Such was my insight into the life of Surgeon Dionysius Haggarty and his wife; and I must have come upon him at a favourable moment too, for poor Dennis has spoken, subsequently, of our delightful evening at Kingstown, and evidently thinks to this day that his friend was fascinated by the entertainment there. His inward economy was as follows: he had his half-pay, a thousand pounds, about a hundred a year that his father left, and his wife had sixty pounds a year from the mother; which the mother, of course, never paid. He had no practice, for he was absorbed in attention to his Jemima and the children, whom he used to wash, to dress, to carry out, to walk, or to ride, as we have seen, and who could not have a servant, as their dear blind mother could never be left alone. Mrs. Haggarty, a great invalid, used to lie in bed till one, and have breakfast and hot luncheon there. A fifth part of his income was spent in having her wheeled about in a chair, by which it was his duty to walk daily for an allotted number of hours. Dinner would ensue, and the amateur clergy, who abound in Ireland, and of whom Mrs. Haggarty was a great admirer, lauded her everywhere as a model of resignation and virtue, and praised beyond measure the admirable piety with which she bore her sufferings.
Well, every man to his taste. It did not certainly appear to me that SHE was the martyr of the family.
"The circ.u.mstances of my marriage with Jemima," Dennis said to me, in some after conversations we had on this interesting subject, "were the most romantic and touching you can conceive. You saw what an impression the dear girl had made upon me when we were at Weedon; for from the first day I set eyes on her, and heard her sing her delightful song of "Dark-eyed Maiden of Araby," I felt, and said to Turniquet of ours, that very night, that SHE was the dark-eyed maid of Araby for ME--not that she was, you know, for she was born in Shropshire. But I felt that I had seen the woman who was to make me happy or miserable for life. You know how I proposed for her at Kenilworth, and how I was rejected, and how I almost shot myself in consequence--no, you don"t know that, for I said nothing about it to anyone, but I can tell you it was a very near thing; and a very lucky thing for me I didn"t do it: for,--would you believe it?--the dear girl was in love with me all the time."
"Was she really?" said I, who recollected that Miss Gam"s love of those days showed itself in a very singular manner; but the fact is, when women are most in love they most disguise it.
"Over head and ears in love with poor Dennis," resumed that worthy fellow, "who"d ever have thought it? But I have it from the best authority, from her own mother, with whom I"m not over and above good friends now; but of this fact she a.s.sured me, and I"ll tell you when and how.
"We were quartered at Cork three years after we were at Weedon, and it was our last year at home; and a great mercy that my dear girl spoke in time, or where should we have been now? Well, one day, marching home from parade, I saw a lady seated at an open window, by another who seemed an invalid, and the lady at the window, who was dressed in the profoundest mourning, cried out, with a scream, "Gracious, heavens! it"s Mr. Haggarty of the 120th."
""Sure I know that voice," says I to Whiskerton.
""It"s a great mercy you don"t know it a deal too well," says he: "it"s Lady Gammon. She"s on some husband-hunting scheme, depend on it, for that daughter of hers. She was at Bath last year on the same errand, and at Cheltenham the year before, where, Heaven bless you! she"s as well known as the "Hen and Chickens.""
""I"ll thank you not to speak disrespectfully of Miss Jemima Gam," said I to Whiskerton; "she"s of one of the first families in Ireland, and whoever says a word against a woman I once proposed for, insults me,--do you understand?"
""Well, marry her, if you like," says Whiskerton, quite peevish: "marry her, and be hanged!"
"Marry her! the very idea of it set my brain a-whirling, and made me a thousand times more mad than I am by nature.
"You may be sure I walked up the hill to the parade-ground that afternoon, and with a beating heart too. I came to the widow"s house. It was called "New Molloyville," as this is. Wherever she takes a house for six months she calls it "New Molloyville;" and has had one in Mallow, in Bandon, in Sligo, in Castlebar, in Fermoy, in Drogheda, and the deuce knows where besides: but the blinds were down, and though I thought I saw somebody behind "em, no notice was taken of poor Denny Haggarty, and I paced up and down all mess-time in hopes of catching a glimpse of Jemima, but in vain. The next day I was on the ground again; I was just as much in love as ever, that"s the fact. I"d never been in that way before, look you; and when once caught, I knew it was for life.
"There"s no use in telling you how long I beat about the bush, but when I DID get admittance to the house (it was through the means of young Castlereagh Molloy, whom you may remember at Leamington, and who was at Cork for the regatta, and used to dine at our mess, and had taken a mighty fancy to me)--when I DID get into the house, I say, I rushed in medias res at once; I couldn"t keep myself quiet, my heart was too full.
"Oh, Fitz! I shall never forget the day,--the moment I was inthrojuiced into the dthrawing-room" (as he began to be agitated, Dennis"s brogue broke out with greater richness than ever; but though a stranger may catch, and repeat from memory, a few words, it is next to impossible for him to KEEP UP A CONVERSATION in Irish, so that we had best give up all attempts to imitate Dennis). "When I saw old mother Gam," said he, "my feelings overcame me all at once. I rowled down on the ground, sir, as if I"d been hit by a musket-ball. "Dearest madam," says I, "I"ll die if you don"t give me Jemima."
""Heavens, Mr. Haggarty!" says she, "how you seize me with surprise!
Castlereagh, my dear nephew, had you not better leave us?" and away he went, lighting a cigar, and leaving me still on the floor.
""Rise, Mr. Haggarty," continued the widow. "I will not attempt to deny that this constancy towards my daughter is extremely affecting, however sudden your present appeal may be. I will not attempt to deny that, perhaps, Jemima may have a similar feeling; but, as I said, I never could give my daughter to a Catholic."
""I"m as good a Protestant as yourself, ma"am," says I; "my mother was an heiress, and we were all brought up her way."
""That makes the matter very different," says she, turning up the whites of her eyes. "How could I ever have reconciled it to my conscience to see my blessed child married to a Papist? How could I ever have taken him to Molloyville? Well, this obstacle being removed, _I_ must put myself no longer in the way between two young people. _I_ must sacrifice myself; as I always have when my darling girl was in question. YOU shall see her, the poor dear lovely gentle sufferer, and learn your fate from her own lips."
""The sufferer, ma"am," says I; "has Miss Gam been ill?"
""What! haven"t you heard?" cried the widow. "Haven"t you heard of the dreadful illness which so nearly carried her from me? For nine weeks, Mr. Haggarty, I watched her day and night, without taking a wink of sleep,--for nine weeks she lay trembling between death and life; and I paid the doctor eighty-three guineas. She is restored now; but she is the wreck of the beautiful creature she was. Suffering, and, perhaps, ANOTHER DISAPPOINTMENT--but we won"t mention that NOW--have so pulled her down. But I will leave you, and prepare my sweet girl for this strange, this entirely unexpected visit."
"I won"t tell you what took place between me and Jemima, to whom I was introduced as she sat in the darkened room, poor sufferer! nor describe to you with what a thrill of joy I seized (after groping about for it) her poor emaciated hand. She did not withdraw it; I came out of that room an engaged man, sir; and NOW I was enabled to show her that I had always loved her sincerely, for there was my will, made three years back, in her favour: that night she refused me, as I told ye. I would have shot myself, but they"d have brought me in non compos; and my brother Mick would have contested the will, and so I determined to live, in order that she might benefit by my dying. I had but a thousand pounds then: since that my father has left me two more. I willed every shilling to her, as you may fancy, and settled it upon her when we married, as we did soon after. It was not for some time that I was allowed to see the poor girl"s face, or, indeed, was aware of the horrid loss she had sustained. Fancy my agony, my dear fellow, when I saw that beautiful wreck!"
There was something not a little affecting to think, in the conduct of this brave fellow, that he never once, as he told his story, seemed to allude to the possibility of his declining to marry a woman who was not the same as the woman he loved; but that he was quite as faithful to her now, as he had been when captivated by the poor tawdry charms of the silly Miss of Leamington. It was hard that such a n.o.ble heart as this should be flung away upon yonder foul ma.s.s of greedy vanity. Was it hard, or not, that he should remain deceived in his obstinate humility, and continue to admire the selfish silly being whom he had chosen to worship?
"I should have been appointed surgeon of the regiment," continued Dennis, "soon after, when it was ordered abroad to Jamaica, where it now is. But my wife would not hear of going, and said she would break her heart if she left her mother. So I retired on half-pay, and took this cottage; and in case any practice should fall in my way--why, there is my name on the bra.s.s plate, and I"m ready for anything that comes. But the only case that ever DID come was one day when I was driving my wife in the chaise; and another, one night, of a beggar with a broken head.
My wife makes me a present of a baby every year, and we"ve no debts; and between you and me and the post, as long as my mother-in-law is out of the house, I"m as happy as I need be."
"What! you and the old lady don"t get on well?" said I.
"I can"t say we do; it"s not in nature, you know," said Dennis, with a faint grin. "She comes into the house, and turns it topsy-turvy. When she"s here I"m obliged to sleep in the scullery. She"s never paid her daughter"s income since the first year, though she brags about her sacrifices as if she had ruined herself for Jemima; and besides, when she"s here, there"s a whole clan of the Molloys, horse, foot, and dragoons, that are quartered upon us, and eat me out of house and home."
"And is Molloyville such a fine place as the widow described it?" asked I, laughing, and not a little curious.
"Oh, a mighty fine place entirely!" said Dennis. "There"s the oak park of two hundred acres, the finest land ye ever saw, only they"ve cut all the wood down. The garden in the old Molloys" time, they say, was the finest ever seen in the West of Ireland; but they"ve taken all the gla.s.s to mend the house windows: and small blame to them either. There"s a clear rent-roll of thirty-five hundred a year, only it"s in the hand of receivers; besides other debts, for which there is no land security."
"Your cousin-in-law, Castlereagh Molloy, won"t come into a large fortune?"
"Oh, he"ll do very well," said Dennis. "As long as he can get credit, he"s not the fellow to stint himself. Faith, I was fool enough to put my name to a bit of paper for him, and as they could not catch him in Mayo, they laid hold of me at Kingstown here. And there was a pretty to do.
Didn"t Mrs. Gam say I was ruining her family, that"s all? I paid it by instalments (for all my money is settled on Jemima); and Castlereagh, who"s an honourable fellow, offered me any satisfaction in life. Anyhow, he couldn"t do more than THAT."
"Of course not: and now you"re friends?"
"Yes, and he and his aunt have had a tiff, too; and he abuses her properly, I warrant ye. He says that she carried about Jemima from place to place, and flung her at the head of every unmarried man in England a"most--my poor Jemima, and she all the while dying in love with me!
As soon as she got over the small-pox--she took it at Fermoy--G.o.d bless her, I wish I"d been by to be her nurse-tender--as soon as she was rid of it, the old lady said to Castlereagh, "Castlereagh, go to the bar"cks, and find out in the Army List where the 120th is." Off she came to Cork hot foot. It appears that while she was ill, Jemima"s love for me showed itself in such a violent way that her mother was overcome, and promised that, should the dear child recover, she would try and bring us together. Castlereagh says she would have gone after us to Jamaica."
"I have no doubt she would," said I.
"Could you have a stronger proof of love than that?" cried Dennis. "My dear girl"s illness and frightful blindness have, of course, injured her health and her temper. She cannot in her position look to the children, you know, and so they come under my charge for the most part; and her temper is unequal, certainly. But you see what a sensitive, refined, elegant creature she is, and may fancy that she"s often put out by a rough fellow like me."
Here Dennis left me, saying it was time to go and walk out the children; and I think his story has matter of some wholesome reflection in it for bachelors who are about to change their condition, or may console some who are mourning their celibacy. Marry, gentlemen, if you like; leave your comfortable dinner at the club for cold-mutton and curl-papers at your home; give up your books or pleasures, and take to yourselves wives and children; but think well on what you do first, as I have no doubt you will after this advice and example. Advice is always useful in matters of love; men always take it; they always follow other people"s opinions, not their own: they always profit by example. When they see a pretty woman, and feel the delicious madness of love coming over them, they always stop to calculate her temper, her money, their own money, or suitableness for the married life.... Ha, ha, ha! Let us fool in this way no more. I have been in love forty-three times with all ranks and conditions of women, and would have married every time if they would have let me. How many wives had King Solomon, the wisest of men? And is not that story a warning to us that Love is master of the wisest? It is only fools who defy him.
I must come, however, to the last, and perhaps the saddest, part of poor Denny Haggarty"s history. I met him once more, and in such a condition as made me determine to write this history.
In the month of June last I happened to be at Richmond, a delightful little place of retreat; and there, sunning himself upon the terrace, was my old friend of the 120th: he looked older, thinner, poorer, and more wretched than I had ever seen him. "What! you have given up Kingstown?" said I, shaking him by the hand.
"Yes," says he.
"And is my lady and your family here at Richmond?"
"No," says he, with a sad shake of the head; and the poor fellow"s hollow eyes filled with tears.
"Good heavens, Denny! what"s the matter?" said I. He was squeezing my hand like a vice as I spoke.
"They"ve LEFT me!" he burst out with a dreadful shout of pa.s.sionate grief--a horrible scream which seemed to be wrenched out of his heart.
"Left me!" said he, sinking down on a seat, and clenching his great fists, and shaking his lean arms wildly. "I"m a wise man now, Mr.
Fitz-Boodle. Jemima has gone away from me, and yet you know how I loved her, and how happy we were! I"ve got n.o.body now; but I"ll die soon, that"s one comfort: and to think it"s she that"ll kill me after all!"
The story, which he told with a wild and furious lamentation such as is not known among men of our cooler country, and such as I don"t like now to recall, was a very simple one. The mother-in-law had taken possession of the house, and had driven him from it. His property at his marriage was settled on his wife. She had never loved him, and told him this secret at last, and drove him out of doors with her selfish scorn and ill-temper. The boy had died; the girls were better, he said, brought up among the Molloys than they could be with him; and so he was quite alone in the world, and was living, or rather dying, on forty pounds a year.
His troubles are very likely over by this time. The two fools who caused his misery will never read this history of him; THEY never read G.o.dless stories in magazines: and I wish, honest reader, that you and I went to church as much as they do. These people are not wicked BECAUSE of their religious observances, but IN SPITE of them. They are too dull to understand humility, too blind to see a tender and simple heart under a rough ungainly bosom. They are sure that all their conduct towards my poor friend here has been perfectly righteous, and that they have given proofs of the most Christian virtue. Haggarty"s wife is considered by her friends as a martyr to a savage husband, and her mother is the angel that has come to rescue her. All they did was to cheat him and desert him. And safe in that wonderful self-complacency with which the fools of this earth are endowed, they have not a single pang of conscience for their villany towards him, consider their heartlessness as a proof and consequence of their spotless piety and virtue.
FOOTNOTES
[Footnote 1: The words of this song are copyright, nor will the copyright be sold for less than twopence-halfpenny.]
[Footnote 2: A French proverbe furnished the author with the notion of the rivalry between the Barber and the Tailor.]