It was in the evening when I woke up….
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Heh?! Heh???!!! Hehhhh??!!
I blinked and got up in confusion. I slapped my face, my mouth, my cheeks and my body just to make sure none of them were broken, everything was weirdly normal…or am I going into the cliche manga plot again? Everything that happened might be a dream!
“Gil…”, Nigel’s voice made me flinch, I looked at him, who was still a cute child, “…is something wrong?”
I blinked and blinked at Nigel…his countenance became slightly sullen but he’s still totally adorbs, I reached up and pinched the other’s cheeks, he’s not stopping…yeah, Nigel’s still the same Nigel, or was I actually dreaming?!
It must be a dream! Someone like Nigel can’t be such a cruel person?! It must have been my lil’ sis’ delusions taking control of me, I’m sure!!
I sighed in relief, “It’s nothing Nigel, I’m fin…um, Nigel, you’re talking to me?”. If I remember correctly ( excluding that dream ), Nigel’s not been talking to me.
The person in front of me flinched and became silent for a moment, “I…I’m sorry for what I did before…”.
“Hm?”
“Recently, I’ve not been talking to Gil…so, I…I’m confused”, his argent eyes looked at me for a second before turning the other way, “I’m confused and I don’t understand why I, who’s a Gawain should prioritise my household above all everything? But…is that the right way to go about doing things?”.
“…”
“At that time…it was Gil who ran away first, it was Gil who chose not to see me anymore but I was stubborn, I cried, I was sad, I begged…for Gil to not leave me but now, even hough I was the one who begged Gil but I was the one who chose to leave this time…I…”
“…”
“Someone like me…doesn’t know a single thing…”
Nigel started to bawl his eyes out…the same Nigel as the day where I came into existence in this world.
I feel awkward when he hugs me, I don’t know if I should hug him back or not…ah, it’s probably my fault for being weak. If I was as strong and talented as Haref then may be I won’t have to think so much but could you call someone like that a ‘friend’? Being friends with someone just to give you an advantage…but that is the world. The rich befriending the poor, the strong befriending the weak. To me, it sounds delusional. A story like Cinderella can’t exist in the real world, it can only exist within a fairytale, in reality, even if the two do not suit each other then the only thing keeping their relationship alive is ‘advantages’. Even I, who’s currently friends with Nigel, is being friends with him because he’s my ‘ideal younger brother’.
“What should I do…”, the more he cries the more unbearable it becomes, “I…I don’t know what I should do…to make it so…that it’s proper…as a Gawain…”.
Do what you want to do Nigel!”, I smiled faintly, “Do what you want to do Nigel. Whatever you want to do, just do it. You’re a Gawain and so what? Your name is still Nigel before Gawain isn’t it?”.
It’s true our ancestors built the households from nothing but that doesn’t mean we have to self-destruct to fit our household’s values. If we do what our ancestors did, we would just be their replicas!
“But I have my duties, I have my househo…”
“Nigel, you can think for your household, you can do things for your household but you also have to do things for yourself…”, I wiped his tears away from his cheeks, if I wanted to flirt with him, I could’ve have licked his tears away cooly, but sorry, I can only think of him as a younger brother!
“Please…love yourself more…”
In this world, there’s no on who loves Nigel more than yourself, Nigel…
His argent eyes stare at me, unmoving.
I son’t know what he could be thinking until he broke into a smile, I could feel my eyes becoming blurry because he was so cute, hugging him makes me unable to breathe properly, a-a-and when he says ‘big bro Gil’, I’m gonna faint!…Do-Do-Does this mean that I’ve got my totally adorbs lil’ bro back?!
Wow. Woooow. Wooooowowoowoowow.
Even though, I don’t know how I got him back but I’ll hug him tight! Great…huh?!!
I blinked rapidly. I looked at the person who’s smiling gently and giving me the thumbs up, this made me blink even more rapidly…
Hm? Isn’t this person like super familiar, the person in front of me isn’t Salsaal Secalno De Arthur who’s like super annoying right?
Suddenly, I could feel chills creeping up my body. I-If what happened previously wasn’t a dream then…
“Question…”, Salsaal said lethargically while his eyes were sparkling brightly, “Which type of person is worse? One, an openly wicked person. Two, a wicked person who hides their despicableness or three…someone’s who’s so wicked, they’re able to conceal it so that you would start to question if what happened to you was just a hallucination of a dream?”.
I-Impossible!!
If that wasn’t a dream then I should feel pain right now! There would also be bruises! I was kicked and flew to the wall you know! To-the-wall! Excluding his foot which crushed my back and made me think it was actually Haref who was abusing me! Another thing, Nigel’s power is the power of ice! He doesn’t have healing powers! But if you think about it that way, isn’t Salsaal, who’s got the ‘support’ type way more suspicious?
I looked down at Nigel, who’s got punchable cheeks, totally adorbs, then I looked at Satan Salsaal, who’s shady af.
Yeah…there’s no wa…
Click.
“Nigel, the healing spell I used on Gilbe…hm? He’s awake?”
Haref…
Haref Lancelot who wields the power of light.
Ho-Ho-How did I forget about him!
As long as there’s Haref, something like healing could be done in milliseconds! I looked down at the person beside me who looked at me confusedly…
“You’re finally awake”, Haref sighed and sat down on the opposite Sofa…with Nigel still clinging on me, d.a.m.n, calm down my heart…scared, not cause he’s cute. “gilbert, I know you want to make up with Nigel…but the part where you cage him in your arms agains the sofa isn’t need…”, Haref lowered his voice making his voice appear brutal. Nigel would you mind letting go of my sleeves now…I tried to remove his fingers but he’s not letting me…this lil’ bro isn’t cute anymore, you’re going down the dark path, it’s too scary!…I still can’t go down the dark path just so I can become a supportive big bro, this doesn’t even include you wanting to claim me as your own!
“Suddenly Gil became weird…”, Nigel said as if to say he accepted that he’s just been crushing my back with his foot…but I can’t actually blame him cause it was my fault for thinking what happened was a dream. “You weren’t behaving like the Gil I knew, I thought you might’ve been possessed or was cursed in someway so…I was a bit violent.”
He confessed in such a cute voice, it made me want to forgive him…If you want to blame someone, blame me, I know his face is too much in my strike zone, I can’t stand something as cute as a lil’ sis or a lil’ bro!
I patted his head softly…how old is he? 8 years old! There’s still time to teach him, as soon as he displays behaviours which hints he has feeling for me, I’ll start to introduce girls to me and make him go down the straight path! Have cute grandchildren whom I would be able to molest when I become a grandpa…
Thinking about it…a thought sparked in my head. If I’m able to make all the members of the knights of the round table go down the straight path, I might be able to prevent Ca.s.s from having to be pressed down by the members?! And, if Nigel and Ca.s.s are straight, the 3P route and the incest route won’t happen! Why couldn’t I think of this before?! Guys should go with girls so they can have a lot of cute grandchildren for when I become a grandpa!
When I thought about this, I could hear distant screams from my lil ‘sis. Dear stupid lil’ sis, it’s a revolution! Your big bro’s gonna destroy all the ships in this world! I’ll change the BL Game into an Otome Game*!
“Gil…is something wrong?”
Nigel asked me when he saw I’ve been silent for a while…the first person who I’ve got to make straight is Nigel! He’s got gynophobia but it’s not like there’s never been dramas where the main character’s got gynophobia. I might try and use the techniques form those shows and apply them on Nigel. First, I need to ask which kind of girl is his type… Nigel’s gonna grow up to be a real stunner, it won’t be hard since girls will just flock towards him!
“No, I’m fine.”
“Heh…heh…heh…”, the Prince’s who’s been floating made an annoying sound as annoying as a Chihuahua’s bark, “I’ve warned you Bedivere…but you’re too much of a dimwit to understand an intellect’s conversion…but…um…if I didn’t say this out loud, I’ll regret it”.
I don’t want to know but it seems you’re not gonna be able to shut you mouth…may be he’s just lonely and wants someone to talk to him.
“When you were sleeping, Nigel Gawain kissed you not long ago.”
The Prince said with a straight face, he was scared I wouldn’t get the picture so he described it in detail, “Mouth to mouth but no tongue involved yet. Pfft…Bwahahah.”
First kiss…
My first kiss…
My first kiss, a virgin guy’s first kiss ever since his last world, I’ve never lost my first kiss but in this world, it was stolen so easily by some guy who’s more handsome than me!! I…I…I….
“Gil?!…Gil fainted?!”
“Gilbert?!”
I can’t take this anymore…
Nigel, you steal my kiss when you’re little, wouldn’t you (beep)–(beep)—(beep)—and (beep)—(beep) me when you grow up?!!
When I was drifting between consciousness, I could hear the voices of my beloved friends and that G.o.ddam b.a.s.t.a.r.d’s voice which was the loudest…
That guy shouted…
“Hey! Don’t die yet!!
I was just joking!”
What?!
You G.o.ddam despicable son of a (beep)!
*Otome game – A game where you develop romantic relationships with the characters
Author’s note:
There’s a new character coming soon… Is he the gla.s.ses type? Tsundere? Next door big bro? Or a casanova? TBC!!
I’ve not proofread this cause it’s 1 in the morning but I’ll do it sometime tomorrow. There might not be a release on Monday. Sorry in advance but I don’t think I’ll survive school at this rate.