Eighteen.
The medical technician p.r.o.nounced me fit to leave. I had escaped the examination without a tracheotomy. And I still had my pants on. Remarkably, I had a contusion on my forehead but no concussion. He told me that I would probably have some neck pain and asked if I wanted a neck brace, but I declined. Although my status as queen of the nerds was never really in question, wearing a neck brace would certainly cement my reign. While I was being examined, Wyatt had arrived on the scene and taken copious notes on the incident, based on what Crawford and I told him. He was much nicer to me than normal. Maybe it had finally dawned on him that I had nothing to do with the murder. Or maybe he had just played basketball with an orphan and was feeling magnanimous.
He and Crawford conferred outside while I stayed inside the ambulance. When they were done, Wyatt poked his head inside the ambulance, his hands supporting him on either side of the opening. His gla.s.ses were covered with a thin sheen of rain, and he took them off and wiped them on his shirt. "I may need to talk with you again," he said.
I nodded that I understood. "Can I go home?"
"Detective Crawford will take you home," he said. "Get some rest, Professor," he said, respectfully and without any condescension.
I stood and went to the back of the ambulance. Crawford offered me a hand, and I took it as I went down the slick metal steps. The Navigator was on the flatbed portion of the tow truck; it was remarkably intact. The shattered windshield, splattered with blood, and the inflated air bags were the only evidence of what had happened. I thanked G.o.d that if Vince was going to try to kill all of us, he did so in an SUV the size of a tank and not a Hyundai.
Crawford"s Pa.s.sat wagon was parked north of the scene, facing in the right direction. We went to the car and he opened the pa.s.senger-side door for me, helping me in. He got in on his side, and satisfied that I was strapped in, he started the car, took the first exit, and got us onto the northbound side in moments. We went through the toll plaza. The southbound tolls were closed; the damaged one was already being repaired. We went across the Hudson River, through Riverdale, and merged onto the Saw Mill, in silence.
We pa.s.sed the Cross County Parkway merge and went under the underpa.s.s. "Don"t say anything about Ray," I said, thinking back to the phone call.
"I wasn"t going to," he said, shaking his head. "You were almost killed, but the only thing you"re worried about is that I"ll say something about Ray." He turned and looked at me. "Sometimes, you"re priceless," he said, with a bit of wonder in his voice. He pulled up at the red light at Executive Boulevard.
"He"s an a.s.shole . . ."
". . . but he"s harmless. So I"ve heard."
Actually, I was going to stop at "he"s an a.s.shole." I was no longer sure about the rest. I swallowed and looked out the window. Although I would have been justified in falling apart, I didn"t want to do it in front of him. Again.
We continued in silence. We arrived at the house in fifteen minutes, and he pulled up the driveway, parking as close to the front door as possible. All of the lights were still on, but he had closed and locked the front door. As we approached the door on the slick bluestone pavers, he reached into his jeans pocket and produced my house keys. "You"re good," I said. "Not only did you remember to lock the front door, but you remembered to bring the keys."
We went in and he closed the door. I started up the stairs to the bedroom, but he remained rooted to the floor in the hallway. I turned, halfway up the stairs. "Come with me."
He hesitated for a short moment and then started up behind me. Once in the bedroom, we stood looking at each other. He stared down at me. "What now?" he asked.
I looked back at him. "Surveillance." I kicked off my clogs and found a pair of pajama pants and a tank top in one of my drawers. I went into the bathroom and changed. I looked at my head and whistled to myself. The bruise on my head was large, blue, and veiny-looking. No clever hairstyle was going to cover that up unless I got bangs. I washed my hands and face and brushed my teeth; the taste of vomit was a lingering reminder of the evening"s events. I rinsed and held on to the sink, letting a few tears fall into the porcelain basin. I ran the hand towel that was hanging on a hook next to the sink over my face, careful of the lump on my head.
When I emerged, he was coming back up the stairs, having washed up in the powder room downstairs. He waited until I climbed into the king-size bed and sat down on the edge next to me, taking off his Tevas. He reached under his pant leg and pulled off the small gun, placing it on my nightstand. "Are you sure?"
"We"ve been through a lot tonight. Just stay and don"t make it hard." I turned crimson from head to toe. "No pun intended." I pulled the comforter up and let him in. He sat up and stripped off his shirt, leaving his pants on. I nearly lost consciousness again as I took in nice pecs, a sprinkling of chest hair, and a flat, hard stomach. I reached over him and turned off the light next to the bed.
"What"s six times eight?" he whispered in the dark, thinking I had another concussion.
"Twelve," I said.
"Good. Seven times four?" he whispered again.
"Six," I said, and giggled. "Shut up."
We moved closer. His hand rested lightly on my hip. "Who was the first president?"
"George Clooney."
"Excellent. Who"s our current president?"
I thought for a moment. "Leopold Bloom."
"Who?" he asked, his hand reaching around and slipping under the back of my tank top.
"Never mind," I said, and leaned in to find his face in the dark. A steady rain fell outside the window as we lay in the pitch-black, our lips touching. His hands became entwined in my hair, and he pulled me closer.
I stretched out along the length of his body and buried my head into his neck. He wrapped his arms around me, and whispered, "I"m so glad you"re alive."
"In what sense? Like "I"m glad you were born," or "I"m glad you survived tonight"?" I asked, always literal.
He laughed in the darkness, the deep chortle with the snort. "Do you ever shut up?" he asked, and kissed me again. His hands traveled up my back and then back down. They found their way to the waistband of my pajamas. I wasn"t sure if it was the head injury or just being with him, but I felt like I was leaving my body. I felt flushed and overly hot. Those old familiar feelings-longing, desire, a tingling deep in my gut-were replaced by something else: fear. Understandable? Maybe. Well timed? Probably not. I pulled away.
"I need a minute," I said, and lay on my back. He took my hand and laced his fingers into mine.
He leaned over and kissed me lightly on the forehead. "You need more than a minute."
I put my back to him and nestled in close, his arms around me. In minutes, we were both asleep.
I don"t know how long I slept, but a nightmare in which I was crashing into the wall again and again made me wake with a start. I looked around the room, my heart racing, not exactly sure of where I was. I put my hand to my chest and felt my heart thumping erratically inside. I put my other hand down on the bed next to me, and while it was warm, it was also empty. I went back to sleep.
Nineteen.
I woke up at ten, bruised, sore, and alone in bed. The smell of frying bacon hit my nose, and I sat up, a little woozy, still tired, and starving. I gingerly put my legs over the side of the bed and my feet on the floor, sitting for a minute while the cobwebs cleared. I stood up and tested my legs; everything seemed to work.
I pulled on a St. Thomas sweatshirt that had a few paint stains on it but was fairly clean. I didn"t think the sight of my naked b.r.e.a.s.t.s behind the thin material of the tank top was any way to greet Crawford first thing in the morning. I went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth, trying not to look at myself in the mirror. There was too much damage and not enough time to fix it before I greeted him. I left on my flannel pajama pants and padded down the stairs, barefoot, to the kitchen.
I pa.s.sed the living room and looked in; I could tell that Crawford had spent the night on the couch. The indentation from his body was evident in the soft cushions, and a pillow and blanket from the guest bedroom had been neatly folded and placed at the end of the couch.
He was standing at the stove, frying a pound of bacon and reading the directions on the back of a m.u.f.fin box intently. He held the box far enough away for me to tell that he needed gla.s.ses. He was wearing the big T-shirt from the Fred Wyatt collection and on his thin frame it was huge. He had the phone in the crook of his neck and was listening as the person on the other end spoke.
"Will she do the ID?" he asked. He waited a second. "Thanks for handling this, Fred." He hung up.
"You need bifocals," I said. I stood in the doorway, a vision in an old sweatshirt, pajama pants, and with hair that made Albert Einstein look well-groomed.
He turned around, surprised. "Good morning!" he said. "You had a pound of bacon in the freezer, and I found this m.u.f.fin mix. I hope it"s all right that I started cooking."
"You cook?" I asked.
"Well, I can cook bacon and follow directions."
He had made coffee. He poured a cup and handed it to me. "How do you feel?"
"I"m sore."
He looked at me with the sad face. "Anything else?"
I wasn"t sure what he was looking for. "Sad?" I offered.
He shook his head; that wasn"t what he meant. "Do you have any pain?"
"Nothing that a few Advil won"t take care of." I took a sip of the coffee. It was horrible. He must have learned how to make coffee at cop school. "Mmmm . . . delicious," I lied. Bad as it was, it cleared the dust bunnies in my head, and I started to think. "Was that Fred?" I asked.
"Yeah. He"s taking the mother down to the morgue to ID the body."
The mother. Vince"s mother. I remember seeing her at the funeral. "So, is this whole thing done now that Vince is dead?"
He had his own cup of coffee next to the stove; he picked it up and took a drink. He shook his head. "We never had anything to link Vince to the murder. A lot of other things, but not this."
"Other things?"
"Vince had his hand in a few things, drugs and cars specifically." The bacon crackled and popped behind him, and he turned around to lower the flame under the pan. "Vince liked to sell cars that he didn"t actually own. He was also the Joliet Ecstasy connection. He was a hood, but probably not a murderer." He paused. "Not yet, anyway."
I wrapped my hands around my mug. "Do you think he broke into my office?"
"Seems likely. There"s not a new print anywhere. And your office lock was picked. But I"m sure Vince would know how to do a break-in and would know to wear gloves."
"Did Fred say anything about Costigan? Did he say anything about why they kidnapped me?" I asked.
Crawford frowned. "He lawyered up. They got nowhere with him. The minute they got him to the station house, the lawyer was there. An uncle."
I chewed on that for a moment until my silent encounter with Vince and Fiona popped into my head, and I exclaimed. Crawford jumped slightly. "I forgot to tell you!" I said. "I saw Vince and Fiona together yesterday after I taught my last cla.s.s. They looked kind of cozy."
Crawford narrowed his eyes. "Cozy how?"
"I"m not sure exactly. I just got the feeling that Vince was back to normal pretty quickly after Kathy"s death."
He leaned back against the counter and folded his arms across his chest. "I"ll file that away. Maybe we need to chat with Fiona again."
I continued drinking my coffee, and we stared across the kitchen at each other. "What now?"
He looked at me sadly. "I"m thinking it"s Ray, Alison. I"m sorry."
I shrugged, casual and nonchalant. "No skin off my nose." But it was skin off my nose. And the nine years that I had spent with him.
He turned back to the bacon.
"Are you working today?" I asked.
He shook his head again. "No. You?"
"I have some correcting to do. As a matter of fact, I always have correcting to do," I said, "but I was thinking of something else."
He c.o.c.ked an eyebrow suggestively. I guess celibacy would have been a huge stumbling block for Father Crawford.
"Not that," I said. "I want to get to the bottom of this. Would you take me to school and go through my office with me?"
He focused intently on the bacon, using a spatula to flip it in the pan, ignoring my question.
"Well?"
He turned around to face me, more than a little perturbed. "What do you think we"re going to find that I didn"t already bag?" He got a plate out of the cabinet and put two paper towels on it to soak up some of the grease. He loaded some bacon onto the plate and walked over to hand it to me. "You didn"t answer my question."
"This is not an indictment of your investigative skills," I said, pushing a greasy bite of bacon into my mouth. "But Vince kept screaming about "papers." What was he talking about?" I took a slug of awful coffee, resisting the urge to gag. He seemed to be enjoying his just fine. "If I think long enough, I might be able to come up with something."
He picked up a piece of bacon and chewed it thoughtfully. "I"ll take you to school," he said finally, but held up his hand. "But we do it my way."
"What? Naked?" I asked.
He blushed. "No," he said slowly. "We do it so that we don"t compromise any possible additional evidence. We wear gloves, we take more pictures, and you follow my lead. I don"t want you going in there w.i.l.l.y-nilly."
I burst out laughing, a piece of bacon flying from my mouth. " "w.i.l.l.y-nilly"? Is that the technical term?"
He was embarra.s.sed. "Oh, shut up. You know what I mean."
I covered my mouth. "I"m sorry." I ate a few more slices of bacon. I stood. "Give me your clothes, and I"ll wash them before we go. I don"t have anything clean, so I have to do laundry anyway. And you"ve been in those jeans longer than hygienically acceptable."
He turned off the burner and put the rest of the cooked bacon onto the plate. "And what am I going to wear while you"re doing laundry?" he asked.
"I"ll find you something. You could spend an hour or so in my sweatpants, right?" I laughed when I thought about what I had said. "What I meant was you could spend an hour wearing a pair of my sweatpants. That didn"t come out right."
He thought it over but I knew what the answer would be. "I don"t think so. Is there a store in town where I could buy some pants?"
"Crawford, that"s just stupid. Give me your freaking clothes and let me wash them." I stood up. "Come with me, and I"ll get you those sweatpants."
He continued to lean against the counter, his arms crossed.
"Crawford," I said, cajoling. "Come on."
We went up to my room and I took my wicker laundry basket from the closet and put a couple of pairs of underpants, a bra, a few T-shirts, and two pairs of jeans into it. Crawford stood in the middle of the floor, watching me.
I went into the guest room and opened the closet in there. I knew that Ray had left a couple of items of clothing, and I found them on the top shelf. There was a pair of St. Thomas sweatpants and a couple of T-shirts. I pulled down the sweatpants and went down the short hallway and back into my bedroom.
Crawford was still standing there in uncomfortable silence. I handed him the sweatpants. "These are Ray"s, so they should fit better than mine would."
He went into the bathroom and closed the door. He emerged a few seconds later in the sweatpants, which were loose but a little short, and Fred"s shirt, his jeans, NYPD T-shirt, and boxer shorts in hand. The boxers were a blue-and-white check. He threw them into the wicker basket. "I"ll do the laundry," he said.
"I"ve seen men"s underwear before," I reminded him. "I"ve even touched a few pairs."