The old man looked up. "Someday it will be early. Perhaps this morning."
The woman shrugged, leaning in the door frame now, her arms still folded over her thin chest as Ofelio moved the team and wagon creaking out of the yard.
But the stage was not early; nor was it on time. Ofelio urged the mules into the empty station yard and pulled to a slow stop in front of the wagon shed that joined the station adobe. Two horses were in the shed with their muzzles munching at the hay rack. Spainhower, the b.u.t.terfield agent, appeared in the doorway for a moment. Seeing Ofelio he said, "Seems you"d learn to leave about thirty minutes later." He turned away.
Ofelio smiled, climbing off the wagon box. He went through the door, following Spainhower into the sudden dimness, feeling the adobe still cool from the night and hearing a voice saying: "If Ofelio drove for b.u.t.terfield, n.o.body"d have to wait for stages." He recognized the voice and the soft laugh that followed and then he saw the man, Billy-Jack Trew, sitting on one end of the pine table with his boots resting on a Douglas chair.
Billy-Jack Trew was a deputy. Val Dodson, his boss, the Dona Ana sheriff, sat a seat away from him with his elbows on the pine boards. They had come down from Tularosa, stopping for a drink before going on to Mesilla.
Billy-Jack Trew said in Spanish, "Ofelio, how does it go?"
The old man nodded. "It pa.s.ses well," he said, and smiled, because Billy-Jack was a man you smiled at even though you knew him slightly and saw him less than once in a month.
"Up there at that horse pasture," the deputy said, "I hear Joe Slidell"s got some mounts of his own."
Ofelio nodded. "I think so. Senor Stam does not own all of them."
"I"m going to take me a ride up there pretty soon," Billy-Jack said, "and see what kind of money Joe"s askin". Way the sheriff keeps me going I need two horses, and that"s a fact."
Ofelio could feel Spainhower looking at him, Val Dodson glancing now and then. One or the other would soon ask about his nights in the hills. He could feel this also. Everyone seemed to know about his going into the hills and everyone continued to question him about it, as if it were a foolish thing to do. Only Billy-Jack Trew would talk about it seriously.
At first, Ofelio had tried to explain the things he thought about: life and death and a man"s place, the temptations of the devil and man"s obligation to G.o.d-all those things men begin to think about when there is little time left. And from the beginning Ofelio saw that they were laughing at him. Serious faces straining to hold back smiles.
Pseudosincere questions that were only to lead him on. So after the first few times he stopped telling them what occurred to him in the loneliness of the night and would tell them whatever entered his mind, though much of it was still fact.
Billy-Jack Trew listened, and in a way he understood the old man. He knew that legends were part of a Mexican peon"s life. He knew that Ofelio had been a vaquero for something like fifty years, with lots of lonesome time for imagining things. Anything the old man said was good listening, and a lot of it made sense after you thought about it awhile- so Billy-Jack Trew didn"t laugh.
With a cigar stub clamped in the corner of his mouth, Spainhower"s puffy face was dead serious looking at the old man. "Ofelio," he said, "this morning there was a mist ring over the gate. Now, I heard what that meant, so I kept my eyes open and sure"n h.e.l.l here come a gang of elves through the gate dancin" and carryin" on. They marched right in here and hauled themselves up on that table."
Val Dodson said dryly, "Now, that"s funny, just this morning coming down from Tularosa me and Billy-Jack looked up to see this be-ootiful she-devil running like h.e.l.l for a cholla clump." He paused, glancing at Ofelio. "Billy-Jack took one look and was half out his saddle when I grabbed him."
Billy-Jack Trew shook his head. "Ofelio, don"t mind that talk."
The old man smiled, saying nothing.
"You seen any more devils?" Spainhower asked him.
Ofelio hesitated, then nodded, saying, "Yes, I saw two devils this morning. Just at dawn."
Spainhower said, "What"d they look like?"
"I know," Val Dodson said quickly.
"Aw, Val," Billy-Jack said. "Leave him alone." He glanced at Ofelio, who was looking at Dodson intently, as if afraid of what he would say next.
"I"ll bet," Dodson went on, "they had horns and hairy forked tails like that one me and Billy-Jack saw out on the sands." Spainhower laughed, then Dodson winked at him and laughed too.
Billy-Jack Trew was watching Ofelio and he saw the tense expression on the old man"s face relax. He saw the half-frightened look change to a smile of relief, and Billy-Jack was thinking that maybe a man ought to listen even a little closer to what Ofelio said. Like maybe there were double meanings to the things he said.
"Listen," Ofelio said, "I will tell you something else I have seen. A sight few men have ever witnessed." Ofelio was thinking: All right, give them something for their minds to work on.
"What I saw is a very hideous thing to behold, more frightening than elves, more terrible than devils." He paused, then said quietly, "What I saw was a nagual. nagual."
He waited, certain they had never heard of this, for it was an old Mexican legend. Spainhower was smiling, but half-squinting curiosity was in his eyes. Dodson was watching, waiting for him to go on. Still Ofelio hesitated and finally Spainhower said, "And what"s a nagual nagual supposed to be?" supposed to be?"
"A nagual, nagual," Ofelio explained carefully, "is a man with strange powers. A man who is able to transform himself into a certain animal."
Spainhower said, too quickly, "What kind of an animal?"
"That," Ofelio answered, "depends upon the man. The animal is usually of his choice."
Spainhower"s brow was deep furrowed. "What"s so terrible about that?"
Ofelio"s face was serious. "One can see you have never beheld a nagual nagual. Tell me, what is more hideous, what is more terrible, than a man-who is made in G.o.d"s image-becoming an animal?"
There was silence. Then Val Dodson said, "Aw-"
Spainhower didn"t know what to say; he felt disappointed, cheated.
And into this silence came the faint rumbling sound. Billy-Jack Trew said, "Here she comes." They stood up, moving for the door, and soon the rumble was higher pitched-creaking, screeching, rattling, pounding-and the b.u.t.terfield stage was swinging into the yard. Spainhower and Dodson and Billy-Jack Trew went outside, Ofelio and his nagual nagual forgotten. forgotten.
No one had ever seen John Stam smile. Some, smiling themselves, said Marion must have at least once or twice, but most doubted even this. John Stam worked hard, twelve to sixteen hours a day, plus keeping a close eye on some business interests he had in Mesilla, and had been doing it since he"d first visually staked off his range six years before. No one asked where he came from and John Stam didn"t volunteer any answers.
Billy-Jack Trew said Stam looked to him like a red-dirt farmer with no business in cattle, but that was once Billy-Jack was wrong and he admitted it himself later. John Stam appeared one day with a crow-bait horse and twelve mavericks including a bull. Now, six years later, he had himself way over a thousand head and a jinete jinete to break him all the horses he could ride. to break him all the horses he could ride.
Off the range, though, he let Ofelio Oso drive him wherever he went. Some said he felt sorry for Ofelio because the old Mexican had been a good hand in his day. Others said Marion put him up to it so she wouldn"t have Ofelio hanging around the place all the time. There was always some talk about Marion, especially now with the cut-down crew up at the summer range, John Stam gone to tend his business about once a week, and only Ofelio and Joe Slidell there. Joe Slidell wasn"t a bad-looking man.
The first five years John Stam allowed himself only two pleasures: he drank whiskey, though no one had ever seen him drinking it, only buying it; and every Sunday afternoon he"d ride to Mesilla for dinner at the hotel. He would always order the same thing, chicken, and always sit at the same table. He had been doing this for some time when Marion started waiting tables there. Two years later, John Stam asked her to marry him as she was setting down his dessert and Marion said yes then and there. Some claimed the only thing he"d said to her before that was bring me the ketchup.
Spainhower said it looked to him like Stam was from a line of hardheaded Dutchmen. Probably his dad had made him work like a mule and never told him about women, Spainhower said, so John Stam never knew what it was like not not to work and the first woman he looked up long enough to notice, he married. About everybody agreed Spainhower had something. to work and the first woman he looked up long enough to notice, he married. About everybody agreed Spainhower had something.
They were almost to the ranch before John Stam spoke. He had nodded to the men in the station yard, but gotten right up on the wagon seat. Spainhower asked him if he cared for a drink, but he shook his head. When they were in view of the ranch house-John Stam"s leathery mask of a face looking straight ahead down the slope-he said, "Mrs. Stam is in the house?"
"I think so," Ofelio said, looking at him quickly, then back to the rumps of the mules.
"All morning?"
"I was not here all morning." Ofelio waited, but John Stam said no more. This was the first time Ofelio had been questioned about Mrs. Stam. Perhaps he overheard talk in Mesilla, he thought.
In the yard John Stam climbed off the wagon and went into the house. Ofelio headed the team for the barn and stopped before the wide door to unhitch. The yard was quiet; he glanced at the house, which seemed deserted, though he knew John Stam was inside. Suddenly Mrs. Stam"s voice was coming from the house, high pitched, excited, the words not clear. The sound stopped abruptly and it was quiet again. A few minutes later the screen door slammed and John Stam was coming across the yard, his great gnarled hands hanging empty, threateningly, at his sides.
He stopped before Ofelio and said bluntly, "I"m asking you if you"ve ever taken any of my whiskey."
"I have never tasted whiskey," Ofelio said and felt a strange guilt come over him in this man"s gaze. He tried to smile. "But in the past I"ve tasted enough mescal to make up for it."
John Stam"s gaze held. "That wasn"t what I asked you."
"All right," Ofelio said. "I have never taken any."
"I"ll ask you once more," John Stam said.
Ofelio was bewildered. "What would you have me say?"
For a long moment John Stam stared. His eyes were hard though there was a weariness in them. He said, "I don"t need you around here, you know."
"I have told the truth," Ofelio said simply.
The rancher continued to stare, a muscle in his cheek tightening and untightening. He turned abruptly and went back to the house.
The old man thought of the times he had seen Joe Slidell and the woman together and the times he had seen Joe Slidell drinking the whiskey she brought to him. Ofelio thought: He wasn"t asking about whiskey, he was asking about his wife. But he could not come out with it. He knows something is going on behind his back, or else he suspicions it strongly, and he sees a relation between it and the whiskey that"s being taken. I think I feel sorry for him; he hasn"t learned to keep his woman and he doesn"t know what to do.
Before supper Joe Slidell came down out of the woods trail on the bay stallion. He dismounted at the back porch and he and John Stam talked for a few minutes looking over the horse. When Joe Slidell left, John Stam, holding the bridle, watched him disappear into the woods and for a long time after, he stood there staring at the trail that went up through the woods.
Just before dark John Stam rode out of the yard on the bay stallion. Later-it was full dark then- Ofelio heard the screen door again. He rose from his bunk in the end barn stall and opened the big door an inch, in time to see Marion Stam"s dim form pa.s.s into the trees.
He has left, Ofelio thought, so she goes to the jinete. jinete. He shook his head thinking: This is none of your business. But it remained in his mind and later, with his blanket over his shoulder, he went into the hills where he could think of these things more clearly. He shook his head thinking: This is none of your business. But it remained in his mind and later, with his blanket over his shoulder, he went into the hills where he could think of these things more clearly.
He moved through the woods hearing the night sounds which seemed far away and his own footsteps in the leaves that were close, but did not seem to belong to him; then he was on the pine slope and high up he felt the breeze. For a time he listened to the soft sound of it in the jack pines. Tomorrow there will be rain, he thought. Sometime in the afternoon.
He stretched out on the ground, rolling the blanket behind his head, and looked up at the dim stars thinking: More and more every day, viejo, viejo, you must realize you are no longer of any value. The horse-breaker is not afraid of you, the men at the station laugh and take nothing you say seriously, and finally Senor Stam, he made it very clear when he said, "I don"t need you around here." you must realize you are no longer of any value. The horse-breaker is not afraid of you, the men at the station laugh and take nothing you say seriously, and finally Senor Stam, he made it very clear when he said, "I don"t need you around here."
Then why does he keep me-months now since I have been dismounted-except out of charity? He is a strange man. I suppose I owe him something, something more than feeling sorry for him which does him no good. I think we have something in common. I can feel sorry for both of us. He laughed at this and tried to discover other things they might have in common. It relaxed him, his imagination wandering, and soon he dozed off with the cool breeze on his face, not remembering to think about his end approaching.
To the east, above the chimneys of the Organ range, morning light began to gray-streak the day. Ofelio opened his eyes, hearing the horse moving through the trees below him: hooves clicking the small stones and the swish of pine branches. He thought of Joe Slidell"s mustangs. One of them has wandered up the slope. But then, the unmistakable squeak of saddle leather and he sat up, tensed. It could be anyone, he thought. Almost anyone.
He rose, folding the blanket over his shoulder, and made his way down the slope silently, following the sound of the horse, and when he reached the pasture he saw the dim shape of it moving toward the shack, a tall shadow gliding away from him in the half light.
The door opened. Joe Slidell came out, closing it quickly behind him. "You"re up early," he said, yawning, pulling a suspender over his shoulder. "How"s that horse carry you? He learned his manners yesterday ...won"t give you no trouble. If he does, you let me have him back for about an hour."
Slidell looked above the horse to the rider. "Mr. Stam, why"re you lookin" at me like that?" He squinted up in the dimness. "Mr. Stam, what"s the matter? You feelin" all right?"
"Tell her to come out," John Stam said.
"What?"
"I said tell her to come out."
"Now, Mr. Stam-" Slidell"s voice trailed off, but slowly a grin formed on his mouth. He said, almost embarra.s.sedly, "Well, Mr. Stam, I didn"t think you"d mind." One man talking to another now. "h.e.l.l, it"s only a little Mex gal from Mesilla. It gets lonely here and-"
John Stam spurred the stallion violently; the great stallion lunged, rearing, coming down with thrashing hooves on the screaming man. Slidell went down covering his head, falling against the shack boards. He clung there gasping as the stallion backed off; the next moment he was crawling frantically, rising, stumbling, running; he looked back seeing John Stam spurring and he screamed again as the stallion ran him down. John Stam reined in a tight circle and came back over the motionless form. He dismounted before the shack and went inside.
Go away, quickly, Ofelio told himself, and started for the other side of the pasture, running tensed, not wanting to hear what he knew would come. But he could not outrun it, the scream came turning him around when he was almost to the woods.
Marion Stam was in the doorway, then running across the yard, swerving as she saw the corral suddenly in front of her. John Stam was in the saddle spurring the stallion after her, gaining as she followed the rail circle of the corral. Now she was looking back, seeing the stallion almost on top of her. The stallion swerved suddenly as the woman screamed going over the edge of the ravine.
Ofelio ran to the trees before looking back. John Stam had dismounted. He removed bridle and saddle from the bay and put these in the shack. Then he picked up a stone and threw it at the stallion, sending it galloping for the open pasture.
The old man was breathing in short gasps from the running, but he hurried now through the woods and did not stop until he reached the barn. He sat on the bunk listening to his heart, feeling it in his chest. Minutes later John Stam opened the big door. He stood looking down at Ofelio while the old man"s mind repeated: Mary, Virgin and Mother, until he heard the rancher say, "You didn"t see or hear anything all night. I didn"t leave the house, did I?"
Ofelio hesitated, then nodded slowly as if committing this to memory. "You did not leave the house."
John Stam"s eyes held threateningly before he turned and went out. Minutes later Ofelio saw him leave the house with a shotgun under his arm. He crossed the yard and entered the woods. Already he is unsure, Ofelio thought, especially of the woman, though the fall was at least seventy feet.
When he heard the horse come down out of the woods it was barely more than an hour later. Ofelio looked out, expecting to see John Stam on the bay, but it was Billy-Jack Trew walking his horse into the yard. Quickly the old man climbed the ladder to the loft. The deputy went to the house first and called out. When there was no answer he approached the barn and called Ofelio"s name.
He"s found them! But what brought him? Ah, the old man thought, remembering, he wants to buy a horse. He spoke of that yesterday. But he found them instead. Where is Senor Stam? Why didn"t he see him? He heard the deputy call again, but still Ofelio did not come out. He remained crouched in the darkness of the barn loft until he heard the deputy leave.
The door opened and John Stam stood below in the strip of outside light.
Resignedly, Ofelio said, "I am here," looking down, thinking: He was close all the time. He followed the deputy back and if I had called he would have killed both of us. And he is very capable of killing.
John Stam looked up, studying the old man. Finally he said, "You were there last night; I"m sure of it now... else you wouldn"t be hiding, afraid of admitting something. You were smart not to talk to him. Maybe you"re remembering you owe me something for keeping you on, even though you"re not good for anything." He added abruptly, "You believe in G.o.d?"
Ofelio nodded.
"Then," John Stam said, "swear to G.o.d you"ll never mention my name in connection with what happened."
Ofelio nodded again, resignedly, thinking of his obligation to this man. "I swear it," he said.
The rain came in the late afternoon, keeping Ofelio inside the barn. He crouched in the doorway, listening to the soft hissing of the rain in the trees, watching the puddles forming in the wagon tracks. His eyes would go to the house, picturing John Stam inside alone with his thoughts and waiting. They will come. Perhaps the rain will delay them, Ofelio thought, but they will come.
The sheriff will say, Mr. Stam this is a terrible thing we have to tell you. What? Well, you know the stallion Joe Slidell was breaking? Well, it must have got loose. It looks like Joe tried to catch him and...Joe got under his hooves. And, Mrs. Stam was there . . . we figured she was up to look at your new horse-saying this with embarra.s.sment. She must have become frightened when it happened and she ran. In the dark she went over the side of the ravine. Billy-Jack found them this morning. . . .
He did not hear them because of the rain. He was staring at a puddle and when he looked up there was Val Dodson and Billy-Jack Trew. It was too late to climb to the loft.
Billy-Jack smiled. "I was around earlier, but I didn"t see you." His hat was low, shielding his face from the light rain, as was Dodson"s.
Ofelio could feel himself trembling. He is watching now from a window. Mother of G.o.d, help me.
Dodson said, "Where"s Stam?"
Ofelio hesitated, then nodded toward the house.
"Come on," Dodson said. "Let"s get it over with."
Billy-Jack Trew leaned closer, resting his forearm on the saddle horn. He said gently, "Have you seen anything more since yesterday?"
Ofelio looked up, seeing the wet smiling face and another image that was in his mind-a great stallion in the dawn light-and the words came out suddenly, as if forced from his mouth. He said, "I saw a nagual nagual!"
Dodson groaned. "Not again," and nudged his horse with his knees.
"Wait a minute," Billy-Jack said quickly. Then to Ofelio, "This nagual, nagual, you actually saw it?" you actually saw it?"
The old man bit his lips. "Yes."
"It was an animal you saw, then."
"It was a nagual. nagual."