Next day He asked me regarding the practical. I mean he only asks me regarding studies and nothing else. Only during a vacation break we had informal chats. Life is really a series of chapters without end. And mine is a boring one. With a broken heart I wrote him, " Just wait I will tell you"
He replied, "Okay"
I didn"t reply. I was not in a mood. After yesterday"s incident definitely not.
After few minutes he wrote, " Are you okay? "
I mean this one message whether as a friend or a partner in his heart I felt a bit happy and shocked at the same time.
I was wondering I didn"t type a thing incorrectly why all of a sudden is he asking this.
I replied, "Why? "
He said, " No, I just thought. Usually you end the conversation so I guessed. Nothing more"
I replied, " No, I am super fine. I will surely tell you just give me few minutes. "
He replied, "Okay"
I replied with a smiley to not let him recognize my heart broken state.
I gave him the notes. We chatted for few minutes.
After our chat was over an unknown fear and sadness gripped me I felt like crying once more.
I started reading comics. My medicine when I"m in sorrowful state. I really love to read and get so much engrossed in it that I often forget the world around me.I continued. My mom came s.n.a.t.c.hed the mobile. I was feeling dejected and started to quarrel. I took it back sneakily. I was really mad as well as naive at that time. Next day is my exam and today I am reading comics.Really destroying my destiny in my hands. I could understand that yet can"t respond to that.
I really need someone who can get me rid of this wierd addiction that I contracted after a despicable incident back in my school days. That whenever I"m depressed I read comics. It"s just like nicotine to me. A wierd type of illness.Tomorrow is the practical exam yet I"m obsessed with such comics. To me as soon as I leave it I won"t be able to survive as I will get reminded of the real world.
I don"t know what will happen to me tomorrow.