PART II
_The School-Mistress_
I
THE OLDER LEt.i.tIA
Precisely at half-past seven there was a faint rustling on our staircase and a moment later Let.i.tia Primrose appeared at our breakfast-table smiling "Good-morning." She was dressed invariably in the plainest of black gowns with the whitest of ruching about her wrists and throat, and at the collar a pin which had been her mother"s, a cameo Minerva in an antique setting of vine leaves wrought in gold. The gown itself--I scarcely know how to style it, for no frill or foible of the day was ever visible in its homely contour, or if existing there, had been so curbed by the wearer"s modesty as to be quite null and void to the naked eye. Every tress of her early whitening hair lay smoothly back about her forehead, and behind was caught so neatly beneath her comb, it might be doubted how or if she ever slept upon it. Just so immaculate, virginal, irreproachable did the older Let.i.tia come softly down to us every week-day morning of her life, and taking her chair between Dove"s seat and mine, she would adjust her gold-rimmed gla.s.ses to better see how the night had dealt with us, and beaming upon us with one of the pleasantest of inquiring smiles, would murmur--
"Well?"
She ate little, and that so un.o.btrusively, I used to wonder if she ate at all. I can remember her lifting her cup, but do not recall that it ever reached her lips. She had, I think, some trick of magnetism, some power of the eye that held yours at the crucial moment, so that you never really saw her sip or bite, and she never chewed, I swear, yet I never heard of her bad digestion. Eating in her was a chaste indulgence common only, I believe, to spinsterhood--a rite, communionlike, rather than a feast.
When the clock struck eight, we would rise together--I for my office, Dove for farewells, Let.i.tia for the school-room; I with a clattering chair, Dove demurely, Let.i.tia noiselessly, to put on a hat as vague and una.s.suming as that decorous garment in which she cloaked herself from the outer world--a kind of cape and jacket, I think it was, in winter, but am not quite sure. In summer it was a cashmere shawl. Then slipping on a pair of gloves, black always and always whole, however faded, she would take up her small pearl-handled parasol, storm or shine, and that linen bag of hers, a marvellous reticule for books and ma.n.u.scripts with a separate pocket in the cover-flap for a comb and mirror and extra handkerchief--though not to my knowledge; I am merely telling what was told. Nor am I telling all that was said of Let.i.tia"s panoply and raiment, the manner of which at every season, at every hour of the night and day, was characterized--if I have understood the matter--not so much by a charm of style as of precaution, a modest providence, a truly exquisite foresight and readiness for all emergencies, however perilous, so that fire nor flood nor war"s alarms nor death itself, however sudden, should find her unprepared. Fire at night would merely have illumined a slender, un.o.btrusive figure descending a stair or ladder unabashed, decently, even gracefully arrayed in a silk kimono which hung nightly on the foot-board of her bed; and since for other purposes it was never worn, it remains unscorched, and, indeed, unblemished, to this very day. But for that grim hand the moment of whose clutch can never be foretold with certainty, nothing could exceed Let.i.tia"s watchfulness and care. She dressed invariably, I have said, in the plainest black, but I have heard, and on authority I could not question, that however simple and inexpensive those outer garments were, the inner vestments were of finest linen superimposing the softest silk. Thus--for a tendency to some heart-affection was hereditary in the Primrose family--thus could no sudden dissolution or surrender, such as might occur in an absence from home and the ministration of loving friends, be attended ever by any _post-mortem_ embarra.s.sment or chagrin, but rather would disclose a pride and delicacy of taste and consideration, the more remarkable and worthy of approval and regret, because it could never otherwise have been revealed. Nothing I know of in the way of gifts was more acceptable to Let.i.tia Primrose than those black silk ones which she took such pains to purchase and secrete.
It was a wondrous reticule, that linen pouch of which I spoke, bearing "L. P." embroidered on its outer side. I say its outer, for so she carried it always; and in years, so many I will not count them, I never knew that monogram turned in, or down. She met me with it in the doorway from which Dove watched us till we had left the gate. Mornings, for years, we went to our work together, save when an urgent matter summoned me earlier or compelled me, against my will and exercise, to drive. Morn after morn we walked together to the red brick school-house, talking of village news and the varying moods of our fickle northern weather, or perhaps of books, old ones and new ones, or of those golden memories that we shared. They were not perfunctory as I recall them, those morning dialogues. There was no abstraction about Let.i.tia, no cursory, unweighed chattering of things so obvious as to need no comment. Every topic might be a theme for her mild eloquence. It might be of Keats that she discoursed to me, or Browning or Alfred Tennyson or perhaps the Corsican, whom she hated, partly for tyranny, partly because he made her "look at him," she said; it might be the Early Church, whose records she had read and read again, though not one-half so much for Cuthbert"s holiness, I told her, as for Fuller"s quaintness, which she loved; or it might be a March morning that we walked together, while she spoke like a poet"s daughter of the first pink arbutus some grinning farm-boy had laid but yesterday upon her desk.
Why no one ever wooed and won such fervor seemed pa.s.sing strange to Dove and me. With all the grace of goodness and gentle courage in which she faced the world alone, in all those years which had followed her father"s death, she had never, to Dove"s ken or mine, won a single suitor. Those burdens of care and sacrifice laid too soon upon her frail, young shoulders had borne early fruit--patience, wisdom, and a sweet endurance beyond her years--but on such harvest young men set small store. A taste for it comes late. It made her pleasing to her elders, but those of her own years shrank instinctively from its very perfectness. She had matured too soon. How then should any one so coolly virtuous know trial or pa.s.sion? Surely so young a saint could have no warm impetuous hours to remember, no sweet abandonment, no pretty idyls--had she even a spring-time to recall?
Men admired her for her mind and heart, but in her presence secretly were ill at ease. Her self-dependence rendered useless their stronger arms accustomed to being leaned upon. She smiled upon them, it is true, but not as men like to be smiled upon--neither as a child, trustingly, nor as a queen, confident of their homage and gallant service. She appealed neither to their protection nor to their pride. She awoke the friend, but not the lover, in them; and so the years slipped by and she won no chivalry, because she claimed none. She had but asked and but received respect.
Our raillery, harmlessly meant, was not always kind, as I look back at it. It is scarcely pleasant to be reminded that among one"s kind one is not preferred, yet Let.i.tia bore all our jesting with steadfast pleasantry.
"Do I look forlorn? Do I look so helpless?" she would ask. Her very smile, her voice, her step, seemed in themselves an answer. "What do I want with a husband then?"
"Why," Dove would say, "to make you happy, Let.i.tia."
"You child: I am perfectly happy."
"Well," Dove would answer, stubbornly, "to make you happier, then."
I have forgotten Let.i.tia"s answers--all but one of them:
"I lived so long with my scholar-love," she once said, sweetly, of her father, "I fear I never should be content with an ordinary man."
Dove declared that no one in Gra.s.sy Fordshire was half worthy of her cousin; at least, she said, she knew but one, and he was already wedded--and to a woman, she added, humbly, not half so good or wise or wonderful as Let.i.tia. Dove stoutly held that Let.i.tia could have married, had she wished it, and whom she would. Father would shake his head at that.
"No," he would say, "Letty is one of those women men never think of as a bride."
"But why?" Dove would demand then, loyally. "She is the very woman to find real happiness in loving and self-sacrifice. Adversity would never daunt her, and yet," my wife would say with scorn rising in her voice, "the very men who need such help and comprehension and comradeship in their careers, would pa.s.s her by, and for a chit of girl who would never be happy sharing their struggles--but only their success!"
"My dear," father would reply, sagely, "a man glories in his power to hand a woman something she cannot reach herself. Letty Primrose has too long an arm."
"But if a man once married Let.i.tia--" Dove would protest, and father would chuckle then.
"Ah, yes, my dear, if one only would! But there"s the rub. Doubtless he would find Let.i.tia much like other women, quite willing he should reach things down to her from the highest shelf. But he must be a wise man to suspect just that--to guess what lies beneath our Letty"s apparent self-sufficiency."
"An older man might," Dove once suggested. "A general, or a great professor, or a minister plenipotentiary."
"Doubtless," he answered, "but our Gra.s.sy Ford is a narrow world, my dear. The young sprigs in it are only silly lads, and the elder bachelors are very musty ones, I fear--and not an amba.s.sador among them.
I doubt very much if Let.i.tia will ever meet him--that man you mean, who might choose Letty"s love through wisdom, and whose wisdom she might choose through love."
Dove"s answer was a sigh.
"Bertram," she said, "you must make some real nice, elderly bachelor doctor friends, and we"ll ask them to visit us."
It seemed a likely plan, but nothing came of it, and the silly lads and the musty ones alike left our Let.i.tia more and more to friendships beyond her years. From being so much in the company of her elders, she grew in time to be more like them. Her modesty became reserve; reserve, in turn, a certain awkwardness or shy aloofness in the presence of the other s.e.x--primness, it was called. She had not forgotten how to smile; her talk was blithe enough with those she knew, and was still colored by her love for poetry, but it fast grew quainter and less colloquial; there was a certain old-fashioned care and subtlety about it, a rare completeness in its phrases not at all like the crude, half-finished ones with which our Gra.s.sy Ford belles were content. It added to her charm, I think, but to the evidence as well of that maturity and self-complacency which all men seemed to fear and shun, not one suspecting that the glow beneath meant youth--youth preserved through time and trial to be a light to her, or to Love belated.
Her brown hair turned to gray, her gray to white, and she still came down to us smiling good-morning; still worshipped Keats, still scorned the upstart who made her look; taught on, year after year, in the red brick school-house, wearing the wild flowers farm-boys gathered in the hills. Her life flowed on like a stream in summer, softly in shadow and in sun. She seemed content--no bitter note in her low voice, no glance of envy, malice, or chagrin in those kind gray eyes of hers, which beamed so gently upon others" loves; we used to wonder how they might have shone upon her own.
One day in August--it was again that anniversary birthday around which half my memories of her seem to cling--she gave me a copy of _In Memoriam_, and bought for herself the linen for another reticule.
Neatly, and in the fashion of our grandmothers" day, she worked upon it her initials, L. and P., in Old-English letters, old-rose and gold.
"What," I asked, "is the figure meant for?"
"The figure? Where?"
"In the background there--the figure seven, in the lighter gold."
She bent to study it.
"There _is_ a seven there," she said. "I must have used a lighter silk."
"Then shall you alter it?" I asked.
"No," she answered. "It is now too late."
"She means the figure," I explained to Dove.
"The letters also," Dove murmured, softly, as we turned away.
II
ON A CORNER SHELF
At five minutes to four o"clock the red school-house gave no sign of the redder life beating within its walls. The grounds about it, worn brown by hundreds of restless feet and marked in strange diagrams, the mystic symbols of hop-scotch, marbles, and three-old-cat, were quite deserted save for sparrows busy with crumbs from the mid-day luncheon-pails. Five minutes later, one listening by the picket-fence might have heard faintly the tinkling of little bells, and a rising murmur that with the opening of doors burst suddenly into a tramping of myriad feet, while from the lower hallway two marching lines came down the outer stair, primly in step, till at the foot they sprang into wild disorder, a riot of legs and skirts, with the shouts and shrieks and shrill whistlings of children loosed from bondage. When the noisy tide had swept down the broad walk into the street, Let.i.tia might be seen following smilingly, her skirts surrounded by little girls struggling for the honor of being nearest and bearing her reticule.
At the end of happy days Let.i.tia"s face bore the imprint of a sweet contentment, as if the love she had given had been returned twofold, not only in the awkward caresses of her little ones, but in the sight of such tender buds opening day by day through her patient care into fuller knowledge of a great bright world about them. She strove earnestly to show them more of it than the school-books told; she aimed higher than mere correctness in the exercises, those anxious, careful, or heedless scribblings with which her reticule was crammed. In the geography she taught there were deeper colorings than the pale tints of those twenty maps the text-book held; greater currents flowed through those green and pink and yellow lands than the princ.i.p.al rivers there, and in the plains between them greater harvests had been garnered, according to her stories, than the princ.i.p.al products, princ.i.p.al exports--princ.i.p.al paragraphs learned by rote and recited senselessly.
Drawing, in Let.i.tia"s room, it was charged against her by one named Shears, who had the interests of the school at heart and jaw, had become a subterfuge for teaching botany as well.
"For draggin" in a study," as he told a group on the corner of Main and Clingstone streets, "not _in_cluded in the grammar-grade curriculum!"
He paused to let the word have full effect.