The Zealot looked at Peter suspiciously. _So that"s how he thinks he will get his way!_ he thought. "Now look," he said to Jesus in his most practical tone. "I know many people in Jerusalem who can help us...."
James"s anger boiled over. "Master, he is interested only in special privileges!"
"That is a lie!" snapped the Zealot, looking fiercely at James. "I want only...." Peter"s little girl was crying. Harsh voices and frowning faces had frightened her. She clutched Jesus" robe with both tiny hands and buried her head in his robe.
"Here, let me take her," said Peter, starting to rise. But the little girl clung all the closer to Jesus.
"Except you become as little children," said Jesus, "you cannot enter the Kingdom of Heaven." He stood up, holding the child in his arms; he did not intend to listen to the angry debate any longer. "I have appointed you to proclaim the news of the Kingdom of G.o.d," he declared.
"You are the salt which must season the whole earth. Everything depends on you. But what if the salt loses its taste?" The men again felt in his voice the deep grief they had caused him. "It is fit only to be thrown out and trampled on! Let there be peace between you!"
Jesus gently put Peter"s daughter in her father"s arms and left the room. He walked down to the sh.o.r.e of the lake. The trip from Caesarea Philippi had been tiring, and he longed to be alone. Under the tiny white stars he was far from the jealousies and selfishness of his followers. Sometimes they were truly n.o.ble and brave. They were loyal too, and yet ... they seemed never to understand! In the quiet night Jesus gave thanks to his Father in heaven for the men who had given up everything to follow him; he prayed that they might soon understand the true meaning of the Kingdom of G.o.d.
Suddenly there were running footsteps behind him. Jesus stopped abruptly. Had Herod already discovered that he was back in Galilee? Had spies followed him here so that they could arrest him secretly? Two figures emerged from the darkness.
"Master!" It was John. James was with him. Relief flooded through Jesus.
"We wanted to tell you about something we did." There was a note of pride in John"s voice. "Do you remember when James and I went to buy food today? We found a man casting out evil spirits in your name. We put a stop to it right away!"
"We will never allow anyone to interfere with us," added James. "He might even persuade some people to follow him. We want nothing like that!"
Jesus did not answer, but continued to look out over the dark lake. Why had these men followed him all the way out here to tell him this? Were they trying to convince him they were loyal in spite of the day"s dispute? Or were they trying to persuade him to do what they wanted?
Jesus turned to them. "What made you do a thing like that?" he demanded.
"Don"t you know that we are trying to give the power of G.o.d to everyone who will believe--we are not trying to keep it to ourselves!"
"But he was not one of us," explained James, amazed.
"That makes no difference," answered Jesus. "Are we jealous of his power? Do we think always of our own reputation?"
"But doesn"t it make any difference who has power in our Kingdom?" asked James, dumfounded.
"We don"t even know the man!" exclaimed John.
"Do not forbid him," replied Jesus. "No one who does a mighty work in my name will be able soon after to speak evil of me. For he that is not against us is for us. If a person so much as gives you a cup of water in my name, G.o.d remembers him for it!" His voice was now calm, with the note of sorrow which the men had heard twice before on this day.
"Do you still not understand what is going to happen in Jerusalem?" he said. "I have told you already that I shall be killed! I am not going to Jerusalem to seek the praise of men, but to give up my life for the sake of all men. I shall be betrayed into the power of the high priests. They will hand me over to the Romans to be killed!"
"Master!" cried James desperately. "Do not say such a thing!" Fear chilled him, and the very night seemed to threaten. James had been fighting this thought ever since Jesus had first mentioned his death.
"That can never, never happen!"
"In spite of all I have said, you still understand little of my work,"
said Jesus and left the two men. They did not try to follow, but stood listening to the sound of his footsteps dying away. Then they turned back. There could be no mistaking his meaning this time: the Master knew he would die in Jerusalem.
[Ill.u.s.tration]
13. THE MESSIAH MUST DIE
The next day, Jesus left Capernaum with the Twelve, traveling swiftly on the main highway toward Tiberias, Jericho, and Jerusalem. Early in the afternoon, a wind rose from the south. The sky grew dark; clouds scudded overhead as the disciples plodded along the dusty road. The Lake of Galilee lay to their left. When the sun shone it was refreshing, blue and cool. Now the water was gray, whipped into angry waves by the wind.
Only a few months before, the men had nearly drowned in a gale like this.
To their right were bleak hills, bare of trees. An anxious shepherd was driving his sheep to shelter. The black, windy sky reminded the disciples of all the fears that filled them: fear of their own future and distrust of one another.
"Where can we stay for the night. Master?" asked Andrew, raising his voice above a gust that s.n.a.t.c.hed the words from his lips.
Jesus glanced at the sky. "Perhaps we can find an inn at Tiberias."
The wind was hot and laden with dust. Its choking heat kept their skin dry even though the men perspired freely. They covered their faces with their robes to avoid breathing dust.
The air was thick; they could not see the sun, though it was fully four hours before sunset. They could not even see the crest of the ridge rising above them to the right.
"If the wind changes to the southwest, this is sure to turn to rain,"
remarked James, almost shouting. John nodded. A moment later they heard Andrew call to them.
"Look there!" he shouted. "Up the hill." He was pointing to a tumble-down shed a few yards from the road to their right.
Greatly relieved, the whole group left the road and in a moment were inside the shelter. "We are lucky to find this," said James, throwing the cover off his face. "It is getting cooler, and the wind is changing."
The disciples had hardly caught their breath when they heard a familiar sound. "Sheep!" exclaimed Philip. An instant later a tightly packed flock of frightened sheep crowded into the shed. It overflowed in a moment, but the bleating animals kept on pushing in. Suddenly their shepherd stood in the midst of the men.
"Oh!" He was completely surprised at finding people in his shed.
"We were looking for shelter from the wind and rain," explained Peter.
"Oh ... why yes!" replied the man. He was embarra.s.sed in the presence of all these strangers. "This is a very poor old shed," he said, smiling apologetically. Shyly he turned away from the disciples and began to count his sheep.
The men watched. He was very slow and started over again three times.
They smiled at each other as though to say, "A simple fellow, isn"t he?"
The flimsy little shelter rocked under the gusts of the gale, now at its height. The shepherd was too busy counting to notice. Suddenly he jerked up straight. "There is one missing!" Before the disciples could stop him, he plunged into the windy darkness.
"Come back!" shouted James.
"One is missing!" A heavy gust almost drowned the shepherd"s reply.
"You"ll get hurt!" The man was gone. "How can he ever find his way?"
protested James to the others. "There are gullies and high rocks! He will be killed in the dark!"
"He has practically all the sheep in," declared John. "He could wait a little while till this lets up."
"He would leave his flock here and search all night for a sheep,"
remarked Jesus.
"He ought not to risk his life like that," answered James.
"A good shepherd is ready to face death to find just one sheep," said Jesus.