It was as if Vi had never spoken. Sister Gizadin didn"t answer Vi"s question, or Hana"s. Indeed, she didn"t seem affected in the slightest, except, Vi realized later, that she"d forgotten to teach the last portion of her lecture in triads.
Momma K adjusted the topazes hanging in her long hair, examining herself critically in Master Piccun"s mirror. She"d found a note on her bedside table when she woke. It was written in Durzo"s cramped hand, "I live. I will come for you." That was all. Bothersome man. She"d gotten up and dyed her hair one last time: a natural gray. No, silver, she decided.
Then she"d come here. It hadn"t been easy to order Master Piccun to make her blue dress for the coronation more muted and higher cut than any she"d ever worn, but at least his hands had strayed when he took her measurements-as they always did. When his hands stopped wandering, she would know she was old.
"You are extraordinary," he said. "I have this meeting with every one of my beautiful clients. Normal women make new compromises with age daily, so it"s less of a shock to them. Beauties seem to run into it all at once, and it happens here. They ignore my advice and order the latest fashion one more time, and then they see themselves. Some accuse me of making them look bad on purpose. Others stare at the old stranger in the mirror, shocked. Always there are tears."
"I"m not much for crying."
"You know when I"m only flattering, Gwinvere. The body is my canvas, and I tell you, your body is years from that day of tears. You have something ineffable. You walk through life like a dancer, all strength and beauty and grace. I have this client, stunning girl, a bit muscular to be fashionable-I told her to start sitting on her a.s.s and eating chocolates-but saved from being boyish by these hips and t.i.ts that would make a G.o.ddess green. By Priapus, the girl can wear anything-and will. I"d make her clothes for free, just to see her wear them."
"Now you"re going to make me jealous," Gwinvere said. He knew she was kidding, though a small part of her wasn"t. Aemil Piccun was talking about Vi Sovari.
"What I mean to say is that if I put up portraits of her and you at her age, a man would be hard-pressed to choose between you, but in person, it"s no contest. Her beauty is wasted on her. She is divorced from her flesh, joyless. You, on the other hand, have this ability to enjoy a man enjoying you on any of a dozen levels. If I could imbue a dress with what you have, I would not be a tailor, I would be a G.o.d. Of all my clients, you will always be my favorite, Gwinvere." contest. Her beauty is wasted on her. She is divorced from her flesh, joyless. You, on the other hand, have this ability to enjoy a man enjoying you on any of a dozen levels. If I could imbue a dress with what you have, I would not be a tailor, I would be a G.o.d. Of all my clients, you will always be my favorite, Gwinvere."
She smiled, oddly moved. With Master Piccun, you always expected lechery, but you never expected him to mean anything by it. Now, he meant every word he said. "Thank you, Aemil. You warm my heart."
He grinned. "I don"t suppose I"ve warmed any other parts of you, hmm?"
She laughed. "I"m tempted, but there are so many women who will be needing discounts on their dresses for the coronation. They"d be so disappointed if I exhausted you."
"It"s cruel to ruin a man by showing him what an artist of the bedchamber can do, and then denying him your talents for fourteen years straight."
"Fourteen?" she asked.
"Fourteen long, long years."
"Mmm," she said, relaxing almost imperceptibly. "It has been a long time."
He stepped close.
Momma K slipped away, opened the door, and beckoned the lissome n.o.blewoman waiting in the front room. "Careful, sweetie, I think he"ll want to start with the discount."
The n.o.blewoman gasped. Master Piccun coughed. "Cruel, Gwinvere. Cruel."
41
Jenine had been spending her days trying to decide if Garoth Ursuul"s wives and concubines would die. Dorian waited for her in the black rock halls that she usually lightened with her presence. But today, and for the days since he"d laid the question before her, that sunny presence had been clouded.
"My love," he said gently, "we have to decide today."
"Part of me hates you for making me decide, but this is what it is to be a queen, isn"t it? You are wise, milord. If you decided for me, I would doubt you either way." queen, isn"t it? You are wise, milord. If you decided for me, I would doubt you either way."
He breathed. When she"d said "part of me hates you," his heart stopped beating. Every G.o.dking for centuries had been cremated with his wives and concubines, save for a few concubines that the next G.o.dking wished for himself. If Dorian kept his first promise to Jenine, every woman in the harems would be obliged to throw themselves-or be thrown-onto Garoth Ursuul"s pyre, with only the dubious reward of getting to spend all eternity as his slaves. The alternative was to claim all of them, which the Khalidorans would see as selfish and dishonoring to the dead, but a G.o.dking was not expected to be selfless.
There was a third alternative, of course. Dorian could outright ban the practice of throwing the living on funeral pyres. In a few years, he intended to do exactly that. But he was already being painted as a soft southerner. The Vurdmeisters were sharks, and mercy would hatch a dozen plots against his life. What would Solon have told him to do? Dorian pushed the question aside: Solon would have told him to get the h.e.l.l out of Khalidor.
"In some ways," he said, "if we are to change what marriage is to mean in these lands, it makes sense to let them die. From there we have a blank slate."
"So we throw away eighty-six women"s lives to prove that women have value?"
Dorian said nothing. He offered his hand and she took it. They began walking toward his apartments. "I don"t know how to take the cruelty out of the choice."
"I don"t know if it will work, milord." Jenine always called him milord. She couldn"t call him Dorian, of course. "Your Majesty" was too distant. "Your Holiness" was out of the question, and she knew what Wanhope Wanhope meant: she refused to call her bridegroom "Despair." "There"s something wrong with these girls. Did you know they"re taken from their families when they"re nine years old? They"re trained to be exactly and only what the G.o.dking wants. The only currency they know is the G.o.dking"s favor. They"re not allowed to learn to read. They never go anywhere. They never meet anyone but each other and the eunuchs. It twists them. Yet they"re not innocents. They gossip and backstab as much as anyone. Perhaps more, because they"ve nothing useful to occupy them. All the same, they"re not animals either, though they"ve been treated as such. And most of them are just girls. I can"t ask them to all die for me. You must claim them, milord, but I ask this: that you give each the choice. These women have never chosen anything for themselves. Let them choose now." meant: she refused to call her bridegroom "Despair." "There"s something wrong with these girls. Did you know they"re taken from their families when they"re nine years old? They"re trained to be exactly and only what the G.o.dking wants. The only currency they know is the G.o.dking"s favor. They"re not allowed to learn to read. They never go anywhere. They never meet anyone but each other and the eunuchs. It twists them. Yet they"re not innocents. They gossip and backstab as much as anyone. Perhaps more, because they"ve nothing useful to occupy them. All the same, they"re not animals either, though they"ve been treated as such. And most of them are just girls. I can"t ask them to all die for me. You must claim them, milord, but I ask this: that you give each the choice. These women have never chosen anything for themselves. Let them choose now."
"You... you think some of them will choose death?"
"I heard women describe nights with Garoth that left them literally with scars-and they were proud of them. They really believe that your father was a G.o.d. Some do want to serve him forever."
Dorian felt like a stranger in his own land. He said nothing as they walked past a knot of aethelings who"d stopped in the hall, prostrating themselves until he pa.s.sed. At the door of his apartments, he stopped and said, "Jenine, I swear to you that those women will be my concubines in name only. They will not share my bed."
She put a finger on his lips. "Shh, my love. Don"t swear about what you can"t control." He had a sudden sense that he"d done this before. He"d dreamed it, just last night, and had forgotten the dream until this moment. But in the dream, there had been a smell, harsh stench of... what? "If nothing else, I can control myself, my queen."
She smiled a sad smile too wise for her years. "Thank you, but I won"t hold you to it."
"I"ll hold myself to it."
She squeezed his hand, and then the sharp tang of vir hit his nostrils. He turned to the prostrate aethelings too late. Two boys without a mustache between them were standing, twin b.a.l.l.s of green fire streaking toward Dorian and Jenine. They were barely five paces away.
Dorian watched, expecting the green missiles to pierce his flesh. He was reaching for the vir, but it was too late to pull a shield together-but then the vir was there, already forming, already acting to protect him, pushing hard from below, only asking his a.s.sent.
Yes.
The green missiles were within a hand"s breadth when the vir leapt up. The green fires twisted away, looped behind him and Jenine as Dorian threw his arms around her, and sped back toward the youths. There was a sound like eggs breaking and then sizzling meat as the missiles took each aetheling in the forehead, cracking their heads and scorching their brains, smoke puffing from perfectly round holes before they dropped to the ground, dead.
Dorian"s shields sprang up around him and Jenine only then, though he"d acted as fast as he could. There was no other sound in the hall.
The dead children gaped at him, brains smoking. The living ones didn"t dare look up. Fury rushed through Dorian. They hadn"t just tried to kill him; they"d tried to kill Jenine. He looked at the Vurdmeister who was in charge of these aethelings. The man was cowering, prostrate, at the back of the line. Dorian couldn"t think. The vir lashed out from his hand, yanked the man to his feet by his throat. He gave a strangled yelp, waving his hands in denial, before a huge fist of Dorian"s vir smashed his chest against the rock wall. in denial, before a huge fist of Dorian"s vir smashed his chest against the rock wall.
Blood exploded over the wall and the aethelings at the back of the line, but no one moved. With effort, Dorian dropped the shields, pushed the vir down. His head was throbbing.
The aethelings had moved against him. It was a stupid, childish attempt, and it had almost succeeded because he hadn"t thought to guard himself against boys who were eight years old. There"d been no follow-up to take advantage of the distraction, so Dorian couldn"t know if the children had been directed by a Vurdmeister, unless it was simply to test Dorian"s strength or to see if the vir would save him. In some ways, it wasn"t important.
What was important was that something had to be done about the aethelings. They were vipers. If eight- and nine-year-olds had already acted, there was no doubt that the older boys were plotting, and a wedding would give them all sorts of opportunities. Delay looked like weakness, and weakness put not only himself but also Jenine in peril. That, he wouldn"t tolerate.
Jenine started crying, and Dorian banished the aethelings and comforted her, but his mind was far away, and every thought was b.l.o.o.d.y.
42
Kylar was dressed in servant"s garb, and there were many new servants in the castle as Terah"s retinue meshed with the remnants of Garoth"s which had meshed with the remnants of King Gunder IX"s, so getting into the servants" entrance was no problem. Once inside, he headed to the scullery and grabbed a tray of freshly polished silver goblets, balanced it in one hand, and walked toward the Great Hall. In the bustle and hum of activity and shouted orders and snarls of men and women under pressure working together for the first time, no one paid any attention to him. He was invisible not because of the ka"kari, but because of the practiced anonymity Durzo had spent so many hours teaching him.
For the moment, all of the tables were stored in the servants" room adjacent to the Great Hall. After the coronation, the tables would be carried in fully set. The goblets went onto one of the high tables adjacent to the queen"s table. Unfortunately, her table was still empty: it wouldn"t be set until immediately before the banquet, and then only under the watchful eyes of the Queen"s Guard would her cupbearer lay out the castle"s finest goldware for the high table with his own hand. fully set. The goblets went onto one of the high tables adjacent to the queen"s table. Unfortunately, her table was still empty: it wouldn"t be set until immediately before the banquet, and then only under the watchful eyes of the Queen"s Guard would her cupbearer lay out the castle"s finest goldware for the high table with his own hand.
These were not insurmountable difficulties. However, Terah Graesin didn"t have a reputation as a drinker, so if Kylar used a poison mild enough that her cupbearer wouldn"t be affected when he tested her wine, she might not drink a lethal dose. The same was true of her eating utensils. She was a dainty eater.
So after setting down the goblets, Kylar grabbed a pile of rags dirtied in polishing the tables and headed down a back hallway. He walked purposefully, though he had no idea where the castle"s laundry was. He scanned the ceilings and walls for the spy holes and crawls.p.a.ces that honeycombed the castle. When he saw a crawls.p.a.ce, he leapt, grabbed the edge with his fingertips, and pulled himself up.
Inches from his face, a decaying web of vir crisscrossed the opening. Kylar"s fingers were almost touching it. Hanging on by one hand, Kylar rolled the ka"kari through the web. The web popped harmlessly like a soap bubble.
From the secret pa.s.sages, it was only a matter of finding his way. Kylar crawled or walked as the pa.s.sages required and kept the ka"kari over his eyes so he could see every magical trap. In an hour, he"d found the royal treasury. The opening here was covered by stout iron bars.
The ka"kari made short work of that.
You know, before you came along, a.s.sa.s.sinating a queen would have been hard.
~Is that a complaint?~ As the sheered bars came off in Kylar"s hands, he stopped. I"m like a G.o.d. I"m like a G.o.d. The thought jolted him. For some reason, it was the look on Blue"s face that did it. Perhaps children didn"t bother to cover their awe, or perhaps it was that he had been a Blue himself not so long ago. But as he thought about the awe in the guild rats" faces, he remembered the other faces: Caernarvon"s Shinga"s, Hu Gibbet"s, even the G.o.dking"s face had held a note of awe. For the guild rats, it was a dream, for the others, a nightmare. But the incredulity was the same. He was the impossible. The thought jolted him. For some reason, it was the look on Blue"s face that did it. Perhaps children didn"t bother to cover their awe, or perhaps it was that he had been a Blue himself not so long ago. But as he thought about the awe in the guild rats" faces, he remembered the other faces: Caernarvon"s Shinga"s, Hu Gibbet"s, even the G.o.dking"s face had held a note of awe. For the guild rats, it was a dream, for the others, a nightmare. But the incredulity was the same. He was the impossible.
For some reason, it had never sunk in. He was still Kylar, maybe still Azoth underneath it all. But now.... This was so easy. Kylar had longed to be more than guild rat. He"d longed to be more than wetboy. Now, he was more than a man. The rules didn"t apply to him. He was stronger than a man, faster, a hundred times more powerful. Immortal. Death was temporary. If the most basic mortal concern-dying-didn"t apply to him, what else didn"t? man, faster, a hundred times more powerful. Immortal. Death was temporary. If the most basic mortal concern-dying-didn"t apply to him, what else didn"t?
It was an intoxicating thought, but a lonely one. If he was more than a man, what communion could he have with men? Or women? The thought brought Elene sharply to the fore. His chest felt hollow. He would give his other arm if he could be with her again, his head in her lap, her fingers running through his hair, accepting him.
Odd, that. He could think of Elene with love, but as soon as his thoughts wandered near the hazy line of appreciation and desire-there, there was Vi with her red hair nearly glowing, the curve of her neck begging to be nuzzled, her eyes a challenge, nubile figure tempting him. He could sense her, somewhere far to the east. She was sleeping. Sleeping? At almost dinner time? Life at the Chantry must not be so bad.
He imagined slipping into bed behind her. Her hair was unbound, spilling over her pillow like a copper waterfall. Her hair was glorious, like some G.o.d had captured the last rays of the dying sun and given them to her. Kylar leaned close and inhaled deeply. Vi sighed in her sleep. She burrowed into him, her body conforming to his. His breath caught.
For a moment, he swore he wasn"t wearing any clothes. Then they were back. Vi let out a moue of disappointment. What the h.e.l.l am I doing? What the h.e.l.l am I doing? Certain now that he was indeed clothed, Kylar relaxed fractionally. Vi"s breathing was slow and even. Kylar brushed a lock of hair behind her ear to see her face. She looked somehow smaller, more fragile, but no less beautiful. Without the customary tension, her face looked younger. She looked her age. Unlike Terah Graesin, whom sleep paled, sleep lent Vi"s features grace. Certain now that he was indeed clothed, Kylar relaxed fractionally. Vi"s breathing was slow and even. Kylar brushed a lock of hair behind her ear to see her face. She looked somehow smaller, more fragile, but no less beautiful. Without the customary tension, her face looked younger. She looked her age. Unlike Terah Graesin, whom sleep paled, sleep lent Vi"s features grace.
Terah Graesin. The castle. Where the h.e.l.l am I? Where the h.e.l.l am I?
Seeing gooseflesh rising on Vi"s arm, Kylar pulled the blanket up over both of them. He ran a hand gently from her shoulder down her arm. His hand continued down her hip to her leg. She was wearing a loose short shift and he stopped when his hand touched her warm, smooth skin. Then his hand came back up her leg, under her shift. He was a man out of control, his pulse pounding in his ears, the room indistinct, thoughts indistinct, only his nerves alive.
Her leg was lean, tight even in sleep. He trailed his hand over her hip. His fingertips glided over the depression between hip and navel, and then over her dancer"s stomach, the perfect blend of warmth and soft over hard. He traced her lowest ribs as she breathed, still evenly though perhaps not so deeply as before, glorying in her. Kylar wasn"t tall or thickly built, but Vi"s slender form against him made him feel strong and tender and manly.
He leaned close, breathing her in, and then he kissed her neck. Gooseflesh rose, and this time he knew it wasn"t the cold. He kissed her again, tracing her hairline. His fingers brushed the underside of her breast. Her back arched, grinding her b.u.t.tocks against his groin. He was naked once more and her shift had ridden up. She was hot against him. "Yes," her whole body whispered, "yes."
A key grated in a lock. The sound was out of place. Then the other key grated, popping open a second lock.
~Kylar!~ I"m back. Sorry, I was... elsewhere.
~I"m in in your body, Kylar. Some things you can"t hide from me. Tumescence is one of them.~ your body, Kylar. Some things you can"t hide from me. Tumescence is one of them.~ Tumescence? What? Oh, G.o.d. I didn"t want to know that. I didn"t want to know that.
Below, through the screen, Kylar saw the door to the treasury open. An officious little man clucked as he gazed around the barren room. There were only three chests. He opened the smallest and Kylar caught a glimpse of the crown, but the man sighed. "Where the h.e.l.l is that pillow?" he muttered. He went out, closed the door, and began locking the locks.
Kylar pulled back the screen and dropped into the room, landing silently almost on top of the chests. He pulled the stopper out of the vial, formed the ka"kari into its bulb shape and drew out a generous dose of philodunamos. He stopped the vial and tucked it back into a pouch and grabbed the crown. It was a simple, elegant piece with only a few emeralds and diamonds on it. From the paucity of precious stones and gold in the other chests, Kylar guessed the simplicity had not been a stylistic choice. He modified the ka"kari even as he pressed the bulb, giving it a narrow brush as its tip, rather than a needle. As quickly as he dared, he drew a narrow band around the inside of the crown, with a glob at the back. As soon as Terah Graesin began to sweat under the gold band on her forehead, the bottled fire would wreathe her head in flames, and the glob would cause a small explosion into the back of her head. He didn"t want Terah Graesin to be publicly burned; he wanted her dead. If she lived, the people"s pity might offset their negative feelings for a time. If she lived, she would accuse Logan of the deed and execute him.
The philodunamos went on evenly, and dried quickly. The first lines Kylar had painted took on a flat gold sheen close to the color of the crown itself, although Kylar could see some ridges in it. He hoped the d.a.m.n stuff didn"t flake off. Still, he didn"t guess that anyone was going to be putting it on before the coronation. It should be fine.
He heard a key in the lock at the same time he noticed that the glob of paint at the back of the crown was still wet. Unthinking, Kylar blew on it. He cut his breath off instantly, but saw one hard edge crack open and turn red. It glowed like a coal for a moment, then dimmed, even as a key rattled in the second lock. Kylar set the crown down gingerly in the chest and widened the ka"kari into a fan. He fanned the crown furiously as the key clicked open the third lock. He drew the ka"kari over himself, disappeared, and tried not to breathe. paint at the back of the crown was still wet. Unthinking, Kylar blew on it. He cut his breath off instantly, but saw one hard edge crack open and turn red. It glowed like a coal for a moment, then dimmed, even as a key rattled in the second lock. Kylar set the crown down gingerly in the chest and widened the ka"kari into a fan. He fanned the crown furiously as the key clicked open the third lock. He drew the ka"kari over himself, disappeared, and tried not to breathe.
The officious little man held a purple velvet pillow with long gold ta.s.sels off the corners. He closed and locked the other two chests, then lifted the crown reverently with two hands-keeping his fingers on the outside, thank G.o.d-and placed it on the pillow.
He walked out of the room. Kylar jumped back up to the open screen, pulled himself into the crawls.p.a.ce, and headed for a place to change into his n.o.bleman"s clothing.
Terah Graesin was dead. She just didn"t know it yet.
43
Vi woke in the darkness in a cold sweat. Sister Ariel had muttered darkly about some inept.i.tude or other that kept Vi from getting a new room and roommate immediately, but after the dream Vi had just had, she was glad to be alone.
She got out of bed, and the moment her feet touched the warm floor, dim light bloomed in the ceiling. Vi barely noticed. She pulled on the frumpy tyro"s dress and headed out the door. Her stomach felt tight and sore. As she stepped into the hall, light bloomed like a star against the wall. Then, as if an unseen hand were drawing in big, bold lines, the light became a star suspended in a spider web, which was draped between an elk"s antlers. The beast regarded Vi tiredly but stood to accompany her, the star illuminating her section of the hall with warm light.
Vi forgot herself and touched the beast. The light remained, but all else faded. The web around the star was replaced by an old iron lantern. The elk disappeared and in quick strokes was replaced with a bearded, fatherly woodsman. He nodded to Vi and lifted the lamp high. She touched the figure and it faded to be replaced with a grinning dog, balancing the star on its nose. She began walking, and it walked beside her. It was amazing. This entire floor was made to be a safe place for children. figure and it faded to be replaced with a grinning dog, balancing the star on its nose. She began walking, and it walked beside her. It was amazing. This entire floor was made to be a safe place for children.
In sudden fury, she punched the wall. The dog faded and a jester replaced it. Vi choked back a sob and hurried to the stairs at the center of the building. When she arrived at Sister Ariel"s room, the door swung open before Vi knocked. "Come in," Sister Ariel said. She handed Vi a steaming cup of ootai. Her eyes looked bleary.
Vi was speechless. She stepped inside and took the cup in her left hand.
"Sit," Sister Ariel said. Her room wasn"t large, and most of it was covered in piles of books and scrolls, but there were two chairs.
Vi sat.
"Pay attention and hold still," Sister Ariel said. She took Vi"s swollen right hand and tsked. "Savaltus." Pain shot through Vi"s hand, then pa.s.sed and her bruises faded. "You have an unfortunate habit of hitting things that are harder than your fist. The next time your recalcitrance evinces itself in self-mutilation, I won"t heal you."
Vi had no idea what the words meant, but she got the gist. "I want you to make it stop," Vi said.
"Excuse me?"
"You tricked me into ringing Kylar. I want this d.a.m.n thing off."
Sister Ariel c.o.c.ked her head to one side, doglike. Her eyes gleamed. "Had a lucid dream, did you?"
"f.u.c.k! Stop using words I don"t understand!"
Something smacked Vi"s b.u.t.t so hard she screamed. "The tongue is a flame, child," Sister Ariel said, her eyes cold. "We who speak to use magic learn to control it, else it burns us. Do you know what I was doing while you were studying today?"