"Miss, do you want a cake? Our Head Chef said that he made a special cake today, "Ling asked me when I am reading a book. She speak softly and with a soft voice. I turned and saw my servant"s face that looked enthusiastic. I know she"s the one who wants to try the cake. If I tell her to take the cake, she can get a piece of cake from me."Yes," I answered shortly, even though I really didn"t want to eat cake. I plan to give all the cakes to Ling. Ling smiled broadly.
"Yes, miss. I will immediately bring the cake to you, "Ling said then bent a little. Then she left my room. I put my book on the table and walked towards the window. The sound of birds singing attracted my attention.
I didn"t expect that two months had pa.s.sed since Yun Jing Fei"s wedding day. that means I"ve been through a second chance to live for two months too.
During these two months, I experienced a lot of suffering. I often feel nauseous and vomit. I often experience severe headaches. I can not sleep. My hair also falls out. If I look in the mirror, I feel that my appearance is older than my real age.
My mother had asked about my health condition to the imperial doctor. The imperial doctor said that what I experienced was normal. He said that I must be patient. My health will improve over time. He said, I was very lucky because I didn"t die and didn"t become an idiot. An attempt to kill myself can damage my brain.
My relationship with my father did not immediately improve. Somehow I feel my father sometimes avoids me. I once asked my mother why father seemed to avoid me. She answered that father might still be traumatized by what happened. She asked me to excuse my father.
I"m not angry because of my father"s att.i.tude to me. I realized that I had hurt his heart. I have disappointed him. I even made him get punishment from Bixia (emperor). However, I also miss him. I hope our relationship will improve. Just like before I embarra.s.sed him.
"Miss, I bring fresh fruit for you too," Ling"s voice rang out. I turned and saw that my servant looked happy. She brought a bamboo basket and put it on the table. She pulled out a plate filled with cake. Also removes the washed Yangmei fruit (one of summer China fruit).
"Yangmei fruit is suitable for eating in summer. It feels refreshing, "Ling said enthusiastically.
"Okay, let"s eat!" I said to her. She nodded her head. I sat in one chair, but my servant still stand. Not dare to sit.
"Ling, sit down! We eat together, "I tell her. She looks surprised. I smile look at her expression.
"You don"t want this cake?" I asked her.
"I"m not dare, miss. I"ll eat after Miss finishes eating, "Ling said quietly.
"Ling, I want you to accompany me to eat. Sit down! "I ordered her. She nodded her head. She quickly sat down. I handed her a cake plate.
"Eat!" I ordered her.
"But, miss ..." Ling looked doubtful. I smile.
"I know that you really want to eat this cake. However, you don"t dare to ask the head of Chef. I don"t really like cakes, Ling. I"ll just eat this fruit, "I said and she looked at me confusedly.
"Eat!" I said softly and finally she obeyed.
"Thank you, miss," Ling answered me. Ling eats the cake enthusiastically. She smiled smugly after eating one piece of cake.
"Ling, I"m curious. What are people talking about in the capital about me? "I asked and Ling looked at me doubtfully.
"Do not be afraid! Just say it, "I said softly.
"They said that Miss became an idiot," Ling said in a soft voice. I sighed. I had guessed that there were new rumors about me. After being considered. me as shamelesa woman and no virtue. Now they said that I had turned to be an idiot woman.
"Miss, are you angry?" Ling asked and his face was slightly pale. I shook my head.
"I"m not angry, Ling. It"s natural that they think like that, "I answered. She looked relieved after hear my answer.
"Miss, I"m glad to see Miss getting healthier," Ling answered softly. I raise my eyebrows. Ling rarely expresses his thoughts to me.
"Why? Don"t I often scold you first? "I asked her.
"Even though Miss has angry to me, Miss often gives me presents," she said innocently. I feel ashamed to hear her words. I didn"t give her a gift, but threw away the item I didn"t like anymore to her. However, she considered it a gift.
"I sold some gifts that Miss gave. I send the money to my family in the village, "Ling said and I sighed. Ling has been my servant for a long time. It"s been five years. She came from small village in border when she was twelve years old. I was thirteen years old at that time. I"m older than her a year. I remember that I often scolded her since she started to served me.
"I was very scared when Miss was unconscious. I"m afraid that I will lose very kind master like you," Ling said again. I was moved to hear her words. At the same time I feel embarra.s.sed.
During this time, I considered him just a servant. Now I realize, Ling is more than a servant. My friends don"t worry when I"m sick. They have not visited me after I got sicked. They forget the days we spent together as friends. Actually I had hoped they would visit me more, even though they were more favored Mei Xiu.
"Thank you, Ling," I said in a low voice. She was shocked to hear my answer. I smile.
"Miss, Ling will always follow Miss anywhere. When Miss gets married, please take me," she said again. I nod my head. However, in my heart I feel sad. I will never be a bride. Which man in the world wants to marry a woman with a bad reputation like? I have given up on marriage.
But later I know that my mind is wrong. Bixia sent a decree to my family. He wants to bestow me to someone who I didn"t expect.