! Tunin" up a larrady, ain"t ye?"
Dorcas knew who it was, without turning round,--a dark, squat woman, broad all over; broad in the hips, the waist, the face, and stamped with the race-mark of high cheekbones. Her thick, straight black hair was cut "tin-basin style;" she wore men"s boots, and her petticoats were nearly up to her knees.
"Good morning, Nancy!" called Dorcas, blithely, wringing out her dishcloth. "Come right in, and sit down."
Nance Pete (in other words, Nancy the wife of Pete, whose surname was unknown) clumped into the room, and took a chair by the hearth. She drew forth a short black pipe, looked into it discontentedly, and then sat putting her thumb in and out of the bowl.
"You "ain"t got a mite o" terbacker about ye? Hey what?" she asked.
Dorcas had many a time been shocked at the same demand. This morning, something humorous about it struck her, and she laughed.
"You know I haven"t, Nancy Pete! Did you mend that hole in your skirt, as I told you?"
Nance laboriously drew a back breadth of her coa.r.s.e plaid skirt round to the front, and displayed it, without a word. A three-cornered tear of the kind known as a barn-door had been treated by tying a white string well outside it, and gathering up the cloth, like a bag.
Dorcas"s sense of fitness forbade her to see anything humorous in so original a device. She stood before the woman in all the moral excellence of a censor fastidiously clad.
"O Nancy Pete!" she exclaimed. "How could you?"
Nance put her cold pipe in her mouth, and began sucking at the unresponsive stem.