Whoops.At this point, Qin Feng finally understood.
It turned out that everything was a lie. Sister Flower rejected herself, was because she wanted to find a boyfriend as soon as possible.
Qin Feng felt so sad, his mouth opened several times, but he didn"t make any sound, and he didn"t know what to say.
Sister Flower wanted to find a boyfriend, this was the most normal thing for a single woman, that"s no surprise about it, as a comrade-in-arms of Xiao He, he should gave her support.
Seeing the depression on Qin Feng"s face, Xiao Jinhua pout her lips, "What"s up? Are you sad?"
"No, no, no."
Qin Feng shook his head reluctantly.
"You should understand it clearly, after Xiao He"s death, I have nothing to rely on, you are good, but you belongs to the troops, you are comrade-in-arms of Xiao He, you can not stay with me all my life, I have to find a good man to get together with me for a lifetime. Now I have left Zhao Jun completely. I am a lonely woman. I have to find a reliable man."
Xiao Jinhua looked very serious.
For the sake of her words, what else could Qin Feng say?
How could he had the cheek to express himself?
Alas, originally, it was a wrong start. Fortunately, it had not come to the final showdown yet.So it was not too late to kill the thought in the cradle.
No matter how, he would look after her as long as possible, if Sister Flower really found her soulmate, Qin Feng will never bother her, he would buy a bottle of alcohol, buy a roast chicken and go to Xiao He"s graveyard in Xiao He"s hometown, talk with him, talk about his helplessness and Sister Flower"s thoughts, ask Xiao He for the forgiveness of his compromise, it was not that Qin Feng didn"t want to continue to protect Sister Flower, but Sister Flower wanted a new life, after all, men were different from women, he could not continue to protect Sister Flower.
But these were the things may happen in future. Although he had no right to interfere with Sister Flower getting her boyfriend, he could judge the quality of her boyfriend on behalf of Xiao He. If Qin Feng felt the man was not reliable, he would say it with no hesitation, even if he became a bad man, he would break their relationship. But if the man was really good, Qin Feng would let Sister Flower pursuit her happiness, bless her sincerely, as long as she was happy in her life.
Qin Feng had nothing which could not give up, even if he regretted to do so, after all, the past was a good time, that was the happiest period of time in his life, he would bury it deep in his heart, remind her bit by bit.
"Don"t worry, Sister Flower. I won"t bother you. Do not think too much about it. I come to you, simply because I want to finish the wishes Xiao He left. That"s all."
Qin Feng was a man, also had his proud and dignity, since Sister Flower said those hash words to him again and again, then he decided not to beg for her love, whether it was true or not, all he wanted was they could get on well like common friends, but whether they could be together or not in future , he leave it to G.o.d to decide it.
It was not Qin Feng hadn"t paid effort, but it was Sister Flower who didn"t understand love affairs between man and woman, she said words which were hard to accept for him again and again.
But what else could he do?
Only suffering.
He couldn"t really break up with Sister Flower, could he?
No way.
Not to mention, she was the only family member of Xiao He survived in this world. Even if he could not do anything, he could call her occasionally and ask her about her present life.
It was better than to become strangers or forget each other thoroughly.
Qin Feng seldom tolerated anyone else. In his memory Sister Flower should be the second one.
And the first was Qin Wannian, his d.a.m.n father.
"Well, that"s the best case."
After listening to Qin Feng, Xiao Jinhua first smiled and said, "I"m glad we both think so, that"s the best case. In case when there is a situation we can"t figure it out clearly. "
Qin Feng continued to cook, and Sister Flower went into a room for the pajamas. After she entered the house, she couldn"t help but shred tears. She was afraid to be seen by Qin Feng. She tried to raise her head so that tears would flow back. The more she tried, the more tears.
Finally, she heard Qin Feng in the living room asked her to have dinner, Xiao Jin Hua recovered herself from the sad mood, washed her face carefully in the bathroom, make sure there was nothing wrong on her face before she walked into the living room carefully.
Looking at the briny noodle on the table, Sister Flower was excitedly, "At first, I didn"t have any appet.i.te. Eating noodles in the late evening is bad for health. But when I see the appearance of it, I really want to taste it. "
"Aha, help yourself. You are so skinny that you don"t need to worry of being fat."
Qin Feng used a small spoon to add some brine soup to the bowl of Sister Flower, and said, "I made it myself, hygienic and delicious, much better than those at the food stalls on the side of the road."
Sister Flower ate carefully, looked at Qin Feng by her side who was bending down his head eating, she could not help to ask, " How about you? Your own marriage, haven"t you thought about it? Don"t hesitate anymore, find someone you like earlier, so that your heart could settle down, it would be a good thing. Without a home you would never be settled down, this is not right. Keep living without a home is not good for you."
Whether Qin Feng was telling the truth or not, it was true that he came for Xiao He"s last wish.
Sister Flower planned not to think too much, just take Qin Feng as a brother"s comrade in arms, also as a brother.
"It depends on predestined relationship. We are not allowed to have a wife so casually because of the job. There are rules in the army that officers have to report their significant other, investigation have to be done first, otherwise, we can"t get together with her or him. That"s because we are afraid of leakage of secrets. As you know, we know top secret of the country."
Qin Feng said.
"Oh, you say it. Once a spy get into the army like a fish in muddied water, and if some of your team members were obsessed with the spy and got together with each other, it would be a big trouble."
"How does it sound like a spy soap opera? That"s odd" she said with a smile.
"It"s not funny, it is the truth. If it were not involved in the interests, everyone would be safe and fine, but once it were involved in the interests of the country, anything would be possible, such things had happened before, sometimes, just because of the unintentional words of a team member, it would lead to the heavy loss of the country, moreover, there was no remedy for the loss. Therefore, in principle, our special team members are not allowed to have girlfriend over these years."
Qin Feng also wanted to say that the ident.i.ty of Sister Flower whose younger brother was a special team member was no need to investigate. It was absolutely safe as well as an exempted product.
But after he though it for a while, he didn"t say it.
What did it mean if he said it?
It was meaningless for everyone to speak so frankly.
"Have you ever thought of getting out of the army?"
Suddenly, Sister Flower looked at Qin Feng seriously. She was thinking, if he retired one day, would she fall in love with him without hesitation?
As soon as Qin Feng left the army, all her scruples would disappear and Kang Mingyang"s problems would no longer exist.
Asked by such a question, Qin Feng stunned for a long time. Why would she ask such a question suddenly?
"Out of the army?"
Qin Feng shook his head. "No, I haven"t thought about it yet. A solder such as me is regarded as special talent of the country, you can not quit as you wish. In particular, me, as the captain of the golden war team, has been taken too many tasks, and every task may be involved in state secrets. If I were free to retire, once there were a leakage of secret, how could I prove my innocent? "
After hearing this, she did not know what to say for a long time. Was the final destination of Qin Feng was retirement or ...death?
Bang!
At least thirty years for retirement from now on.
And how many times of dangerous tasks would Qin Feng carry out during this period?
She was afraid that it would be numerous, every time, he had to fight on the raging battlefield, no matter how skillful Qin Feng was, who could guarantee that he would be safe for thirty years?
So, the country"s special forces members, as long as they embarked on this road, were basically leaving one way to go , and those who were able to retire safely should be very few.
This suddenly increased the worry of Sister Flower to Qin Feng, "this... is so terrible!" Then you will never have the chance to choose your own life."
"Well, I"ve got used to it. There"s no way out, this is a road you could not return in the name of justice, if I decided to leave, I would have to sustain the military sanctions, bore people"s scolding, I would be no different from the deserters, no matter how much I had sacrificed before, all things would be in vain, as long as I could not retire in advance because of seriously injured, I would be striving until retire."
Qin Feng sighed with a helpless : "This is my fate. At least, I am doing something for the sake of the country, otherwise the old ancestor would be angry. I"m afraid I won"t have any children in my life. "
"Ha ha, what a pity."
Sister Flower suddenly laughed, "What are you going to do? At least, you should find a woman who can take care of you."
"Ah, it is a wish in my heart, but it seems that it"s not going to happen in the rest of my life."
Qin Feng was not afraid at all, but was just trying to give pressure to Sister Flower in such a way. Hopefully she would change her mind, show some sympathy because of his career, and offer him some warmth.
The reason why Qin Feng liked Sister Flower, was because she took care of him liked his mother, Qin Feng could find the warmth of family, Qin Feng had never experienced it since he was a child, although the relationship with the old man Qin Wannian was now slowly restored, the lacking of care in the past was irreparable. It"s his luck to meet with Sister Flower.
"Well."
Sister Flower could not laugh even if she wanted to, Qin Feng looked so pitiful, she really wanted to hold him in her arms, thought of nothing, just to give him strength.
But Sister Flower knew that she could not do that. In that case, Qin Feng would lose everything. His efforts and achievements in the past would be completely vanished.
Sister Flower could not give him anything, those so-called warmth, an ordinary women could offer, but now Qin Feng had not settled down to think about it yet.
Soon, two people finished their noodles.
Qin Feng went to the bathroom to take a shower, it was already four o"clock in the morning, in a day of October in Tianhe, the sky was not getting bright as it used to be, Sister Flower prepared a room for Qin Feng, laid a new bedding, Qin Feng was standing by the door looking at Sister Flower who was wearing in short, Qin Feng was attracted by her, he couldn"t help approaching her quitely, stood behind her, stretched his arms and was about to embrace her.
Sister Flower heard his footsteps, but she did not reject, she was waiting for the hugs of Qin Feng, she would rather be "impolite" once, but she didn"t want to give a ordinary warm hug to Qin Feng at all.
Could not let him see any hope, absolutely not.
As expected, when the hand of Qin Feng just touched her, Sister Flower turned back quickly, her arm swung out, and directly slapped on his shoulder. "What are you doing?"