1832.--I am thinking how I omitted to talk a volume to you about the "Elective Affinities." Now I shall never say half of it, for which I, on my own account, am sorry. But two or three things I would ask:--
"What do you think of Charlotte"s proposition, that the accomplished pedagogue must be tiresome in society?
"Of Ottilia"s, that the afflicted, and ill-educated, are oftentimes singled out by fate to instruct others, and her beautiful reasons why?
"And what have you thought of the discussion touching graves and monuments?
"I am now going to dream of your sermon, and of Ottilia"s china-asters. Both shall be driven from my head to-morrow, for I go to town, allured by despatches from thence, promising much entertainment. Woe unto them if they disappoint me!
"Consider it, I pray you, as the "nearest duty" to answer my questions, and not act as you did about the sphinx-song."
"I have not anybody to speak to, that does not talk common-place, and I wish to talk about such an uncommon person,--about Novalis! a wondrous youth, and who has only written one volume. That is pleasant! I feel as though I could pursue my natural mode with him, get acquainted, then make my mind easy in the belief that I know all that is to be known.
And he died at twenty-nine, and, as with Korner, your feelings may be single; you will never be called upon to share his experience, and compare his future feelings with his present.
And his life was so full and so still.
Then it is a relief, after feeling the immense superiority of Goethe. It seems to me as if the mind of Goethe had embraced the universe. I have felt this lately, in reading his lyric poems. I am enchanted while I read. He comprehends every feeling I have ever had so perfectly, expresses it so beautifully: but when I shut the book, it seems as if I had lost my personal ident.i.ty; all my feelings linked with such an immense variety that belong to beings I had thought so different. What can I bring? There is no answer in my mind, except "It is so," or "It will be so," or "No doubt such and such feel so." Yet, while my judgment becomes daily more tolerant towards others, the same attracting and repelling work is going on in my feelings. But I persevere in reading the great sage, some part of every day, hoping the time will come, when I shall not feel so overwhelmed, and leave off this habit of wishing to grasp the whole, and be contented to learn a little every day, as becomes a pupil.
"But now the one-sidedness, imperfection, and glow, of a mind like that of Novalis, seem refreshingly human to me. I have wished fifty times to write some letters giving an account, first, of his very pretty life, and then of his one volume, as I re-read it, chapter by chapter. If you will pretend to be very much interested, perhaps I will get a better pen, and write them to you." * *
NEED OF COMMUNION.
"_Aug_. 7, 1832.--I feel quite lost; it is so long since I have talked myself. To see so many acquaintances, to talk so many words, and never tell my mind completely on any subject--to say so many things which do not seem called out, makes me feel strangely vague and movable.
""Tis true, the time is probably near when I must live alone, to all intents and purposes,--separate entirely my acting from my thinking world, take care of my ideas without aid,--except from the ill.u.s.trious dead,--answer my own questions, correct my own feelings, and do all that hard work for myself. How tiresome "tis to find out all one"s self-delusion! I thought myself so very independent, because I could conceal some feelings at will, and did not need the same excitement as other young characters did. And I am not independent, nor never shall be, while I can get anybody to minister to me. But I shall go where there is never a spirit to come, if I call ever so loudly.
"Perhaps I shall talk to you about Korner, but need not write.
He charms me, and has become a fixed star in the heaven of my thought; but I understand all that he excites perfectly.
I felt very "_new_ about Novalis,--"the good Novalis," as you call him after Mr. Carlyle. He is, indeed, _good_, most enlightened, yet most pure; every link of his experience framed--no, _beaten_--from the tried gold.
"I have read, thoroughly, only two of his pieces, "Die Lehrlinge zu Sais," and "Heinrich von Ofterdingen." From the former I have only brought away piecemeal impressions, but the plan and treatment of the latter, I believe, I understand. It describes the development of poetry in a mind; and with this several other developments are connected. I think I shall tell you all I know about it, some quiet time after your return, but if not, will certainly keep a Novalis-journal for you some favorable season, when I live regularly for a fort night."
"_June_, 1833.--I return Lessing. I could hardly get through Miss Sampson. E. Galeotti is good in the same way as Minna. Well-conceived and sustained characters, interesting situations, but never that profound knowledge of human nature, those minute beauties, and delicate vivifying traits, which lead on so in the writings of some authors, who may be nameless. I think him easily followed; strong, but not deep."
"_May_, 1833.--_Groton_.--I think you are wrong in applying your artistical ideas to occasional poetry. An epic, a drama, must have a fixed form in the mind of the poet from the first; and copious draughts of ambrosia quaffed in the heaven of thought, soft fanning gales and bright light from the outward world, give muscle and bloom,--that is, give life,--to this skeleton. But all occasional poems must be moods, and can a mood have a form fixed and perfect, more than a wave of the sea?"
"Three or four afternoons I have pa.s.sed very happily at my beloved haunt in the wood, reading Goethe"s "Second Residence in Rome." Your pencil-marks show that you have been before me.
I shut the book each time with an earnest desire to live as he did,--always to have some engrossing object of pursuit.
I sympathize deeply with a mind in that state. While mine is being used up by ounces, I wish pailfuls might be poured into it. I am dejected and uneasy when I see no results from my daily existence, but I am suffocated and lost when I have not the bright feeling of progression." * *
"I think I am less happy, in many respects, than you, but particularly in this. You can speak freely to me of all your circ.u.mstances and feelings, can you not? It is not possible for me to be so profoundly frank with any earthly friend. Thus my heart has no proper home; it only can prefer some of its visiting-places to others; and with deep regret I realize that I have, at length, entered on the concentrating stage of life. It was not time. I had been too sadly cramped. I had not learned enough, and must always remain imperfect. Enough! I am glad I have been able to say so much."
"I have read nothing,--to signify,--except Goethe"s "Campagne in Frankreich." Have you looked through it, and do you remember his intercourse with the Wertherian Plessing? That tale pained me exceedingly. We cry, "help, help," and there is no help--in man at least. How often I have thought, if I could see Goethe, and tell him my state of mind, he would support and guide me! He would be able to understand; he would show me how to rule circ.u.mstances, instead of being ruled by them; and, above all, he would not have been so sure that all would be for the best, without our making an effort to act out the oracles; he would have wished to see me what Nature intended.
But his conduct to Plessing and Ohlenschlager shows that to him, also, an appeal would have been vain."
"Do you really believe there is anything "all-comprehending"
but religion? Are not these distinctions imaginary? Must not the philosophy of every mind, or set of minds, be a system suited to guide them, and give a home where they can bring materials among which to accept, reject, and shape at pleasure? Novalis calls those, who harbor these ideas, "unbelievers;" but hard names make no difference. He says with disdain, "To _such_, philosophy is only a system which will spare them the trouble of reflecting." Now this is just my case. I _do_ want a system which shall suffice to my character, and in whose applications I shall have faith. I do not wish to _reflect_ always, if reflecting must be always about one"s ident.i.ty, whether "_ich_" am the true "_ich_" &c.
I wish to arrive at that point where I can trust myself, and leave off saying, "It seems to me," and boldly feel, It _is_ so TO ME. My character has got its natural regulator, my heart beats, my lips speak truth, I can walk alone, or offer my arm to a friend, or if I lean on another, it is not the debility of sickness, but only wayside weariness. This is the philosophy _I_ want; this much would satisfy _me_.
"Then Novalis says, "Philosophy is the art of discovering the place of truth in every encountered event and circ.u.mstance, to attune all relations to truth."
"Philosophy is peculiarly home-sickness; an over-mastering desire to be at home.
"I think so; but what is there _all-comprehending_; eternally-conscious, about that?"
"_Sept.,_ 1832.--"Not see the use of metaphysics?" A moderate portion, taken at stated intervals, I hold to be of much use as discipline of the faculties. I only object to them as having an absorbing and anti-productive tendency. But "tis not always so; may not be so with you. Wait till you are two years older, before you decide that "tis your vocation. Time enough at six-and-twenty to form yourself into a metaphysical philosopher. The brain does not easily get too dry for _that_. Happy you, in these ideas which give you a tendency to optimism. May you become a proselyte to that consoling faith.
I shall never be able to follow you, but shall look after you with longing eyes."
"_Groton._--Spring has come, and I shall see you soon. If I could pour into your mind all the ideas which have pa.s.sed through mine, you would be well entertained, I think, for three or four days. But no hour will receive aught beyond its own appropriate wealth.
"I am at present engaged in surveying the level on which the public mind is poised. I no longer lie in wait for the tragedy and comedy of life; the rules of its _prose_ engage my attention. I talk incessantly with common-place people, full of curiosity to ascertain the process by which materials, apparently so jarring and incapable of cla.s.sification, get united into that strange whole, the American public. I have read all Jefferson"s letters, the North American, the daily papers, &c., without end. H. seems to be weaving his Kantisms into the American system in a tolerably happy manner."
* * "George Thompson has a voice of uncommon compa.s.s and beauty; never sharp in its highest, or rough and husky in its lowest, tones. A perfect enunciation, every syllable round and energetic; though his manner was the one I love best, very rapid, and full of eager climaxes. Earnestness in every part,--sometimes impa.s.sioned earnestness,--a sort of "Dear friends, believe, _pray_ believe, I love you, and you MUST believe as I do" expression, even in the argumentative parts.
I felt, as I have so often done before, if I were a man, the gift I would choose should be that of eloquence. That power of forcing the vital currents of thousands of human hearts into ONE current, by the constraining power of that most delicate instrument, the voice, is so intense,--yes, I would prefer it to a more extensive fame, a more permanent influence."
"Did I describe to you my feelings on hearing Mr. Everett"s eulogy on Lafayette? No; I did not. That was exquisite.
The old, hackneyed story; not a new anecdote, not a single reflection of any value; but the manner, the _manner_^ the delicate inflections of voice, the elegant and appropriate gesture, the sense of beauty produced by the whole, which thrilled us all to tears, flowing from a deeper and purer source than that which answers to pathos. This was fine; but I prefer the Thompson manner. Then there is Mr. Webster"s, unlike either; simple grandeur, n.o.bler, more impressive, less captivating. I have heard few fine speakers; I wish I could hear a thousand.
Are you vexed by my keeping the six volumes of your Goethe?
I read him very little either; I have so little time,--many things to do at home,--my three children, and three pupils besides, whom I instruct.
"By the way, I have always thought all that was said about the anti-religious tendency of a cla.s.sical education to be old wives" tales. But their puzzles about Virgil"s notions of heaven and virtue, and his gracefully-described G.o.ds and G.o.ddesses, have led me to alter my opinions; and I suspect, from reminiscences of my own mental history, that if all governors do not think the same "t is from want of that intimate knowledge of their pupils" minds which I naturally possess. I really find it difficult to keep their _morale_ steady, and am inclined to think many of my own sceptical sufferings are traceable to this source. I well remember what reflections arose in my childish mind from a comparison of the Hebrew history, where every moral obliquity is shown out with such navete, and the Greek history, full of sparkling deeds and brilliant sayings, and their G.o.ds and G.o.ddesses, the types of beauty and power, with the dazzling veil of flowery language and poetical imagery cast over their vices and failings."
"My own favorite project, since I began seriously to entertain any of that sort, is six historical tragedies; of which I have the plans of three quite perfect. However, the attempts I have made on them have served to show me the vast difference between conception and execution. Yet I am, though abashed, not altogether discouraged. My next favorite plan is a series of tales ill.u.s.trative of Hebrew history. The proper junctures have occurred to me during my late studies on the historical books of the Old Testament. This task, however, requires a thorough and imbuing knowledge of the Hebrew manners and spirit, with a chastened energy of imagination, which I am as yet far from possessing. But if I should be permitted peace and time to follow out my ideas, I have hopes. Perhaps it is a weakness to confide to you embryo designs, which never may glow into life, or mock me by their failure."