Chapter 198: 198It was already 12:30 in the middle of the night when we arrived in the capital . Driving along the way, they were neither fast nor slow . The two of them fell into a long silence . Qin Feng drank a little too much and even squinted on the way . This period of time, he was too tired . He did not have a good rest even if for a good night . Every day he had been thinking about these and those matters, and now he could finally settle down . He had been worried that Sister Hua would know Xiaohe"s situation, but it was really found by her, Qin Feng was relieved .
For a few months, his heart had been nervous and now his heart could finally be completely put down . No matter how, Sister Hua had to convince himself to accept the fact . People cannot be revived from the dead . After being sad, she also needed to face her life calmly .
After arriving at the military region, Qin Feng directed Sister Hua to drive her car down to his apartment building . Everything couldn"t be done until daybreak .
Qin Feng"s apartment was not far from Green Dragon and Green Snake"s . Of course, Xiao He"s apartment was also here .
It was just that if you ventured into Xiao He"s room in the middle of the night, you"ll always feel a bit of terror .
Getting out of the car, Qin Feng"s legs were a bit numb . He was standing downstairs with a cigarette in his mouth, accompanied by the cool breeze of the night . Xiao Jinhua saw the situation and looked disdainful, "You are in the army now . Can you pay attention to your image?"
"Who would care in the middle of the night?"
Qin Feng humphed, "Here is full of nightmares . Back here, my heart also fell to the bottom of the valley . "
"You"re not sober yet?"
Sister Hua was speechless for a while, "Go . Let"s enter into the room to rest . We have to get up early tomorrow . "
After returning to the apartment, Qin Feng looked around the messy home with dust . Everything seemed so strange to him . He had no sense of coming back home .
This apartment was a full 80 square meters, and only regiment level cadres could be equipped with . Gu Shaoyun specially applied for it for Qin Feng, to reward his outstanding performance in a series of tasks before .
It had been five months since he had scurried to the Golden Triangle, and he had never returned, nor had n.o.body taken care of it, and the ash on the coffee table was so thick that he could write on it with his fingers .
Xiao Jinhua looked around and couldn"t help laughing . "Is this your pig"s nest? Don"t you know how to clean it up? This is an apartment, but it"s not a hotel you can walk away whenever you want, right? Men just can"t . They"re careless . "
Although she said that, Sister Hua started to help Qin Feng clean up the apartment, and all the lights in the room were turned on . She came to the living room with a bucket and a mop and cleaned it three times . The whole floor was lugged and translucent . It was very clean . Qin Feng dared not idle, either . After washing several rags, he scrubbed every place in the house for two or three times, and after working for an hour, they finally cleaned up the apartment thoroughly .
After closing the curtain, the two of them collapsed on the sofa, looking at the results in front of them, their heart were much more comfortable .
"Sister Hua, tomorrow we"ll go to the special combat team to get Xiao He"s belongings, and then we"ll go to his apartment and have a look at it . He put a lot of money in the army, and it could be settled out in a time . The applications that I should ask for I will go for them . I guarantee none of them will be neglected . "
Qin Feng said .
"Well, at this point, let it be . I am alone, and what if I have a little more money or a little less money? I don"t feel I can do anything energetically . At the thought of Xiao He"s death, I feel I have nothing to look forward to in this world . It can say I will be finished at any time, and then all the efforts I have made will dissipate . "
Xiao Jinhua sighed .
It was not surprising that she had such thoughts when one was extremely depressed . They become very negative, feel bored in doing anything, and do not run around . All kinds of feelings that conflicted would appear . They would just be thinking of eating and dying, like a dead-alive person .
Qin Feng was clear in his heart . This matter couldn"t be done anxiously . Sister Hua"s thoughts needed adjusting gradually . This matter hurt her too severely . For a while she certainly couldn"t accept it .
A man is not a stalk of gra.s.s or a tree . We all have feeling to others .
Even if when you keep a dog, for a year or two, you and the dog will be especially close . Not to mention her brother who lived with her for 20 years .
This feeling was incomparably deep, comparable to the kindness of parents .
"Sleep? You go to the bedroom, I"m on the couch . "
Qin Feng did not persuade her anymore, but just lazy yawning, "It"s almost two o"clock . If you do not sleep, it will be on the dawn soon . "
"I"ll be on the couch . It feels awkward to sleep in the bed you slept in . "
"Why don"t I feel awkward when I sleep in your bed?"
Qin Feng retorted, "Go ahead . I"ll get you a new sheet . The sofa is too hard . It"s too narrow at night . It takes a lot of effort to roll over . It"s easy to get a cold at night . Go to bed and relax . "
"Why don"t you go to bed, too? I think your bed is two meters wide, which is more than enough for both of us . "
Said Sister Hua .
"Ah? I"m afraid of I would . . . . . . . "
Qin Feng said, "I sleep dishonestly, and I toss and turn in bed to press on you . "
"Nothing . Just put a quilt in the middle . If you turn on me, I"ll have a stick, and I"ll wake you up any time . "
Said Sister Hua seriously .
"All right . "
Qin Feng did not insist, stretched lazily, and ran straight to the bedroom .
The two was lying together, separated by a thin quilt in the middle, and the moonlight beat through the windows in the room . Late as it was, but neither of them was sleepy .
After Xiao Jinhua was silent in the room, she wept silently . She quietly thought about the fun of her brother"s childhood . All the memories she could collect slipped through her mind one by one . She had accepted the ending like this . But she could not get rid of this pain . She also did not know when she would recover, but the best way to cherish loved ones was to cry out . Sacrifice with tears should be the sincerest way .
Qin Feng could naturally hear her occasional convulsions . For a long time, he couldn"t help asking, "Sister Hua, if one day I die on a mission like Xiao He, will you cry for me?"
Whoops .
Qin Feng did not know why he would ask this question, robably because he kept thinking about Xiao He"s death, or because of the instinctive panic he had as a special combat member . Although he had long been accustomed to facing death countless times, he had only one human life . The bravest man was also afraid of death, not of the painful process of death, but of the loss of the loved ones, of the despairing eyes and tears of the loved ones .
"Don"t be ridiculous . "
Sister Hua was looking at Qin Feng . Although the room was dark, she could still see his handsome face, tall nose and bushy eyebrows by moonlight . "You will be fine . Xiao He will bless you and you must be all right . "
"On the way here, what I said was no joke . "
Qin Feng said seriously .
"What have you said?"
Sister Hua was stunned, and immediately said, "I know . You are not joking . "
"Then give it some serious thought . I am not a person who dares to say love casually . This relationship has been buried in my heart for a long time . I am sure it is because of love, not because of guilt, sympathy, compa.s.sion, protection, scruples . It"s just because of love, simply because of love . "
Qin Feng said .
. It was already 12:30 in the middle of the night when we arrived in the capital . Driving along the way, they were neither fast nor slow . The two of them fell into a long silence . Qin Feng drank a little too much and even squinted on the way . This period of time, he was too tired . He did not have a good rest even if for a good night . Every day he had been thinking about these and those matters, and now he could finally settle down . He had been worried that Sister Hua would know Xiaohes situation, but it was really found by her, Qin Feng was relieved . For a few months, his heart had been nervous and now his heart could finally be completely put down . No matter how, Sister Hua had to convince himself to accept the fact . People cannot be revived from the dead . After being sad, she also needed to face her life calmly . After arriving at the military region, Qin Feng directed Sister Hua to drive her car down to his apartment building . Everything couldnt be done until daybreak . Qin Fengs apartment was not far from Green Dragon and Green Snakes . Of course, Xiao Hes apartment was also here . It was just that if you ventured into Xiao Hes room in the middle of the night, youll always feel a bit of terror . Getting out of the car, Qin Fengs legs were a bit numb . He was standing downstairs with a cigarette in his mouth, accompanied by the cool breeze of the night . Xiao Jinhua saw the situation and looked disdainful, You are in the army now . Can you pay attention to your image? Who would care in the middle of the night? Qin Feng humphed, Here is full of nightmares . Back here, my heart also fell to the bottom of the valley . Youre not sober yet? Sister Hua was speechless for a while, Go . Lets enter into the room to rest . We have to get up early tomorrow . After returning to the apartment, Qin Feng looked around the messy home with dust . Everything seemed so strange to him . He had no sense of coming back home . This apartment was a full 80 square meters, and only regiment level cadres could be equipped with . Gu Shaoyun specially applied for it for Qin Feng, to reward his outstanding performance in a series of tasks before . It had been five months since he had scurried to the Golden Triangle, and he had never returned, nor had n.o.body taken care of it, and the ash on the coffee table was so thick that he could write on it with his fingers . Xiao Jinhua looked around and couldnt help laughing . Is this your pigs nest? Dont you know how to clean it up? This is an apartment, but its not a hotel you can walk away whenever you want, right? Men just cant . Theyre careless . Although she said that, Sister Hua started to help Qin Feng clean up the apartment, and all the lights in the room were turned on . She came to the living room with a bucket and a mop and cleaned it three times . The whole floor was lugged and translucent . It was very clean . Qin Feng dared not idle, either . After washing several rags, he scrubbed every place in the house for two or three times, and after working for an hour, they finally cleaned up the apartment thoroughly . After closing the curtain, the two of them collapsed on the sofa, looking at the results in front of them, their heart were much more comfortable . Sister Hua, tomorrow well go to the special combat team to get Xiao Hes belongings, and then well go to his apartment and have a look at it . He put a lot of money in the army, and it could be settled out in a time . The applications that I should ask for I will go for them . I guarantee none of them will be neglected . Qin Feng said . Well, at this point, let it be . I am alone, and what if I have a little more money or a little less money? I dont feel I can do anything energetically . At the thought of Xiao Hes death, I feel I have nothing to look forward to in this world . It can say I will be finished at any time, and then all the efforts I have made will dissipate . Xiao Jinhua sighed . It was not surprising that she had such thoughts when one was extremely depressed . They become very negative, feel bored in doing anything, and do not run around . All kinds of feelings that conflicted would appear . They would just be thinking of eating and dying, like a dead-alive person . Qin Feng was clear in his heart . This matter couldnt be done anxiously . Sister Huas thoughts needed adjusting gradually . This matter hurt her too severely . For a while she certainly couldnt accept it . A man is not a stalk of gra.s.s or a tree . We all have feeling to others . Even if when you keep a dog, for a year or two, you and the dog will be especially close . Not to mention her brother who lived with her for 20 years . This feeling was incomparably deep, comparable to the kindness of parents . Sleep? You go to the bedroom, Im on the couch . Qin Feng did not persuade her anymore, but just lazy yawning, Its almost two oclock . If you do not sleep, it will be on the dawn soon . Ill be on the couch . It feels awkward to sleep in the bed you slept in . Why dont I feel awkward when I sleep in your bed? Qin Feng retorted, Go ahead . Ill get you a new sheet . The sofa is too hard . Its too narrow at night . It takes a lot of effort to roll over . Its easy to get a cold at night . Go to bed and relax . Why dont you go to bed, too? I think your bed is two meters wide, which is more than enough for both of us . Said Sister Hua . Ah? Im afraid of I would . Qin Feng said, I sleep dishonestly, and I toss and turn in bed to press on you . Nothing . Just put a quilt in the middle . If you turn on me, Ill have a stick, and Ill wake you up any time . Said Sister Hua seriously . All right . Qin Feng did not insist, stretched lazily, and ran straight to the bedroom . The two was lying together, separated by a thin quilt in the middle, and the moonlight beat through the windows in the room . Late as it was, but neither of them was sleepy . After Xiao Jinhua was silent in the room, she wept silently . She quietly thought about the fun of her brothers childhood . All the memories she could collect slipped through her mind one by one . She had accepted the ending like this . But she could not get rid of this pain . She also did not know when she would recover, but the best way to cherish loved ones was to cry out . Sacrifice with tears should be the sincerest way . Qin Feng could naturally hear her occasional convulsions . For a long time, he couldnt help asking, Sister Hua, if one day I die on a mission like Xiao He, will you cry for me? Whoops . Qin Feng did not know why he would ask this question, robably because he kept thinking about Xiao Hes death, or because of the instinctive panic he had as a special combat member . Although he had long been accustomed to facing death countless times, he had only one human life . The bravest man was also afraid of death, not of the painful process of death, but of the loss of the loved ones, of the despairing eyes and tears of the loved ones . Dont be ridiculous . Sister Hua was looking at Qin Feng . Although the room was dark, she could still see his handsome face, tall nose and bushy eyebrows by moonlight . You will be fine . Xiao He will bless you and you must be all right . On the way here, what I said was no joke . Qin Feng said seriously . What have you said? Sister Hua was stunned, and immediately said, I know . You are not joking . Then give it some serious thought . I am not a person who dares to say love casually . This relationship has been buried in my heart for a long time . I am sure it is because of love, not because of guilt, sympathy, compa.s.sion, protection, scruples . Its just because of love, simply because of love . Qin Feng said .