He bent over to pick up a scarf of silver gauze which had slipped from her shoulders. He laid it about them, and as he did so she shivered suddenly, though the air was warm, without a hint of dampness. But she covered the involuntary movement with a shrug, saying lightly, "A man I know says he thoroughly believes a woman is colder rather than warmer in a scarf like this, on the theory that anything with so many holes in it must create an infinite number of small draughts."
"He may be right. But I confess, as a physician, I like to cover up exposed surfaces from the open night air--to a certain extent--even with an excuse for a protection like this."
He sat down beside her. The bench was not a long one, and he was nearer to her than he had yet been to-night. She sat quietly, one hand lying motionless in her lap. The other hand, down at her side, laid hold of the edge of the bench and gripped it rather tightly. She began to talk about the old garden, as it lay before them, its straggling paths and beds of flowers mere patches of shadow, dark and light. He answered, now and then, in an absent sort of way, as if his mind were upon something else, and he only partly heard. She spoke of "Sunny Farm"--the children"s hospital in the country--of Burns and Ellen and Bob--and then, suddenly, with a sense of the uselessness of trying all by herself to make small talk under conditions of growing constraint, she fell silent. He let the silence endure for a little s.p.a.ce, then broke it bluntly.
"I"m glad," he said, in the deep, quiet voice she remembered well, "that you will give me a chance. What is the use of pretending that I have brought you here to talk of other people? I have something to say to you, and you know it. I can"t lead up to it by any art, for it has become merely a fact which it is your right to know. You should have known it long ago."
He stopped for a minute. She was absolutely still beside him, except for the hand that gripped the edge of the bench. That took a fresh hold.
When he spoke again, his voice, though still quiet, showed tension.
"Before I saw you the last time, last spring, I meant to ask you to marry me. When I did see you, something had happened to make that impossible.
It had not only made it impossible, but it made me unable even to explain. I shall never forget that strange hour I spent with you. You knew that something was the matter. But I couldn"t tell you. I thought then I never could. Seeing you, as I have to-night, I realized that I couldn"t wait another hour to tell you. But, even now, I don"t feel that I can explain. There"s only one thing I am sure of--that I must say this much: All my seeking of you, last winter, meant the full intent and purpose to win you, if I could. And--you can never know what it meant to me to give it up."
The last words were almost below his breath, but she heard them, heard the uncontrollable, pa.s.sionate ache of them. Plainer than the words themselves this quality in them spoke for him.
For a moment there was silence between them again. Then he went on: "I can"t ask--I don"t ask--a word from you in answer. Neither can I let myself say more than I am saying. It wouldn"t be fair to you, however you might feel. And I want you to believe this--that not to say more takes every bit of manhood I have."
Silence again. Then, from the woman beside him, in the clearest, low voice, with an inflection of deep sweetness:
"Thank you, Dr. Leaver."
Suddenly he turned upon the bench--he had been staring straight before him. He bent close, looked into her shadowy face for a moment, then found her hand, where it lay in her lap, lifted it in both his own, and pressed it, for a long, tense moment, against his lips. She felt the contact burn against the cool flesh, and it made intelligible all that he would not allow himself to say, in terms which no woman could mistake.
Then he sprang up from the bench.
"Will you walk as far as the house with me?" he asked, gently. "Or shall I leave you here? It is late: I don"t quite like to leave you here alone."
"I will go with you," she answered, and, rising, drew her skirts about her. He stood beside her for a moment, looking down at her white figure, outlined against the darkness behind them. She heard him take one deep, slow inspiration, like a swimmer who fills his lungs before plunging into the water; she heard the quick release of the breath, followed by his voice, saying, with an effort at naturalness:
"If I had such a place as this, where I"m staying, I should be tempted to bring out a blanket and sleep in it to-night."
"One might do worse," she answered. "These branches have been so long untrimmed that it takes a heavy shower to dampen the ground beneath."
They made their way back along the straggling paths, and came to the cottage, from whose windows streamed the lamplight that waited for Charlotte. As it fell upon her Leaver looked at her, and stood still.
Pausing, she glanced up at him, and away again. She knew that he was silently regarding her. Quite without seeing she knew how his face looked, the fine face with the eyes which seemed to see so much, the firm yet sensitive mouth, the whole virile personality held in a powerful restraint.
Then he opened the door for her, and she pa.s.sed him. She looked back at him from the threshold.
"Good-night," she said, and smiled.
"Good-night," he answered, and gave back the smile. Then he went quickly down the path and away.
Ten minutes afterward she put out the light in the front room, and stole out of the door, leaving it open behind her. Still in the white gown of the evening, but with a long, dark cloak flung over it, she went swiftly back over the paths to the garden bench. Arrived there she sat down upon it, where she had sat before, but not as she had been. Instead, she turned and laid her arm along the low back of the bench, and her head upon it, and remained motionless in that position for a long time. Her eyes were wide, in the darkness, and her lips were pressed tight together, and once, just once, a smothered, struggling breath escaped her. But, finally, she sat up, threw up her head, lifted both arms above it, the hands clenched tight.
"Charlotte Ruston," she whispered fiercely, "you have to be strong--and strong--and stronger yet! You have to be! _You have to be!_"
Then she rose quickly to her feet, with a motion not unlike that with which John Leaver had sprung to his an hour before. It was a movement which meant that emotion must yield to action. She went swiftly back to the house, in at the door, up the straight, high stairs to her room.
As she lighted her candle a voice spoke from Madam Chase"s room, its door open into her own.
"Charlotte?"
"Yes, Granny?"
The girl went in, taking the candle, which she set upon the dressing-table. She bent over the bed, putting her lips close to the old lady"s ear.
"Can"t you sleep, dear?" she asked.
"Not until you are in, child. Why are you so late?"
"It"s not late, Granny. You know I went to Dr. Burns"s to dinner."
"It"s very late," repeated the delicate old voice, slightly querulous, because of its owner"s failure to hear the explanation. "Much too late for a girl like you. You should have had your beauty sleep long ago."
Charlotte smiled, feeling as if her twenty-six years had added another ten to themselves since morning. She patted the soft cheek on the pillow, and tenderly adjusted the gossamer nightcap which, after the fashion of its wearer"s youth, kept the white locks snugly in order during the sleeping hours.
"I"m here now, Granny. Please go to sleep right away. Or--would you like a gla.s.s of milk first?"
"What say?"
"Milk, dear,--hot milk?"
"Yes, yes, it will put me to sleep. Quite hot, not lukewarm."
Charlotte went down the steep stairs again, heated the milk, and brought it back. When it had been taken she kissed the small face, drew the linen sheet smooth again, and went away with the candle. In her own room she presently lay down upon her cot, rejoicing that the old lady could not hear its creaking.
Toward morning she fell asleep.
CHAPTER XII
A CHALLENGE
"Miss Ruston!"
"Yes?" The answer came through the door of the dark-room. "I can"t come out for four minutes. Can you give me the message through a closed door?"
"Certainly," responded Amy Mathewson, standing outside. She was dressed for motor travel and her eyes were full of antic.i.p.ation. "Mr. Macauley is taking some of us out to meet Dr. Burns at Sunny Farm. The Doctor has telephoned from there that he would be very glad if you could come with us, bring your camera, and take some photographs of a patient for him."
"Delighted--if I can arrange for Granny," Charlotte called back.
"Mrs. Burns"s Cynthia will stay with her."
"How soon must we start?"