"You love me, Herr Albert," pursued the terrible Hilda. "Yet you were kissed by mamma an hour later. Do you love her too?"
The tenor trembled and said nothing....
The girl insisted:
"Do you love mamma too? You must, for she kissed you and you did not move away."
Albert was plainly nervous.
"Yes, I love your mamma, too, but in a different way. Oh, dearest Hilda, you don"t understand. I am the artistic a.s.sociate of your mother. But I love--I love you."
Hilda felt the ground grow billowy; the day seemed supernaturally bright. She took Albert"s arm and they walked slowly, without a word.
When the hotel was reached she motioned him not to come in, and she flew to her mother"s room. The singer was alone. She sat at the window and in her lap was a photograph. She looked old and soul-weary.
Hilda rushed toward her, but stopped in the middle of the room, overcome by some subtle fear that seized her throat and limb.
Madame Stock looked at her wonderingly.
"Hilda, Hilda, have you gone mad?"
Hilda went over to her and put her arms about her and whispered:
"Oh, mamma, mamma, he loves me; he has just told me so."
Her mother started:
"He! Who loves you, Hilda? What do you mean?"
Hilda"s eyes drooped, and then she saw the photograph in the soprano"s hand.
It was Albert"s....
"I love him--you have his picture--he gave it to you for me? Oh! he has spoken, Dearest, he has spoken."
The picture dropped to the floor....
"Mamma, mamma, what is the matter? Are you angry at me? Do you dislike Albert? No, surely no; I saw you kiss him at the theatre. He says that he loves you, but it is a different love. It must be a Siegmund and Sieglinde love, Dearest, is it not? But he loves me. Don"t be cross to him for loving me. He can"t help it. And he says we must all live together, if--" ...
The singer closed her eyes and the corners of her mouth became tense.
Then she looked at her daughter almost fiercely. Hilda was terrified.
"Tell me, Hilda, swear to me, and think of what you are saying: Do you love Albert?"
"With my heart," answered the girl in all her white simplicities.
Her mother laughed and arose.
"Then you silly little goose, you shall marry him and be nice and unhappy." Hilda cried with joy: "I don"t care if I am unhappy with _him_."
"Idiot!" replied the other.
That night "Gotterdammerung" was given. The conductor dragged the tempi; the waits were interminable, and a young slip of a girl wonderingly watched. Her mother was the Brynhild. The performance was redeemed by the magnificent singing of the Immolation scene....
Later Brynhild faced her mirror and asked no favor of it. As she uncoiled the heavy ropes of hair her eyes grew harsh, and for a moment her image seemed blurred and bitter in the oval gla.s.s with the burnished frame that stood upon the dressing-table. But at last she would achieve the unique Brynhild!...
"Entbehren sollst du, sollst entbehren."
THE QUEST OF THE ELUSIVE
_To Miss Bella Seymour_
BALAK, _November 5_.
DEAR DARLING OLD BELLA,--How I wish you were with me. I miss you almost as much as mamma and the girls. I"ve had such a homesickness that even the elegant concerts, the gay city and the novelty of this out of the way foreign place do not compensate, for Why, oh _why_, doesn"t Herr Klug live in Berlin or Paris, or even Vienna? Think, after you leave Vienna you must travel six hours by boat and three by rail before you reach Balak, but what a city, what curious houses, and what an opera house!
Let me first tell you of my experiences with Herr Klug. I met the Ransoms; you remember those queer Michigan avenue people. They are here with their mother--snuffy Mother Ransom we used to call her--and are both studying with Herr Klug. I met them on the Ringstra.s.se--the princ.i.p.al avenue here--and they looked so dissatisfied when they saw me.
Ada, the short, thin one, you know--well, she lowered her parasol--say, the weather is awful hot--and, honest, I believed she wasn"t going to speak to me. But Lizzie is the nice one, and she fairly ate me up. They raved about Herr Klug. He is so nice, so gentle, and plays so wonderfully! Mrs. Ransom was a trifle cool--she and ma never did get along, you remember that fight about free lager for indigent Germans in sultry weather?--well, she and ma quarrelled over the meaning of the word "indigent," and Mrs. R. said that she was indigent at ma"s ignorance; then ma burst into a fit of laughter. I heard her--it was a real mean laugh, Bella, and--but I must tell you about this place. Dear, I"m quite out of breath!
Well, the Ransoms took me off to lunch and it was real nice at their boarding house; they call it the Hotel Serbe, or some such name, and I almost regretted that I went to the miserable rooms I"m in, but I have to be economical, and as I intend practising all day and sleeping all night it doesn"t matter much where I am. I forgot to tell you what we had for lunch, funny dishes, sour and full of red pepper. I"ll tell you all about it in my next letter. I"m so full of Herr Klug that I can"t sit still. He is a grand man, Bella, only very old, and very small, and very nervous, and very cross. He didn"t say much to me and I held my tongue, for they say he is so nervous that he is almost crazy, besides, he hates American pupils. When I went into the big lesson room it was empty, and I had a good chance to look at all the pictures on the wall.
There were Bach, Beethoven and Herr Klug at every age. There must have been at least thirty portraits. He was homely in every one, and wore his hair long, and has such a high, n.o.ble forehead. You know Chicago men have such low foreheads. I love high foreheads. They are so _destingue_ (is that spelt right?) and it means such a _lot_ of brains. He was photographed with Liszt and with Chopin. I think it was Chopin, and--just then he came in. He walked very slowly and his shoulders were stooped. Oh, Bella, he has such a venerable look, so saintly! Well, he stood in the doorway and his eyegla.s.ses fairly stared into me, he has such piercing gaze. I was scared out of my seven senses and stood stock still.
"_Nu was!_" he cried out; "where do you come from?" His English was maddening, Bella, just maddening, but I understood him, and with my heart in my boots I said:
"Chicago, Herr Klug." He snorted.
"Chicago. I hate Chicago, I hate Americans! There"s only one city in America--that is San Francisco. I was never there, but I like it because I never had a pupil from that city; that"s why I like it, _hein_!" He laughed, Bella, and coughed himself into a strangling fit over his joke--he thought it was a joke--and then he sharply cried out:
"You may kiss me, and play for me." I was too frightened to reply, so I went up to him and didn"t like him. He smelt of cigarettes and liquor, but I kissed him on the forehead, and he gave me a queer look and pushed me to the piano. Well, I was flabbergasted.
"Play," he said, as harsh as could be, and I dashed off the Military Polonaise of Chopin. He walked about the whole time humming out loud, and never paid any attention to me any more than if I hadn"t been playing. When I got to the trio I stuck, and he burst out laughing, so I stopped short.
"Aha! you girls and your teachers, how you, all swindle yourselves. You have no talent, no touch, nothing, nothing!"--his voice was like a screaming whistle--"and yet you cheat yourselves and run to Europe to be artists in a year, aha!" "Shall I go on?" I asked. I was getting mad.
"No, I"ve heard enough. Come to the cla.s.s every Monday and Thursday morning at ten--mind you, ten sharp--and in the meantime study this piece of mine, "The Five Blackbirds," for the black keys, and take the first book of my "Indispensable Studies for Stupid American Girls."" He laughed again.
"You pay now for the music. I make no discount, for I print it myself.
Your lessons you pay for one by one. Please put the money--twenty marks--on the mantelpiece when you are through playing, but don"t tell me. I"m too nervous. And now good-day; practise ten hours every day.
You may kiss me good-by. No? Well, next time. I hate American girls when they play; but I like to kiss them, for they are very pretty. Wait: I will introduce you to my wife." He rang a bell and barked something at a servant, and she returned followed by a nice-looking German lady, quite young. I was surprised. "My wife." We bowed and then I left.
Funny people, these foreigners. I take my lesson day after to-morrow and I must hurry home to my Blackbirds. Good-by, dear Bella, and tell the girls to write. You answer this soon and I"ll write after lesson on Monday. Good-by, Bella. Don"t show my ma this letter, and, Bella--say nothing to n.o.body about the kisses. I didn"t like--now if it had been--you know--oh, dear. I hate the piano. Good-by at last, Bella, and oh, Bella, will you send me the address of Schaefer, Schloss & Cantwell"s? I want to order some writing paper. Good-by.
Your devoted IRENE.
P.S.--Any kind of Irish linen paper will do _without_ any monogram.
I.