Whereat my uncle resumed his writing, and I, with the papers in my arms, walked off in rather a muddled state of mind to my bedroom.
Half way up stairs a sudden thought occurred to me, which caused me to drop my burden and hurry back to my uncle"s room.
"Uncle, do you know the Smiths of Packworth?"
My uncle looked up crossly.
"Haven"t you learned more sense at school, sir, than that? Don"t you know there are hundreds of Smiths at Packworth?"
This was a crusher. I meekly departed, and picking up my papers where I had dropped them, completed the journey to my room.
It had been a cherished idea of mine, the first day I got home to make inquiries about my friend Smith. It had never occurred to me before that Smith was such a very common name; but it now dawned slowly on me that to find a Smith in Packworth would be about as simple as to find a needle in a bottle of hay.
Anyhow, I could write to him now without fear--that was a comfort. So I turned to my newspapers and began to read through a few of the advertis.e.m.e.nts my uncle had considerately marked.
The result was not absolutely exhilarating. My uncle evidently was not ambitious on my account.
"Sharp lad wanted to look after a shop." That was the first I caught sight of. And the next was equally promising.
"Page wanted by a professional gentleman. Must be clean, well-behaved, and make himself useful in house. Attend to boots, coals, windows, etcetera. Good character indispensable."
I was almost grateful to feel that no one could give me a good character by any stretch of imagination, so that at any rate I was safe from this fastidious professional gentleman. Then came another:
"News-boy wanted. Must have good voice. Apply Clerk, Great Central Railway Station."
Even this did not tempt me. It might be a n.o.ble sphere of life to strive to make my voice heard above a dozen shrieking engines all day long, but I didn"t quite fancy the idea.
In fact, as I read on and on, I became more and more convinced that my splendid talents would be simply wasted in London. Nothing my uncle had marked tempted me. A "m.u.f.fin boy"s" work might be pleasant for a week, till the noise of the bell had lost its novelty; a "boy to learn the art of making b.u.t.ton-holes in braces" might perhaps be a promising opening; and a printer"s boy might be all very well, but they none of them accorded with my own ideas, still less with my opinion of my own value.
I was getting rather hopeless, and wondering what on earth I should say to my uncle, when the brilliant idea occurred to me of looking at some of the other advertis.e.m.e.nts which my uncle hadn"t marked. Some of these were most tempting.
"A junior partner wanted in an old-established firm whose profits are 10,000 a year. Must bring 15,000 capital into the concern."
There! If I only had 15,000, my fortune would be made at once!
"Wanted a companion for a n.o.bleman"s son about to travel abroad."
There again, why shouldn"t I try for that? What could a n.o.bleman"s son require more in a companion than was to be found in me?
And so I travelled on, beginning at the top of the ladder and sliding gently down, gradually losing not only the hope of finding a situation to suit me, but also relinquishing my previous strong faith in my own wonderful merits. I was ready to give it up as a bad job, and go and tell my uncle I must decline all his kind suggestions, when, in an obscure corner of one paper, my eye caught the following:
"Junior clerkship. An intelligent lad, respectable, and quick at figures, wanted in a merchant"s office. Wages 8 shillings a week to commence. Apply by letter to Merrett, Barnacle, and Company, Hawk Street, London."
I jumped up as if I had been shot, and rushed headlong with the paper to my uncle"s study.
"Look at this, uncle! This will do, I say! Read it, please."
My uncle read it gravely, and then pushed the paper from him.
"Absurd. You would not do at all. That is not one of those I marked, is it?"
"No. But they were all awful. I say, uncle, let"s try for this."
My uncle stared at me, and I looked anxiously at my uncle.
"Fred," said he sternly, "I"m sorry to see you making a fool of yourself. However, it"s your affair, not mine."
"But, uncle, I"m pretty quick at figures," said I.
"And intelligent and respectable too, I suppose?" added my uncle, looking at me over his gla.s.ses. "Well, do as you choose."
"Will you be angry?" I inquired.
"Tut, tut!" said my uncle, rising, "that will do. You had better write by the next post, if you are bent on doing it. You can write at my desk."
So saying he departed, leaving me very perplexed and a good deal out of humour with my wonderful advertis.e.m.e.nt.
However, I sat down and answered it. Six of my uncle"s sheets of paper were torn up before I got the first sentence to my satisfaction, and six more before the letter was done. I never wrote a letter that cost me such an agony of labour. How feverishly I read and re-read what I had written! What panics I got into about the spelling of "situation," and the number of l"s in "ability"! How carefully I rubbed out the pencil- lines I had ruled, and how many times I repented I had not put a "most"
before the "obediently"! Many letters like that, thought I, would shorten my life perceptibly. At last it was done, and when my uncle came in I showed it to him with fear and trembling, and watched his face anxiously as he read it.
"Humph!" said he, looking at me, "and suppose you do get the place, you won"t stick to it."
"Oh yes, I will," said I; "I"ll work hard and get on."
"You"d better," said my uncle, "for you"ll have only yourself to depend on."
I posted my letter, and the next few days seemed interminable. Whenever I spoke about the subject to my uncle he took care not to encourage me over much. And yet I fancied, gruff as he was, he was not wholly displeased at my "cheek" in answering Merrett, Barnacle, and Company"s advertis.e.m.e.nt.
"Successful!" growled he. "Why, there"ll be scores of other boys after the place. You don"t expect your letter"s the best of the lot, do you?
Besides, they"d never have a boy up from the country when there are so many in London ready for the place, who are used to the work. Mark my word, you"ll hear no more about it."
And so it seemed likely to be. Day after day went by and the post brought no letter; I was beginning to think I should have to settle down as a newspaper-boy or a page after all.
At the end of the week I was so disheartened that I could stay in the house no longer, but sallied out, I cared not whither, for a day in the fresh air.
As I was sauntering along the road, a cart overtook me, a covered baker"s cart with the name painted outside, "Walker, Baker, Packworth."
A brilliant idea seized me as I read the legend. Making a sign to the youth in charge to stop, I ran up and asked, "I say, what would you give me a lift for to Packworth?"
"What for? S"pose we say a fifty-pun" note," was the facetious reply.
"I could do with a fifty-pun" note pretty comfortable."
"Oh, but really, how much? I want to go to Packworth awfully, but it"s such a long way to walk."
"What do you weigh, eh?"
"I don"t know; about seven stone, I think."
"If you was eight stun I wouldn"t take you, there! But hop up!"