MY WASTE PRINCE

Soon, Yun Jing Fei"s marriage will be held. The whole house is busy. Mother ordered a lot of goods and food ingredients. Many merchants with various types of merchandise come to Yun manor.

Mother bought lots of beautiful clothes for Yun Jing Fei. Mother also buys a lot of hair ornaments. Father sent many invitation letters to his colleagues. All members of the Yun Clan were invited. This is the Yun family"s first daughter"s wedding, everyone wants to attend.

My aunt and uncle are busy too. After the embarra.s.sing letter, they no longer defend me. Uncle and aunt were angry with me and chose to ignore me. They focus on preparing for Yun Jing Fei"s marriage.

I"m still prohibited from leaving Yun manor. I don"t protest this punishment anymore. Actually, I also don"t want to leave the house anymore. I"m embarra.s.sed by what I did.

My servant, Ling said that all people in the city talk a lot about me. They say that I am stupid and shameless. They said that they were sorry for the Yun family for having a daughter like me. I feel sad to hear that.

So far, I have a good reputation. Many people think of me as the ideal woman. However, one mistake made everything shattered. I don"t have a good reputation anymore.

I also lost all my friends. I invited another friend of mine because I wanted to ask about Mei Xiu"s actions. However, no one wants to come. I realized that I could not be considered my friend again. They are same as Mei Xiu. They betrayed me.

"Miss, do you want tea?" My personal servant who accompany me all day asked me. Her voice made me realized from my daydream. When I realized from my daydream, I was already in the park. I walk to gezebo in central if garden.

"No need," I replied, sitting on a chair there.

"Miss, Madam told me to tell you to fit your clothes she bought for you," Ling said and I nodded my head slowly.

"Miss, do you want me to get a cake for you? I heard that our cheff make some delicious cake," Ling asked me again. I glared at her.

"Leave me. I want to be alone, "I ordered him and she nodded his head. She left me alone.

Alone in the back garden made my mood even more gloomy. I feel sad and remember all the events I just experienced. The most painful thing for me is my own friend betrayal. I trusted Mei Xiu so much and helped her become close to her current fiance.

"Mei Xiu, you are a traitor! I hope you get punishment from Heaven. May lightning strike you! "I shouted. My tears fall down. Now, I realized that I had no friends. Those I thought were my friends, obviously not. Now I know that they want to be my friend because they want to use myself to get their goals. After my life fall down like this, they avoid me.

I feel very lonely and hurt

***

Spring is almost over. Today"s Yun Jing Fei wedding is held. Father ordered me to be the bride attendant. With a broken heart, I escort Yun Jing Fei from her room to Yun manor hall. I am forced to do this.

The hall is full of people. They are very looks verry happy with this marriage. Gou Wei w.a.n.gye waits in front of all people. He is more handsome with the clothes he wears. I lowered my head while near him.

My aunt took over Yun Jing Fei from me. She bring her to face to face with Guo Wei w.a.n.gye. Aunt help the wedding procession. The crown worn by Yun Jing Fei was so heavy so she helped her every time she bent down.

After the wedding procession is over, everyone enjoys the party. I quietly left the hall and returned to my room.

In my room, I poured wine and drink it. My heart is broken. I was really angry and didn"t know how to redeem it.

I keep thinking about all incident which happen to me. First, my failure to grabbed Huangtaizi"s heart. Second, a secret letter that is not a secret because Mei Xiu betrayal. That letter becomes a material to mock me by society. The last is my family att.i.tude.

The most painful thing for me was the att.i.tude of all my family members. Their att.i.tude towards me changed. They were still angry with me and were lazy to ask me to talk. They avoid me.

I looked out the window. See the view outside. Some fireworks is explode in the sky. Everything looks festive. It"s different from my gloomy heart.

"After this, what will happen to me?" I asked myself. I sighed.

I feel my future is very dark. The secret letter made my whole life into darkness. I can"t expect to get married. No man in this world wants to marry a woman who has loved someone else. Moreover, rumors circulated in the city that I was not pure anymore. Many have speculated that I asked Huangtaizi to marry me because I had given everything to Huangtaizi.

I don"t understand why they think like that. I also don"t know how to delete the rumor. Cleaning reputation is a very difficult thing. Many fail to do it.

However, damaging one"s reputation is very easy. The trick is to tell lies about someone"s bad deeds to others as often as possible. So people will believe that the people we say are really bad.

"I"m really devastated now,"

What should I do with no future? Should I just die? If I die, people might stop talking bad about me. I sighed.

I walked to my dressing table and took out a wooden box from my dressing table. The wooden box contains various herbs from various regions. All are expensive herbs. However, not all drugs that can be consumed by drinking, some herbal is external drugs.

I looked at all the herbs with a feeling of chaos. Doctor once told me, herbs have great benefits. However, if using herbs in an improper way is dangerous. People can die because of that.

I took one of the herbs. The packaging is a small jar. As I stared at the jar, I remembered Yun Jing Fei"s face. She is a poison in my life. If she isn"t there, I won"t be what he is now. If I can"t be happy, then she can"t be happy.

"I will curse you, Jing Fei. I will die, become ghost and haunt you. I won"t let you be happy, "I said. My heart full of anger and sadness. I can"t understand why this happen to me. I blame Yun Jing Fei for all my sorrow.

I open the lid of the jar. Then I drank the contents of the jar.

Not long after that my neck feels suffocating. My stomach feels hot. My tears fall down. I think this is my last. Everything is dark for me.