"So now I"m not man enough?" he snapped. He wasn"t crying now. He"d always been brave, fierce. It was one of the things she loved about him. He would have died to save her from this. He"d never realized he would have died and then she"d have had to do this anyway.
"They hurt me," she said.
"How many?" His voice was hard, brittle.
"I don"t know." Part of her knew that he was like a dog crazed with pain, snapping at its master. But the disgust on his face was too much. She was disgusting. She surrendered to the deadness and despair. "A lot. Nine or ten a day."
His face twisted and he turned away.
"Tomman, don"t leave me. Please."
He stopped, but he didn"t turn. Then he walked out.
As the door swung gently shut, she began keening. The other girls went to her, their hearts broken anew as her grief mirrored theirs. Knowing she would not be comforted, they went to her because she had no one else who would, and neither did they.
56
Momma K stepped into the physickers" shop as Kylar swept the sword up into his hand, but she was too late to stop him.
Vi didn"t move. She knelt motionless, her shiny red hair pulled out of the sword"s path to her neck. The sword descended-and bounced off. The shock of the collision rang the sword like a bell. The sword whisked out of Kylar"s nerveless grip.
"You will not do murder in my shop," Drissa Nile said. Her voice carried such power, and her eyes such fire, that her diminutive frame might as well have been a giant"s. Even though Kylar had to look down to meet her eyes, he was intimidated. "We"ve accomplished an excellent piece of healing with this woman, and I"ll not have you spoil it," Drissa said.
"You healed her?" Kylar asked.
Vi still hadn"t moved. She faced the floor.
"From compulsion," Momma K said. "Am I right?"
"How did you know that?" Tevor asked.
"If it happens in my city, I know," Momma K said. She turned to Kylar. "The G.o.dking bound her with a magic that forced her to obey direct orders."
"How convenient," Kylar said. His face contorted as he crushed the tears that were rising. "I don"t care. She killed Jarl. I mopped up his blood. I buried him."
Momma K touched Kylar"s arm. "Kylar, Vi and Jarl practically grew up together. Jarl protected her. They were friends, Kylar. The kind of friends that never forget. I don"t believe anything less than magic could have compelled her to hurt him. Isn"t that right, Vi?" Momma K put her hand under Vi"s chin and brought her face up.
Tears streamed down Vi"s face in mute testimony.
"What did Durzo teach you, Kylar?" Momma K asked. "A wetboy is a knife. Is the guilt the knife"s or the hand"s?"
"Both, and d.a.m.n Durzo for his lies."
There was a knife on Kylar"s belt, but he"d already tested its edge. Sister Drissa had blunted it, as he had guessed she might. But she didn"t know about the blades up his sleeves. Nor could she stop the weapons that were his hands.
Vi saw the look in his eyes. She was a wetboy. She knew. He could get a knife out and across her throat in the time it took Drissa to blink. Let the healer try to cure death. Vi"s eyes were black with guilt, a mishmash of dark images he couldn"t comprehend. A short rush of black figures pa.s.sed through his mind"s eye. Her victims?
~She"s murdered fewer people than you have.~ The thought hit him like a shot in the solar plexus. Some guilt. Some judge.
And the look on her face was all readiness above the tears. There was no self-pity, no avoidance of responsibility. Her eyes spoke for her: I killed Jarl; I deserve to die. If you kill me, I won"t blame you. I killed Jarl; I deserve to die. If you kill me, I won"t blame you.
"Before you decide, you have to know there"s more," Vi said. "You were a secondary target. After.... After Jarl, I couldn"t do it-"
"Well, that"s commendable," Momma K said.
"-so I kidnapped Uly, to make sure you"d follow me."
"You what?" Kylar said.
"I figured you"d follow me back to Cenaria. The G.o.dking wants you alive. But Sister Ariel captured me and Uly. When we found you, I thought you were dead. I thought I was free, so I escaped Sister Ariel and came here."
"Where"s Uly?"
"On her way to the Chantry. Uly"s Talented. She"s going to be a maja."
It was horrifying and yet perfect.
Uly would be a Sister. She"d be taken care of, educated. Kylar had imposed Uly on Elene. Elene hadn"t chosen to have a daughter who was more the age of a little sister. It wasn"t a burden that had been fair for Kylar to ask her to a.s.sume. This way, and with the fortune that Kylar had left her, Elene would be free to have her own life again. It was all logical.
He had a niggling doubt that he wasn"t thinking the way Elene would think, he could do nothing about that. Finding out that the damage had been minimized-hadn"t it?-eased his mind.
A sudden fire lit in Momma K"s eyes at the thought of her daughter being taken to the Chantry, but Kylar couldn"t tell whether she was upset that her daughter had been taken or pleased that her daughter would certainly become a woman of consequence. Either way, Momma K quickly smothered it. She wasn"t about to let strangers know Uly was her daughter.
If he got through this, Kylar would go to the Chantry and see Uly. He wasn"t angry that they"d taken her from Vi. If anything, he owed them. And for a girl who was Talented, going to the Chantry wasn"t really optional. It was supposed to be dangerous for a child to learn on her own. But if Uly didn"t want to stay and they tried to keep her, Kylar would tear down the White Seraph around the Sisters" ears.
But just thinking about Uly made him think about Elene, and thinking about Elene threw his emotions into turmoil, so Kylar asked, "Why are you so eager to save Vi?" Momma K never worked on just one level.
"Because," Momma K said, "if you"re going to kill the G.o.dking, you"ll need Vi"s help."
Say one thing for Curoch: the mages are wrong. It wasn"t in the form of a sword for purely symbolic reasons. The son of a b.i.t.c.h could cut. It wasn"t in the form of a sword for purely symbolic reasons. The son of a b.i.t.c.h could cut.
It was a good thing, too. The sa"ceurai were implacable. They were called sa"ceurai, sa"ceurai, Old Jaeran for "sword lords," for good reason. Old Jaeran for "sword lords," for good reason.
Nonetheless, Feir was a Blade Master of the Second Echelon. The first clash left three of the Ceuran warriors dead and gave Feir a short, tough pony.
Soon, Feir"s height and weight proved a liability again. The pony tired and slowed. In the darkness, Feir let it go. Unfortunately, the little warhorse was trained too well. It stopped and waited for its rider the moment it was released. Feir solved that problem tying a small weave of magic under its saddle that randomly p.r.i.c.kled. It would keep the beast running for hours. If he were lucky, the sa"ceurai would lose his trail and follow the horse. saddle that randomly p.r.i.c.kled. It would keep the beast running for hours. If he were lucky, the sa"ceurai would lose his trail and follow the horse.
He was lucky. It bought him a number of hours-hours on foot. It brought him to the crest of the mountain. He had cut a sapling before he"d hiked above the tree line, and now he was working on the wood with Curoch. The sword had an edge like he couldn"t believe, but it wasn"t a plane, or a chisel. Right now, he needed both and a few other tools besides.
Dorian once told him about a sport the more suicidal highland tribes practiced. They called it schluss. schluss. It consisted of strapping small sleds to one"s feet and going downhill at incredible speeds. Standing. Dorian contended that they could steer, but Feir hadn"t figured out how. All he knew was that he had to go faster than the Ceurans pursuing him, and there was no way he could build a full sled in the time he had. It consisted of strapping small sleds to one"s feet and going downhill at incredible speeds. Standing. Dorian contended that they could steer, but Feir hadn"t figured out how. All he knew was that he had to go faster than the Ceurans pursuing him, and there was no way he could build a full sled in the time he had.
What he couldn"t accomplish with the blade, he accomplished with magic: he was a Maker, after all. Wood chips flew as the sun rose.
But he had skylined himself like a fool, standing right at the edge of the mountain so that his figure was clearly visible for miles. The sa"ceurai saw him before he saw them. They had dismounted and were walking on top of the snow with broad woven bamboo shoes strapped to their feet. The gait they had to a.s.sume to keep from tripping over the snowshoes was comical-until Feir realized how fast it let them travel. They would cover in a few minutes what had taken Feir half an hour lumbering through the snow.
He worked faster. He almost forgot to turn up the front tip of each long, narrow sled. He shook his head. He"d caught that mistake, what else had he missed? He didn"t have time to fashion proper fasteners, so he wove a web of magic around his shoes and feet and bound them directly to the wood planks. He stood- -and immediately caught an edge and fell.
d.a.m.n, why"d I square the edges? He should have left them curving like a boat"s hull. He should have left them curving like a boat"s hull.
Standing was embarra.s.singly difficult. Feir cursed as the Ceurans came closer. He was a Second Echelon Blade Master-and he was this clumsy? This was madness. He should have just run downhill.
He rolled over onto his b.u.t.t and finally used the length of the planks to lever himself into a squat. He stood and tried to step forward. The schlusses, which he had smoothed and polished, did exactly what they were supposed to do: they slid back and forth, and Feir barely moved.
Feir looked over his shoulder. The sa"ceurai were a bare hundred paces back now. If it came to a fight, the schlusses would doom him. He stumbled, caught an edge, and threw his foot to the side to catch himself. He staggered-and slid forward. stumbled, caught an edge, and threw his foot to the side to catch himself. He staggered-and slid forward.
The joy was as great as he"d felt when he"d been named a Maker in the Brotherhood. He turned each schluss outward and pushed forward.
It worked until he got to the edge and started moving downhill faster than he could step. Each schluss went the way he had pointed it: out. His legs stretched until they could stretch no more and he pitched forward on his face.
The mountain was steep and the snow mercifully deep. Air was scarce as Feir flipped over and over through the powder. He was dimly aware that he needed to point the schlusses downhill. After six or seven rolls, it happened.
Suddenly Feir burst out of the omnipresent snow. The snow was at least three feet deep, but he was on top of it.
His heart was a thunder in his chest. He was headed straight downhill at incredible speed. In moments he was going faster than the fastest horse, and then faster and faster still. Controlling the two schlusses independently was almost impossible, so he quickly lashed them together with magic, both front and back, giving each a little leeway.
There were more crashes, and sometimes the snow wasn"t as forgiving. Finally, Feir learned how to steer. He steered around a rocky death and looked downhill for the first time, squinting against the white. He blinked. What is that line in the snow? What is that line in the snow?
He shot over the precipice. For two seconds, there was no schluss of sleds on snow. The world was silent except for the blast of wind in his ears.
Then he landed. He crashed through a world of white powder, flipping, arms and legs pulled every which way. Then the miracle happened again and he popped out of the snow to fly downhill once more. His heart hammered. He laughed.
He had Curoch. He was safe. The Ceurans wouldn"t follow him down the mountain. Doing so would put them in Cenaria. He"d escaped!
"Incredible," Lantano Garuwashi said. He was a big man for a Ceuran. His red hair hung thick and long with dozens of narrow sections of differently colored hair bound in. In Ceura, it was said that you could read a man"s life in his hair. At a boy"s clan initiation, his head was shaved bald except for one forelock. When the forelock had grown the length of three fingers, it was bound with a tiny ring and the boy declared a man. When he killed his first warrior, the forelock was bound again at the scalp and he became sa"ceurai. The shorter the span between the two rings on their forelocks, the better. Thereafter, when the sa"ceurai killed an enemy, he bound the slain man"s forelock to his own hair. sa"ceurai. The shorter the span between the two rings on their forelocks, the better. Thereafter, when the sa"ceurai killed an enemy, he bound the slain man"s forelock to his own hair.
At first, a few warriors had thought Lantano only had one ring, because his first two were right on top of each other. He killed his first opponent at thirteen. In the seventeen years since, he"d added fifty-nine locks to his own hair. Had he been born a little higher, all of Ceura would have followed him. But a sa"ceurai"s soul was his sword, and nothing could change that Lantano had been born with an iron sword, a peasant sword. Lantano was a warlord because Ceuran tradition allowed any man of excellence to lead armies, but for Lantano it had become a trap. As soon as he stopped fighting, his power ended. He"d begun fighting for Ceura"s regent, Hideo Watanabe. Then, when the regent ordered him to disband, he became a mercenary instead. Desperate men flocked to his banners for one reason: he never lost.
The giant was becoming a speck in the distance.
"War Master, do you wish us follow?" a stump of a man with a score of locks tied in his balding hair asked.
"We"ll try the caves," Lantano said.
"Into Cenaria?"
"Just a hundred sa"ceurai. It"ll be a cold winter. Killing this giant will give us a tale to keep us warm."
57
Momma K wanted Agon and his army to take Logan to the rebel camp. If he were to be king, he needed an army. Kylar refused to leave his friend, at least until Logan was conscious. When Kylar fainted, Agon asked Momma K if they should load Logan into the wagon. Momma K cursed and railed but said no.
They never asked Vi"s opinion. She was content. She wanted to atone for what she"d done, but she didn"t want to think.
Even as she sat with Kylar and Momma K and Agon, a part of her urged her to kill them. The G.o.dking rewarded those who served him well. She could wipe out all the greatest threats to the G.o.dking"s rule in one minute.
She didn"t obey that thought. She"d been judged innocent. She"d come completely clean.
Almost. She"d realized only lately that perhaps the most damaging thing she"d done to Kylar was something that had seemed trivial at the time, a small gesture of contempt. She"d pocketed the note and pair of earrings Kylar had left for Elene.
It was only today that she"d learned they were wedding rings. Drissa and Tevor had explained the custom at length. Between taking those and the note, Vi had left Elene with nothing.
She hadn"t been brave enough to tell Kylar about that, had she?
It was just too much truth. She could have accepted Kylar killing her, but she didn"t know what to do if Kylar despised her. If he knew her, he would despise her. There was no way love could overcome so much.
Love? What am I thinking? Limit yourself to fighting and f.u.c.king, Vi. You"re good at those.
The door to a patient room opened and Kylar came in. Logan stepped in from another.
For the first time, Vi saw Kylar smile. It did something strange inside her when he smiled like that-and he wasn"t even looking at her. He bowed deeply. "Your Majesty," Kylar said.
"My friend," Logan said. He was achingly thin, his bones poking at his skin. Despite that, he had an unmistakable aura of rallying health. Dressed richly once more, he was handsome despite his ordeal. He crossed the distance quickly and hugged Kylar.
"I"m sorry," Kylar said. "I came too late that night. I found blood and I thought... I"m so sorry."
Logan squeezed Kylar silently, heaving great breaths until the emotions died down. Finally, he stepped back and held onto Kylar"s shoulders.
"You"ve done so well, my friend. I"m the one who"s sorry. I"m sorry I ever doubted you. Someday soon we will have to talk. You-you did some things down there that..." Logan looked around, aware of the others. "That I"m really curious about. And I seem to have some holes in my memory, like how I got this."
He pulled back his sleeve and Vi and Momma K gasped. Sunken into his arm was something like a glowing silvery-green tattoo. He didn"t show the whole thing, but to Vi the lines looked stylized and abstract, not random.
"Your Majesty," Drissa Nile said. "I would be... very cautious about showing that."
"I"m sorry to press you," Momma K said, "but we have to make some decisions."
"You mean I have to make some decisions," Logan said, his tone whimsical.
"Yes, Your Majesty, pardon me."
Logan addressed Kylar first. "You have done us greater service than we could demand or hope for. I won"t order you, but we deem it most mete for..." He got a faraway look and let the sentence trail off.
"Sire?" Kylar asked.