There was the pleasure now--not yet the perplexity.
She gave a vexed laugh. "Whether it"s vital or not, at any rate it"s a question for me, as you say yourself, and for me only. And I must risk it, Hobart. After all, there are different--well, ideas--on that sort of subject, aren"t there?" Here Shaylor"s Patch showed its influence again.
"I rather wish you hadn"t come to this house," he said slowly.
"I"ve been happier here than anywhere in the world. What have you against it?"
"Well, I can"t claim to know much about it, but don"t some queer people come?"
"Plenty!" she laughed. "It"s very amusing."
He smiled, frowned, looked, and indeed felt, a little foolish--as the average man does when he finds himself called upon to take the moral line.
"Rather--er--unsettling?" he hazarded lamely.
"Very stimulating."
"Well, I can say no more. I"ve done my job. Take care of yourself, Winnie."
"Oh yes, I will; you may be sure of that. Hobart, will you tell Cyril that I"m very, very sorry, and that I hope he"ll be happy, and wish him splendid success and prosperity?"
"I"ll tell him--if you won"t write yourself."
"I couldn"t. That would open it all again. I"ll write to you, if there"s any business to be settled."
Hobart Gaynor, thinking over the conversation on his way back to town, decided that Winnie had got on apace. Well, if she chose to take her life into her own hands, she herself must make the best of it. He did not pretend to feel quite easy--he could not get G.o.dfrey Ledstone out of his head--but he said nothing about such apprehensions when he reported the failure of his mission. He also delivered Winnie"s message to her husband. Cyril Maxon"s lips set hard, almost savagely, over it. "We shall see," he said. He could not prevent her from doing what she had done, but he would not acknowledge it as setting up a permanent or recognized state of affairs. For the time disobedient, Winnie was still his wife. He would not accept her valediction. His house was still open to her and, after a decent period of penance, his heart.
A plain case of Stephen Aikenhead"s "In solution"! What to Cyril was an indissoluble relationship (and more than that), not even temporarily suspended, but rather defied and violated, was to his wife a thing now at last--by her final decision--over and done with so far as it affected her position towards Cyril himself. He was out of her life--at last. She had her life--at last. Not quite entirely free, this life she had won by her bold defiance. She still acknowledged limitations, even while she nibbled at the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge that grew at Shaylor"s Patch. Yet how incomparably more free than the old life! She was amazed to find with how little difficulty, with how slight a pang, and with how immense a satisfaction she had broken the bond--or had broken bounds, for she felt remarkably like a school-boy on a forbidden spree. What great things a little courage will effect! How the difficulties vanish when they are faced! Why, for five whole years, had she not seen that the door was open and walked out of it? Here she was--out! And nothing terrible seemed to happen.
"Well, I"ve done it now for good and all," she said to Stephen Aikenhead.
"Oh yes, you"ve done it. And what are you going to do next?"
"Just what Hobart asked me! Why should he--or why should you? If a woman doesn"t marry, or becomes a widow, you don"t ask her what she"s going to do next! Consider me unmarried, or, if you like, a widow."
"That"s all very well--excellently put. I am rebuked!" Stephen smiled comfortably and broadly. "You women do put things well. But may I observe that, if you were the sort of woman you"re asking me to think about, you"d probably be living pretty contentedly with Cyril Maxon?"
The point was presented plainly enough for her. She smiled reflectively.
"I think I see. Yes!"
"People differ as well as cases."
She sat down by him, much interested. They were, it seemed, to talk about herself.
"Hobart Gaynor"s rather uneasy about me, I think."
"And you about yourself?"
"No, I"m just rather excited, Stephen."
"You"re a small boat--and it"s a big sea."
"That"s the excitement of it. I"ve been--land-locked--for years. Oh, beached--whatever"s your best metaphor for somebody wasting all this fine life!"
"Do you suppose you made your husband happy?"
The question was unexpected. But there was no side of a situation too forlorn for Stephen"s notice.
"I really don"t know," said Winnie. "I always seemed to be rather--well, rather a minor interest."
"I expect not--I really expect not, you know."
"Supposing I was, or supposing I wasn"t--what does it amount to?"
"I was only just looking at it from his point of view for a minute."
"Did he make me happy?"
"Oh, certainly the thing wasn"t successful all round," Stephen hastily conceded.
"He said marriage wasn"t invented solely to make people happy."
"Well, I suppose he"s got an argument there. But you probably thought that the inst.i.tution might chuck in a little more of that ingredient incidentally?"
"Rather my feeling--yes. You put things well too, now and then, Stephen."
"You suffer under the disadvantage of being a very attractive woman."
"We must bear our infirmities with patience, mustn"t we?"
She was this evening in a rare vein of excited pleasure, gay, challenging, admirably provoking, exulting in her freedom, dangling before her own dazzled eyes all its possibilities. Stephen gave a deep chuckle.
"I think I"ll go in and tell Tora that I"m infernally in love with you,"
he remarked, rising from his chair.
"It would be awfully amusing to hear what she says. But--are you?"
A rolling laugh, full of applause, not empty of pity, rumbled over the lawn as Stephen walked back to the house.
No, Stephen was not in love with her; that was certain. He admitted every conceivable doubt as to his duty, but harboured none as to his inclination. That trait of his might, to Winnie"s present mood, have been vexatious had he chanced to be the only man in the world, or even the only one in or near Shaylor"s Patch. Winnie sat in the twilight, smiling roguishly. She had no fears for herself; far less had she formed any designs. She was simply in joyful rebound from long suppression. Her spirit demanded plenty of fun, with perhaps a spice of mischief--mischief really harmless. So much seemed to her a debt long overdue from life and the world. Yet peril was there, unseen by herself.
For there is peril when longings for fun and mischief centre persistently round one figure, finding in it, and in it only, their imagined realization.
But was peril the right word--was it the word proper to use at Shaylor"s Patch? Being no fool, Stephen Aikenhead saw clearly enough the chance that a certain thing would happen--or was happening. But how should this chance be regarded? The law--formed by this and that influence, historical, social, and religious--had laid upon this young woman a burden heavier than she was able to bear. So Stephen started his consideration of the case. Retort--she ought to have been stronger! It did not seem a very helpful retort; it might be true, but it led nowhere. The law then had failed with the young woman. Now it said, "Well, if you won"t do that, at least you shan"t do anything else with my sanction--and my sanction is highly necessary to your comfort, certainly here, and, as a great many people believe, hereafter." That might be right, because it was difficult to deny the general proposition that laws ought to be kept, under pain of penalties. Yet in this particular instance there seemed something rather vindictive about it.
It was not as if the young woman wanted to rob churches or pick pockets--things obviously offensive and hurtful to her neighbours. All she would want (supposing the thing did happen) would be to behave in a perfectly natural and normal fashion. All she would be objecting to would be a law-enjoined sterilization of a great side of her nature. She would be wronging her husband? If wrong there were, surely the substantial wrong lay in deserting him, not in making the best of her own life afterwards? She might have children--would they suffer? Living in the social world he did, Stephen could not see that they need suffer appreciably; and they were, after all, hypothetical--inserted into the argument for the sake of logical completeness. She would wound other people"s convictions and feelings? No doubt, but that argument went too far. Every innovator, every reformer, nay, every fighting politician, does as much. The day for putting ring-fences round opinions, and threatening trespa.s.sers with prosecution, was surely over.
Well, then, would she hurt herself? The argument descended abruptly from the general to the particular. It left principle, and came to prudence, asking no longer what she had a right to do, but what she would be wise to do in her own interests. A man may hold a thing not wrong, and yet be a fool if he does it in a place where the neighbours are so sure of its iniquity that they will duck him in the horse-pond. But suppose him to be a mighty man of valour, whom n.o.body cares to tackle! He can snap his fingers at the neighbours and follow his own conscience or inclination, free from fear and heedless of disapprobation.
"That"s as far as I can get," Stephen concluded, rubbing his forehead, as his habit was in moments of meditation. The conclusion did not seem wholly moral, or wholly logical, but it might work out fairly well in practice; government by the law--that is, the opinion of the majority--for the weak (themselves the majority), government by their own consciences and inclinations for the strong. Probably it was a rough statement of what generally happened, if the terms weak and strong might be taken to sum up the complex whole of a man"s circ.u.mstances and character; both must by all means be considered.