Chapter 830: What Did I Do Wrong? (2)
He asked her a question, but was upset with her answer? What did he ask her?
Gu Yu couldn’t help frowning. What did he ask? What had Xu Weilai told her? He knew himself well enough that if he accepted Xu Weilai, he wouldn’t get angry with her easily.
He couldn’t recall. He could only continue to read on.
From the entries that followed, he could tell that they met lesser and lesser. Even if they met, they spent little time together. Xu Weilai’s mood was filled with rains and thunderstorms, but what she never stopped comforting and convincing herself that Gu Yu was just too busy with work and she had to be understanding about it.
But when Gu Yu still did not contact her when he held a celebration party after finally took control of the Gu Corporation, she showed up at the party on her own. Although he still introduced her as his fiancée… Her guts feeling told her that his feelings for her had changed. But she couldn’t pinpoint what exactly changed.
She was at a loss for what happened to their relations.h.i.+p as Gu Yu drifted further and further away from her. All she could do was to vent in her diary. The only difference was, she started questioning herself. “What did I do wrong? ”
Just a few simple words, but they made his heart sank.
Her later entries were filled with doubts, puzzles and depression, unlike the unrequited love she had for him earlier. She reflected on herself, doubted herself, became cautious of her words, afraid that she might say the wrong things and annoyed him.
Her parents, too, pressured her into getting herself married to Gu Yu soonest possible.
When her mind was a mess, she made the worst decision ever, a decision she regretted for the rest of her life. She got him drunk and made the move to kiss him.
Nature took its course, followed by a steamy night together, which led her to think that marriage would follow suit soon after. They would be happy together, had a family of their own, raised their kids, and grew old together.
The last entry in the diary was probably written after she got a call from a.s.sistant Lin to inform her that Gu Yu wanted to break off their engagement.
Xu Weilai wrote: I thought that our fate to meet led us to happiness, and we could expect more happiness in our future together.
I was the only one harbouring such thought. Gu Yu never told me he loves me. It turned out that he had never loved me.
Love is mutual. What I had was a one-sided, ridiculous love that I thought was true.
These few lines of words were blurry, as if they were dampened before, likely by tears. Gu Yu gently touched the traces of dried patches on the page with his fingers. In his head, he could almost see Xu Weilai sprawled on the table, crying her eyes out as she confided in her diary. His heart ached as if it was being shattered into a million pieces. He crouched on the floor, bearing the surge of his heartache.
He felt a sharp pain in his head, as if it was being torn apart. Beads of cold sweat kept streaming down from his forehead. He grunted and pressed both his palms to his temples, hard.
The diary in his hand fell and hit the floor with a thud. His knees went weak and had him kneeling on the floor. As the pain from both his heart and his head surged, his vision turned dark. He felt a pang of nauseous. His entire body could not stop trembling.
He felt as if something broke through his mind wall and flooded his brain with puzzle pieces of his memory fragments. The puzzles patched up and formed a picture, which then turned into a series of images and incidents. The series of events reconstructed in his mind into a story of his life, scene after scene.
What he read from the diary realised before his eyes. The hazy images of her in his head turned clearer as he recalled every bit of his missing pieces of memories.