Chapter 743: I Have Been So Humbly In Love With You
“I stood outside the small window of the room and peeped at you. That day, you were wearing a beautiful white skirt and a pair of crystal shoes, like a princess in a fairy tale. When you went to the back garden to see the blooming peony, I saw the b.u.t.terflies land on your shoulders. In my eyes, the peonies were not as beautiful as you…
“I recognized you at a glance, and I was…deeply attracted to you. Ou Ze came when I was staring at you, lovestruck. That day, Ou Ze was wearing a gentlemanly s.h.i.+rt. When he gently pulled you into his embrace, the two of you looked like a prince and a princess… Later I learned that you got engaged to Ou Ze that day, and you became his fiancee…
“I moved out of the Ou family home and entered the entertainment circle. I thought I would never meet you again. But because of my sister-in-law, we met again. Somehow, you fell in love with me.
“Xiaofu, did you know that your attraction didn’t surprise me? On the contrary, I was afraid and scared. You may have loved my looks and my cold appearance, but if you knew that I had just started to learn Chinese and learn numbers… When you invited me to dance, I didn’t know how to dance at all. I couldn’t speak English at all during the fas.h.i.+on week in Milan. Maybe in the future, you might’ve even learned that I’m not used to using chopsticks when eating; I like to grab the food using my hands… Would you still like me then?
“I have never owned anything in my life, and I don’t want to either. I’m more afraid of permanent loss than having something for a short time. The taste of loss is…really difficult to bear.
“But Xiaofu, although I am rejecting you, my eyes and my heart were always attracted to you. I can’t help but look in your direction. If you get sad and angry, the next second, I will be following you secretly… In the end, you won. I still can’t help but be with you.
“Xiaofu, I still don’t know what happened between us. I thought you and Ou Ze had… I thought Little Xuyan… I always thought you were betraying me, using me, cheating me… Even so, I still dared not ask. When I am in extreme pain, I would rather stab myself deeply in my heart than to question you. I’m afraid that it will be the end if I ask you. I’m afraid…to lose you…
“Xiaofu, do you know, I became who I am today just for you. In order to be worthy of you and have you, I stood in the spotlight among thousands of people and strived to s.h.i.+ne brilliantly… I have no aspirations in my life. I only have you, only want you. It’s you, just you. Everything was for you…
“Xiaofu, in my heart, you will always be that princess, and I will always hide in a dark corner to peep at you and admire you. You will never know how humbly I have been in love with you.”
Xia Xiaofu didn’t wake up. She was still sleeping peacefully. Ou Luoxi closed his eyes and kissed her cold hand. Hot tears fell on the back of her hand. “Xiaofu, wake up quickly, ok? I know it all, everything. I will never do that to you again. I will never restrict your freedom. As long as you wake up, I will give you freedom.”
“Our Little Xuyan also needs you. Without you, what’s the point of me and Little Xuyan staying in this world? We are alive because of you.”
A teardrop silently slipped out from the corner of Xia Xiaofu’s eyes.
…
In the afternoon, the doctor gave Xia Xiaofu another examination. The doctor shook his head continuously for the patient did not have the will to wake up nor the desire to live, and the doctor was at a loss.
Little Xuyan woke up from her sleep. She began to look for her grandma everywhere. The nurse went to hold her, but she didn’t want anyone. She tearfully cried for her grandma and refused to eat.
Ou Luoxi stood outside the door and looked at Little Xuyan. His heart breaking for her. At that moment, Ah Li came up and asked, “Young Master, shall we bury Madam Xia now or wait for Miss Xia to wake up first? ”
Ou Luoxi’s eyes were red, and he was tired. He had to make decisions for everything, but he couldn’t make up his mind. Xia Xiaofu had not woken up; how was he supposed to decide?
As that woman lay there, his life was falling apart.
At this time, Little Xuyan’s exclamation could be heard from the ward. “Mummy!”
He was stunned, then he looked into the ward. Ah Li had already stepped into the ward first. On the bed, Xia Xiaofu moved her fingers and opened her eyes slowly.
“Call a doctor!” cried Ah Li.
The doctor came quickly. He checked her pupils and listened to her heartbeat. “The patient’s condition is now stable, and the next step is observation and rest. After a week, she will need to have a comprehensive examination.”
Everyone was in joy.
Xia Xiaofu couldn’t adapt to the dazzling white room and the smell of disinfectant. She closed her eyes and then reopened them. She first looked at Little Xuyan beside her, then raised her hand to caress her head.
“Mommy, the doctor said your hand is injured, and you shouldn’t touch it.” Little Xuyan leaned her delicate face to Xia Xiaofu’s side and rubbed against her lovingly.
“Mummy, you have finally woken up. You have been sleeping for a long time. Little Xuyan was so scared.”
Xia Xiaofu lifted the corners of her mouth and softly said, “Mummy is okay. Mummy is here. There is no need to be afraid.”
“Yes.” Xia Xuyan nodded vigorously.
Xia Xiaofu looked around with her almond eyes. She looked suspiciously at Little Xuyan. “Little Xuyan, where is Grandma? Why don’t I see your grandma here?”
Hearing that, Little Xuyan’s eyes filled with tears. “Mummy, Grandma is missing.”
“What?” Xia Xiaofu was shocked.
“Miss Xia,” said Ah Li, his face grim. “I have some bad news for you. I hope you can brace yourself for this.”
Xia Xiaofu’s face was as white as a sheet of paper. “What’s the bad news? Is it about my mother?”
Ah Li lightly nodded his head. “Miss Xia, Auntie met with a car accident when she was crossing the road this morning. Unfortunately, she has…pa.s.sed away. ”
Unfortunately…pa.s.sed away?
It took Xia Xiaofu a long time to understand that sentence. She struggled to get up from the bed as she hoa.r.s.ely and painfully shouted, “Mom!”
Ou Luoxi stood outside the door. He didn’t dare enter. His appearance would not only upset Little Xuyan but also Xia Xiaofu. He could only stand outside the door and listen to her painful screams.
He did not know what he could do.
…
Xia Xiaofu rested for two days, and then she got out of bed despite the doctor’s objection. She personally sent her mother on her last journey and buried her next to her father.
It is now autumn. This year’s autumn is even colder than usual. There were not many relatives whom the Xia family still kept in touch with. Only Xia Xiaofu and Little Xuyan were left in the cemetery, and there was even a light drizzle on the day of burial.
Xia Xiaofu was wearing a black tweed coat, holding an umbrella in her right hand and holding onto Little Xuyan with her left hand. The two figures, one tall and one short, stood in front of the tombstone quietly.
“Mummy, where’s Grandma? Why are we here?”
Xia Xiaofu squatted down slowly. She touched Little Xuyan’s head affectionately and said, “Little Xuyan, Grandma has gone to a place called heaven. She may not come back for a long time.”