Sayuri was surprised.Not at the fact that Kay wanted to talk … though yes, that was a surprise … it was more of the fact that Kay actually looked nervous.
Kay? Nervous?
Since when?!
Sayuri closed the door and thought that this was interesting. Well, since Kyle wasn"t around, hanging out with Kay sounded pretty good.
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The two girls were sprawled in the living room. Sayuri was on the sofa while Kay was on an air-filled mattress. The coffee table was filled with all sorts of snacks and ice-cream.
"Your brother," Sayuri was saying while popping a potato chip into her mouth, "Is a d*ck."
"Oh?" Kay replied, giggling, "I thought you liked his d*ck very much."
"KAY!" Sayuri screamed, throwing a cus.h.i.+on at her, then admitted, "But yes, I do. He certainly knows how to use it, considering he used to be a woman."
She sighed loudly, "Are all guys this dense, or is it just him?"
"I think it"s the Smith genes," Kay said ruefully, putting her chin on the coffee table, "Or Smith Curse. We"re doomed to be stupid in matters of the heart."
"Oh?" Sayuri said, raising an eyebrow, "Is that why you"re here? You have boy problems? You?? You mean, there"s a guy out there that is immune to your charm?!"
Kay groaned, "If only it was that simple."
Sayuri became serious then, "What happened?"
Kay closed her eyes and sighed deeply. Instead of answering, Kay asked instead, "When did you know you were in love with my brother? How did you know that he was "the one"?"
"The day I found out he had a girlfriend," Sayuri replied, "And the feeling was confirmed when I saw how heartbroken he was at the break-up."
"Ouch," Kay said, "That"s tough."
"Nothing compared to being with him and being like a couple, but not," Sayuri said with a sigh, "It was such a gamble and truly, I don"t regret sleeping with him but … I don"t know. I feel conflicted."
She stroked her tummy, "Even having his baby is like a double-edged sword. If I can"t have him, having something of him that is also mine makes me feel so happy yet, at the same time, I am sad because he loves the baby, not me."
Kay wanted to say that Kyle was in love with her, but that he just didn"t know it yet. However, she didn"t because it was as if it would be giving her some false hope. Kyle could be dense and worse, stubborn.
If he didn"t see it or refused to acknowledge it, then nothing she said would change the situation. Kyle would always be blind to how he feels about her, and the thing that Kay worried the most was that … him figuring out his feelings too late.
No matter how she worried for him, though, there was nothing she could do other than give the push when needed. The step, however, needs to be taken by him.
"I envy you," Kay admitted, "You can go ahead and push forward, doing your best to get him and rolling with the punches."
She sighed again, "I can"t even do that."
"What do you mean? Why can"t you just pursue him?"
"Because he"s still too young," Kay admitted softly.
Sayuri blinked.
"Er … how young is young?" she asked tentatively.
"He"ll be 14 this year," Kay replied.
"Fourteen? FOURTEEN?!" Sayuri gasped, not able to hold back her shock.
"I know," Kay said, "Terrible, right? A 6-year age gap is nothing but not when he"s 14 and I am 20. When is the right age? When he"s 18? Maybe 20?"
Kay looked at Sayuri, "You were in love with my brother for nearly four years now, steadily hanging on and keeping by his side. At least, you could be by his side. Me? I can"t do anything for … what? Four years? Six?"
"If he"s the one, the wait is worth it," Sayuri said, "What is six years when compared to a lifetime? And if your feelings for him are still as strong - if not stronger - after six years, then it means it is true."
"But what if he gets with someone else?" Kay said softly, "I don"t think I can handle that."
"Then don"t even try," Sayuri said, "Cut off right now. Save yourself from the years of unrequited love. You deserve more than that."
"But that"s not the worst thing," Kay said, her lips trembling.
Sayuri"s eyes went wide.
"There"s more?"
Kay nodded.
"What could be worse than being a 20-year-old woman falling in love with a 14-year-old boy?" Sayuri asked, perplexed.
"When that 14-year-old boy happens to be your twin brother"s son in another life," Kay said.
Sayuri just stared at Kay.
"Alright. I believe it. You Smith Twins have a curse," she mumbled.
Seeing as how upset Kay was, Sayuri"s heart went to her. She hugged Kay tightly, and Kay started crying softly.
"I tried not to, really I did," Kay said, "I mean, it was just so strange feeling this way for him. I just thought it was a … I don"t know. A connection because he"s Kyle"s son. Even though I don"t see him truly as his son, but that our souls connected somehow? Because of what we shared, though he doesn"t know it."
"But the longer I was with him, the more I realised that my feelings were beyond that," Kay said, sniffling.
"What"s wrong with me, Sayuri? Why him, of all the guys in the world? Why him? Why is it him??!" Kay wailed, putting her head in her hands.
"When did it all begin?" Sayuri asked gently, stroking Kay"s back.
Kay grabbed a bag of salt and vinegar potato chips, tearing it open and taking a sniff. The sharp tangy smell was relaxing. Sayuri"s mouth started watering and she did the same, sniffing deeply.
"We look like two drug addicts," Kay suddenly giggled, "Sniffing vinegar chips."