But they do though. Answer, many a widow"s son; many a heedful brother of orphan sisters; many a solitary clerk living and paying his way upon the merest pittance; is it not better to think of others than one"s self? Can a man, even a young man, find his highest happiness in mere personal enjoyment?
However, let me cease throwing these pebbles of preaching under the wheels of my story; as it moves on it will preach enough for itself.
Elizabeth"s annoyances, suspicions, and conscience-p.r.i.c.ks as to whether she ought or ought not to communicate both, came to an end at last. Gradually she made up her mind that, even if it did look like tale bearing, on the following Sat.u.r.day night Miss Hilary must know all.
It was an anxious week; for Miss Leaf had fallen ill. Not seriously; and she never complained until her sister had left, when she returned to her bed and did not again rise. She would not have Miss Hilary sent for, nor Miss Selina, who was away paying a ceremonious prenuptial visit to Mr. Ascott"s partner"s wife at Dulwich.
"I don"t want any thing that you can not do for me. You are becoming a first rate nurse. Elizabeth," she said, with that pa.s.sive, peaceful smile which almost frightened the girl; it seemed as if she were slipping away from this world and all its cares into another existence. Elizabeth felt that to tell her any thing about her nephew"s affairs was perfectly impossible. How thankful she was that in the quiet of the sick-room her mistress was kept in ignorance of the knocks and inquiries at the door, and especially of a certain ominous paper which had fallen into Mrs. Jones"s hands, and informed her, as she took good care to inform Elizabeth, that any day "the bailiffs" might be after her young master.
"And the sooner the whole set of you clear out of my house the better; I am a decent respectable woman," said Mrs. Jones, that very morning; and Elizabeth had had to beg her as a favor not to disturb her sick mistress, but to wait one day, till Miss Hilary came home.
Also, when Ascott, ending with a cheerful and careless countenance his ten minutes" after breakfast chat in his aunt"s room, had met Elizabeth on the staircase, he had stopped to bid her say if any body wanted him he was gone to Birmingham, and would not be home till Monday. And on Elizabeth"s hesitating, she having determined to tell no more of these involuntary lies, he had been very angry, and then stooped to entreaties, begging her to do as he asked, or it would be the ruin of him. Which she understood well enough when, all the day, she--grown painfully wise, poor girl!--watched a Jewish-looking man hanging about the house, and noticing every body that went in or out of it.
Now, sitting at Miss Leaf"s window, she fancied she saw this man disappear into the gin-palace opposite, and at the same moment a figure darted hurriedly round the street corner, and into the door of No. 15. Elizabeth looked to see if her mistress were asleep, and then crept quietly out of the room, shutting the door after her.
Listening, she heard the sound of the latch-key, and of some one coming stealthily up stairs.
"Hollo!--Oh, it"s only you, Elizabeth."
"Shall I light your candle, sir?"
But when she did the sight was not pleasant. Drenched with rain, his collar pulled up, and his hat slouched, so as in some measure to act as a disguise, breathless and trembling--hardly any body would have recognized in this discreditable object that gentlemanly young man, Mr. Ascott Leaf.
He staggered into his room and threw himself across the bed.
"Do you want anything, Sir?" said Elizabeth, from the door.
"No--yes--stay a minute. Elizabeth, are you to be trusted?"
"I hope I am, Sir."
"The bailiffs are after me. I"ve just dodged them. If they know I"m here the game"s all up--and it will kill my aunt."
Shocked as she was, Elizabeth was glad to hear him say that--glad to see the burst of real emotion with which he flung himself down on the pillow, muttering all sorts of hopeless self-accusations.
"Come, Sir, "tis no use taking on so," said she, much as she would have spoken to a child, for there was something childish rather than man like in Ascott"s distress. Nevertheless, she pitied him, with the unreasoning pity a kind heart gives to any creature, who, blameworthy or not, has fallen into trouble. "What do you mean to do?"
"Nothing. I"m cleaned out. And I haven"t a friend in the world."
He turned his face to the wall in perfect despair.
Elizabeth tried hard not to sit in judgment upon what the catechism would call her "betters;" and yet her own strong instinct of almost indefinite endurance turned with something approaching contempt from this weak, lightsome nature, broken by the first touch of calamity.
"Come, it"s no use making things worse than they are. If no body knows that you are here, lock your door and keep quiet. I"ll bring you some dinner when I bring up Missis" tea, and not even Mrs. Jones will be any the wiser."
"You"re a brick, Elizabeth--a regular brick!" cried the young fellow, brightening up at the least relief. "That will be capital.--Get me a good slice of beef, or ham, or something. And mind you, don"t forget!--a regular stunning bottle of pale ale."
"Very well, Sir."
The acquiescence was somewhat sullen, and had he watched Elizabeth"s face he might have seen there an expression not too flattering. But she faithfully brought him his dinner, and kept his secret, even though, hearing from over the staircase Mrs. Jones resolutely deny that Mr. Leaf had been at home since morning, she felt very much as if she were conniving at a lie. With a painful, half-guilty consciousness she waited for her mistress"s usual question. "Is my nephew come home?" but fortunately it was not asked.--
Miss Leaf lay quiet and pa.s.sive, and her faithful nurse settled her for the night with a strangely solemn feeling, as if she were leaving her to her last rest, safe and at peace before the overhanging storm broke upon the family.
But all shadow of this storm seemed to have pa.s.sed away from him who was its cause. As soon as the house was still Ascott crept down and fell to his supper with as good an appet.i.te as possible. He even became free and conversational.
"Don"t look so glum, Elizabeth. I shall soon weather through. Old Ascott will fork out; he couldn"t help it. I"m to be his nephew you know. Oh, that was a clever catch of Aunt Selina"s. If only Aunt Hilary would try another like it."
"If you please, Sir, I"m going to bed."
"Off with you, then, and I"ll not forget the gown at Christmas.
You"re a sharp young woman, and I"m much obliged to you." And for a moment he looked as if he were about to make the usual unmannerly acknowledgment of civility from a young gentleman to a servant maid, viz., kissing her, but he pulled a face and drew back. He really couldn"t; she was so very plain. At this moment there came a violent ring, and "Fire!" was shouted through the key-hole of the door.
Terrified, Elizabeth opened it, when, with a burst of laughter, a man rushed in and laid hands upon Ascott.
It was the sheriff"s officer.
When his trouble came upon him Ascott"s manliness returned. He turned very white, but he made no opposition; had even enough of his wits about him--or something better than wits--to stop Mrs. Jones from rushing up in alarm and indignation to arouse Miss Leaf.
"No; she"ll know it quite soon enough.--Let her sleep till morning.
Elizabeth, look here." He wrote upon a card the address of the place he was to be taken to. "Give Aunt Hilary this. Say if she can think of a way to get me out of this horrid mess; but I don"t deserve--Never mind. Come on, you fellows."
He pulled his hat over his eyes, jumped into the cab, and was gone.
The whole thing had not occupied five minutes.
Stupefied, Elizabeth stood and considered what was best to be done.
Miss Hilary must be told; but how to get at her in the middle of the night, thereby leaving her mistress to the mercy of Mrs. Jones. It would never do. Suddenly she thought of Miss Balquidder.--She might send a message. No, not a message--for the family misery and disgrace must not be betrayed to a stranger--but a letter to Kensington. With an effort Elizabeth composed herself sufficiently to write one--her first--to her dear Miss Hilary.
"HONORED MADAM,--Mr. Leaf has got himself into trouble, and is taken away somewhere; and I dare not tell missis; and I wish you was at home, as she is not well, but better than she has been, and she shall know nothing about it till you come.--Your obedient and affectionate servant, ELIZABETH HAND."
Taking Ascott"s latch-key she quitted the house and slipped out into the dark night, almost losing her way among the gloomy squares, where she met not a creature except the solitary policeman, plashing steadily along the wet pavement. When he turned the glimmer of his bull"s eye upon her she started like a guilty creature, till she remembered that she really was doing nothing wrong, and so need not be afraid of any thing. This was her simple creed, which Miss Hilary had taught her, and it upheld her, even till she knocked at Miss Balquidder"s door. There, poor girl, her heart sank, especially when Miss Balquidder, in an anomalous costume and a severe voice, opened the door herself, and asked who was there, disturbing a respectable family at this late hour?
Elizabeth answered, what she had before determined to say, as sufficiently explaining her errand, and yet betraying nothing that her mistress might wish concealed.
"Please, ma"am, I"m Miss Leaf"s servant. My missis is ill, and I want a letter sent at once to Miss Hilary."
"Oh! come in, then. Elizabeth, I think, your name is?"
"Yes, ma"am."
"What made you leave home at this hour of the night? Did your mistress send you?"
"No."
"Is she so very ill? It seems sudden. I saw Miss Hilary to-day, and she knew nothing at all about it."
Elizabeth shrank a little before the keen eye that seemed to read her through.
"There"s more amiss than you have told me, young woman. Is it because your mistress is in serious danger that you want to send for her sister?"
"No."