Chapter 604: Shuiling, We Should Let Go Now
Ning Qing looked in the direction where Yin Shuiling was looking. The spot in front of her was empty, and there was no one in sight.
Yin Shuiling’s beautiful eyes were pale without any glow. He did not come.
In the past, when she was hurt even a little, he would always rush over immediately. Fan Chengsi and Jack were the people he hated most. He could not accept her contacting either of them, but both of them were here, and he wasn’t.
He really did not want her anymore.
She did not bother with Fan Chengsi and Jack, and she turned around to leave.
“Ay, Shuiling!” Both Fan Chengsi and Jack were about to chase after her.
Ning Qing used her gaze to give both of them an indication, meaning — Shuiling needs time. Let her have some quiet time to herself right now.
Fan Chengsi and Jack had no other choice but to stop on the spot.
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Yin Shuiling sat down on the long bench in the corridor, and Ning Qing was seated down by her side.
Ning Qing stretched her hand out to hold onto Yin Shuiling’s icy cold hand, and she worriedly asked, “Shuiling, are you okay?”
Yin Shuiling tugged on the corners of her mouth. She lowered her gaze down to look at her feet as she softly said, “I am not good… I am not good at all…”
Ning Qing raised her thin eyebrows. She’d grown up with Yin Shuiling ever since they were young. She also personally saw how Yin Shuiling and Yin Muchen fell in love with one another, and that turned into hurting one another step by step.
“Shuiling, since the moment you decided to help Uncle Yin, I guessed that this day would come, but I did not expect the consequences to be so grave. Older Brother Yin’s company is in great trouble, and his past ten years of success are about to go down the drain. Older Brother Yin is way too silly. He did this to bet for your heart, and he did not leave any backup plan for himself at all.”
“That’s right.” Yin Shuiling had a tight smile on her face as she said, “All of us thought that he was an intelligent person. Actually, he is merely a fool… In the past two years, he looked on as I went away from him step by step. Other than contributing silently, he did not know how to do anything else. The wedding ring placed on the top of the accounting records, it was the most silent and most miserable way of him trying to persuade me to stay.”
Ning Qing let out a sigh and said, “Shuiling, things have already come to this. You and Older Brother Yin have already reached a dead end.”
“Yeah.” Yin Shuiling nodded her head, and she slowly turned her gaze to the side to look at Ning Qing and said, “Qingqing, do you know something: Yin Muchen’s mother has returned. His mother did not run away with some rich man, but his mother was locked up for ten whole years, and the person who did all of this…is my father.”
“What?” Ning Qing was flabbergasted.
“My father harmed his father and locked his mother up. His family was ruined when he was 18 years old, and he became an orphan. The mastermind behind all of this is my father.” As she spoke, Yin Shuiling started to tear up. She was at a lost and helpless as she looked at Ning Qing. Her voice was light and gentle as if she had lost all of her strength in her body as she said, “Qingqing, I did not know. I did not know anything about this… My father has always pampered me. He raised me, so when he was in prison, I was in England for three years and would have nightmares every night. I have been living so painfully and in stress… I do not dare to want anything anymore. I just want my father to have a better life than prison, and he could have the chance to bask in the suns.h.i.+ne like me….
“Qingqing, I did not know that my father had done so many disgusting things. I did not know that my father had been making use of me this whole time. Furthermore, I also did not know there would be a day that he would ask me to go sleep with that Mu Hai just for a few lines… These few days, I have been living in a blur. My feet are off the ground; my entire life has been shattered into pieces.
“Five years ago, I treated my parents badly just because I loved Yin Muchen. Five years later, because I tried to make up to my parents, I harmed Yin Muchen again. It seems as everything that I do is all wrong. Qingqing, I am really such a failure. Why have I failed such badly?”
“I know, I know…” Ning Qing stretched her hand out to help Yin Shuiling wipe her tears, but the tears in Yin Shuiling’s eyes could not be controlled at all, and they flowed down her face. “Shuiling, don’t cry… You did not do anything wrong… Five years ago, you did something a person would do for love. Five years later, you did something a daughter should do… These wrongs should not be for you to shoulder; you are innocent…”
Yin Shuiling stretched her hands out to hug Ning Qing. In the past few days, she had been living everyday feeling too depressed. She felt that she would go crazy in the next second, at this moment, Ning Qing’s accompaniment allowed her to have an outlet to express her emotions, and she cried out painfully.
Ning Qing also teared up. She hugged Yin Shuiling tight and wanted to give her some strength, although this amount of strength was very weak.
“Shuiling, forget it then. Forget it between you and Older Brother Yin…you have been interacting with one another for 15 years, and there has not been a result in the end. You love him. It was very bitter, and he loves you, but it has not been comfortable. If love has turned into this, why don’t we give up on it then…”
“The matters have come to such a stage, and Older Brother Yin would not turn back. You should also not go to chase after him, because if you go to chase after him right now, then this road in front of you would be thousands of times harder than the one you took five years ago. Uncle Yin is out of prison now. His mother is still around. How would the both of you be able to step over these grievances?
“Shuiling, forget about Older Brother Yin then. Start over. You cannot be said to owe each other anything. Everyone has a scale inside their hearts. If Older Brother Yin finds out that the child that you lost five years ago was his, this small life added together with three years of your time, how can it not be worth of the empire in the corporate world that he spent ten years to build? But Shuiling, would you bear to tell him that? Five years ago, you were all by yourself as you went over to England. You did not bear to let him know about the matter regarding the child. Five years down the road, you would not bear to do so even more.
“Shuiling, you are really at the losing end right now. Let’s not lead such a bitter life, okay? You met Older Brother Yin when you were eight years old. Actually, how much of that time was spent happily? Either Fan Chengsi or Jack would be better than Older Brother Yin. Both of them love you, and they could give you a lifetime of peace and joy.”
Could that not be true?
How many happy times did Yin Shuiling truly have together with Yin Muchen?
Five years ago, she turned her back on her parents and used all of her energy to love him. Five years later, she painfully struggled between her parents and Yin Muchen. Yin Muchen only looked on as she took step after step and distanced herself from him. Did he ever see that with every step he took to get away from her, she was stepping on the edges of knives as she bled fresh blood?
In the past two years, she forced herself so much that she almost went crazy. Every slap that she gave him, every time she would go crazy when she saw him together with other women, also with all the times she chose not to say anything, it was all of her struggles, pain, and torture…
She loved him, but she did not dare to vocalize it. She did not even have the courage to ask him whether he had a woman outside.
How did a girl get forced to such a stage like this?
These past two years, every minute that he loved her, his silent and hidden persuasion made her stay behind, but he never thought that this form of gentleness was also the most cruel way of prolonging it.
Did she know anything about this?
Yin Shuiling slowly stopped crying. She let go of Ning Qing and looked at Ning Qing’s tearful eyes. She shook her head and said, “Qingqing, but why does my memory go to those happy times?”
“Shuiling…” Ning Qing called her name and said, “Let’s stop being foolish from here on, okay?”
In Ning Qing’s life, she was intelligent and brave. She thought about it. If she were in Yin Shuiling’s shoes, don’t talk about handling it better; from the very start, she would rather not have had feelings for Yin Muchen at all!
If she did not have feelings for him, she would not have gotten hurt.
15 years old — so young.. If Ning Qing were in her shoes, she would’ve never chosen to sleep with a man at that age, no matter how much she loved him.
The marriage between her and Lu Shaoming was what she’d planned step by step. She stood from a logical perspective as she was able to make correct decisions one after another. The shoulders of a 15 year old girl were so weak and so small, she definitely could not shoulder the love of a 25 year old man, and at the same time, she would have been unable to take responsibility for herself.
She, Ning Qing, would not choose such a wrong start.
She, Ning Qing, would also not choose to shoulder on such a heavy love.
But Ning Qing was Ning Qing, and Shuiling was Shuiling.
Shuiling had always been so foolish and silly. Five years ago, she tried to love Yin Muchen. Five years later, she wanted to love her own father. Actually, when she did ever love herself?
The matter had progressed to such a state today. Was this the result of loving herself?
She had not loved herself before, but she had to bear today’s pain.
But taking a step back, Ning Qing felt that it was enough for Yin Shuiling. The 23 year old girl was still young, but she loved him since she was 8 years old. When she was 23 years old, she loved him until this desperate stage, and she was not young anymore.
Could she actually want to waste her entire life on this man?
Ning Qing felt that Yin Shuiling could let go now. She totally could let herself live more comfortably. If she was willing, Fan Chengsi, Jack — her bliss was just by the side of her hand.
“I am not being foolish, Qingqing. Don’t you know that I’ve already met Yin Muchen’s mother? He brought me over to his mother’s place to have a meal.”
“What?” Ning Qing was overwhelmed as she stuttered, “Older Brother Yin, he…”
“So Qingqing, there was no woman by his side. As long as he was willing, those women take all of their effort and wanted to hang onto his body, but he did not want anyone at all. He only wanted me. He only wanted me, his enemy’s daughter. Qingqing, it is really hard for him. It wasn’t until now that I understood what he has been going through throughout these few years so silently, but he did not give up on me even once.”
Yin Shuiling firmly held onto Ning Qing’s hands as she said, “Qingqing, although he did not give up on me, why am I giving up on him now? My parents, I do not owe them anything now. As a daughter, I did everything I was supposed to, so is it true that from this moment onwards, can I ignore all the guilt and pretence and go and love him properly?”
“Ning Qing, loving him is really so hard and painful, but if this is the way that it is to love him. If that is him, I am totally willing. On this earth, there are millions of people, and to me, he is the one. The one I want, that one is my entire world.”
Ning Qing had nothing to say in response. People in love are only able to see the pain that the other goes through, and they forget about themselves. As a third party, at this moment, how could she make a judgement on what they were doing?
If Older Brother Yin was punis.h.i.+ng Yin Shuiling, then congrats to him, he won, and he won completely.
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Yin De was forcefully sent to the drug rehabilitation centre. Yin Shuiling stood outside the doors of the rehab facility. She looked on as Yin De was dragged in by three tall doctors. Yin De could not stop struggling, and he widened his eyes like a crazy person as he glared at Yin Shuiling. It was like he saw an enemy as he shouted, “Shuiling, Yin Shuiling, I am your father! You are really choosing not to save me? Do you really want to push me into the fire? Yin Shuiling, you are being way too unfilial!”
Yin De’s drug addiction was rearing its ugly head. His face became extremely sinister as he said, “Yin Shuiling, you are forcing me to go and die. If I die in here, it is all of your fault! You’d better remember this. Your mother and I were forced to death because of you! Yin Shuiling, I am cursing you. I am cursing that you and Yin Muchen will never be together! I am cursing you to never feel bliss!”