So when the door of the control room opened, he was a little annoyed. He was too tired to play conversational handball. Then he turned, and it was Mullen stepping inside.
Stuart said, "For G.o.d"s sake, get back into bed, Mullen!"
Mullen said, "I"m tired of sleeping, even though I never thought I would be a while ago."
"How do you feel?"
"I"m stiff all over. Especially my side." He grimaced and stared involuntarily around.
"Don"t look for the Kloros," Stuart said. "We dumped the poor devils." He shook his head. "I was sorry for them. To themselves, they"re the human beings, you know, and we"re the aliens. Not that I"d rather they"d killed you, you understand."
"I understand."
Stuart turned a sidelong glance upon the little man who sat looking at the map of Earth and went on, "I owe you a particular and personal apology, Mullen. I didn"t think much of you."
"It was your privilege," said Mullen in his dry voice, There was no feeling in it.
"No, it wasn"t. It is no one"s privilege to despise another. It is only a hard-won right after long experience."
"Have you been thinking about this?"
"Yes, all day. Maybe I can"t explain. It"s these hands." He held them up before him, spread out. "It was hard knowing that other people had hands of their own. I had to hate them for it. I always had to do my best to investigate and belittle their motives, point up their deficiencies, expose their stupidities. I had to do anything that would prove to myself that they weren"t worth envying."
Mullen moved restlessly. "This explanation is not necessary."
"It is. It is!" Stuart felt his thoughts intently, strained to put them into words. "For years I"ve abandoned hope of finding any decency in human beings. Then you climbed into the C-chute."
"You had better understand," said Mullen, "that I was motivated by practical and selfish considerations. I will not have you present me to myself as a hero."
"I wasn"t intending to. I know that you would do nothing without a reason. It was what your action did to the rest of us. It turned a collection of phonies and fools into decent people. And not by magic either. They were decent all along. It was just that they needed something to live up to and you supplied it. And--I"m one of them. I"ll have to live up to you, too. For the rest of my life, probably."
Mullen turned away uncomfortably. His hand straightened his sleeves, which were not in the least twisted. His finger rested on the map.
He said, "I was born in Richmond, Virginia, you know. Here it is. I"ll be going there first. Where were you born?"
"Toronto," said Stuart.
"That"s right here. Not very far apart on the map, is it?"
Stuart said, "Would you tell me something?"
"If I can."
"Just why did you go out there?"
Mullen"s precise mouth pursed. He said, dryly, "Wouldn"t my rather prosaic reason ruin the inspirational effect?"
"Call it intellectual curiosity. Each of the rest of us had such obvious motives. Porter was scared to death of being interned; Leblanc wanted to get back to his sweetheart; Polyorketes wanted to kill Kloros; and Windham was a patriot according to his lights. As for me, I thought of myself as a n.o.ble idealist, I"m afraid. Yet in none of us was the motivation strong enough to get us into a s.p.a.cesuit and out the C-chute. Then what made you do it, you, of all people?"
"Why the phrase, "of all people"?"
"Don"t be offended, but you seem devoid of all emotion."
"Do I?" Mullen"s voice did not change. It remained precise and soft, yet somehow a tightness had entered it. "That"s only training, Mr. Stuart, and self-discipline; not nature. A small man can have no respectable emotions. Is there anything more ridiculous than a man like myself in a state of rage? I"m five feet and one-half inch tall, and one hundred and two pounds in weight, if you care for exact figures. I insist on the half inch and the two pounds.
"Can I be dignified? Proud? Draw myself to my full height without inducing laughter? Where can I meet a woman who will not dismiss me instantly with a giggle? Naturally, I"ve had to learn to dispense with external display of emotion.
"You talk about deformities. No one would notice your hands or know they were different, if you weren"t so eager to tell people all about it the instant you meet them. Do you think that the eight inches of height I do not have can be hidden? That it is not the first and, in most cases, the only thing about me that a person will notice?"
Stuart was ashamed. He had invaded a privacy he ought not have. He said, "I"m sorry."
"Why?"
"I should not have forced you to speak of this. I should have seen for myself that you--that you--"
"That I what? Tried to prove myself? Tried to show that while I might be small in body, I held within it a giant"s heart?"
"I would not have put it mockingly."
"Why not? It"s a foolish idea, and nothing like it is the reason I did what I did. What would I have accomplished if that"s what was in my mind? Will they take me to Earth now and put me up before the television cameras-- pitching them low, of course, to catch my face, or standing me on a chair-- and pin medals on me?"
"They are quite likely to do exactly that."
"And what good would it do me? They would say, "Gee, and he"s such a little guy." And afterward, what? Shall I tell each man I meet, "You know, I"m the fellow they decorated for incredible valor last month?" How many medals, Mr. Stuart, do you suppose it would take to put eight inches and sixty pounds on me?"
Stuart said, "Put that way, I see your point."
Mullen was speaking a trifle more quickly now; a controlled heat had entered his words, warming them to just a tepid room temperature. "There were days when I thought I would show them, the mysterious "them" that includes all the world. I was going to leave Earth and carve out worlds for myself. I would be a new and even smaller Napoleon. So I left Earth and went to Arcturus. And what could I do on Arcturus that I could not have done on Earth? Nothing. I balance books. So I am past the vanity, Mr. Stuart, of trying to stand on tiptoe."
"Then why did you do it?"
"I left Earth when I was twenty-eight and came to the Arcturian System. I"ve been there ever since. This trip was to be my first vacation, my first visit back to Earth in all that time. I was going to stay on Earth for six months. The Kloros instead captured us and would have kept us interned indefinitely. But I couldn"t--I couldn"t let them stop me from traveling to Earth. No matter what the risk, I had to prevent their interference. It wasn"t love of woman, or fear, or hate, or idealism of any sort. It was stronger than any of those."
He stopped, and stretched out a hand as though to caress the map on the wall.
"Mr. Stuart," Mullen asked quietly, "haven"t you ever been homesick?"
There is a perennial question among readers as to whether the views contained in a story reflect the views of the author. The answer is, "Not necessarily--" And yet one ought to add another short phrase "--but usually."
When I write a story in which opposing characters have opposing viewpoints, I do my best, insofar as it lies within my capabilities, to let each character express his own viewpoint honestly.
There are few people who, like Richard III in Shakespeare"s play, are willing to say: "since I cannot prove a lover to entertain these fair and well-spoken days, I am determined to prove a villain."
No matter how villainous Tom may appear to d.i.c.k, Tom undoubtedly has arguments, quite sincerely felt, to prove to himself that he is not villainous at all. It is therefore quite ridiculous to have a villain act ostentatiously like a villain (unless you have the genius of a Shakespeare and can carry off anything--and I"m afraid I haven"t.) Still, no matter how I try to be fair, and how I try to present each person"s views honestly, I cannot make myself be as convincing in presenting views that don"t appeal to me, as in presenting those that do. Besides, the general working out of my story usually proceeds as I want it to; the victory, in one way or another, tends to lie with those characters whom I particularly like. Even if the ending is tragic, the point of the story (1 hate to use the word "moral") is usually one that satisfies me.
In short, if you ignore the fine details of any of my stories and consider it as a whole, I think you will find that the feeling it leaves with you is the feeling that I myself feel. It isn"t a matter of conscious propaganda; it"s just that I am a human being who feels something and who cannot help having that feeling show in the story.
But there are exceptions In 1951, Mr. Raymond J. Healy, an anthologist of note, was planning a collection of original science fiction stories, and asked me to write one. He made only one specification. He wanted an upbeat story--something which, in my own more unsophisticated way, I called a "happy ending" story.
So I wrote a happy ending, but since I always try to beat the rules out of sheer bravado, I tried to write an unexpected happy ending, one in which the reader doesn"t find out till the very end what the happy ending really is.
It was only after I had successfully (1 think) managed this particular tour de force and had had the story published, that I realized that my interest in technique had for once blinded me to content. Somehow this particular story, "In a Good Cause--," doesn"t quite reflect my own feelings.
Groff Conklin, the late perceptive science fiction critic, once said that he liked this story, even though he disagreed with its philosophy, and to my embarra.s.sment, I find that that is exactly how I myself feel.
First appearance--New Tales of s.p.a.ce and Time, 1951. Copyright, 1951, by Henry Holt and Company, Inc.
In a Good Cause--
In the Great Court, which stands as a patch of untouched peace among the fifty busy square miles devoted to the towering buildings that are the pulse beat of the United Worlds of the Galaxy, stands a statue.
It stands where it can look at the stars at night. There are other statues ringing the court, but this one stands in the center and alone.
It is not a very good statue. The face is too n.o.ble and lacks the lines of living. The brow is a shade too high, the nose a shade too symmetrical, the clothing a shade too carefully disposed. The whole bearing is by far too saintly to be true. One can suppose that the man in real life might have frowned at times, or hiccupped, but the statue seemed to insist that such imperfections were impossible.
All this, of course, is understandable overcompensation. The man had no statues raised to him while alive, and succeeding generations, with the advantage of hindsight, felt guilty.
The name on the pedestal reads "Richard Sayama Altmayer." Underneath it is a short phrase and, vertically arranged, three dates. The phrase is: "In a good cause, there are no failures." The three dates are June 17, 2755; September 5, 2788; December 32, 2800;--the years being counted in the usual manner of the period, that is, from the date of the first atomic explosion in 1945 of the ancient era.
None of those dates represents either his birth or death. They mark neither a date of marriage or of the accomplishment of some great deed or, indeed, of anything that the inhabitants of the United Worlds can remember with pleasure and pride. Rather, they are the final expression of the feeling of guilt.
Quite simply and plainly, they are the three dates upon which Richard Sayama Altmayer was sent to prison for his opinions.
1--June 17, 2755 At the age of twenty-two, certainly, d.i.c.k Altmayer was fully capable of feeling fury. His hair was as yet dark brown and he had not grown the mustache which, in later years, would be so characteristic of him. His nose was, of course, thin and high-bridged, but the contours of his face were youthful. It would only be later that the growing gauntness of his cheeks would convert that nose into the prominent landmark that it now is in the minds of trillions of school children.
Geoffrey Stock was standing in the doorway, viewing the results of his friend"s fury. His round face and cold, steady eyes were there, but he had yet to put on the first of the military uniforms in which he was to spend the rest of his life.
He said, "Great Galaxy!"
Altmayer looked up. "h.e.l.lo, Jeff."
"What"s been happening, d.i.c.k? I thought your principles, pal, forbid destruction of any kind. Here"s a book-viewer that looks somewhat destroyed." He picked up the pieces.
Altmayer said, "I was holding the viewer when my wave-receiver came through with an official message. You know which one, too."
"I know. It happened to me, too. Where is it?"
"On the floor. I tore it off the spool as soon as it belched out at me. Wait, let"s dump it down the atom chute."
"Hey, hold on. You can"t--"
"Why not?"
"Because you won"t accomplish anything. You"ll have to report."
"And just why?"
"Don"t be an a.s.s, d.i.c.k."
"This is a matter of principle, by s.p.a.ce."
"Oh, nuts! You can"t fight the whole planet."
"I don"t intend to fight the whole planet; just the few who get us into wars."
Stock shrugged. "That means the whole planet. That guff of yours of leaders tricking poor innocent people into fighting is just so much s.p.a.ce-dust. Do you think that if a vote were taken the people wouldn"t be overwhelmingly in favor of fighting this fight?"
"That means nothing, Jeff. The government has control of--"
"The organs of propaganda. Yes, I know. I"ve listened to you often enough. But why not report, anyway?"
Altmayer turned away.
Stock said, "In the first place, you might not pa.s.s the physical examination."
"I"d pa.s.s. I"ve been in s.p.a.ce."
"That doesn"t mean anything. If the doctors let you hop a liner, that only means you don"t have a heart murmur or an aneurysm. For military duty aboard ship in s.p.a.ce you need much more than just that. How do you know you qualify?"
"That"s a side issue, Jeff, and an insulting one. It"s not that I"m afraid to fight."
"Do you think you can stop the war this way?"
"I wish I could," Altmayer"s voice almost shook as he spoke. "It"s this idea I have that all mankind should be a single unit. There shouldn"t be wars or s.p.a.ce-fleets armed only for destruction. The Galaxy stands ready to be opened to the united efforts of the human race. Instead, we have been factioned for nearly two thousand years, and we throw away all the Galaxy."
Stock laughed, "We"re doing all right. There are more than eighty independent planetary systems."
"And are we the only intelligences in the Galaxy?"
"Oh, the Diaboli, your particular devils," and Stock put his fists to his temples and extended the two forefingers, waggling them.
"And yours, too, and everybody"s. They have a single government extending over more planets than all those occupied by our precious eighty independents."
"Sure, and their nearest planet is only fifteen hundred light years away from Earth and they can"t live on oxygen planets anyway."
Stock got out of his friendly mood. He said, curtly, "Look, I dropped by here to say that I was reporting for examination next week. Are you coming with me?"
"No."
"You"re really determined."
"I"m really determined."
"You know you"ll accomplish nothing. There"ll be no great flame ignited on Earth. It will be no case of millions of young men being excited by your example into a no-war strike. You will simply be put in jail."