Lin Nuan guessed that, other than cancer, those two incidents probably weighed on him heavily each and every day, making him unable to breathe. And that was why he finally chose to end his life by jumping off a building.
Human nature wasn"t black and white, kind or evil, as everyone had two sides to them.
Such as Lin Nuan"s biological father. He was evil… in his clients" and Lin Ran"s perspectives because he infringed on their interests!
However, Lin Nuan"s father was kind too. No matter how difficult life got, he had never once given up on his mentally abnormal wife, bearing the pressure his wife gave him, be it financially or mentally!
It was only when he contracted cancer and decided to end his own life that he sent Ji Yun into a mental hospital.
Since Ji Yun pa.s.sed away, Lin Nuan had been abnormally quiet.
Fu Huai"an gently pulled Lin Nuan into his arms and said softly, "This might have been a form of release for Mom. She was living in agony."
Lin Nuan nodded. She recalled how Ji Yun gazed at her with a look that indicated she was finally free right before she pa.s.sed away, and it made Lin Nuan feel a lot calmer.
"I feel that Mom lived a muddled life this lifetime because she refused to be sober!" Lin Nuan laughed softly, using the back of her hands to wipe away her tears. "I used to have an older brother… He went missing in America. Since then, Mom went crazy. Mom said… her mental illness isn"t hereditary!"
This was a weight off Lin Nuan"s shoulders!
Lin Nuan had been living in fear, fearful that she would wake up one morning and live out the rest of her life in a muddled state, that she would forget her kin and lover, as well as her friends!
Some of the words in the letter Ji Yun left behind… were a great comfort to Lin Nuan.
"Actually, I"ve been afraid that one day I might not recognize anyone, that I would live out my remaining days in a muddled state!"
Fu Huai"an kissed the top of Lin Nuan"s head, saying in a deep and rich voice, "It doesn"t matter even if it"s hereditary. Even if you don"t remember me… I"ll try everything to make you get to know me all over again, even if I have to repeat it every day, every hour, I won"t let you truly forget about me!"
Lin Nuan laughed lightly, closing her sore eyes in Fu Huai"an"s embrace.
Being able to possess Fu Huai"an was indeed the luckiest thing that happened to her in this lifetime!
"What you just said makes me recall this manga that I saw on the internet. An old grandma contracted dementia and forgot about an old grandpa, so the old grandpa would repeat the scene of the first time they met, using magic to let the old grandma get to know him all over again!" Lin Nuan"s voice sounded heavily m.u.f.fled.
Fu Huai"an"s deep voice had a particularly comforting effect. He said, "It doesn"t seem easy to repeat the first time we met…"
Lin Nuan opened her heated eyes, recalling the first time they met. It was in Iraq… She was raising a gun and pulling the trigger maniacally, but the gun didn"t fire!
"Mm…" Lin Nuan smiled, nodding in agreement. "It"s not easy to repeat that scene indeed!"
…
Tuan Tuan was fetched to the Lin residence first. Old Madam Lin and Old Master Lin played with Tuan Tuan, but the little one didn"t play long before he started missing his mama. The little one bounced to and peered out the well-polished French windows, hoping to see Lin Nuan"s car arrive faster!
His Lin great-grandpa and great-grandma had said… that Mama and Papa would be coming in a while. But Tuan Tuan felt that it was taking a really long while!
Seeing the little one standing at the French windows for a long time, Old Master Lin got two small stools. He put one behind Tuan Tuan"s bottom and sat down on the other himself, asking, "Are the snacks not tasty? Why are you sitting here?"
The little one thanked him obediently, then shook his head vigorously after sitting down. His little hand was still propped against the French windows, his fair and tender little face tense as he said earnestly, "Wait for Mama!"
Old Master Lin nodded, then asked, "Why do you insist on waiting for Mama here? You can wait for Mama while eating snacks!"
The little one pondered for a moment, then earnestly repeated the three words "Wait for Mama," before pressing his little face against the windows, trying hard to peer into the distance, hoping to see a car.
Old Master Lin continued to accompany the little one while he sat there, his gaze doting and full of love as he looked at him. After Lin Chen returned from abroad, no matter what, he had to urge him to get married and give birth to an adorable little fellow like Tuan Tuan—so cute and likable!
Gazing at the heavy snow outside, Tuan Tuan seriously counted the number of snowflakes on the stairs before the French windows—one, two, three… fifty-two!
The little one started feeling sleepy. He rubbed his sore eyes with the back of his hands, then straightened his little back and peered into the distance again.
"If you"re tired, sleep for a bit. When Mama returns, Great Grandpa will call you, okay?"
The little one"s head drooped left and right as he tried his best to open his eyes, whose lids were feeling increasingly heavy. "Not tired, wait for Mama!"
A child couldn"t hold back their drowsiness once it set in. It didn"t take long before the little one"s head started nodding forward like a little chick pecking at grains, b.u.mping against the French windows.
Tuan Tuan held a chubby hand to his head and had a pained expression on his face. Just then, he saw a car stopping on the ground level, making him get to his feet immediately.
Once he saw Lin Nuan get out of the car, the little one ran out from behind the sofa and bounced downstairs!
"Tuan Tuan, slower! Be careful not to fall!" Old Master Lin shouted after Tuan Tuan.
Old Madam Lin, who was reading a book on flower cultivation with her presbyopic gla.s.ses on the sofa, was alarmed by Old Master Lin"s voice. The book slid off Old Madam Lin"s lap as she straightened her back. The elderly woman opened her sleepy eyes and glanced left and right. Then she cleared her throat and removed her presbyopic gla.s.ses, asking as she rubbed her temples, "Have Xiao Nuan and the rest come back?"
Old Master Lin placed both hands on his knees and got to his feet with much difficulty. "They just got back!"
Old Madam Lin lifted the blanket that was laid over her legs and fixed the shawl around herself after standing up. "I"ll go to the kitchen to check if the sweet ginger tea prepared to dispel the chilliness for the few kids is ready!"
Lin Nuan had just entered the door when Tuan Tuan came bouncing towards her, grabbing her leg in one swoop. He raised his head, and upon seeing Lin Nuan with reddened eyes, the little one grew a bit worried.
The past two days, Lin Nuan"s eyes had been red. The little one acutely sensed that something wasn"t quite right with Lin Nuan"s emotions, so he worried about her a lot…
Today at the Lin house, Old Madam Lin had told Tuan Tuan that it was because his mama"s mama had gone to a very faraway place. She said that his mama wouldn"t ever get to see her own mama again, which was why his mama was upset. But Tuan Tuan was Mama"s sweetheart. So long as Tuan Tuan comforted Lin Nuan well, Lin Nuan would feel better!