Samuel"s House"Was it painful?" Robbie asked, looking at me with eyes full of concern
I blushed furiously. Why is he asking such a question when I am driving, " It is fine!"
"Sorry, I will try to exercise self control but your smell is just..." Robbie said scratching his head, looking extremely guilty
I skidded to a halt throwing both myself and Robbie towards the front window, "I said it is fine" I said putting extra emphasis on the word FINE and trying to avoid eye contact.
It"s not what you are thinking. We just simply made out. But he was so overwhelmed by my smell that he lost control and bit me in several places causing many bruises. Robbie had been apologising for this constantly since we left my quarter. Thanks to his h.o.r.n.y behaviour, I couldn"t even make the sandwich for Twen. What am I doing getting all mushy?? I wonder why Robbie has such a strong affect on me? Or maybe I am just too weak to his advances!! But anyways that"s not the important matter here, I am so thrilled to see how Twen would react after receiving his gifts. Do I sound like a kid? But what can I possibly do, seeing him happy and delighted just makes my day! I couldn"t wait to see his surprised expression.
"You can leave now. I ll be picking up Twen" I said
"Haaaahhh....when will I be able to meet my son..." Robbie asked but made it sound like a statement
"When Twen is ready! I don"t trust you completely yet and Twen knows the entire truth. I am worried about how will he react on seeing you. He had lived his 7 years without his dad, I don"t want to suddenly surprise him with your presence. I want to talk to him first and prepare him before hand for this so that when you both meet he is mentally prepared" I said truthfully
"I know...I know that I haven"t been a father to Twen in any way. But I want to now. I want to know him and want him to know me as well. If he is angry, disappointed or sad because of me, I want him to take it all out on me. My mum tells me that unless the wound is disinfected, applying medicine won"t work. I think I understand what she meant now. One day, I will definitely make you both believe in me" Robbie said, mumbling more to himself than to me.
Actually, having lived without my mum and dad almost my entire life, has taught me that parents have a very important role to play in a kid"s life and shaping their future and their behaviour. I never wanted Twen to be deprived of his dad"s affection so I tried to shower him with both a mom and a dad"s love knowing full well that it is not enough. At the end of the day an Omega has no social standing. I can"t protect him as much as I want to. I despise being so helpless and weak. I struggled all this years to be as strong as possible but in the end it was all in vain. So, if Robbie truly wants to mend his way and truly have the best of interest for Twen and me then I would happily swallow my pride and forgive him for all the misdeed of the past. Only Robbie can a.s.sure Twen"s protection and a dad"s care that I couldn"t guarantee. My love for Robbie or what I want is all secondary as along as it means Twen"s happiness.
"Sometimes, I can"t help being envious of Twen" Robbie sighed making me look at him in disbelief. Him being envious of his own son is just ridiculous. Robbie didn"t notice my expression and continued, "His pure and unadulterated heart never wavered in his love for you. I wish I could have been like that"
I blinked. I didn"t exactly understand what he meant. My moment of wonder came to an abrupt end with the ring of my phone. I quickly picked up seeing it was Samuel.
"Sam, I have reached. I"ll.." I started but got interrupted by Sam"s anxious voice
"Tony I have something important to inform you. You must come up fast"
"What happened? Is Twen okay? Did he get hurt?" I asked almost screeching
Robbie"s eyes widen as he looked at me. His eyebrows scrunched in a deep frown. His smooth face carrying a hint of seriousness mixed with worry.
"Uhm..no. Well I guess he just had some childish brawl with his fellow mates and had received few bruises. But he isn"t seriously hurt and that is not the issue" Sam quickly spoke to rea.s.sure me.
I breathed out in relief. As long as Twen is not hurt. Did he again got into fight because of my other gender. I felt a strong pang of pain in my heart. He couldn"t live a normal childhood or make friends or play with his cla.s.smates just because I gave birth to him. By allowing him to experience such things, I can"t help but regret that he was born of me, an Omega. If only he was from a beta family or alpha family, he wouldn"t have to go through this. I unintentionally looked at Robbie, who was looking at me with shrunken pupil and an anxious expression. I didn"t noted his expression as yet again I was lost in my own world of thoughts. Robbie quickly put a hand round my shoulder, patting me rea.s.suringly, as if to say that , he was there with him. This support he gave me was new yet very relieving. I felt in my heart, if only, if only Robbie has truly changed and accepts me and Twen, Twen might live a better life.
"Tony? Tony, you there?" Sam called pulling me out of my thoughts, I quickly answered
"Sorry! I-I am coming up. We will talk then"
"Yes" Samuel said hanging the phone
The moment I disconnected Robbie bombarded me with myraid of questions "What happened? Is Twen okay? Did he hurt himself? I can call my doctor to check on him"
"Robbie, he is fine. Don"t worry. Just Sam want to talk with me, I ll be going up" I said opening the door to my car.
To my surprise, Robbie followed suit and started following behind me.
"What are you doing? I told you, I"ll make you and Twen meet..."
"It"s ok. I ll be in a distance, he won"t see me" Robbie said hastily.
I knew, now that his mind is fixed on following me, he won"t listen no matter what I say. So, I let him be and went up by the elevator. As I rang the bell to Sam"s house, Robbie hid himself at the end of the corridor. I heard a commotion followed by a "click", a "c.h.i.n.k" and the door opened with Sam"s chubby face appearing behind it.
"Sam, what happ-"
"Mommy" I heard Twen, who ran out of nowhere and wrapped himself around my thigh.
I looked at his fluff of curly black hair and held his round slender shoulder to unwrap him from my thigh. I got on my knees and looked at his round pouty face. There were some reddish mark on his neck, hand and beside his lips. My finger shook as I traced his wounds and then looked at him sternly,
"Twen, how many times have I told you, no fighting with your cla.s.smates. Why did you fight?"
"He was- he threw banana peel on me" Twen said tearily, "And called you dirty. He said that boys don"t give birth but because mommy can, so mommy is dirty" his eyes welled up in fury and sadness
I was stabbed with another pang of pain in my heart. Why does he always have to listen to such vile and vicious comments. I wish I could stop all their mouth but....I hugged Twen and said to him quietly,
"Twen, you are such a strong and mature boy. If you fight with them, they will be hurt and their mommies will feel sad too. So, you can"t fight with them, okay? I know, you are a good boy and you don"t want to hurt them, isn"t it?"
Twen nodded on my shoulder.
"That"s my good boy" I said kissing his cheek.
I stood up, picking him on my arms, "Sam, what was so urgent that you wanted to speak of?" I asked as I entered his house
"I-" Sam started but before he could say anything Twen suddenly erupted
"Mommy, who is my dad?"