"After you checked w.a.n.gfu"s cash book, what did you find?" My husband asked me when we both lay on the bed. His tone heard calm."I didn"t find a mistake. As you said, Yao Mama did not make mistakes in w.a.n.gfu"s financial calculations, "I answered. However, I realized my answer could make him misunderstand me and thought that I suspected Yao Mama.
"Hui An, I checked the cash book is not because I suspected Yao Mama. I just want to know the use of w.a.n.gfu money, "I continued my words.
"I finally found out that most of the money that you have has been used for our marriage. You buy jewelry and clothes to me as our wedding gift, "I turned and saw my husband. He was facing his head up, staring at the roof of my room.
"Please forgive me because I can"t buy a lot of jewelry and clothes for you, Xia He. I even bought everything with poor quality," Hui An spoke. I know from his words that he feels uncomfortable.
Maybe he was embarra.s.sed by his gift. I remember the jewelry sent by Yao Mama. I think the jewelry is too simple and the price isn"t as expensive as the jewelry I have.
"It"s okay, Hui An. I"m happy with your gift, "I spoke as politely as possible. In the beginning I really don"t like the jewelry he gave. But, after I know who is my husband, I regret my thought about his present.
Especially now that I know that my husband gives me gifts from his shortcomings. Even though my father had forbidden him to give me a dowry, Hui An still bought jewelry and clothes for me. My husband gave that because he really respects me and my father.
"Hui An," I called his name because he was silent and did not respond to my words.
"Are you angry because of my words?" I asked him. He shook his head. He turned and looked at my face. His face looked gloomy.
"Not. I just feel sad because I can"t give luxury to Aifei, "he answered my question. The answer made me feel and happy at the same time. I like to see Hui An who really respects me. However, I was also sad to see him say this.
"It"s okay," I immediately responded to his words.
"One day, you will give me luxury. I believe that, "I continued my words. Hearing my answer, my husband laughed.
"Why does Hui An laugh?"
"I"m glad to see you being optimistic like today. You don"t say that you are fine if we not live in luxurious lives. However, you say that someday, we will live in luxury, "he answered me. I want to answer it by saying that I"m not an optimist. However, he continued his words so I shut up and listened to the words.
"Alright, I will work harder and submit my proposal to Bixia so he agree to give me a.s.signments in the government or in the military," Hui An continued his words. His face looks cheerful. But, his words make me confused.
"I don"t understand your words," I said to him honestly.
"Actually, my income only comes from the land that I have. Such as rent or profit sharing from farmers. As you know, the yield harvest in our Kingdom is not very good in this year because of the bad season," he explained. I tried to understand his words.
"So, Hui An doesn"t get a job in the government or the military?" I asked in surprise after understanding his words. He nodded his head. I now understand. When I check the cash book, I only focus on the amount of money spent. However, Xiaojun w.a.n.g Fu"s source of income was not found out by me.
I am worried that the rent of land and profit sharing from the land Xiao Junw.a.n.gye"s owned will only meet the necessities of life. However, it is not enough to improve this w.a.n.gfu. Especially for buying new furniture.
"Since I was fifteen years old, I have submitted a request to Bixia so that I can take care one of government activities or follow military services. However, Bixia hasn"t given me permission. Maybe my mother"s actions on him made he doubt that I would be loyal to this kingdom, "Hui An said again in a low voice.
I don"t know how I respond to my husband"s words. I feel my feelings are chaotic too. I was annoyed at Bixia because he was embarra.s.sing his own child.
Not giving work to Hui An would make Hui An humiliated by n.o.bles. I think that Bixia know his action"s result. I think that Bixia deliberately let his son be humiliated by people
In another side, I understand that Bixia is reluctant to give a.s.signments. He may still not be able to forgive Hui An"s mother. He also doubted that his son would be loyal to him. It might be that Bixia thought that Xiao Junw.a.n.gye would be the main enemy in his life
"Until when did you continue to torture your child because of his mother"s fault, Bixia? Didn"t you know that your action will make him upset and people who feel upset could broke everything," I said to myself. However, I tried to look calm in front of my husband.
"I will not give up, Xia He. I will give Xia He a luxurious life. Therefore, I was determined to convince Bixia to give me an a.s.signment, "he answered cheerfully again. I sighed. I knew he was trying to encourage himself.
"I believe in you, Hui An," I answered politely. I don"t want to upset him. It is impossible for me to say that his hopes are in vain.
Since I heard his words, I know that this is very difficult. As long as Bixia doesn"t trust my husband. Then he won"t get any work. I feel Bixia feels very difficult to trust her son. Until he forgive Xiao Junw.a.n.gye"s biological mother, he will not give my husband an effort.
However, seeing him being enthusiastic like now, I feel sad. I have to think of a way to help my husband. So that he would be appreciated by people and Bixia. In the last, Bixia would gave Hui An his trust.
"Let"s go to sleep, "I said to him so we wouldn"t talk again. I"m afraid that he would know my real thoughts about him if we continue dialogue.
"You"re right, Xia He. Tomorrow we will go to your parents" house. We have to sleep now, "he agreed with me.
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