I said: "Oh, I don"t think there"s anywhere I want to go to, just yet."
"Better go, and have it settled, like. Makes it more convenient to you, and more convenient to me, later on, if we know exactly how we stand about your times off," said Million quite obstinately. "I shan"t want you after two this afternoon."
This she evidently meant quite literally.
I shall have to go, and to leave her to her own devices. I wonder what they will be? Perhaps an orgy of more shopping, without me, buying all the cerise atrocities that I wouldn"t allow her to look at. Garments and tr.i.m.m.i.n.gs of cerise would be a pitfall to Miss Million but for her maid.
So would what she calls "a very sweet shade of healiotrope." Perhaps it"s worse than that, though. Perhaps she"s having Mr. Burke to tea again, and wishes to keep it from the maid who said such disapproving things about him. I shall have to leave that, for the present.... I shall just have to take this afternoon out.
I went out, wondering where I should go. My feet seemed of their own accord to take me westwards, through Trafalgar Square and Pall Mall. I walked along, seeing little of the sauntering summer crowds. My mind was full of my own thoughts, my own frettings. I"d cut myself off from my own people, and what was going to come of it? Not the glorious independence I"d hoped for. No; a whole heap of new difficulties, and anything but a free hand wherewith to cope with them!
I came out of this rather gloomy reflection to find myself in Bond Street. That narrow, Aristocrat-of-all-the-Thoroughfares has seen a good deal of Miss Million and her maid during the last couple of days. Not much of a change for my afternoon off! I didn"t want to do any more shopping; in fact, I shan"t be able to do any more shopping for myself for the next six months, seeing that of the two quarters" salary that I asked Miss Million to advance me there remains about five shillings and sixpence.
But I might give myself a little treat; say, tea in a nice place with a good band and a picture-gallery first. That might help me to forget, for an hour or so, the troubles and trials of being the lady"s-maid to a millionairess.
This was why I paid away one of my few remaining shillings at the turnstile of the Fine Art Society, and sauntered into the small, cool gallery.
There was rather an amusing picture-show on. Drawings of things that I myself had been up to my eyes in for the last day or so; the latest fashions for nineteen-fourteen! Drawings by French artists that made clothes, fashion-plates, look as fascinating and as bizarre as the most wonderful orchids. Such curious t.i.tles, too, were given to these clever little pictures of feminine attire: "It is dark in the park"; "A rose amid the roses."
There was one picture of a simple frock made not unlike Miss Million"s white muslin with the blue sash, but how different frocks painted are from frocks worn! Or was it that the French manikin in the design knew how to wear the----
My thoughts were suddenly interrupted by a voice speaking above my shoulder, speaking to me:
"Ah! And is this where Miss Million"s maid gathers her inspirations for dressing Miss Million?"
I knew who this was, even before I turned from the pictures to face what looked like another very modern fashion-plate. A fashion-design for the attire of a young man about town, the Honourable Jim Burke! So he wasn"t calling on Miss Million again this afternoon, after all! That ought to be one weight off my mind; and yet it wasn"t. I felt curiously nervous of this man. I don"t know why. He raised his glossy hat and smiled down at me. He spoke in the courteous tone of one enchanted to meet some old acquaintance. "Good afternoon, Miss Lovelace!"
A maid may not cut her mistress"s chosen friends, even on her afternoon out. I was obliged to say "Good afternoon," which I did in a small and icy voice. Then, in spite of myself, I heard myself saying: "My name is Smith."
The Honourable Jim said coolly: "Oh, I think not?"
I said, standing there, all in black, against the gay background of coloured French drawings: "Smith is the name that I am known by as Miss Million"s maid."
"Exactly," said the big young Irishman gently, looking down at me and leaning on his ebony, gold-headed stick.
He added, almost in a friendly manner: "You know, that"s just what I"ve been wanting to have a little talk to you about."
"A talk to me?" I said.
"Yes, to you, Miss Smith-Lovelace," he nodded. "You do belong to the old Lovelace Court Lovelaces, I suppose. The Lady Anastasia lot, that had to let the place. Great pity! Yes! I know all about you," said this alarming young man with those blue eyes that seemed to look through my face into the wall and out again into Bond Street. "Let"s see, in your branch there"ll be only you and the one brother left, I believe?
Lovelace, Reginald M., Lieutenant Alexandra"s Own, I.A. What does he think of this?"
"Of which?" I fenced, not knowing what else to say to this surprising and disconcerting person. "You seem to know a good deal about people"s families, Mr. Burke." This I thought was a good way of carrying the war into the enemy"s own country, "or to say you do."
I added this with great emphasis. I meant him to realise that I saw through him. That I"d guessed it was all pure romancing what he had been murmuring yesterday to my unsuspecting little mistress about his friendship with her uncle.
That would astonish this young fortune-hunter, thought I. That would leave him without a word to say for himself. And then he"d leave me.
He"d turn and go, foiled. And even if he persisted in his attentions to the dazzled Miss Million, he would remain in a very wholesome state of terror of Miss Million"s maid. This was what I foresaw happening in a flash. Picture my astonishment, therefore, at what did happen.
The young man took me up without a quiver.
"Ah, you mean that affecting little yarn about old man Million, in Chicago, don"t you?" he said pleasantly. "Very touching, you"ll agree, the way I"d cling to his bedside and put up with his flares of temper, the dear old (Nature"s) gentleman----"
I would have given yet another quarter"s salary not to have done what I did at this moment. I laughed.
That laugh escaped me--I don"t know how. How awful! There I stood in the gallery, with only a sort of custodian and a couple of art-students about, laughing up at this well-dressed, showy, unprincipled Irishman as if we were quite friends! I who disapproved of him so utterly! I who mean to do all in my power to keep him and Million"s money apart!
He said: "Didn"t I know you had a sense of humour? Let us continue this very interesting conversation among the Polar landscapes downstairs.
That"s what I came in here to see. We"ll sit and admire the groups of penguins among the icebergs while we talk."
"No; I don"t think we will," said I. I didn"t mean to do anything this young man meant me to. I wasn"t Million, to be hypnotised by his looks and his clothes and his honeyed Irish voice, forsooth. "I don"t care to see those photographs. Not a bit like the Pole, probably. I am not coming down, Mr. Burke."
"Ah, come along," he persisted, smiling at me as he stood at the top of the stairs that led to the other exhibition. "Be a good little girl and come, now!"
"Certainly not," I said, with considerable emphasis on the "not."
I repeated steadily: "I am not coming. I have nothing to talk to you about. And, really, I think I have seen quite enough----"
"Of you!" was my unspoken ending to this sentence. These "asides" seem to sprinkle one"s conversations with words written, as it were, in invisible ink. How seldom can one publish them abroad, these mental conclusions of one"s remarks! No, no; life is quite complicated enough without that.... So I concluded, rather lamely, looking round the gallery with the drawings of Orientalised Europeans: "I have seen quite enough of this exhibition. So I am going----"
"To have tea, of course. That is a very sound scheme of yours, Miss Lovelace," said Mr. Burke briskly but courteously. "You"ll let me have the pleasure of taking you somewhere, won"t you?"
"Certainly not," I said again. This time the emphasis was on the "certainly." Then, as I was turning to leave the gallery, I looked again at this Mr. Burke. He may be what my far-away brother Reggie would call "a wrong "un." And I believe that he is. But he is certainly a very presentable-looking wrong "un--far more presentable than I, Beatrice Lovelace, am--was, I mean. Thank goodness, and my mistress"s salary, there is absolutely no fault to be found with my entirely plain black outdoor things. And, proportionately, I have spent more of the money on my boots, gloves, and neckwear than on the other part of my turn-out.
There"s some tradition in our family of Lady Anastasia"s having laid down this law. It is quite "sound," as Mr. Burke called it.
Now this presentable-looking but otherwise very discreditable Mr. Burke was quite capable of following me wherever I went. And if there is one thing I should loathe it is any kind of "fuss" in a public place. So, I thought swiftly, perhaps the best way of avoiding this fuss is to go quietly--but forbiddingly--to have tea. I needn"t let him pay for it.
So I said coldly to the big young man at my heels in the entrance: "I am going to Blank"s."
"Oh, no," said Mr. Burke pleasantly, "we are going to White"s. Don"t you like White"s?"
I had never been there in my life, of course, but I did not tell him so.
CHAPTER XIV
CREAM AND COMPLIMENTS
IN a few minutes we were sitting opposite to each other at a pretty table in the upper room. We were close to the window and could look down on the Bond Street crowd of people and cars. In front of us was the daintiest little tea that I had ever seen. This young man is, of course, accustomed to ordering the sort of tea that women like?
"And this is the second time that you have poured out tea for me, Miss Lovelace!" remarked the Honourable Jim Burke, as he took the cup from my hand. "Admirable little hostess that you are, remembering not to ask me whether I take sugar; storing up in your mind that what I like is a cupful of sugar with a little tea to moisten it!"
This was quite true.
I felt myself blush as I sat there. Then I glared at him over the plate of delicious cakes. The young man smiled; a nice smile, that one must allow.
"You look like a little angry black pigeon now. You"ve just the movements of a pigeon ready to peck at some one, and the plumage," he said, with a critical blue eye on my close-fitting black jacket. "All it lacks is just a touch of bright coral-red somewhere. A chain, now; a charm on the bangle; a flower. It"s to you I ought to have sent those carnations, instead of to your----Do you call her your mistress, that other girl? That one with the voice? Mad idea, the whole arrangement, isn"t it? Just think it over for a moment, and tell me yourself. Don"t you think it"s preposterous?"