Ling immediately pulled my hand gently, but I brushed it off harshly. As soon as I turned around without saluting my parents. I walked with a chaotic mind. I couldn"t let my dream collapse like this. Before Yun Jing Fei"s wedding ceremony implemented, I had time to change the situation and cancel her marriage.But, what should I do?
Since I arrived in my room, I did not reflect my self as my father asked me. I was busy thinking of ways to cancel this wedding plan. however, there are no ideas crossed to my mind.
***
I stared at brast mirror in front of me while combing my hair slowly. Even though my eyes looked in the mirror but my mind floated and thought of the same thing over and over again.
"Yun Jing Fei will marry Huángtàizǐ (Crown Prince). She will become Huangtaizifei (Crown Princess). Later she will become Huánghòu (Empress). " this sentence appears continuously in my mind.
It"s been a month since the marriage proposal came from the Palace. Almost every day I think of ways to cancel Yun Jing Fei Marriages, but I don"t get it. I looked at the mirror of the bra.s.s again and surveyed my own face.
I am beautiful. Most people say that I"m prettier than Yun Jing Fei. This beauty should be able to attract anyone.
Many marriage proposal came to me. They are came from n.o.ble families, proposed to me. They have brilliant achievements in government or success carrier in military. I dismissed all marriage proposal because I was sure that I could marry Prince Guo Wei.
I am, with all the privileges I have, should be able to attract anyone, including him. I am the most worthy of being a Huangtaizifei (Crown Prince Consort). Not Yun Jing Fei.
Anger filled my feelings. I throw all the items on my dressing table. I hate this situation. I don"t want Yun Jing Fei marry to Guo Wei w.a.n.gye. I tightly squeezed my hand.
An idea popped into my mind. I strengthen my heart and walk out of the room. I have to meet father. I walked without caring about the consequences I would get with my decision.
"Father, Xia He-er faces father," I said in a loud voice after entering the study room where my father was reading an ancient scroll. Father glanced at me then looked back at the roll in his hand.
Meeting him when he was working at home was very rude. Following manners, I should have conveyed to the servant in front of the study room that I was going to meet father. If you can spend time, he will send me in. This time I came without asking permission first.
I know from his att.i.tude, my father did not like my sudden arrival.
"What"s happened? Have you pondered your mistakes? I forbid you to come out of the room if you can"t clear your mind," My father said with cold tone. I swallowed my own spit out of nervousness. Father"s seemed like he didn"t care if he made me nervous.
"Xia He-er is indeed wrong, Father. The one who likes Jing Fei Jiejie is Huángtaizi. Jiejie is innocent," I said slowly. He sighed.
"Good," He said shortly.
"But," I continue my words. He stared at me.
"But?" he asked me with high tone.
"My hearth feel hurts, Father. You knew that from a long time ago I love Huángtàizǐ and I could not live without him," I said firmly. My father looked at me with annoyance. One of his eyebrows raised.
"Then?" my father asked in an ice cold voice.
"I will follow Jiejie to the Palace. I asked father"s help to persuade Huantaizi to make me become his concubine," I said without hesitation. My Father paused long enough before standing up. He took a small stick near him. A small bamboo stick to punish me when I was little.
"Where are your hands!" Father ordered with cold voice. I was surprised with his reaction. I am his daughter. His biological daughter, but why would he want to punish me now. I just asked him for a little help.
"Your hand!" My father asked again and slowly whipping my hands. As my expected, my father hit my hands with the bamboo stick.
"Being a concubine? How narrow your thoughts, Xia He!" said father while whipping my hands.
"You are my daughter and you want to be a concubine? There are so many marriage proposal for you. They ask you to be their main wife. But you want to be Huangtaizi"s concubine? Why are you being so miserable?" my father said again, whipping my palms until red and peeling. I grimaced holding it back. Not long after that, my mother suddenly appeared. From his wheezing breath, I know that she came here by running. It seems that one of my servant complained to my mother if I insisted on meeting father.
"My husband, stop! Forgive your naive daughter," said my mother, holding the my father"s hands who hit my hand again.
"You didn"t hear what she said earlier. She wanted to be Huangtaizi concubine, who poisoned her mind so she dare spoke like that," my father replied fiercely. Mother turned and looked at me. She touched my shoulder, while her eyebrows went up.
"Xia He, what did you say to your Father? Do you want to be a concubine?" My mother asked, shaking my body.
"Yes, Mother. That"s right," I replied in a voice without hesitation.
"How dare you asked that?" My mother screma. She become hysterical after heard my words.
"You don"t know that being a concubine is not easy. Moreover, you are not loved. Huángtaizi gives his heart to your Jiejie. He will never love you and will ignore you for the rest of your life," my mother said and tried to change my mind.
"I know that Huangtaizi loves Jiejie now. But, someday he will know that I am more suitable for him. One day he will love me more than Jiejie," I said and my father looked at me with a flushed face.
"Did you hear? How shallow is our daughter"s mind. She"s gone crazy," my father said in loudly voice while pointing at my face with his index finger.
"Father, I am your biological daughter. Why do you prefer to cheer up your witch adopted daughter than me?" I said loudly.
I can"t stand my angry feeling after heard his words. I speak up my mind without thinking. Unexpected situation happened. I received a slap from my mother. Landed smoothly on my cheek and caused pain.
"Even though Yun Jing Fei is your adoptive sister, I always thinking that she is my biological daughter. Do you know why Yun Jing Fei"s father died? He died because he saved your father from a robber attack," said my mother loudly and trembling with tears. I looked at him in disbelief. Yun Jing Fei"s father saved my father? I looked at the father who had turned back on me and I knew he was trying to hold back his anger.
Well, now I know why my parents act verry kind to Yun Jing Fei. Even always prioritize Yun Jing Fei more than theirs childrens.
It"s true that Yun Jing Fei"s father saved my father, but should I bury my desire to repay him? Don"t I have the right to be happy and reach for my dreams? Father and mother are on Yun Jing Fei"s side, how about me? Who I am to them?
"Servant takes your Miss to his room, before I kill her! Do it!" my father asked in a thunderous voice. Two servants who stand in front of study rooms immediately approached me. I let the servants hold me back and take me to my room again without fighting.
But in my heart, I do not accept this condition.