"Perhaps so; but not with the "pity that is akin to love," by any means,"
and as Mrs. Gurney returned to the room, she bowed a stiff good-night to the doctor and went home.
After days of anxiety the fever reached its height, and there was not a more anxious heart in the house that day than Dexie"s own.
As she went about her daily household duties, she mentally pictured to herself what might happen in case of the worst. Would she be blamed for his death? and what would become of all Hugh"s money?
She speculated as to how he had willed it, and wondered what were the contents of the letter Hugh had written to her father before that afternoon"s sail. She hoped she would not be summoned again to the sick-room. But she was not to have that wish, for late in the evening Lancy came in to bring her over at once.
"The doctor says the next hour will decide whether he lives or not, and he wants you to be near in case you are needed in a hurry."
Towards midnight Hugh opened his eyes and recognized Mrs. Gurney, who was bending over him; and as he turned his face and saw the doctor also, he said, in a faint voice:
"What is the matter? Why am I here?"
"You have been sick, Hugh," said Mrs. Gurney, taking his hand; "do not talk."
"But I thought--I thought--I was in a boat," he said, faintly, and a puzzled look came over his face. "I was looking--for someone--or I was dreaming."
"You must not talk; try not to think itself," said the doctor, as he held some medicine to his lips. "You have been dreaming, no doubt; but try not to think about it any more."
Hugh was quiet for some minutes; memory was slowly returning; but at last the past all came back, and, casting an imploring glance into the doctor"s face, said:
"Tell me! I remember it all now--I was searching for Dexie--is she safe?"
"Yes, safe and well, so make your mind easy."
"If I could--only feel--sure--"
"Will you bring me that pitcher of water, Miss Sherwood?"
The doctor"s voice was low, but distinct, and an eager light came into Hugh"s face as he heard the name.
"Pour a little into this gla.s.s," the doctor added.
As Dexie came near at the doctor"s direction, Hugh looked up, and for one short moment their eyes met.
But that moment a.s.sured Hugh that Dexie was safe; that was all he could comprehend at present, for he was too weak to ask any more questions. Dexie could not bear the strain much longer, so, bending over Mrs. Gurney, she whispered:
"Tell me I may go, if only into the next room. I cannot bear it."
"Just a moment more, Miss Sherwood," the doctor whispered, overhearing the request "Help me a moment here," he said aloud, "and then you may retire."
She came towards the bed, and complied with his directions, knowing full well that Hugh"s eyes were devouring her face.
"Is it you, Dexie, or your spirit?" the words were low and tremulous, but, in the stillness of the room, sounded clear and distinct.
"It is I, Mr. McNeil, alive, and well as ever I was."
"Thank G.o.d!"
His eyes closed, and with a gesture the doctor dismissed her; then taking his seat beside the bed, he watched until he was a.s.sured that Hugh had fallen into a natural sleep.
As Dexie left the room, she mentally said a final good-bye to it, feeling thankful enough that her services would not be needed again to hush the despairing cries or still the grasping hands that had clutched at s.p.a.ce. It was the last time her eyes rested on Hugh for weeks. She knew he was recovering, and that was enough.
During his convalescence, Dexie never entered the Gurney household, lest by some chance she might come face to face with her enemy.
The occurrence on the boat was tacitly dropped by all parties concerned, and only when Hugh accidentally heard that the Sherwoods were preparing to return to the States did his reserve break down, and it was to Mrs. Gurney alone he expressed his regrets and intentions.
CHAPTER x.x.xI.
"Here"s news, girls; we are going back to Maine!" and Georgie rushed into the sitting-room where his sisters and their girl friends were chatting together. "Papa says we are going back _for sure_, in just a few weeks, too! Isn"t that jolly?" and he manifested his delight in a series of handsprings that would have charmed the heart of an acrobat.
"Yes, I heard something of it, but hoped it would not come to pa.s.s," said Dexie.
"It is the best news I"ve heard for a long time, the sooner we leave this horrid place the better I"ll be pleased," was Gussie"s comment.
Elsie was quite depressed at the thought of parting from her friends; but the intervening weeks were full of pleasure and excitement, and drives and parties seemed to follow one another in quick succession.
One day Dexie came in from a shopping expedition in great excitement, saying:
"Oh, girls, I have met my double; met her down in a store on Granville Street, and I actually followed her until she entered a house on Spring Garden Road. If she had worn one of my suits, I should have expected her to walk home instead of me. I began to think "this could not be I." Whom do you think she can be?"
n.o.body knew; but a few days after, Lancy related the fact that he had hurried after a lady, supposing her to be Dexie, and found he had been following a stranger.
"I am going to find out who this young person is," said Dexie, laughing.
"Who knows, perhaps it is my only chance to "see myself as others see me.""
After a few inquiries, it was found that Dexie"s double was a Nina Gordon, only daughter of a widow lately arrived in Halifax, and residing with a bachelor brother who was travelling for a city firm.
Cora Gurney happened to meet both mother and daughter while making a round of calls with a friend, and she ran in to tell Dexie of the meeting.
"Your double is not very much like you after all, Dexie," she said. "Her figure and style of walking are remarkably like yours, even to the poise of her head; her hair, too, is almost the same shade; the eyes and upper part of the face are similar: but the mouth and chin are her own--they have no resemblance whatever to the true Dexie. It is the first sight that strikes one. When you look for the resemblance, it really seems slight enough, and when she begins to talk, my! the illusion vanishes at once, for really I do not think I ever met a person who irritated me as she did. She is a girl after the "china doll" pattern, and can only use her brains at the direction of her mother. I do not think she ventured a remark of her own all the time I was there."
"Perhaps she did not have the chance," said Dexie, eager to champion the cause of her double. "Some girls are not allowed to have an opinion apart from the maternal idea of the fitness of things, and are kept down."
"Nonsense! If you had heard her talking, Dexie, I"m sure you would have felt like shaking her. It is only when her face is in repose that she resembles you in the least, for the moment she begins to talk, or even listen--or try to listen, one might say--she has the most senseless expression I ever saw on a woman"s face."
"Goodness sake! bring me a looking-gla.s.s, quick! do, till I see what I look like when I talk. Does my face a.s.sume an idiotic expression when I am conversing? Be honest and tell me, for sweet charity"s sake."
"Ease your mind, Dexie," said Cora, laughing. "Did I not say that there the resemblance ends? It is only when her face is at rest that the likeness can be seen at all. If you ask her the simplest question, she must refer to her mother for advice before she replies. For instance, I asked her if she liked Halifax. "Do I like Halifax, mamma, do you think?" and she turned to her mother with such an affected simper. Really, I almost disliked her the moment she opened her mouth."
"I hope I shall get a chance to see her before we leave Halifax," said Dexie.
"Well, I asked her and her mother to call on mamma next week, almost on purpose for your benefit. Hugh is getting along so well I think mamma can receive some friends. I will let you know when they come."