(Jane"s PoV)I could feel my rage bar was increasing rapidly. Rather than confusion, I felt so angry that I could smash everything in my sight.
My hand was itchy to do so, but something told me not to follow my rage. Somehow, I found myself sitting on a chair with my eyes closed as I tried to calm my anger.
After repeating the breathing exercise, I was finally able to surpress the anger in me. But, as my head was still in a mess, I couldn"t think properly. My hunger was forgotten just like that and I decided to take a shower, to cool down my head.
In the shower, I thought a lot, but I couldn"t find any solution and answer. But, after I felt fresh, I felt so much better and went to the kitchen to fill my stomach.
What people said that one couldn"t think with empty stomach was true. I had showered and eaten, I felt so fresh and energized, thus I was ready to a.s.sess the situation again.
With a cup of green tea in my hand, I sat down on my single couch near the window in my room, and my eyes looked at my bed.
I tried to reply what had happened, but this time I was not aroused -maybe a bit, but I could control it. Probably it was also because I had done "it" which made me not s.e.xually frustrated anymore. Anyway, I was being clear-headed.
Which reminded me, was it normal for me to be that aroused? I didn"t think so. I might be s.e.xually frustrated and feeling aroused over a dirty imagination, but I didn"t think it would be that bad that I couldn"t distinguish between real or dream. Pleasuring myself was one thing, but losing myself in it and not aware of my surroundings during "that" time was totally not like myself at all.
Even when I was masturbating -there, I said it -with Tom beside me, I clearly knew my surrounding. But, this time it was like I was enveloped in a big balloon, I couldn"t hear what happened outside the balloon. All I could do was to focus on the pleasure and lost in it.
I took a sip of my green tea. The fresh taste of tea made me more focus with what I was thinking about. The smell was so refres.h.i.+ng, combined with the coldness of night wind that entered from the slightly opened window, it felt strangely perfect. It cleared my mind in instant, pushed down my a.s.sumption and hasty a.s.sessment.
I tried to recall what had happened slowly and steadily. From when I thought about my h.e.l.lish training with Siji until I started to feel aroused, I tried to find something odd about it. Thinking about Tom and his perverseness would surely heat my body, especially since I had grown accustomed to how he would touch and manipulate my sensitivity and senses. But, still, I found it a bit odd for me to be unaware of things around me, especially after I had Siji and the men with me now.
I couldn"t say that I was always alert, but at least I could say it was rare for me to have a deep sleep these days. I could easily wake up even with the slightest disturbance.
So, where did it go wrong?
I squinted my eyes, trying so hard to remember even just a bit information. Didn"t I hear someone whispering to me at that time?
That"s right! My eyes were opened wide as I realized this. It was an unfamiliar voice. I had never heard of that before. But, I was sure it was not only my hallucination.
After all, I got a hickey on my body! This was enough for me to a.s.sume that someone or something was here with me.
But, whose voice was it?
I must be really hypnotized for the voice didn"t stop there and I couldn"t detect anything. As far as I could remember, the voice was whispering to me, encouraging me for more than twice. After the first whisper, I saw Tom and then everything went blurred.
It must be the part where I was getting "played" by the unknown guest.
Then, the second whisper came and made me surrender myself to the unknown guest. I must admit that "thing" was really skillful since it could make me o.r.g.a.s.m several times without doing "the full course", but the fact that it hid and played with me made me angry and uneasy.
If it were really an unknown lewd creature, the fact that it could pa.s.s through the layers of enchantments and barriers around my house was a proof that it was powerful. Wouldn"t I feel unsafe even in my own house, then? Not to mention its ability to hypnotize human with its voice. It could even disguise itself into someone we desired the most!
How scary would that be?!
What kind of creature was it actually? Some ghosts could do that, I know. I still remembered about the story Kunti told me, about how a Genderuwo disguised itself to be a man and made love with his wife. But, I was sure the barriers and enchantments around my house were too powerful for any ghosts with that level of power.
Just say that the enchantments and barriers which were put by my father weren"t strong enough, but how could it pa.s.s through Siji"s enchantments? Not to mention there were some of the men guarding outside. They rarely came into my room to give me my privacy, but Siji put an enchantment here the last time the Devil came.
So, how could it go in and harra.s.s me?
No matter how hard I tried to think about it, I couldn"t find the answer. However, I knew one thing; the thing that molested me was either as powerful as the devil, or stronger than the devil.
Each option was not favourable for me, though. It seemed like I needed to step up my game and master the special martial arts Siji had been teaching me as soon as possible. Also, I needed to enhance my sensibility.
I had been tricked once, I didn"t want to be tricked twice.
With that thought in mind, and the fresh feeling I had, I made up my mind.
"Siji." I called out and in a flash, Siji came before me. Seeing his usual expression, I was sure he was unaware of what had happened to me. Not that I wanted to talk to him about it.
I mean, who would talk about one"s "play" time to opposite s.e.x? Not me, obviously. So, I didn"t mention anything about it to him. Not even a word.
"Can we continue with the training?" I asked seriously.
Siji"s eyes widened slightly. "I thought you wanted a day off."
"I"m good now, so let"s resume the training." I cooly replied as I put the empty cup on the window sill.
"Well, if you insist. This time is perfect for you to meditate. Why don"t you do it?" Siji looked exceptionally calm, but I had known him enough to say that this meditation he said was not going to be an ordinary meditation.
I meditated almost every day. He was there to guide me. But, after he mentioned it, I was one hundred percents sure that it was not an ordinary meditation that I always did.
"Tell me, Siji. It won"t be an ordinary meditation, right?" I looked helplessly at my advisor who was now openly showing his smirk.
" Of course not. Meditating in the middle of silent night is just an easy task for people like you. It"s easy to regulate your spiritual power around your body and strengthen it. But, you know, the battlefield is not silent. It will never be silent. I will train you so that you"re able to do what you always do during your meditation as good as when you"re not meditating. If you"re lucky, you might find the fastest way to do it even with your eyes wide open and chaos around you. But at least, the process won"t be as slow as today." Siji explained in unhurried tone.
"You must maintain your calm even when you"re hurt. As I said before, you possess a vast spiritual power that it"s enough to command us without the General. But, if you think you ran out of spiritual power, it means that you"re not doing it right. And we"re going to fix that by letting you learn about your own flow of spiritual power. It"s time for you to dive deeper into it and stop observing from outside." His smirk disappeared and seriousness replaced the look on his face.
I was beaten up when he trained me with a smirk on his face, what would happen to me when he got serious? He was already a beast even when he had that amusing and playful spark in his eyes, but the spark was gone and danger and seriousness were in.
I swallowed hard. Should I back out now? After all, I still had several hours until my day off was over. But, I couldn"t take back what I had just said, right?
"Let"s do it." I nodded, surrendering myself to what fate would give me.
"Good." Siji showed his victorious smile. Without waiting for me to compose myself, he had brought me to an unfamiliar place.
"Are you telling me that I will meditate here?" I asked as I looked at my surrounding.
Cliche! A cave with a big stone? I bet he must have thought to let me meditate on the stone.
"Sit cross-legged on that stone." He nodded. I was right!
But I didn"t say anything other that obeying his words. So, I sat down just like how he instructed me to do.
"Meditate like usual. You still have around eight hours before dawn. Please, don"t lose your focus! Start!" He said suddenly.
It was out of nowhere, but I did it. Closing my eyes, I meditated like how I always did it.
"Whatever happens later, don"t lose your focus." Siji reminded me. Somehow I found it really fishy. He must be hiding something.
But, I only found the answer one hour later...