"Yes. You know we were going to adopt her if we liked her enough. And we do like her enough, don"t we?"
"I have no paternal feeling for Barbara," said Mr. Waddington. "The parental relation does not appeal to me as desirable or suitable."
"I should have thought, considering her age and your age, it was very suitable indeed."
"Not if it entails obligations that I might regret."
"You"re going to provide for her, aren"t you? That isn"t an obligation, surely, you"ll regret?"
"I can provide for her without adopting her."
"How? It"s no good just leaving her something in your will."
"I shall continue half her salary," said Mr. Waddington, "as an allowance."
"Yes. But will you give her a marriage portion if she marries?"
He was silent. His mind reeled with the blow.
"If she marries," he said, "with my consent and my approval--yes."
"If that isn"t a parental att.i.tude! And supposing she doesn"t?"
"She isn"t thinking of marrying."
"You don"t know what she"s thinking of."
"Neither, I venture to say, do you."
"Well--I don"t see how I can adopt her, if you don"t."
"I didn"t say I wouldn"t adopt her."
"Then you will?"
He snapped back at her with an incredible ferocity.
"I suppose I shall have to. Don"t _worry_ me!"
He then lifted up the pyjamas from the bed and carried them into his dressing-room. Through the open door she saw him, mounted on a chair, laying them out, tenderly, on the top shelf of the wardrobe: as if he were storing them for some mysterious and romantic purpose in which f.a.n.n.y was not included.
"Perhaps, after all," she thought, "he only bought them because they make him feel young."
All the morning, that morning of Barbara"s birthday and adoption Mr.
Waddington"s thoughtful gloom continued. And in the afternoon he shut himself up in his library and gave orders that he was not to be disturbed.
3
Barbara was in the morning-room.
They had given her the morning-room for a study, and she was alone in it, amusing herself with her pocket sketch-book.
The sketch-book was Barbara"s and Ralph"s secret. Sometimes it lived for days with Ralph at the White Hart. Sometimes it lived with Barbara, in her coat pocket, or in her bureau under lock and key. She was obsessed with the fear that some day she would leave it about and f.a.n.n.y would find it, or Mr. Waddington. Or any minute Mr. Waddington might come on her and catch her with it. It would be awful if she were caught. For that remarkable collection contained several pen-and-ink drawings of Mr.
Waddington, and Barbara added to their number daily.
But at the moment, the long interval between an unusually early birthday tea and an unusually late birthday dinner, she was safe. f.a.n.n.y had gone over to Medlicott in the car. Mr. Waddington was tucked away in his library, reading in perfect innocence and simplicity and peace. It wasn"t even likely that Ralph would turn up, for he had gone over to Oxford, and it was on his account that the birthday dinner was put off till half-past eight. There would be hours and hours.
She had just finished the last of three drawings of Mr. Waddington: Mr.
Waddington standing up before the long looking-gla.s.s in his new pyjamas; Mr. Waddington appearing in the doorway of f.a.n.n.y"s bedroom as Jupiter, with forked lightning zig-zagging out of him into every corner; Mr.
Waddington stooping to climb into his bed, a broad back view with lightnings blazing out of it.
And it was that moment that Mr. Waddington chose to come in to present the green jade necklace. He was wearing his canary yellow waistcoat.
Barbara closed her sketch-book hurriedly and laid it on the table. She kept one arm over it while she received and opened the leather case where the green necklace lay on its white cushion.
"For _me_? Oh, it"s too heavenly. How awfully sweet of you."
"Do you like it, Barbara?"
"I love it."
Compunction stung her when she thought of her drawings, especially the one where he was getting into bed. She said to herself: "I"ll never do it again. Never again.... And I won"t show it to Ralph."
"Put it on," he commanded, "and let me see you in it."
She lifted it from the case. She raised her arms and clasped it round her neck; she went to the looking-gla.s.s. And, after the first rapt moment of admiration, Mr. Waddington possessed himself of the uncovered sketch-book. Barbara saw him in the looking-gla.s.s. She turned, with a cry:
"You mustn"t! You mustn"t look at it."
"Why not?"
"Because I don"t let anybody see my sketches."
"You"ll let _me_."
"I _won"t_!" She dashed at him, clutching his arm and hanging her weight on it. He shook himself free and raised the sketch-book high above her head. She jumped up, tearing at it, but his grip held.
He delighted in his power. He laughed.
"Give it me this instant," she said.
"Aha! She"s got her little secrets, has she?"
"Yes. Yes. They"re all there. You"ve no business to look at them."
He caracoled heavily, dodging her attack, enjoying the youthful violence of the struggle.