Chapter 638: Shuiling, Are You Ever Going To Return?
Upon seeing this small face that he missed so much, Yin Muchen quickly stepped forward, and he stretched his hand out to embrace Yin Shuiling. He was greedy as he sniffed the fragrance on her body, and he said, “Shuiling, you came out. I knew that you would definitely come out.”
Yin Shuiling gently hugged his waist as she said, “Older Brother, you have lost some weight.”
“Did I get slimmer? If you like me being plumper, I would let myself gain some weight. Shuiling, go home with me.” Yin Muchen bent over to bring Yin Shuiling up into his arms, and he brought her towards the Rolls Royce.
He wanted to open the front pa.s.senger seat door, but Yin Shuiling stopped him and said, “Older Brother, go to the back seat.”
Yin Muchen pursed his thin lips together as he looked at her.
“Older Brother,” Yin Shuiling used both of her small hands to cup his handsome face, as she said, “You know that I’m not going back home with you. The last time we are seeing one another, don’t throw a tantrum, okay? Let us speak with one another properly.”
The last meeting…
Yin Muchen’s eyes immediately turned red.
He opened the door to the backseat and gently placed her inside, then he also got in.
…
The sound of both their breaths could be heard clearly inside the quiet car. Yin Muchen slowly bent his body down and nested his head on her thighs.
He brought his hand to her flat stomach before he gently kissed it.
Yin Shuiling lowered her gaze to watch. Her eyes immediately became wet. She stretched her hand out to cover her mouth, but the hot beads of tears were still falling down her face, then they fell onto his cheeks.
Yin Muchen froze for a moment before hugging her small waist tight. He buried his face deep into her waist. He trembled as he said, “Did you plan to hide this from me for my entire life and cry secretly by yourself?”
Yin Shuiling’s irises contracted, and she said, “Older Brother, you found out?”
“Yeah, I found out. Actually, Shuiling, you don’t have to do this. I don’t need you to do this. The child belonged to both of us. He is also mine. I was once a father, and no matter whether it was me…who made him go, he should have heard his father tell him that he was sorry. He should have heard…that his father loves him.”
Yin Shuiling stretched her hand out to touch his face. She felt some moisture; this man was crying.
“Older Brother…” She wanted to comfort him, but after she opened her mouth, she did not know what to say.
That child was her wound for her entire life. She had yet to recover from it herself. How could she console someone else?
“So Shuiling, you only had me, right?”
“Yeah.” Yin Shuiling nodded her head. She was thinking of the past. Those times that were so painful made her tears flow non stop, but she curled the corners of her lips up into a smile. Her tears made her look like a pretty flower as she said, “My first man was Older Brother. Older Brother liked to call me Little Mute. I bore a child for Older Brother in the past. Over the three years when I was in England, I did not sleep with any man… That person who said that he loved to sleep with me was Older Brother. That person who asked me to take contraceptive pills was also Older Brother. That person that asked me to use my mouth was also Older Brother… Older Brother did not know how much of a joke he was. You said that your abilities were bad. You said that you wanted to kill yourself, and you were jealous of yourself… I learned how to draw comics to remember Older Brother. I learned how to cook because of Older Brother. I felt that I had to keep up with Older Brother’s footsteps because I always felt that I was too young… My entire world was all about Older Brother. Older Brother, I said that I loved you, or maybe it was because you never understood my love, but I did not lie to you before.”
Yin Muchen pinned his large hand on her waist and firmly held onto her. He started to sob out loud. He was a 34 year old man, but at this moment, he buried himself in her embrace as he sobbed like a helpless child.
Sorry…
Shuiling, I am sorry…
In his entire life, the person whom he wanted to fail the least, he’d planned everything around this person, and he once was depressed, jealous, and lost because of this person. He had her a very long long time ago.
But it was only that he did not know for the entire time.
Yin Shuiling stretched her hand out to wipe her tears, but the more she tried to wipe them away, the more tears flowed. She continued, “Older Brother, I love you. I would never regret it, but now, I am really sick. I want to let go of your hand to have a look outside. I want to have a look at the world without you. Older Brother, can you allow me to do so? Can I leave freely?”
They were in love with one another for so many years, and their love was unable to be measured with time. This love was mixed together with so much frustrations and sadness. It was too heavy, and after they came to a time like today, letting go was the result.
She wanted him to let go…
She wanted to be free…
Yin Muchen raised his head up. He used his hand to cup the girl’s face before using nudging her nose with his. He was unable to tell whose tears he felt on his face. The tears were so wet and so hot. “Shuiling, did you know, actually, you are someone who is extremely direct. When you wanted to leave me, you would not care about anything else. You would use everything you had to love, and now that you do not want to love anymore. Everything that you are saying is to deny me from retreating. What can I use to persuade you to stay? How should I save this love of ours?”
Yin Shuiling stretched both of her small hands out to hug his neck. She kissed his thin lips as she said, “Older Brother, don’t say anything then. Don’t do anything either. Just kiss me; kiss me properly.”
Yin Muchen cupped her small face and used his thumbs to caress the tears on her face, and he opened his mouth to suck on her small lips.
Then he should kiss her properly.
The farewell kiss.
Yin Shuiling took the initiative to cooperate with his kiss. She even used her small tongue to tease him. With both hands, she pulled the corner of his s.h.i.+rt out from his trousers before touching him.
Yin Muchen’s breathing became hurried, and with a hoa.r.s.e voice, he asked, “Babe, what do you want to do?”
After they were done, it was already four in the morning. Yin Shuiling stepped out of the car and went into the Lu family villa. Yin Muchen’s clothes were dishevelled as he lay back against the back seat, and the entire car was full of hot steam, sweet and musty.
He took his phone out, and there was a message from Liu Caizhe — Muchen, I got into your phone a while back and blocked Miss Yin’s number.
Yin Muchen switched on the setting in his phone, and as he expected, Yin Shuiling’s old number was left there.
He unblocked the number. Ding, ding! There were a few hundred additional messages and phone calls simultaneously appearing on his phone.
These were all from three years ago.
He used one hand to hold onto the cigarette to smoke before he lay his head against the back seat, and he looked at each message carefully —
Older Brother, I have already given myself over to you. 15 years old, it is very embarra.s.sing, and I am in so much pain, but as long as Older Brother is happy, I would be happy, in the future. Can you treat me well…
Older Brother, I know that I should not ask this, but what is going on between you and Yao Xiaozhu? Is Older Brother dating her? But… but…Older Brother, I don’t dare to ask you to take responsibility for me, but all of them said…that after doing that…we have to get married in the future. Older Brother, I want to be your bride…
Older Brother, on the last day of the old year, why did you stay behind to have dinner at home? After you left, I bravely told my parents that I did not like Mu Yunfan. I said that the person I like is Older Brother, but my mother immediately gave me a slap… My parents even locked me up inside my room, and they did not allow me to contact Older Brother anymore… Older Brother, I am really so upset and so fearful. Can you take me away? I want to leave with Older Brother…
Older Brother, I called you for three whole years, but you did not pick up even once. I think that you would probably not read this message. Older Brother, my mother has left, and I did not manage to see her for the last time… These past few days, I’ve been having nightmares. In my dreams, my mother would always strangle my neck. She asked me what I was doing at night… I did not dare to say. I did not dare to tell her that I was doing it with Older Brother… Older Brother, I really miss you. If you come to see me right now, I would consider forgiving you. That day inside the car, you asked me to duck my head to cry…
Older Brother, there is a problem with my father’s company. My father asked me to go and beg you, but both your secretary and manager did not allow me to see you… Older Brother, can you understand me? I don’t have my mother with me anymore, and now, my father is going to disappear soon. These three years, I have been in a cold war with them for the past three years because of you. I did not speak to them for three years. I don’t like them to be so forceful, and they would always try to make use of you…But Older Brother, they are the parents that gave me life. Can I beg you?
Yin Muchen read all of the hundreds of messages. His phone slid down onto the seat, and he used his right hand that was holding on to the cigarette to cover his own face. Hot tears were weaving through his fingers.
Those three years, she was so lonely and helpless.
And it was only now that he knew.
Ning Qing said that he would probably never know how regretful she felt towards her own parents, and now, he also found out.
She gave herself to him, and she was not filial towards her parents for a single day. She did not love herself properly for a single day.
His left hand that was placed on the chair suddenly touched something ice-cold. He picked it up. It was that red string that had the ring as a pendant. She had left it behind just now.
Yin Muchen was in a daze when the main doors of the Lu family villa opened with a loud Bang! Yin Shuiling and Ning Qing walked out, and Yin Shuiling held a small luggage bag in her hands. Ning Qing was bidding farewell to her before Yin Shuiling stepped into the Lu family’s car, and the car drove off, probably to the airport.
She left.
Yin Shuiling really left
Yin Muchen threw the cigarette b.u.t.t onto the ground, and he held the ring in his hands as he ran after the car, “Shuiling…”
…
There were not too many cars on the road in the morning. The neon lights were still s.h.i.+ning by the side of the road. The driver looked through the rear view mirror and had a look at the back as he said, “Miss Yin, President Yin is chasing after us.”
Yin Shuiling perched herself by the side of the car windows to look back. The man was really chasing after the car, and his entire face was covered in tears.
The driver reduced speed and cruised slowly. Yin Shuiling opened the window of the car, and Yin Muchen ran over to the side of the car. While he ran after the car, he saaskedid, “Shuiling, do you really want to leave? Are you really leaving this time?”
“Yeah.” Yin Shuiling looked at the man’s red eyes as she nodded her head.
Yin Muchen raised his eyelids up, but the tears still flowed. His voice was quivering as he said, “How many years? Can you tell me how many years you’ll be gone?”
Yin Shuiling shook her head. “I don’t know.”
Yin Muchen firmly held the window. The neon street lamps shone down on his face and highlighted all of his sadness and hopelessness, and he asked the question that had persisted inside his heart. “Shuiling, are you ever going to return?”