Xue Jinxu notified Guangxi of her intent to transfer Su Jingjing in a women-and-children shelter at the outskirts. She will be more taken care of there, while being able to get watched by them, instead of staying suspiciously and inappropriately in a hotel room.Xue Guangxi did not care the least.
His main concern now was not Su Jingjing, but, surprisingly, was… Kang Sola.
Kang Sola!
The kiss they shared served as if like a switch and an eye-opener to something he had initially not thought was possible.
He had not known himself. He"s so into Kang Sola!
He had not realized it himself because he thought that he had not yet moved on from Su Jingjing all this time. He thought, even if he had been changing girlfriends, it had always been Su Jingjing that was in his heart. It was turning out now that he was wrong.
All he felt for Su Jingjing was such overbearing sense of betrayal and nothing else. There was no flame or spark left whatsoever between them.
His frozen heart was awaken by the kiss he shared with Kang Sola.
She had been always there, but he failed to notice how precious of a girl she is. Now, it seemed too late.
Ever since she decided to stay away from him, every pa.s.sing day, Xue Guangxi found himself more distraught. Kang Sola had indeed been true to her word. She did not take a glance at him nor talk to him. It"s as if he"s made of thin air.
Xue Guangxi had found plenty of free time after he had been promoted to the COO position. It was because behind the scenes, it was really Xue Jinxu who"s doing the bulk of the work. His main partic.i.p.ation was to learn and observe as to how it was done, and of course, maintain the façade.
He had found a breather.
However, what good could a breather do when he"s at this devastated state? Xue Guangxi had secretly wished to have more workload, now, more than ever to distract him from Kang Sola.
Since she stopped talking to him and ignored him altogether, rather than become a nuisance to her, Xue Guangxi had found a way to know her daily activities.
Wasn"t he an avid subscriber and follower of vlogger Kang Sola?
Every night at around eleven, he would check vlogger Kang"s site for a new upload. Kang Sola had been maintaining for quite some time now the uploading of her daily vlogs.
Just the other day, she had uploaded a heart-to-heart video. She explained to her subscribers her current state. She had said, "Guys, I had been feeling so down lately…" She sighed. "…It was mostly because of a betrayal that I experienced just a few days back. A person I thought my friend, well, in a way… hara.s.sed me…" Kang Sola was staring down at the video. It was as if she was there in front of him talking to him instead of being inside a gadget.
Xue Guangxi felt pain his heart. She was talking about him. He was the one who hara.s.sed her. Behind her daily stoic face whenever he saw her around campus was this emotions kept hidden in the deepest part of her ident.i.ty. She had been maintaining a façade, no different from how she used to be. Even Guangxi thought that she had already let go of that mistake.
However, Kang Sola was haunted by it as was he.
However, Kang Sola thought it differently from his sentiments.
It had made him realize something important, something good; whereas it made her hate him. Yes, she must have hated him intensely.
It was not merely stealing her first kiss. It was also betraying her trust. And worse, it was hara.s.sment, an a.s.sault, for her.
He had made an account with the username "x.x.x_misskangsnumberonefan_x.x.x" and once in a while Guangxi posts some words of encouragement. Even if he wanted to say sorry through the username, he could not, because it would blow his cover.
How would he be able to approach her in the future?
How long would she need to recover from it?
What can he do to at least uplift her spirits?
Xue Guangxi was pulling his hair out of sheer vexation.
"Why did I do it in the first place?! I"m such a jerk!"
Days pa.s.sed without progress. Even if Kang Sola and Xue Guangxi encountered each other, Kang Sola would pa.s.s by him as if he was not there, unlike before when she would turn 180 degrees towards where she came from.
Her indifference hurt Xue Guangxi the most.
Perhaps Kang Sola did not know yet her impact to Xue Guangxi. How would she know if she keeps on evading?
One night at around eleven in the evening, Xue Guangxi fussed over his cellphone. He kept on refres.h.i.+ng it every second. Finally, he had received notification that the latest vlog update that he was waiting for was available for viewing.
Kang Sola greeted her subscribers cheerfully. Oh how refres.h.i.+ng her smile was to a certain someone named Guangxi.
"Hi guys! How have you been?" She giggled. "I had been thinking what I should call you guys. Then I thought... how about "Solars"? Is that any good? Hahaha! Instead of calling you "guys" can I call you "solars"? It"s like a term of endearment right? Or something that only we share? What do you think? Please let me know in the comment section below."
"By the way, to x.x.x_misskangsnumberonefan_x.x.x, thanks for the support and encouraging words! It really lifted my spirits up. Sometimes I found myself really looking forward to your comments! It"s like my day is not complete without your comment! Hihihi! Thanks, x.x.x_misskangsnumberonefan_x.x.x!!"
He paused the video for a while.
Xue Guangxi found himself in Cloud 9. He was smiling like an idiot. "You"re welcome, Sola."
"It worked. I helped her regain her spirits. Doesn"t matter if she knows or not. What matters is that she"s slowly recovering. She"s becoming cheerful again."
Guangxi resumed watching the video.
"Oh, before I forget, there"s a big news I want to share with all of you. Drum roll please!!! Hehehe. Well, I"m going to Indonesia!! For one year!!! Yes, yes, yes!! You heard it right. Indonesia here I come!!"
"I got admitted into an interns.h.i.+p program there. I am so excited!! I"ll still upload daily vlogs so don"t you worry okay?"
"That"s it for now! Got to go!"
Xue Guangxi leaned on his seat, dejected. "She"s going to Indonesia for one year." He was full of disbelief. "No, no, no, no."
If Su Jingjing was Xue Guangxi"s first love, well, Kang Sola was his… could-have-been. Kang Sola was the one that got away.
It was over even before it started.
"I ruined it. I ruined it. I ruined it."
One year.
By the time that Kang Sola finish her interns.h.i.+p and return to Beijing, Xue Guangxi would have graduated already after only two years under the rigidly designed curriculum customized only for him. That"s because he had advanced most of his subjects through taking comprehensive exams.
Getting to the point, it meant that they would not see each other around anymore even when she had returned.
"What if I delay my graduation for another year?" But he knew it couldn"t happen because his family and their company needed him direly.
"What if I go to Indonesia?" It was ambitious, but there was no point in it because Kang Sola would have treated him the same way – harshly. Or would she? As if he knew where exactly in Indonesia she was headed.
In the next few days, he tried to talk to Kang Sola, to approach her – no! To convince her not to go.
However, she did not even give him the slightest chance. He could not even get near her! She made sure she"s always surrounded with groups of people whenever there"s a threat of Guangxi"s approach.
Guangxi logged into her site. As the ident.i.ty of x.x.x_misskangsnumberonefan_x.x.x, he asked, "When are you leaving vlogger Kang? Please don"t leave Beijing!"
After some time vlogger Kang answered, "Sorry I cannot disclose information of my departure. Safety reasons. The trip is final already. It"s a good opportunity for me. Please support me! Thanks!"
He sighed dejectedly.