Uncle Anderson, whom she has always respected, should be… the man she has to be blamed for her loss.Even knowing that Carl Anderson is the man his father saved fourteen years ago, Katrina can"t stop resenting him. The pain kept coming in, and she shed tears without a hold.
With her father"s intelligence of swimming, it is more than enough to save a man from the water.
But... he still didn"t survive.
Katrina"s mind lingered so many questions, "Why did Uncle Carl hold her father so tightly when he jumped into the water to save him?
Even when the forensic examined the wounds on her father"s body, there were signs of scratches left on it.
He made it harder for her father to swim.
He just asked for help and wanted to live, but he didn"t care about the life of the man who saves him. Didn"t he care what would happen to the man he was holding on to? That he might cause him to death after saving him?
Even if it was human instinct to have a strong desire to survive, he should at least think that her father had a family too.
But then...
After her father died, as the one saved, why wasn"t" brave enough come to see her father, why didn"t he come to her father"s funeral to say a few words of grat.i.tude personally?
For the sake of Anderson"s reputation? He just swallowed his guilt?
Afraid of losing face?
Didn"t want to leave a stain in his life, afraid of being laughed by other people?
What a nonsense reason!
Given the consideration of Anderson"s, why should he choose to die at the beginning?
Since he chose to commit suicide, why should he involve others to die for him, while he lived?
Even if he stood up as a rescued person, even if he was known to have failed in business and chose to commit suicide, even if he lost face or something, he should at least face her at that time.
Her kind father sacrificed his own life.
Was her father"s life not as important as his so-called face and dignity?
That"s it...
Katrina finally understands why Carl Anderson chose to adopt her.
She finally understands why Carl Anderson had always been good to her.
She thought he was a kind and nostalgic person.
But at this time, she finds that it"s not the same thing at all.
He is the most ruthless and ungrateful person in the world.
The reason he adopted her and was kind to her was just to make himself at ease.
Did he think this could repay her father"s life after saving him?
Did he think this could make up for the loss of her father"s love for her?
Did he think she would choose to forgive him?
Impossible!
How can his kindness towards her alleviate the pain she felt after losing her father?
Even now, she still has an unspeakable resentment in her heart.
She may never forget how worthless it was for her father to leave.
Katrina closes her eyes and drops the letter.
As for the diary...
Katrina is not interested in reading Carl Anderson"s confession.
It"s no use repenting after that.
Her father died to save him.
After her father died, Carl never showed up.
This is the fact that he can"t change.
Now that he chose to confess through his letters, he had to accept her resentment and condemnation she felt.
She can"t easily forgive him for what he had done.
It seems only in a moment...
Katrina"s opinion of Carl Anderson has changed dramatically.
Before she knows the truth...
She always respected him and treated him as her benefactor, half of her father.
She was always guilty for him because she didn"t repay his kindness for raising her.
But now, after knowing the truth...
She has an unspeakable resentment towards Carl Anderson, whose image in her mind collapses totally.
He killed her father and orphaned her at a young age.
How can she appreciate him again?
Originally, Katrina was also guilty of his death because he was secretly hurt by Mr. Quentin, involved by her and Aaron. She even quarreled with Aaron and broke up with him because of her psychological burden.
But now...
When she opens her eyes again, Katrina"s tearful eyes are filled with perseverance.
She and Carl Anderson have never been in debt since then.
She can"t argue with a deceased person again about what has happened.
Even if he died so suddenly because of her and Aaron, she wouldn"t feel guilty and indebted because her father"s death is more innocent than his death.
Now Katrina finally understands why Aaron is always telling her that Carl Anderson just posed as a person of high morals.
What she couldn"t hear most was the slander of Carl Anderson.
On the day she broke up with Aaron, she even hit him in a fit of anger when she heard him talk about Carl Anderson.
But now she understands.
It"s not Aaron who"s wrong. It"s her who"s wrong.
Carl Anderson, he was really a cowardly man. He really didn"t deserve her respect.
It turns out that she had been with Carl Anderson for so many years that her understanding of him was far less profound than Aaron"s.
Aaron perhaps really knows what the truth is, so he can judge Carl Anderson like that in front of her.
Ironically, she didn"t choose to believe him, and she beat him for Carl Anderson.
Yes, she regrets it.
She feels very sorry for Aaron.
But what"s the use of her regret?
Now that she has done something wrong, she should bear the consequences.
When Aaron left that day, he was so angry that she dared not go back to him and make an apology.
Perhaps, he will not be willing to accept her apology, not necessarily willing to be with her again.
Forgive her for her inferiority complex.
She thought that she doesn"t deserve Aaron"s love and affection.
What kind of woman can"t he have considering his ident.i.ty and status?
He might so ruthless towards her before, but he had changed gradually
Maybe... Aaron had given up on her, and he is determined to leave her alone. He committed to accept their break up.