"But if I can only keep it by being a perfect pig--"
He looked down at her face, her troubled, unnaturally earnest face.
"Of course, if you feel like that about it--"
"You"d feel like that if you were his confidential secretary and had all his correspondence."
"Yes, yes. I see, Barbara, it won"t work. I"ll let you off the compact.
We can go on with him just the same."
"We can"t."
"What? Not make a study of him?"
"No. We don"t know what we"re doing. It isn"t safe. We may come on things any day."
"Like the thing you came on just now."
"I didn"t say I"d come on anything."
"All right, you didn"t. He shall be our unfinished book, Barbara."
"He"ll be _your_ unfinished book. I"ve finished mine all right. Anything else will be simply appendix."
"You think you"ve got him complete?"
"Fairly complete."
"Oh, Barbara--"
"Don"t tempt me, Ralph."
"After all," he said, "we were only playing with him."
"Well, we mustn"t do it again."
"Never any more?"
"Never any more. I know it"s a game for G.o.ds; but it"s a cruel game. We must give it up."
"You mean we must give him up?"
"Yes, we"ve hunted and hounded him enough. We must let him go."
"That"s the compact, is it?"
"Yes."
"We shall break it, Barbara; see if we don"t. We can"t keep off him."
4
Mr. Waddington judged that, after all, owing to his consummate tact, he had scored in the disagreeable parting with Mrs. Levitt. But when he thought of Barbara, little Barbara, a flush mounted to his face, his ears, his forehead; he could feel it--wave after wave of hot, unpleasant shame.
He went slowly back to the library and shut himself in with the tea-table, and the sofa, and the cushions crushed, deeply hollowed with the large pressure of Elise. He wondered how much Barbara had taken in, at what precise moment she had appeared. He tried to reconstruct the scene. He had been leaning over Elise; he could see himself leaning over her, enclosing her, and Elise"s head, stiffened, drawing back from his kiss. Worse than the sting of her repugnance was the thought that Barbara had seen it and his att.i.tude, his really very compromising att.i.tude. Had she? Had she? The door now, it was at right angles to the sofa; perhaps Barbara hadn"t caught him fair. He went to the door and came in from it to make certain. Yes. Yes. From that point it was no good pretending that he couldn"t be seen.
But Barbara had rushed in like a little whirlwind, and she had gone straight to the writing-table, turning her back. She wouldn"t have had time to take it in. He was at the chimneypiece before she had turned again, before she could have seen him. He must have recovered himself when he heard her coming. She couldn"t charge in like that without being heard. He must have been standing up, well apart from Elise, not leaning over her by the time Barbara came in.
He tried to remember what Barbara had said when she went out. She had said something. He couldn"t remember what it was, but it had sounded rea.s.suring. Now, surely if Barbara had seen anything she wouldn"t have stopped at the door to say things. She would have gone straight out without a word. In fact, she wouldn"t have come in at all. She would have drawn back the very instant that she saw. She would simply never have penetrated as far as the writing-table. He remembered how coolly she had taken up the photographs and gone out again as if nothing had happened.
Probably, then, as far as Barbara was concerned, nothing had happened.
Then he remembered the horrible laughing of Elise. Barbara must have heard that; she must have wondered. She might just have caught him with the tail of her eye, not enough to swear by, but enough to wonder; and afterwards she would have put that and that together.
And he would have to dine with her alone that evening, to face her young, clear, candid eyes.
He didn"t know how he was going to get through with it, and yet he did get through.
To begin with, Barbara was very late for dinner.
She had thought of being late as a way of letting Mr. Waddington down easily. She would come in, smiling and apologetic, palpably in the wrong, having kept him waiting, and he would be gracious and forgive her, and his graciousnees and forgiveness would help to reinstate him.
He would need, she reflected, a lot of reinstating. Barbara considered that, in the matter of punishment, he had had enough. Mrs. Levitt, with her "You old imbecile!" had done to him all, and more than all, that justice could require; there was a point of humiliation beyond which no human creature should be asked to suffer. To be caught making love to Mrs. Levitt and being called an old imbecile! And then to be pelted with indecent laughter. And, in any case, it was not her, Barbara"s, place to punish him or judge him. She had had no business to catch him, no business, in the first instance, to forget the photographs.
Therefore, as she really wanted him not to know that she had caught him, she went on behaving as if nothing had happened. All through dinner she turned the conversation on to topics that would put him in a favourable or interesting light. She avoided the subject of f.a.n.n.y. She asked him all sorts of questions about his war work.
"Tell me," she said, "some of the things you did when you were a special constable."
And he told her his great story. To be sure, she knew the best part of it already, because Ralph had told it--it had been one of his scores over her--but she wanted him to remember it. She judged that it was precisely the sort of memory that would reinstate him faster than anything. For really he had played a considerable part.
"Well"--you could see by his face that he was gratified--"one of the things we had to do was to drive about the villages and farms after dark to see that there weren"t any lights showing. It was nineteen--yes--nineteen-sixteen, in the winter. Must have been winter, because I was wearing my British warm with the fur collar. And there was a regular scare on."
"Air raids?"
"No. Tramps. We"d been fairly terrorized by a nasty, dangerous sort of tramp. The police were looking for two of these fellows--discharged soldiers. We"d a warrant out for their arrest. Robbery and a.s.sault."
"With violence?"
"Well, you may call it violence. One of "em had thrown a pint pot at the landlord of the King"s Head and hurt him. And they"d bolted with two bottles of beer and a tin of Player"s Navy Cut. They"d made off, goodness knows where. We couldn"t find "em.
"I was driving to Daunton on a very nasty, pitch-black night. You know how beastly dark it is between the woods at Byford Park? Well, I"d just got there when I pa.s.sed two fellows skulking along under the wall. They stood back--it was rather a near shave with no proper lights on--and I flashed my electric torch full on them. Blest if they weren"t the very chaps we were looking for. And I"d got to run "em in somehow, all by myself. And two to one. It wasn"t any joke, I can tell you. Goodness knows what nasty knives and things they might have had on "em."
"What _did_ you do?"
"Do? I drove on fifty yards ahead, and pulled up the car outside the porter"s lodge at Byford. Then I got out and came on and met "em. They were trying to bolt into the wood when I turned my torch on them again and shouted "Halt!" in a parade voice.
"They halted, hands up to the salute. I thought the habit would be too much for "em when they heard the word of command. I said, "You"ve got to come along with me." I didn"t know how on earth I was going to take them if they wouldn"t go. And they"d started dodging. So I tried it on again: "Halt!" Regular parade stunt. And they halted again all right. Then I harangued them. I said, "Shun, you blighters! I"m a special constable, and I"ve got a warrant here for your arrest."
"I hadn"t. I"d nothing but an Inland Revenue Income Tax form. But I whipped it out of my breast pocket and trained my light on the royal arms at the top. That was enough for "em. Then I shouted again in my parade voice, "Right about face! Quick march!"