"Then I shouldn"t wonder if you might have it as well as another. Is Clarissa Parks more loved than any one in your cla.s.s?"
"Oh, no. She is not a favorite at all."
"Then, child, I don"t see that you are proving your a.s.sertion."
"I know I"m not," laughed Marjorie. "Clarissa Parks is engaged; but so is f.a.n.n.y Hunting, and f.a.n.n.y is the plainest little body. But I did begin by really believing that beautiful faces had the best of it in the world, and I was feeling rather aggrieved because somebody described me yesterday as "that girl in the first cla.s.s who is always getting up head; she is short and rather stout and wears her hair in a knot at the back of her head?" Now wasn"t that humiliating? Not a word about my eyes or complexion or manner!"
Miss Prudence laughed at her comically aggrieved tone.
"It is hard to be nothing distinctive but short and stout and to wear your hair in a knot, as your grandmother does! But the getting up head is something."
"It doesn"t add to my beauty. Miss Prudence, I"m afraid I"ll be a homely blue stocking. And if I don"t teach, how shall I use my knowledge? I cannot write a book, or even articles for the papers; and I must do something with the things I learn."
"Every educated lady does not teach or write."
"You do not," answered Marjorie, thoughtfully; "only you teach Prue. And I think it increases your influence, Miss Prudence. How much you have taught Linnet and me!"
"I"m thinking about two faces I saw the other night at Mrs. Harrowgate"s tea table. Both were strangers to me. As the light fell over the face of one I thought I never saw anything so exquisite as to coloring: the hair was shining like threads of gold; the eyes were the azure you see in the sky; lips and cheeks were tinted; the complexion I never saw excelled for dazzling fairness,--we see it in a child"s face, sometimes. At her side sat a lady: older, with a quiet, grave face; complexion dark and not noticeable; hair the brown we see every day; eyes brown and expressive, but not finer than we often see. Something about it attracted me from her bewitching neighbor, and I looked and compared. One face was quiet, listening; the other was sparkling as she talked. The grave dark face grew upon me; it was not a face, it was a soul, a human life with a history. The lovely face was lovely still, but I do not care to see it again; the other I shall not soon forget."
"But it was beauty you saw," persisted Marjorie.
"Not the kind you girls were talking about. A stranger pa.s.sing through the room would not have noticed her beside the other. The lovely face has a history, I was told after supper, and she is a girl of character."
"Still--I wish--story books would not dwell so much on att.i.tudes; and how the head sets on the shoulders; and the pretty hands and slender figures.
It makes girls think of their hands and their figures. It makes this girl I know not wrap up carefully for fear of losing her "slender" figure. And the eyelashes and the complexion! It makes us dissatisfied with ourselves."
"The Lord knew what kind of books would be written when he said that man looketh on the out ward appearance--"
"But don"t Christian writers ever do it?"
"Christian writers fall into worldly ways. There are lovely girls and lovely women in the world; we meet them every day. But if we think of beauty, and write of it, and exalt it unduly, we are making a use of it that G.o.d does not approve; a use that he does not make of it himself. How beauty and money are scattered everywhere. G.o.d"s saints are not the richest and most beautiful. He does not lavish beauty and money upon those he loves the best. I called last week on an Irish washerwoman and I was struck with the beauty of her girls--four of them, the eldest seventeen, the youngest six. The eldest had black eyes and black curls; the second soft brown eyes and soft brown curls to match; the third curls of gold, as pretty as Prue"s, and black eyes; the youngest blue eyes and yellow curls. I never saw such a variety of beauty in one family. The mother was at the washtub, the oldest daughter was ironing, the second getting supper of potatoes and indian meal bread, the third beauty was brushing the youngest beauty"s hair. As I stood and looked at them I thought, how many girls in this city would be vain if they owned their eyes and hair, and how G.o.d had thrown the beauty down among them who had no thought about it. He gives beauty to those who hate him and use it to dishonor him, just as he gives money to those who spend it in sinning. I almost think, that he holds cheaply those two things the world prizes so highly; money and beauty."
After a moment Marjorie said: "I do not mean to live for the world."
"And you do not sigh for beauty?" smiled Miss Prudence.
"No, not really. But I do want to be something beside short and stout, with my hair in a knot."
The fun in her eyes did not conceal the vexation.
"Miss Prudence, it"s hard to care only for the things G.o.d cares about,"
she said, earnestly.
"Yes, very hard."
"I think _you_ care only for such things. You are not worldly one single bit."
"I do not want to be--one single bit."
"I know you do give up things. But you have so much; you have the best things. I don"t want things you have given up. I think G.o.d cares for the things you care for."
"I hope he does," said Miss Prudence, gently. "Marjorie, if he has given you a plain face give it back to him to glorify himself with; if a beautiful face, give that back to him to glorify himself with. You are not your own; your face is not yours; it is bought with a price."
Marjorie"s face was radiant just then. The love, the surprise, the joy, made it beautiful.
Miss Prudence could not forbear, she drew the beautiful face down to kiss it.
"People will always call you plain, dear, but keep your soul in your face, and no matter."
"Can I help Deborah now? Or isn"t there something for me to do upstairs?
I can study and practice this afternoon."
"I don"t believe you will. Look out in the path."
Marjorie looked, then with a shout that was almost like Linnet"s she dropped her work, and sprang towards the door.
For there stood Linnet herself, in the travelling dress Marjorie had seen her last in; not older or graver, but with her eyes shining like stars, ready to jump into Marjorie"s arms.
How Miss Prudence enjoyed the girls" chatter. Marjorie wheeled a chair to the grate for Linnet, and then, having taken her wraps, kneeled down on the rug beside her and leaned both elbows on the arm of her chair.
How fast she asked questions, and how Linnet talked and laughed and brushed a tear away now and then! Was there ever so much to tell before?
Miss Prudence had her questions to ask; and Morris" mother, who had been coaxed to come in to the grate, steamer chair and all, had many questions to ask about her boy.
Marjorie was searching her through and through to discover if marriage and travel had changed her; but, no, she was the same happy, laughing Linnet; full of bright talk and funny ways of putting things, with the same old att.i.tudes and the same old way of rubbing Marjorie"s fingers as she talked. Marriage had not spoiled her. But had it helped her? That could not be decided in one hour or two.
When she was quiet there was a sweeter look about her mouth than there had ever used to be; and there was an a.s.surance, no, it was not so strong as that, there was an ease of manner, that she had brought home with her. Marjorie was more her little sister that ever.
Marjorie laughed to herself because everything began with Linnet"s husband and ended in him: the stories about Genoa seemed to consist in what Will said and did; Will was the attraction of Naples and the summit of Mt. Vesuvius; the run down to Sicily and the glimpse of Vesuvius were somehow all mingled with Will"s doings; the stories about the priest at Naples were all how he and Will spent hours and hours together comparing their two Bibles; and the tract the priest promised to translate into Italian was "The Amiable Louisa" that Will had chosen; and, when the priest said he would have to change the t.i.tle to suit his readers, Will had suggested "A Moral Tale." This priest was confessor to a n.o.ble family in the suburbs; and once, when driving out to confess them, had taken Will with him, and both had stayed to lunch. The priest had given them his address, and Will had promised to write to him; he had brought her what he called his "paintings," from his "studio," and she had pinned them up in her little parlor; they were painted on paper and were not remarkable evidences of genius. Not quite the old masters, although painted in Italy by an Italian. His English was excellent; he was expecting to come to America some day. A sea captain in Brooklyn had a portrait of him in oil, and when Miss Prudence went to New York she must call and see it; Morris and he were great friends. That naughty Will had asked him one day if he never wished to marry, and he had colored so, poor fellow, and said, "It is better to live for Christ." And Will had said he hoped he lived for Christ, too. The priest had a smooth face and a little round spot shaven on top of his head. She used to wish Marjorie might see that little round spot.
And the pilot, they had such a funny pilot! When anything was pa.s.sed him at the table, or you did him a favor, he said "thank you" in Italian and in English.
And how they used to walk the little deck! And the sunsets! She had to confess that she did not see one sunrise till they were off Sandy Hook coming home. But the moonlight on the water was most wonderful of all!
That golden ladder rising and falling in the sea! They used to look at it and talk about home and plan what she would do in that little house.
She used to be sorry for Morris; but he did not seem lonesome: he was always buried in a book at leisure times; and he said he would be sailing over the seas with his wife some day.
"Morris is so _good_" she added. "Sometimes he has reminded me of the angels who came down to earth as young men."
"I think he was a Christian before he was seven years old," said his mother.
At night Marjorie said, when she conducted Linnet up to her chamber, that they would go back to the blessed old times, and build castles, and forget that Linnet was married and had crossed the ocean.
"I"m living in my castle now," returned Linnet. "I don"t want to build any more. And this is lovelier than any we ever built."
Marjorie looked at her, but she did not speak her thought; she almost wished that she might "grow up," and be happy in Linnet"s way.
With a serious face Linnet lay awake after Marjorie had fallen asleep, thinking over and over Miss Prudence"s words when she bade her goodnight:--
"It is an experience to be married, Linnet; for G.o.d holds your two lives as one, and each must share his will for the other; if joyful, it is twice as joyful; if hard, twice as hard."